A/N So sorry for the long wait, I'm so very sorry. CoS came out you see, I
went watching it 3 times!!! 2 in a row and the third time was two days
after that... *sigh* loved it!!! But I now have Hannuka holiday so I'm
updating!!! Yay!!!
Disclaimer: Characters and all you recognize is JK's, some of the plot is based on the book "The Witch From Melchet 3" By Gady Taub and a few ideas are taken from "There Are Kids Zigzag" by David Grossman and all the rest is mine ;)
Summary: "She would swipe you away. Your heart, your mind, your everything. And then tear it all apart. Without even caring what you felt. Even if your whole world was now shattered to pieces. Like mine was, more then once..." James's POV!!!
Falling
Chapter Three: Beyond Reach
"I will now pair you into groups of two so you'll be able to start working." I perked up. What work? What pair?
"Can you be any more oblivious to everything around you Prongs?" I looked at Sirius who was grinning broadly. He was always a master in reading my expressions.
"Lupin, Patil." I heard professor's Filtwick's voice in the background.
"What is he talking about Padfoot?" Sirius tutted under his breath.
"Pettigrew, Johnson."
"Completely irresponsible Mr. Potter, what will become of you?" Great Scott, why haven't I asked Remus or Peter?!
"Black, Smith."
"Sirius..." I was greeting under my teeth while he walked up to join his partner.
"Potter, Evans." My eyes widened. What the fuck are we supposed to do?!
She turned around, not even bothering to hide her reaction - disgust. But I'm used to it. A few years ago, when Sirius finally told me the thing I was dreading most and not able to accept, I almost punched him. But now I can say it almost without feeling anything, except hope that it might change, - Lily Evans loathes me.
I watched her getting up and sitting in front of me in Sirius's empty chair.
"Well?" She addressed me irritated.
"What?" Why wouldn't Sirius tell me??? He better run after the class ends.
"Take out your book!!!" Like I said, quite a temper.
"Oh!" I quickly opened my bag and took the book out.
"Good, step one complete." She mocked me, not something unusual.
"Which chapter are we?" I managed asking.
"God, were you listening at all?" Nope, I was too busy thinking about you.
"How did I get stuck with him of all people?" She asked herself under her breath in a voice loud enough for me to hear. Those little stings from her hurt, but once I got used to them it isn't that bad. "We're not working on a particular charm or chapter, Potter," she emphasized my name hard. "Filtwick wants us to make a presentation of all the chapters we learned since the start of the year."
"What?!" She's got to be kidding me!
She rolled her eyes. "We'll be having the NEWT's this year!!! Get used to it. Now, we've got quite a work to do, as we already finished half of the book, so I suggest you start working, as I am going to receive the highest mark on this no matter who my partner is."
"Right." Her disrespect annoyed me a little. She may not like me, but respect is not too much to ask, also owing to the fact I'm head boy, along with her as head girl, and this has got to mean something.
The bell rang and she quickly gathered her belongings from the desk.
"You'll continue working with your partner on the assignment on the next lesson." Filtwick piped to the students who were scrambling outside.
"Can't wait." She murmured and passed me ignoring my exitence.
Although she was mean to me, I enjoyed her company. You see, she isn't that bad actually. She's only horrible to the ones she hate, and, of course, to the ones who fell for her.
Lily didn't always hate me. At first I was just another admirer. Another one to carry her books, assist her and so on and so on. (Believe me I can make the list very long.) But she started hating me - because she was frightened. Yes, frightened of me.
Me.
Or, to be more specified, the thing we 'share'. Not that she wants to share anything with me, but this was one of the few things beyond her reach. What was it?
My love.
She soon found out my love was different then her other fans' - because it lasted.
When she hurt or dumped someone, he was miserable, and maybe hated her, and after a while indifferent to her, since she was so charming, and sometimes he even fell for her again.
But when she hurt me I was miserable, but I never hated her, I was never indifferent to her, and I never fell for her again. Cause there was no again. I always loved her and I think I'll always will. It's beyond my reach as well.
And I think that's why she's scared, that's why she hates me. After fully realizing it she banned me from her group. No, I still have friends, but I am destined never to be really popular. It doesn't bother me a lot, but I pity Peter. Peter - my friend, who's been given a hard time at school, partly because of me. Peter isn't what you'd call handsome, and people reminded him of that a lot. He isn't what you'd call athletic, and people reminded him of that a lot. He isn't what you'd call smart, and people reminded him of that a lot.
Don't get me wrong, Peter is a lovely person, but he has his faults. And people, unfortunately, noticed them. Me, Remus and Sirius and doing our best to stop it, but it's not easy. Especially when it's the Slytherins.
I got up and started leaving the classroom.
Catching a glimpse of flaming red hair I half smiled.
Love is strange. My case can prove it beyond any doubt. It's unreasonable, unstoppable, frightening, bitter-sweet, and the best thing there is.
I sighed.
The assignment wouldn't be easy, but at least it'll give me a while with Lily. Even though she'll probably spend half of the time mocking me.
A/N Nice! I liked this one!!! And if you did as well please REVIEW!!!
Updates and such can be found in my livejournal: http://www.livejournal.com/users/tta
And thanks to the ones who reviewed the last chapter:
Kristatwen - I think I do too... but I'm not so sure... lol
Y.Kuang - Male psyche *sigh* and they say women are complicated? *snort*
ChildrenTheEmuIsNotAToy - Amanda? *puzzled*
YouDon'tKnowWhoIAm (times 2) - The third best fic you ever read? *wow* amazed. THANKS!!! And, yes, it's very hard finding good fics... sadly enough.
AngelChains142 - No idea, haven't figured it out yet... lol
Alohamora - I liked the last line as well :) Many secrets I haven't even thought about... lol
Shit and Giggles - I'm trying very hard to keep it original thanks!!!
Atlantis Forester - Wicked? I love using that word!!! Lol... Isn't James a sweetheart? I know many girls who can fit Lily's description, but not one who will have such a sweetheart head over heels for her...
reese
lady fuchsia - hope you're knee will get better ;)
jesusfreak7777777 - That's, I think, mainly because most of the L/J writers are girl.
lil lily - Ditto.
LilyFlower8602
Disclaimer: Characters and all you recognize is JK's, some of the plot is based on the book "The Witch From Melchet 3" By Gady Taub and a few ideas are taken from "There Are Kids Zigzag" by David Grossman and all the rest is mine ;)
Summary: "She would swipe you away. Your heart, your mind, your everything. And then tear it all apart. Without even caring what you felt. Even if your whole world was now shattered to pieces. Like mine was, more then once..." James's POV!!!
Falling
Chapter Three: Beyond Reach
"I will now pair you into groups of two so you'll be able to start working." I perked up. What work? What pair?
"Can you be any more oblivious to everything around you Prongs?" I looked at Sirius who was grinning broadly. He was always a master in reading my expressions.
"Lupin, Patil." I heard professor's Filtwick's voice in the background.
"What is he talking about Padfoot?" Sirius tutted under his breath.
"Pettigrew, Johnson."
"Completely irresponsible Mr. Potter, what will become of you?" Great Scott, why haven't I asked Remus or Peter?!
"Black, Smith."
"Sirius..." I was greeting under my teeth while he walked up to join his partner.
"Potter, Evans." My eyes widened. What the fuck are we supposed to do?!
She turned around, not even bothering to hide her reaction - disgust. But I'm used to it. A few years ago, when Sirius finally told me the thing I was dreading most and not able to accept, I almost punched him. But now I can say it almost without feeling anything, except hope that it might change, - Lily Evans loathes me.
I watched her getting up and sitting in front of me in Sirius's empty chair.
"Well?" She addressed me irritated.
"What?" Why wouldn't Sirius tell me??? He better run after the class ends.
"Take out your book!!!" Like I said, quite a temper.
"Oh!" I quickly opened my bag and took the book out.
"Good, step one complete." She mocked me, not something unusual.
"Which chapter are we?" I managed asking.
"God, were you listening at all?" Nope, I was too busy thinking about you.
"How did I get stuck with him of all people?" She asked herself under her breath in a voice loud enough for me to hear. Those little stings from her hurt, but once I got used to them it isn't that bad. "We're not working on a particular charm or chapter, Potter," she emphasized my name hard. "Filtwick wants us to make a presentation of all the chapters we learned since the start of the year."
"What?!" She's got to be kidding me!
She rolled her eyes. "We'll be having the NEWT's this year!!! Get used to it. Now, we've got quite a work to do, as we already finished half of the book, so I suggest you start working, as I am going to receive the highest mark on this no matter who my partner is."
"Right." Her disrespect annoyed me a little. She may not like me, but respect is not too much to ask, also owing to the fact I'm head boy, along with her as head girl, and this has got to mean something.
The bell rang and she quickly gathered her belongings from the desk.
"You'll continue working with your partner on the assignment on the next lesson." Filtwick piped to the students who were scrambling outside.
"Can't wait." She murmured and passed me ignoring my exitence.
Although she was mean to me, I enjoyed her company. You see, she isn't that bad actually. She's only horrible to the ones she hate, and, of course, to the ones who fell for her.
Lily didn't always hate me. At first I was just another admirer. Another one to carry her books, assist her and so on and so on. (Believe me I can make the list very long.) But she started hating me - because she was frightened. Yes, frightened of me.
Me.
Or, to be more specified, the thing we 'share'. Not that she wants to share anything with me, but this was one of the few things beyond her reach. What was it?
My love.
She soon found out my love was different then her other fans' - because it lasted.
When she hurt or dumped someone, he was miserable, and maybe hated her, and after a while indifferent to her, since she was so charming, and sometimes he even fell for her again.
But when she hurt me I was miserable, but I never hated her, I was never indifferent to her, and I never fell for her again. Cause there was no again. I always loved her and I think I'll always will. It's beyond my reach as well.
And I think that's why she's scared, that's why she hates me. After fully realizing it she banned me from her group. No, I still have friends, but I am destined never to be really popular. It doesn't bother me a lot, but I pity Peter. Peter - my friend, who's been given a hard time at school, partly because of me. Peter isn't what you'd call handsome, and people reminded him of that a lot. He isn't what you'd call athletic, and people reminded him of that a lot. He isn't what you'd call smart, and people reminded him of that a lot.
Don't get me wrong, Peter is a lovely person, but he has his faults. And people, unfortunately, noticed them. Me, Remus and Sirius and doing our best to stop it, but it's not easy. Especially when it's the Slytherins.
I got up and started leaving the classroom.
Catching a glimpse of flaming red hair I half smiled.
Love is strange. My case can prove it beyond any doubt. It's unreasonable, unstoppable, frightening, bitter-sweet, and the best thing there is.
I sighed.
The assignment wouldn't be easy, but at least it'll give me a while with Lily. Even though she'll probably spend half of the time mocking me.
A/N Nice! I liked this one!!! And if you did as well please REVIEW!!!
Updates and such can be found in my livejournal: http://www.livejournal.com/users/tta
And thanks to the ones who reviewed the last chapter:
Kristatwen - I think I do too... but I'm not so sure... lol
Y.Kuang - Male psyche *sigh* and they say women are complicated? *snort*
ChildrenTheEmuIsNotAToy - Amanda? *puzzled*
YouDon'tKnowWhoIAm (times 2) - The third best fic you ever read? *wow* amazed. THANKS!!! And, yes, it's very hard finding good fics... sadly enough.
AngelChains142 - No idea, haven't figured it out yet... lol
Alohamora - I liked the last line as well :) Many secrets I haven't even thought about... lol
Shit and Giggles - I'm trying very hard to keep it original thanks!!!
Atlantis Forester - Wicked? I love using that word!!! Lol... Isn't James a sweetheart? I know many girls who can fit Lily's description, but not one who will have such a sweetheart head over heels for her...
reese
lady fuchsia - hope you're knee will get better ;)
jesusfreak7777777 - That's, I think, mainly because most of the L/J writers are girl.
lil lily - Ditto.
LilyFlower8602