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7:51 PM, Friday
In front of Craig's apartment building "So, she's happy," He said out loud, staring at the smiling couple. "That's what I wanted right? All these years, I just wanted to see her happy." 'Happy with me…' Lorelai laughed at something Craig said and hugged him. Luke leaned his head on the steering wheel. ******************** 7:51 PM, Friday
In front of Craig's apartment building Craig rejoined his buddies in the front of the moving group. Lorelai and Jane fell back in the group, talking about a new clothing boutique that had opened down the street. As they were talking, Lorelai caught a glimpse of a familiar truck parked across the street. She could pick out that ancient artifact anywhere. "Be right back," Lorelai said to Jane. "Where are you going?" Jane asked. "Just across the street. You guys go ahead," Lorelai said. "I'll catch up with you." "Okay." Jane shrugged and jogged to keep up with her brother. Before walking across the street, Lorelai looked both ways. She jogged up to the truck and rapped on the window. "Luke?" Luke looked embarrassed, but he rolled down the window. "What are you doing here?" "You never called," He said, almost accusingly. "You never explained.." Lorelai hung her head. "I know, I'm.. I'm sorry." "Why?" Luke asked. "Lorelai, you just ran away, you never told me what you meant by all of it." She sighed and licked her dry lips. "I.. Craig and I, we're in a really good place right now. I mean, we're comfortable with each other and.. I like this relationship." Luke sighed, slowly taking in what she had said. 'So, the kiss was nothing to you?' He thought, wanting to ask her. 'It was everything to me…' "When you said you were going to call, I assumed in a couple days. But then days turned into months, and I realized.." "I shouldn't have kissed you back that night," Lorelai interrupted. "Maybe it was the rain.." She shrugged. "It was.. a mistake." "Right, a mistake," Luke repeated, a pained look on his face, and started the engine. "I have to go." "Luke," Lorelai started. "Lorelai," Luke interrupted her, a sad look on his face. "Please don't do this to me. Don't let me hang on, thinking that there could be something there…" He suddenly stopped, knowing that he had said too much. Luke gave her a half-hearted smile and, looking over his shoulder, he started to pull out of the parking spot. Speechless, Lorelai watched him leave, not sure of what he meant by 'hanging on, thinking there could be something there….' ******************** 7:58 PM, Friday
Craig's (and Lorelai's) apartment "I never should have let him kiss me," Lorelai sobbed into the phone. Sookie sighed. "Honey, it was probably just hormones or something." "Sookie!" Lorelai said, wiping her nose with a Kleenex. "I'm almost thirty six! I don't have hormonal control problems!" "Well," Sookie started, shrugging. "I knew this was going to happen," Lorelai shook her head. "Now I've lost him as a friend too." "Hon?" "Yeah," Lorelai sniffled and reached for another tissue. "I'm not an expert at these things," Sookie said slowly. "But I think you need to think about whether you're upset that you lost him as a friend, or as something.. more." Lorelai sighed. "Not this again." "Lorelai, come on. You've been moping about this for days, weeks, months. You've avoided him," Sookie continued. "You had to give up his coffee. I thought I would never see that day. Won't you at least admit that you've thought of him as something more? Everyone knows that he feels that way about you." Lorelai grimaced at the thought of everyone gossiping about her and Luke. She let out a deep breath. "Okay, maybe a couple times." "So, why didn't you act on it?" "Well, I didn't know how he felt until after Craig came," Lorelai said, sighing. "And the fact that the night that you found Jane in the kitchen, you ran to him. You could have called me or Rory, which by the way had me slightly offended, but that's another story," Sookie rambled. "I'm sorry." "Nah," Sookie said giggling. "I'm just teasing you. But anyways, the fact that you ran straight to him says something." "That we're friends?" "Or more," Sookie said. Lorelai sighed. "Lorelai, have you told Craig you love him?" "Um, no." "Has Craig said it to you?" "Yeah." "So why haven't you said it to him?" Lorelai took a deep breath. "I dunno." Sookie sighed. "I don't know what to tell you, sweets, except that maybe it's time you really started thinking about whether or not you love Craig. 'Cause to me, it sounds like something, or someone, or holding you back." ******************** 8:03 PM, Friday
Somewhere in New York State Luke clenched the steering wheel, driving a little faster than his usual 25 mph. 'God,' He thought furiously. 'Why do I always let her get under my skin?' He glared at himself in the review mirror and flicked on the radio, wanting to distract himself. If I should live forever, and all my dreams come true 'Because Lorelai's beautiful and funny,' He thought wistfully. My memories of love will be of you 'Because she's a wonderful and strong person.' Some say love is holding on and some say letting go 'Because she's cute, no matter how annoying her habits may be…' Some say love is everything and some say they don't know 'Because she cared for him….' Maybe not in the way he wanted her to care, but there had been potential. That night they kissed, he had been so sure that something was there. That maybe, just maybe, she cared for him the way he.. loved her. He had believed that she had felt something too. But then she ran again. And now, he realized that he couldn't take this anymore. She was in love with another man. The kiss had been just that. 'Because, she's just… Lorelai.' Letting go was going to be hard. ******************** 8:35 PM, Friday
Craig's (and Lorelai's) apartment She knew that she should be thinking about it, but she really wanted to get the matter off her mind for a while. There was nothing good on television so Lorelai decided to go to the library. She thumbed through some of the bathroom readers, but found nothing interesting. Then something caught her eye. A leather bound book peeked out from the corner of the bottom shelf. "Star's Hollow Yearbook." Lorelai smiled. 'Big hair, tight pants, ahh.. Entertaining at the least,' She thought as she sat down on the plush carpet and turned to the first page. Lorelai giggled when she saw Craig's senior picture. He had BIG hair. "Football captain, class president, lead in senior play, honor roll," Lorelai read out. "Geez, more credentials than President Bush." She cocked her head thoughtfully. She traced her finger from Craig's picture to the upper left corner. Luke. Luke Danes, aka Butch Danes.
Hurdles Record at County Track Meet, President of Star Trek Club. Normally, she would have laughed out loud at the mention of Luke's former Trekkie status, but this time, she just felt like crying. 'I messed it up, didn't I, Luke?' She thought, gently rubbing her thumb across his face in the photograph. 'Promise you'll be happy? That you'll find someone to make you happy? I just make you unhappy…' "Lorelai?" Craig called out as he entered the dim apartment. She had never showed up at the lounge. "Are you home?" "In here," He heard a muffled voice from the library. Lorelai wiped away the tears in her eyes and quickly turned a page in the album. "In here!" She called out, a little louder. Craig walked into the library to find Lorelai sitting on the floor. "What's up?" "Looking at your senior yearbook," Lorelai said, smiling slyly. "Nice pants." She pointed to a picture of Craig at the prom. "Sexy." "You think so?" Craig asked embarrassed. "Those should be illegal." "They are now," Lorelai replied, making a face. Craig laughed and peered over her. He leaned his chin on her shoulder and pointed at picture of Luke at the prom. He laughed. "Look at Luke." "Yeah," Lorelai replied softly. "Look at Luke." "You okay? You never came to the lounge," He said, turning her around to look at her tear-stained face. "You were crying..," he said softly. "Oh," Lorelai tried to laugh it off. "Nah, I was just…" 'Perfect boyfriend, wonderful daughter, blessed life.. So why am I so unhappy?' Craig kissed her gently. "Is everything okay?" Lorelai started to cry again. 'Why does he care for me so much?' She thought looking into Craig's concerned eyes. Lorelai knew Craig loved her and she cared for him too. Just not in the same way. As she sat there, looking into his gentle eyes, tears flowing in rivulets down her face, she suddenly realized what she had been so ignorant to for the past months. She didn't love Craig. There were things that she loved about him, but she didn't love him. Lorelai started to cry harder. Startled, Craig brought her head down to his shoulder and let her cry. "Is everything at work okay?" He asked. She nodded, biting her lip. More than anything, she didn't want to hurt him. He was too kind, too generous, and she knew that if she broke his heart, it would tear him apart. And he didn't deserve that. He suddenly lifted her face to his and gently kissed her tears away. It only made her cry harder, because she realized that she would eventually break this man's heart, and that she might have lost Luke, the only man she had ever truly loved. ******************** Song Lyrics are from "Perhaps Love" by John Denver (I never actually heard the song before, but I was reading the lyrics and it seemed like they fit) =) Ah, I know this chapter wasn't that great. After I wrote it, I tried to edit and make it better, but I just couldn't figure out a way to improve it! Blah!! =T And another thing is that, I'll still trying to figure out a way to end this whole thing... any suggestions? =)
In front of Craig's apartment building "So, she's happy," He said out loud, staring at the smiling couple. "That's what I wanted right? All these years, I just wanted to see her happy." 'Happy with me…' Lorelai laughed at something Craig said and hugged him. Luke leaned his head on the steering wheel. ******************** 7:51 PM, Friday
In front of Craig's apartment building Craig rejoined his buddies in the front of the moving group. Lorelai and Jane fell back in the group, talking about a new clothing boutique that had opened down the street. As they were talking, Lorelai caught a glimpse of a familiar truck parked across the street. She could pick out that ancient artifact anywhere. "Be right back," Lorelai said to Jane. "Where are you going?" Jane asked. "Just across the street. You guys go ahead," Lorelai said. "I'll catch up with you." "Okay." Jane shrugged and jogged to keep up with her brother. Before walking across the street, Lorelai looked both ways. She jogged up to the truck and rapped on the window. "Luke?" Luke looked embarrassed, but he rolled down the window. "What are you doing here?" "You never called," He said, almost accusingly. "You never explained.." Lorelai hung her head. "I know, I'm.. I'm sorry." "Why?" Luke asked. "Lorelai, you just ran away, you never told me what you meant by all of it." She sighed and licked her dry lips. "I.. Craig and I, we're in a really good place right now. I mean, we're comfortable with each other and.. I like this relationship." Luke sighed, slowly taking in what she had said. 'So, the kiss was nothing to you?' He thought, wanting to ask her. 'It was everything to me…' "When you said you were going to call, I assumed in a couple days. But then days turned into months, and I realized.." "I shouldn't have kissed you back that night," Lorelai interrupted. "Maybe it was the rain.." She shrugged. "It was.. a mistake." "Right, a mistake," Luke repeated, a pained look on his face, and started the engine. "I have to go." "Luke," Lorelai started. "Lorelai," Luke interrupted her, a sad look on his face. "Please don't do this to me. Don't let me hang on, thinking that there could be something there…" He suddenly stopped, knowing that he had said too much. Luke gave her a half-hearted smile and, looking over his shoulder, he started to pull out of the parking spot. Speechless, Lorelai watched him leave, not sure of what he meant by 'hanging on, thinking there could be something there….' ******************** 7:58 PM, Friday
Craig's (and Lorelai's) apartment "I never should have let him kiss me," Lorelai sobbed into the phone. Sookie sighed. "Honey, it was probably just hormones or something." "Sookie!" Lorelai said, wiping her nose with a Kleenex. "I'm almost thirty six! I don't have hormonal control problems!" "Well," Sookie started, shrugging. "I knew this was going to happen," Lorelai shook her head. "Now I've lost him as a friend too." "Hon?" "Yeah," Lorelai sniffled and reached for another tissue. "I'm not an expert at these things," Sookie said slowly. "But I think you need to think about whether you're upset that you lost him as a friend, or as something.. more." Lorelai sighed. "Not this again." "Lorelai, come on. You've been moping about this for days, weeks, months. You've avoided him," Sookie continued. "You had to give up his coffee. I thought I would never see that day. Won't you at least admit that you've thought of him as something more? Everyone knows that he feels that way about you." Lorelai grimaced at the thought of everyone gossiping about her and Luke. She let out a deep breath. "Okay, maybe a couple times." "So, why didn't you act on it?" "Well, I didn't know how he felt until after Craig came," Lorelai said, sighing. "And the fact that the night that you found Jane in the kitchen, you ran to him. You could have called me or Rory, which by the way had me slightly offended, but that's another story," Sookie rambled. "I'm sorry." "Nah," Sookie said giggling. "I'm just teasing you. But anyways, the fact that you ran straight to him says something." "That we're friends?" "Or more," Sookie said. Lorelai sighed. "Lorelai, have you told Craig you love him?" "Um, no." "Has Craig said it to you?" "Yeah." "So why haven't you said it to him?" Lorelai took a deep breath. "I dunno." Sookie sighed. "I don't know what to tell you, sweets, except that maybe it's time you really started thinking about whether or not you love Craig. 'Cause to me, it sounds like something, or someone, or holding you back." ******************** 8:03 PM, Friday
Somewhere in New York State Luke clenched the steering wheel, driving a little faster than his usual 25 mph. 'God,' He thought furiously. 'Why do I always let her get under my skin?' He glared at himself in the review mirror and flicked on the radio, wanting to distract himself. If I should live forever, and all my dreams come true 'Because Lorelai's beautiful and funny,' He thought wistfully. My memories of love will be of you 'Because she's a wonderful and strong person.' Some say love is holding on and some say letting go 'Because she's cute, no matter how annoying her habits may be…' Some say love is everything and some say they don't know 'Because she cared for him….' Maybe not in the way he wanted her to care, but there had been potential. That night they kissed, he had been so sure that something was there. That maybe, just maybe, she cared for him the way he.. loved her. He had believed that she had felt something too. But then she ran again. And now, he realized that he couldn't take this anymore. She was in love with another man. The kiss had been just that. 'Because, she's just… Lorelai.' Letting go was going to be hard. ******************** 8:35 PM, Friday
Craig's (and Lorelai's) apartment She knew that she should be thinking about it, but she really wanted to get the matter off her mind for a while. There was nothing good on television so Lorelai decided to go to the library. She thumbed through some of the bathroom readers, but found nothing interesting. Then something caught her eye. A leather bound book peeked out from the corner of the bottom shelf. "Star's Hollow Yearbook." Lorelai smiled. 'Big hair, tight pants, ahh.. Entertaining at the least,' She thought as she sat down on the plush carpet and turned to the first page. Lorelai giggled when she saw Craig's senior picture. He had BIG hair. "Football captain, class president, lead in senior play, honor roll," Lorelai read out. "Geez, more credentials than President Bush." She cocked her head thoughtfully. She traced her finger from Craig's picture to the upper left corner. Luke. Luke Danes, aka Butch Danes.
Hurdles Record at County Track Meet, President of Star Trek Club. Normally, she would have laughed out loud at the mention of Luke's former Trekkie status, but this time, she just felt like crying. 'I messed it up, didn't I, Luke?' She thought, gently rubbing her thumb across his face in the photograph. 'Promise you'll be happy? That you'll find someone to make you happy? I just make you unhappy…' "Lorelai?" Craig called out as he entered the dim apartment. She had never showed up at the lounge. "Are you home?" "In here," He heard a muffled voice from the library. Lorelai wiped away the tears in her eyes and quickly turned a page in the album. "In here!" She called out, a little louder. Craig walked into the library to find Lorelai sitting on the floor. "What's up?" "Looking at your senior yearbook," Lorelai said, smiling slyly. "Nice pants." She pointed to a picture of Craig at the prom. "Sexy." "You think so?" Craig asked embarrassed. "Those should be illegal." "They are now," Lorelai replied, making a face. Craig laughed and peered over her. He leaned his chin on her shoulder and pointed at picture of Luke at the prom. He laughed. "Look at Luke." "Yeah," Lorelai replied softly. "Look at Luke." "You okay? You never came to the lounge," He said, turning her around to look at her tear-stained face. "You were crying..," he said softly. "Oh," Lorelai tried to laugh it off. "Nah, I was just…" 'Perfect boyfriend, wonderful daughter, blessed life.. So why am I so unhappy?' Craig kissed her gently. "Is everything okay?" Lorelai started to cry again. 'Why does he care for me so much?' She thought looking into Craig's concerned eyes. Lorelai knew Craig loved her and she cared for him too. Just not in the same way. As she sat there, looking into his gentle eyes, tears flowing in rivulets down her face, she suddenly realized what she had been so ignorant to for the past months. She didn't love Craig. There were things that she loved about him, but she didn't love him. Lorelai started to cry harder. Startled, Craig brought her head down to his shoulder and let her cry. "Is everything at work okay?" He asked. She nodded, biting her lip. More than anything, she didn't want to hurt him. He was too kind, too generous, and she knew that if she broke his heart, it would tear him apart. And he didn't deserve that. He suddenly lifted her face to his and gently kissed her tears away. It only made her cry harder, because she realized that she would eventually break this man's heart, and that she might have lost Luke, the only man she had ever truly loved. ******************** Song Lyrics are from "Perhaps Love" by John Denver (I never actually heard the song before, but I was reading the lyrics and it seemed like they fit) =) Ah, I know this chapter wasn't that great. After I wrote it, I tried to edit and make it better, but I just couldn't figure out a way to improve it! Blah!! =T And another thing is that, I'll still trying to figure out a way to end this whole thing... any suggestions? =)