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Unspeakable
Chapter 8:


Everyone knew I was a light sleeper. From the way I was at sleepovers to my own sleeping habits at home; it was just a deemed knowledge. The sun bearing it's bright head above the land and the way it happened to gleam a sun beam onto my face had awakened in me within a few moments. Taichi was a deep sleeper; it was the only way to explain his fashion of not awakening like I had.

The first few moments of awakening had been in a carefree state of innocence of merely rolling over to escape the light and close my eyes once more. However, it hadn't last long because of the awareness of sleeping in Taichi's bed. And that's when all of the memories of the previous evening had flooded back into my mind.

The moment finally arrived to actually get up and dress. Carefully I climbed down the short ladder, stressing my feet to step lightly as to not awaken my brother. Even he deserved sleep. I eyed the room for appropriate clothing and slowly removed the only article of clothing I was wearing. The boxers landed on the floor without a single noise at all.

The mirror inside our cabinet reflected my naked body back, also showing Taichi in my bed, looking troubled in his sleep. Sighing, I fixed my gaze once more upon my body, wondering where the light skin tone and thinness came from. My blonde hair. Blue eyes. Pale skin. The way I looked was so different so very unlike an actual Yagami.



I never turned. Instead, I stared at Taichi through the reflection of the mirror. Good morning, I said simply, not allowing myself to speak any further.

Are you still mad at me?

Would you mind tossing me a fresh pair of boxers, please? Dismissing the statement was ensured that I was not angry with him any longer. Grinning, he fetched a pair of boxers and tossed them toward me.

You have a lovely body.



Yamato, I don't understand what you want! he suddenly cried out, his arms waving in the air.

What do you mean?

This game we have going on. You're right––it's abnormal, but what do you expect me to do or say? I feel like I'm in some sort of movie, except you're my brother. He exhaled loudly and sat on the edge of my bed, placing his head on the deep palm of his hands. We've deemed the subject unspeakable, but I cannot deny what I feel towards you

Taichi, please––just stop it

It was strange; the moment I had been awaiting for arrived, but I no longer wanted to speak about it. I puzzled myself Why was it that Taichi and I wanted the same things at different times?

Fine. Let's just not fucking talk about it! Okay, it's unspeakable once again. With those words, Taichi snarled and descended the room, only wearing his boxer shorts. Assuming correctly, he stalked back into the room, grabbed a few necessities of clothing, and stormed right out again.

My eyes drifted closed in an attempt to seal any tears that might want to fall. Maybe it is best

Why do you talk to yourself?

The lids of my eyes opened to find my little sister standing at the door. She smiled and took it upon herself to snuggle comfortably on my bed.

Because I'm weird? I suggested, unable to conceal a smile from the thought.

She giggled and shrugged. You are very strange, Yamato So, what are you and Taichi arguing about?

You heard us? Panicked, I rushed over to her and grabbed a hold of her arms. Tell me!

Her eyes showed a feeling of terror as she trembled an answer, I couldn't hear what you were saying Calm down, please.

I became aware of what I was doing to her and let go, turning around. It's just private stuff.

You have a new boyfriend, don't you?

No, but wish I did, Hikari. But you see, I can't have the person I'm in love with and he can't have me back, I explained, careful of the words I chose.

Is it because his parents are homophobic?

Bitting my lip, I turned and burned my eyes into her. It's so much worse, Hikari. So much worse

She looked frightened once more and went into a daze of thoughts. Perhaps I had said too much already and implied something I shouldn't have Perhaps Hikari is now an enemy of finding out the truth.

***

Sundays usually never go by so slowly. Usually, there was homework of some sort to finish and chores to be done. Or there were fun things to do, such as Taichi working on a new carving and me strumming on my guitar to soothe him. Today was different. I sat in my room and did nothing. For the first time in simply ages, not one of my teachers assigned any homework. For the first time ever, I wished my teachers had.

Taichi was loitering around the house as well, but we managed to stay in different rooms. Hikari was in her room, talking on the phone to a new transfer student with the name of Takeru. Taichi had spent a good hour teasing her about that, but I don't think it was the same for any of the three of us. Not without me protecting Hikari or retorting a joke back about Taichi's physique.

My mother and father noticed the awkwardness as well. They asked what was wrong, but we all lied for the sake of not wanting to confront the situation.

I'm going to do the grocery shopping for your mother now, my father announced, placing his wallet within the inside of his jacket.

Oh, and you couldn't have run out for Mother last night? I snapped.

My father did nothing but frown and kiss my mother on the lips. Not a word was spoken from the three of us as my mother reminded him of what items they needed.

Taichi, honey, can we go talk in your bedroom? There are some things I would like to discuss to you.

Taichi groaned at my mother's proposition and stood. He caught my eye for a split second and I saw something that I could not determine. Hikari waited until Taichi was inside the bedroom before speaking.

Think she's teaching Taichi what the bird and bees are?

I all but laughed. Hope not because it's obviously too late.

A few moments passed of silence. It was a silence that needed to be broken of the thought that was in the both of our mind's. Hikari had been the braver one to suggest it first.

Wanna listen?

Of course. I stood and tip-toed with Hikari to the bedroom door, pressing my ear upon it. The shock of what we heard had plastered onto Hikari's face. My mother was crying. It hadn't been a shock to me at all because of what I had known already. It was hard to determine what Taichi was saying, but I managed to catch a few things.

I don't just take girls into bed with me for fun I'm not like that, unlike some people.

My mother than said something I couldn't comprehend. Her back was probably turned to the door.

Please! I'm not nearly as bad as Yamato! He fucks everyone that show interest in him! You all think he's some fucking goody-good, but he's not! He's worse than me!

Hikari gasped and looked at me with a disgusted expression on her face. The trust she had in me faded out of her and she looked at me as if I was a stranger.

Tears welded into my own eyes, along with a small ball of rage within me that grew with each of my mother's sobs in the room. Swallowing my pride, I turned the knob of the door and barged into the room.

My mother took one glance at me and began sobbing harder. Taichi said nothing and swallowed, clutching the sheets of my bed.

How dare you!

It's all fucking true, you––you slut!

You just ruined everything! Look what you've done to her, you half-wit! I motioned in the direction of my sobbing mother, who was being consoled by Hikari. It's not my fault you were caught in bed! Why bring me into this?!

Why should I get all of the blame when you had just brought Shun over to fuck last night! Taichi stood and pushed my chest back.

I gasped and cried out, Well you're the one who fucked him! Not me! I ran to the store because our mother needed something! I'm not selfish like you!

I may be selfish, but at least I'm not a slut.



Stop! This instant! my mother screamed. Just stop I beg of you.

Hikari began to cry, her wails ringing through the air with my mother's. Stop it for mother.

I looked between the two and turned towards Taichi once more, who was glaring at me endlessly. Why'd you tell her all of this? Why?

Taichi's glare turned into a concerned frown, and he reached out to touch me. But something stopped me from accepting the offer. Most likely, it was the howls from the two females staring at us. As swiftly as Taichi's expression had turned, I darted out of the room and into the hall where I proceeded to slip on some shoes. Then I left the apartment and fled down the stairs.

It wasn't until I was on the streets that I could hear Taichi's calling, but I no longer wanted to be near him. The awful things he said about me The way my mother will never look at me the same way again The way Hikari won't trust me to be her older brother for good advice The knowledge of that all caused by Taichi's burden on himself and passed it to me caused a horrible feeling. It was too much to bare, and I ran. Ran until I assumed I lost Taichi. Quickly, I darted into an alley and pressed my forehead against the brick building. Tears wandered to my eyes and I couldn't help but let them fall.

I was a disgrace now

Taichi's pace slowed as he rounded the alley and stopped in front of me.

Just let me be

I'm sorry!

Look what you've done! I screamed, harsh fists pounding into his chest. Taichi was always strong and was hardly effected, but I continued to hit him lightly until I fell into his frame, sobbing freely. Why did you do this?

Taichi lifted my loose body and pushed me against the wall. His lips fell onto mine and he held me tightly with his strong arms. I never protested. My arms placed around neck as I kissed back as passionately as he was.

The tears never ceased to fall, either. They only grew stronger with every intake of breath between the kisses.

And I held my brother, crying as he showed the strong love he had for me.

End of chapter 8

The next chapter is very well I'm not going to say. You're just going to have to wait =P

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