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Unspeakable
Chapter 12: Pity; They Don't Love Me


I'm adopted

Oh honey, we wanted to tell you this more appropriately than what was perceived tonight, said my mother as she shot a harsh glare at the woman who was now deemed as my biological mother.

I-it doesn't matter. I'm just going to leave this room now. It was spoken rather calmly, without emotion, yet as much as I wanted to cry and scream, it wasn't the time or place to. Slowly I got up and proceeded to my bedroom without a moment's glance behind at the ones who were now my real family. Oh how it hurt to learn that those who love me only were out of pity. More than anything I wish it wasn't so. I didn't want Shou as a cousin, nor Takeru as a brother. Or that awful, rude woman as a mother.

It couldn't be so It just couldn't.

As I entered my room and shut the door, Taichi opened the door and shut it behind himself.

he whispered. He whispered that very word several times before I told him to knock it off. Don't you see?

I made a noise that more sounded like a cough than a grunt of acknowledgement as I sprawled across my bed, hugging one of the pillows loosely to my chest.

We're not brothers! We can do our love without shame! Without anyone's disapproval. Taichi laughed in delight as he spun around the room, gigging non stop and throwing inanimate objects around. This is such good news

Do shut up, I whispered.

What's wrong with you? Taichi inquired. He sat on the bed next to me and rested a hand on my lower back, rubbing in soft circles with much care.

You're so dense at times, Taichi Just so dense. The words could hardly be heard, for it was painful for me to speak without breaking into fresh tears. Did it occur to you that I love your parents? That I love Hikari? Did it?!

yeah, of course And I know this must be painful, but you can still love them as that. Who cares if that bitch out there is your biological mother? She never raised you. Cared for you. Loved you. She just gave birth to you, which is so meaningless that it hurts Our mother loves you no matter what, Taichi said with so much compassion that I could not help but shed a few tears at the words. His arms softly grabbed a hold of my waist as he lifted me ever so gently so that I was curled within his arms. And there I wept, wept for God who knows how long before he gently set me aside and stood.

W-where are you going?

To tell them that I'm comforting you and to not disturb us, Taichi replied.

I remained silent, listening keenly for Taichi's voice of concern. When he finished speaking and came back inside, I leaned back upon my pillows and tilted my head slightly. You're right, Taichi. You're right.

Mom loves you. Dad loves you. Hikari loves you. And I love you, more than any of them. He crawled on the bed and very slowly wrapped his arms round my shaking body, kissing the crook of my neck in the most reassuring way.

Taichi, what's going to happen now? Am I going to have to go live with––with this woman? And what about school, and my band, and––

Taichi placed a single digit in front of my mouth before quickly leaning down and closing the gap in one swift move. He pressed his entire body length along mine, kissing me, comforting me––loving me in every which way.

He pulled my clothes off. Made me beg for his love.

And he loved me, loved me until we were both completely exhausted.

Only then did I fall asleep in somewhat comfort.

***

The next few weeks passed by in slow motion. My parents––the Yagami's–– spent an hour or so explaining the depths of my adoption. It really was out of pity, for they merely felt sorry for my mother's younger sister's best friend and took me because of it. Never did they come right out and say it was out of pity, and denied it when I accused them of it. Yet the look in their eyes told me so. The sad, guilty look within the pupils made me feel even more distant from them than I had ever felt in my entire life.

They said they loved me, and that I would live with them until I was ready to leave. Who said anything about me actually wanting to live with the woman who made the telling of my adoption so painful? Yet, it wasn't a question of whether I wanted to live her, but more of when I was ready too. I don't think I ever will be

Taichi fucked me several times through the weeks, always out of pity, I'm sure. He said he loved me even more because we weren't brothers, and I couldn't say I agreed, but also couldn't disagree. So, I let him invade my body for his desires, and my own, different than his.

School wasn't any better, for there were so many people to avoid, yet no room to do so. Shun, Shou, Takeru, and the rest of my band, as well. How could I face them? Although they had no idea what was going around, Shun told them of the argument that occurred about whether Taichi and I slept together. Now I was even alienated from the ones that I thought could understand.

So here I sat, on the depths of my bed, hiding myself from my family and friends. I knew Taichi would be home any moment, and I knew what he would want. I pulled off my shirt just as the front door clicked. This force came upon me, causing me to act sly and in the mood to tease my brother. I opened the door to my bedroom, and to my astonishment, there Taichi stood with all of my band and Shun.

What are you all doing here? I managed to ask after a very awkward moment, mainly shared between Taichi and I, for he knew what I thought was going to occur.

You're our friend, Yamato, and we came to see how we could cheer you up, Ren chirped, smiling as he came forward and placed his arms around me.

I hugged him briefly and inquired timidly, you know that I'm adopted?

Yeah. Shou and Taichi explained it to us, Kairu said.

It's hard to accept that they could even explain it to us together! Kenta exclaimed, laughing nervously while elbowing Kairu to do the same.

Things have changed, Shou said. And some have not. He glared at Taichi as he said this, and the three of us knew the inclination of what was said. As I glanced at Shun, he scowled.

Have you all forgotten what I told you? Taichi and Yamato have slept together!

Shut up, Taichi said. It isn't true, and I don't know how many more times I can try and say this.

Whatever. I'm out of here. Shun began to walk out of the apartment, but I quickly ran through my bandmates and grabbed his arm. I pressed my lips against his in one swift motion before saying, You must believe me. I know that argument outside of the school was weird, but nothing of the sort has occurred between Taichi and I. I love him as my brother, and it's hard for me to accept that he isn't, and Shou and him just couldn't stand the tension and such Please, don't hate me because of it because you're my friend.

He sighed and flung my arm off of his. I still don't believe you, but I'm not going to hate you because of it because even though you and Taichi did screw, you're not brothers, so I suppose it isn't incest Although it raises the question of whether you knew that you weren't brothers before you slept together, which I'm guessing no and––

Just stop it, Kenta said, before I beat the living shit out of you! Yamato's our friend and we're here out of friendship. We all just want him to know that we care for him and that we want our band to keep going and try and get out of this awkwardness.

I felt so overwhelmed So many people were here and demanding things Oh how I wished they were gone and I was in Taichi's arms at the moment, yet I couldn't do that, for I did care for them and I did want things to at least be somewhat reasonable.

How about a practice next week? Ren suggested.

Yeah, sounds good, I answered rather quickly.

Well, let's give him some peace then, Kairu said. See ya later, Yamato.

Soon they were all gone, and I realized Shou had barely said one word through the entire ordeal. It caused me to frown, but the kissing of Taichi brought me out of that haze and into the bedroom, for yet another round of sex.

***

I wish I was adopted, Kenta grumbled as he picked up a set of chopsticks for his drums. Then I wouldn't have the stupid family I have.

But you're forgetting that my biological mother is a fucking bitch, I pointed out, frowning at the thought. And I don't even know who my father is because she was a slut in high school.

She's not so bad, Shou said simply. And you fuck around too with people you shouldn't, so I wouldn't speak.

She's only your aunt, not your mother. And, I'm gay so I can't get someone pregnant, I snapped, turning to glare at him. I stopped the motion when I saw a sad expression on his face and solemnly apologized.

Come on, let's just start practicing, Ren suggested timidly.

I felt relieved of tension as I strummed my beautiful instrument with the rest of my band. As we did this, I realized they loved me no matter what, and it wasn't out of pity

The same goes for my family. My parents and Hikari loved me too, even though they weren't my biological family. Even Taichi, who grinned at me with a sly smile loved me as well, and perhaps it wasn't out of pity either

It all seemed so good now. As the next few weeks passed, I felt myself growing stronger and closer to the Yagami's than ever in my my life. Taichi still loved me, and it felt different now When he invaded my body and kissed me, I wanted it more and more. I wanted us to come out as a couple, but I doubted that could ever happen, especially when my closeness with the Yagami's was overwhelming and I felt more like their son than ever before.

However, good things never last forever. It felt good at the time, until

You're so beautiful, Taichi gasped as he kissed ever inch of my face that was possible.

I could only grunt in reply, which was followed by a cry of pleasure. My head tilted to the side and I was overcome with another wave of pleasure.

Neither of us heard the front door click, or the gentle padding of feet across the floor. Nor did we pay any attention to the figure standing ajar in the doorway, until we actually noticed her.

I exclaimed, shoving Taichi off of me so that he landed next to me.

It isn't what it seems, he said weakly, reaching over my body and picking up two pairs of boxer shorts to slip on.

I couldn't believe what Takeru said so I decided to come home and see for myself what goes on when no one is home she whispered, closing her eyes tightly. My own two brothers! How sick! No, this can't be happening

Yamato, get up and pack your things, Taichi whispered.

I could only face him with a look of astonishment.

End of Chapter 12

Next chapter is the last and then there's an epilogue. I hope everyone's enjoying this