I Really Do Believe That I Don't Belong Here

Chapter Five – Our Last Conversation

By Lindsey Ann

Author Notes: So many reviews! Someone mentioned four pages was about the right length, so I wrote close to four pages, almost, but not quite... There's going to be a part in italics that means it's like a thing that happened in the past. So, like, uh… yeah. Also I turn fourteen on the 18th. Exciting, right? Oh yeah, italics can also signify letters, but you'll be able to tell the difference between a letter and a flashback. I hope.

Summary: Ginny Weasley has always been unsure about herself, especially when it comes to the fact that she belongs in Gryffindor. In a long talk with Draco Malfoy, she starts to think he actually does act like a person, and that maybe she belongs in Slytherin.

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Ron Weasley in his life had never been angrier. His sister, in the commons with a guy, in a deep embrace. But that wasn't made him truly angry. It was that it was Draco Malfoy of all boys, maybe if it had been another Gryffindor, he wouldn't have minded. Heck, he wouldn't have minded if it was a Hufflepuff or someone in Ravenclaw.

But this was MALFOY of all people. The same guy who had mocked him and his friends, not to forget his little sister. The same rich spoiled git who got everything he wanted. The same idiot with parents in You-Know-Who's inner circle. It was enough to make his blood boil. "Virginia Weasley… How could you?" He said.

"How could I act like a human being? I don't know Ron, maybe because I am one!" Ginny shouted back angrily at Ron, it was the first time that she had ever yelled at her brother with such fury. Words could not describe the anger she felt within.

"Virginia Weasley! Dating … Is perfectly normal when its someone you care about. But this is MALFOY OF ALL PEOPLE!" Ron shouted back at her.

"Why do you make assumptions of how a person is-?" Ginny was interrupted by Ron.

"Because, Ginny, I know who he is. He's out to manipulate you, so he can earn his Dark Lord's respect." Ron said. He did have the best of intentions for Ginny. He had to act like this because otherwise someone would end up breaking her heart. Just like Malfoy would.

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"Mama how can you think this? That just because he's in Slytherin that he's the worst?" Grace said yelling ready to slam something into the wall because she was so frustrated. She couldn't understand her mother. After all didn't her mother want what was best for her? Didn't she love her?

"Grace. He has tainted your mind. Now as soon as that child of yours is born it will be given to him. And I will perform a spell so he could never see you." Her mother sternly said back. She wasn't proud of her daughter anymore. She had made a lot of mistakes. "Then you'll marry Anthony. He was always your soul mate." How could a mother be so selfish to decide things for her daughter that would affect her daughter's entire life? Did she love her? Why couldn't she trust her?

"He hasn't tainted my mind. And I love him. And I love Draco!" She stammered back at her mother. "I'm not a baby anymore. I can make my own decisions." The girls eyes were red from tears, her cheek stained.

"Love? You don't know what that is!" The mother yelled back at the girl, stunned at how disrespectful she was acting. "And you have named that thing?"

"Thing? Mother it's a living breathing person and I love it with all my heart," she said as she reached for her coat. "Goodbye forever."

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"Ginny, understand that Ron's doing this for your own good," Hermione said, trying to calm down Ginny. "He just wants what's best for you."

Ginny couldn't hear those words that Hermione was thinking. She was only thinking about Draco. "Goodbye Ron. I'll see you whenever." Ginny said as she took Draco's hand, tightly clasped it and began to walk away.

When they left the commons, Ginny said, "I'm sorry. It's my fault that we got caught." Tears were still trickling down her face. She sniffled.

Draco looked into her teary eyes which were full of guilt and sorrow. "Guess this'll be our last conversation." Draco said.

"Our last conversation?" Ginny asked confused. What did Draco mean?

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Grace was feeding her baby boy, smiling as she softly sang a song to him, "I love you," she told the child as she fed it a spoonful of baby food. His father motioned for her to come into the other room. Grace nodded to a servant to finish feeding baby Draco.

"We can't see each other anymore." Lucius said. It pained him to say it, but he knew had to.

"What do you mean can't see each other anymore?" She asked puzzled as she looked in the mirror, fixing her hair, and then began to play with her wedding ring.

"Exactly what I said, Grace, we can't see each other anymore." He said as paced to the balcony. "Its not fair. I'm making you grow up to fast."

He knew this was the right thing. "Tomorrow, first thing in the morning you're going to back to your mother. I can't stand the fact that your mother hates you because of me."

"I don't want to go! Lucius I don't care about any of that! Right now all I care about is you and Draco! How can I walk away from the two people I love most?" She asked, her tone furious, she wasn't taking the news very well.

But this was for her best. She could establish a real life, with a proper shot at love. Not a life with him, never seeing her mother again, with only the hope of death on her mind.

"Because it's for your best," He said almost ready to cry. Couldn't she see that this hurt him more than it would hurt her? "Draco and I will be able to go on without you. He pushed her out of the room, looking at the only picture he had of her.

She needed a better life. Not the one she would live if she stayed here. "Love isn't selfish." He said to himself.

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"You know very well, Ginny," Draco said, trying his best to be mean. "We can't see each other," he said as his fingers traced her tear-stained face. She needed a life without him. He'd have to do some things before he could let his true feelings for her show.

"I know Ron hates you, but he'll warm up, honest!" Ginny said. "We can't stop seeing each other."

"Why, Weasley, does the thought you're rebelling make seem attractable?" Draco harshly replied. This was more how he acted. He was really sweet deep down, he was a jerk, who didn't deserve Ginny, not just even for a moment.

He didn't deserve her innocent ways, her pure smile, nor did he deserve her trust. But he had all of that and before ruining her life, he would have to fix some things about himself before he could even dream of having Ginny as just a friend.

"Because I love you," Ginny said as she drew her head close to his, with intention to kiss him. It would be her first kiss, the very thing that she had obsessed making it perfect, she wanted this kiss. She wanted Draco and only him.

He drew away from her. "No, Ginny. No."

And he left her there just as confused as Ginny who obviously was on the verge of tears. I have to be the real Draco, he thought. I don't want to her to have a horrible life because of me. Love isn't selfish, he kept telling himself as he walked away.

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Ginny ran up the stair to the Gryffindor common room. She had just given Draco her heart and he had spliced it in two. Why? She thought he liked her, too. Why would he do this? Hermione entered her dorm room, Ron and Harry following.

"Go away." Ginny sharply said. "Go away." She said sterner.

But instead they stayed there. "I told you, Ginny." Ron said as he sat right next to her.

"Yeah you did, Ron," she snapped back at him between sobs. "Just leave." They didn't. "LEAVE NOW."

Eventually they left. Ginny ran herself to owlery. She didn't want to stay at Hogwarts for the remaining week of Christmas break, she had to go home and have some time to think. She couldn't stay at Hogwarts. She had a chance of seeing Draco.

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Slopping wet, Grace, entered her mother's house – the one she had stormed from when she told her mom that she loved Lucius. She thought he loved her, too. But he didn't. Her mother smiled. "Come back to your senses?" She asked as she gave her a hug and motioned for her to sit down.

"I never want to see Lucius Malfoy never, ever in my life again, Mum." She said as she gritted her teeth. "I hate him, Mum."

Her mother nodded. "There's a spell." She said softly. "That no matter if he's in the same room – he'll never see you, unless you want him to see you."

Grace nodded. She wanted that. Seeing Lucius face could make her cry. She never wanted him to see her and her to never see him again. "Do it."

The old woman smirked softly.

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Mum and Dad,

Please don't ask any questions. I'm not in the mood for answering them. Please, please just let me come home for the rest of Christmas break. Please.

Please.

-Ginny

Ginny,

No questions asked darling. I have requested to Dumbledoor that you leave on the 26th early in the morning, okay? Somehow I know this must be about a boy.

I love you no matter what.

-Mum

Ginny gave a sigh of relief. She would be leaving soon. She began packing. Maybe a week at home would cheer her up? Or at least get her mind off of Malfoy, she hoped. She still loved him though and it pained her to think about him.

Professor McGonagall came to her dormitory. "Miss Weasley?" She asked knocking on the door softly. Ginny quickly answered rubbing her eyes, trying to hide the fact that she had been crying again. "Your train is here." She said as Ginny began to follow her.

She was at the Burrow before she knew it. "It's good to be home." Ginny said as she smiled the first since the incident. She watched as Fred and George (who had gone home for Christmas.) She envied them. They were boys, they're hearts weren't as vulnerable as a girls.

In the coming days, Ginny did chores, and hung out with her brothers. They were a lot more understanding than she thought they would. Especially Fred. Did he have a girlfriend? It was probably someone on the house team, it had to have been.

And Percy came home, too. And he brought along someone special. It wasn't Penelope.

It was the girl who had given Ginny the paragraph on love. She smiled as she saw her. "How was your Christmas, Virginia?" If there was one trait that Ginny liked most in Percy's new girl, Adrianna, it was that she refused to Ginny, Ginny. 'You're a young woman. Ginny is too childlike,' Adrianna had told her when they had first met. Ginny prayed that Percy ended up marrying her, and never breaking Adrianna's heart. Then there would be two perfectly good hearts broken.

"My Christmas…Was well… good until it was spoiled," She told Adrianna.

"How come?"

"I had my heart torn apart." Ginny said, but that's all she would speak on the topic.

But by the time that Christmas vacation ended. Ginny wasn't even ready to cope with the reality about her and Draco. She still wanted him to know more about his mother.

Even though he hated her, Ginny would research about his mother. "Just because he hates me, I still love him." She said to herself as began to pack all of her clothes that she had brought, so she could take them back to Hogwarts. "I'm going to win him back. I swear."

And the first thing she would do was tell him about his mother. Anything she knew. Anything she would need to know, she would learn. Maybe his mother was still alive?

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It was two years after Grace had come crawling back to her mother that Grace began to wish that Lucius was still by her side. "I don't hate. I never could." She said to herself as she tidied up her room. "I love him." She said. And added weakly, "in sickness and in health."

She began to sing to herself. Words following from her lips. It was her comfort. Every time she sang, she almost felt that Lucius and her baby were standing next to her.

"Draco would be three. I wonder who took care of him. Lucius or some servant?" She asked herself.

And then a name came to mind – Narcissa.

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A tear-jerker this one is. I almost started to cry when I was writing this. But don't worry this isn't the end – we're not even close to the end. Oh yeah, reviewing is good. I write quicker if you review – because then I know that people are reading it. So will a little review hurt? Anyways onto the stuff… (I'm afraid that if I start to get so many reviews that I won't be able to continue this. Even if I had fifty I'd write a thank-you and stuff, so no worries. I love talking to you guys. ^^) Oh yeah, if you don't see your name on the list – please don't be offended. Since reviews take up to 24 hrs to appear on the page, I don't get to see them all before I ship out the next chapter. But if your missed out this time around – next chapter I'll give you some extra love, guaranteed!

Klianie, I know why you're the first to review. ^^ Anyways I can continue to give you a note to tell you when I upload a new chapter. How did you bet it was Ron, was it too obvious?

Ctk, stupid luck for those two, right? It turned out to be Ron.

Eriol's Bear, cute name. Is it from Card Captor Sakura? Anyways it was Ron, wow you must be good at Divination – you could see it would be Ron.

Cashelle, wow you're reviewing despite you could miss the bus. Thanks for reading the story and reviewing. I'll keep on writing – no worries there. If there's one thing I'm addicted to – its writing.

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Aurora Noctifer, Wow – everyone who reads my story would do really, really well in divination. Everyone has pretty much guessed Ron was the one who shouted that. I got the philosophy aspect believe it or not from my teacher. Yeah. When he last talked about this book that had like a lot of love and philosophy about it – he often said (along with this long verse from the bible… Oh, I wish I could remember it!) that love wasn't selfish.

A Devilish Angel, your name makes me think of www.devilishdolls.com – Cool name, by the way.

Draco is less OOC in this chapter, right?

Gin, kiss soon… hmmm... *grins* - Use the powers of divination from everyone who reads this (Really all of you guys guessed Ron catching them and he did!) to see if they kiss… I'm not going to say *grinning*.

Chocolate Muse, Thanks… Hmm… I have a strange wanting for Hot Cocoa when I read your name… *goes off to make some... mmm… delicious!*

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