I Really Do Believe That I Don't Belong Here

Chapter Seven – If You Want to I Can Save You – Take You Away From Here

By Lindsey Ann

Author Notes:  Okay funny Lindsey Ann forgot to give you guys the URL to the forums I was talking about its Http://forums.star-dancer.net/ . Oh yeah the forums changed names. Which comes onto my next question….

I'm getting a domain for my birthday gift for me – so if I establish a Harry Potter forum (with forums about pairings and the such – book discussion – ask and get a answer if you have a fact you can't remember and role-play) how many of you guys would go to a forum like that? 

Summary:  Ginny Weasley has always been unsure about herself, especially when it comes to the fact that she belongs in Gryffindor. In a long talk with Draco Malfoy, she starts to think he actually does act like a person, and that maybe she belongs in Slytherin.

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"Draco?" Ginny asked breaking the silence that the two had as they walked hand-in-hand around the courtyards of Hogwarts. There was concern in her voice – it almost sounded shaky.

"Yeah, Virginia?" He asked back with a puzzled voice. He didn't like how it sounded – it sounded almost unsure. Was this a mistake for wanting her so bad that he'd change himself for her? Did she want Draco around?

"Draco," she said quietly then began with courage, "When we go home for the summer – I want you to come with me." She said. After all her parents wouldn't mind would they? If they Ron have Hermione over along with Harry, then surely it would be okay for them.

He shook his head. "Wouldn't your whole family care?" He asked. He couldn't put her in danger; he couldn't go to her house for the summer. He couldn't hurt her.

"Maybe but if they now they're good then you can," Ginny said. Determination was in her voice and she would extremely hard to achieve what she wanted. She wouldn't take a no, even if it was selfish. She didn't care.

"I don't know, Ginny, if I should," he said.

"You should, Draco," she said as snowflakes began to fall around them.

It was a winter paradise and as far as she was concerned this was the perfect moment for a kiss and for an explanation why she wanted him to come. Begging with her eyes she began, "Draco, you have to. You'd be safe at the Burrow."

"How?"

"It's protected by charms since Harry's coming this summer and if it's protected for him, it's protected for all of us." She said as she looked up into his pale grey eyes which were hiding emotion. It was as if he was trying to be as cold as possible. She didn't like how he was looking back.

"And why, Virginia, would you want me protected?" He asked trying to give off his worst impression. It was selfish for him to have requested that they talked, so he could hear her voice again but she was more important to him than his own life, so he'd have to stay far away from her until she was safe even though it pained his heart more than it probably hurt hers.

"Because," she explained her eyes filling with tears, her lips and warm body moving closer to his, "I love you." She said as she touched his lips for a brief second, realizing that if she died with him, she'd be happy, and without him she would tormented forever.

"Virginia, I can't," he said. "I can't lose your life because of me," he said as he broke away from her soft, sweet kiss. Truth was he wanted to kiss her longer and with more passion, but he couldn't because it'd be even harder to walk away from her.

"Draco, I'll lose my life without you," she said as tears began to stream down her face.

He hated doing this but he had to. And this time he'd have to stay away from her until he knew the Dark Lord was gone. "Well, Weasel, does it look like I care?" He said his voice sounding angry and mad, just like the old Draco before that fateful event right before Christmas. He had to do this. He had no other choice.

Ginny was crying and he left her there in the snow all alone giving one last glance at her. "When Potter, I or whoever kills the Dark Lord, you'll be the first person I'll find." Draco muttered to himself, hiding the fact that he could cry right now.

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Allie, the Hufflepuff who had told Ginny if she had ever needed to talk that she would always be open to talk to, saw Ginny from the window and rushed to her side. "Ginny?" She asked as she stood right next to Ginny whose sobs for the most part were lifeless like Ginny somehow knew this was going to happen. Like Ginny had almost prepared herself for it.

"Oh, hi, Allie," Ginny said. There was no emotion in her voice either just a far-off, fleeting feeling. Allie pitied Ginny.

"Did he dump you again?" Allie asked. She hadn't seen what had happened, but if she knew Ginny like she thought she had, she knew Ginny would nowadays only cry at the sight of Draco, the mentioning of Draco, or anything particularly about Draco. Even the Ravenclaws who weren't to good with matters of the heart (even though all Ravenclaws were clever) could tell.

"No," Ginny said back. "He didn't. It was a promise," she said. She wasn't making a lot of sense.

"A promise?"

"When the Dark Lord dies we'll meet again until then…" Her voice began to trail off again a couple tears dropped to the ground, others being wiped away from by her hands which were freezing cold. "He didn't say it. But I know that's what he meant."

Allie was stunned. Ginny was taking it very easy. But what if the Dark Lord never was defeated? Were two destined for each other lovers (who were as unlikely as a peanut butter and banana sandwich) meant never to love? Were they never to cherish each other? Did Ginny know that? There love must have been deep then, Allie reasoned to herself.

"Allie, it's pretty cold out here, let's go inside," Ginny said as she began to walk up to Hogwarts. As she began to clutch her necklace – which until the Dark Lord was gone would be her reminder that Draco would come back for her. That she'd be waiting for him.

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"Draco! Finally got smart and ditched that Weasley girl," Goyle said as he approached Draco.

"Yeah," Draco said with no enthusiasm even though he was trying. "Pretty smart."

Goyle lowered his voice to a low whisper, "The Dark Lord is going to inciate us into the Death Eater's circle after we leave Hogwarts this year – working for him in the summer and spying for him while we are here," Goyle informed Draco.

Draco nodded. "I need sometime to myself," he said as began to approach the exit out of the common room.

He knew what he had to do.

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When Ginny came in, no one could have noticed she was crying. Since she and Draco had met she had learned how to act to convince others that she was someone that she wasn't – a happy, overjoyed, confident Ginny.

But somehow her act didn't fool Ron and for the first time he approached Ginny and began to talk to her. "Draco again, right?" He asked.

She nodded, no tears flowing, but struggling to come out of her eyes. She had to be strong.

"Why do you keep going back to him?" Ron asked. If he had been his sister he wouldn't have befriended Malfoy in the first place.

For the first time in her life Ginny began to say words she had always heard but had never said to her family, "It's called love, Ron. Something you can't understand yet."

"Ginny love isn't getting your heart broken." He said as Ginny gave him a look telling him that her heart wasn't smashed into a couple of pieces like she could understand Malfoy's decision. "Ginny, I know you don't agree with me, but we can talk always, okay?"

She nodded and gave a soft smile as she walked away from him with no proper good-bye. What can I do to help the war against You-Know-Who? Ginny asked herself. She wanted this war to end quickly and swiftly so she could be with Draco.

But time wasn't on her side.

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Draco Malfoy entered Dumbledore's private study. He was surprised that Snape had given him permission without question. Did Snape know what he was going to do? Was this is second-father's plot to kill him since he was in allegiance to the Dark Lord and knew what he was going to do?

His eyes spotted a bird with magnificent feathers of reds and oranges. It stood majestically and as Draco approached it, gave a look like he didn't like Draco.

"Mr. Malfoy," Professor Dumbledore said as he greeted him. "How did you get in here?"

"Professor Snape," he said. There was a smile coming to Dumbledore's face.

"Oh, really?" He asked stilling smiling and looking proud.

Draco nodded. "Yeah."

"Then I can see Mr. Malfoy that you have chosen the side of the light." Dumbledore said as he motioned for Draco to sit in a leathery chair in front Professor Dumbledore's desk. Draco did as told as Fawkes perched near his side. What was with the change in Fawke's opinion?

"Huh," Draco asked. How did that old, geezer (though very respectable) man know that?

"Severus wouldn't have let you in unless he knew this was going to happen," Dumbledore said as he slipped himself into his chair. "Severus is indeed a smart man."

"That makes no sense, Professor," Draco commented puzzlement full in his voice.

"How is it so strange?" Dumbledore asked with curiousity.

"Professor Snape spies for the Dark Lord, don't you know that?" Draco asked. Albus Dumbledore wasn't looking to smart right now, in fact he looked quite the opposite, everyone knew that Snape was a follower of the Dark Lord and that no one could change him.

"Quite the contrary, Mr. Malfoy," Dumbledore said as he paused or a second. He continued on, "Severus renounced the old ways – he's a spy for the good guys."

Draco was shocked and had regretted that he had come to Dumbledore who obviously didn't know anything. "Since when?" He asked just to prove the man wrong.

"Since the day that he saw his one true love killed and tortured by Voldemort," Draco shuddered as her heard Professor Dumbledore with no fear say the Dark Lord's name.

"But that's absurd," Draco said. "Professor Snape never loved any witch."

"It wasn't a witch and it was before your time." Was Dumbledore implying that Snape was the other way when it came to relationships? Eww, Draco thought to himself.

"It was a wizard then?" Draco asked disgusted.

Dumbledore frowned. "Is it so hard to picture him falling in love with a muggle girl that you have to imply he's the other way?"

Draco had his mouth open. Snape had loved a girl who couldn't do magic? And he changed just for her? It didn't make any sense. None of it did. Draco sighed. "I guess not."

"Yes as hard as it may be, Mr. Malfoy, Severus fell in love with a muggle girl who got captured by Voldemort and held captive. Severus' job was to make sure she didn't escape feelings of hate turned to friendship and friendship turned to love," Dumbledore stated. He quickly changed the subject before Draco could answer. "Fawkes seems to like you." He commented as he watched Fawkes, who have given Draco a glare before now nuzzled up against him.

"Is that a good thing?" Draco asked.

"Of course it is. Phoenixes are judges of good character. I believe know that I can completely trust you." Dumbledore said as he smiled. "Now why do you want to go to good?" He asked.

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Author Notes: Sorry this ended fast; I want to have the Draco explaining chapter be one whole chapter, pretty much summarizing the facts so far. Not to mention I want to publish this chapter before my birthday which is Monday, November 18 (A review is an excellent present.) I'm also going to buy a domain for a big Harry Potter project so sometime within the next month I'll announce its grand opening.

Cashelle, yeah I was happy too that they were together again but alas; they're not together any more.

Chocolate Muse, Haha... Can't make craze chocolate now! I just had some! I planning on at least five more chapters, but knowing me I'll likely change it.

Sarah, Thanks for reviewing my poem, too. ^^

Azalai, I hadn't read Dazma. Thanks for mentioning that I wouldn't have found those ultra-spiffy fanfics! I guess you had to get out of your coffin to read this chapter since last review you said you were dying. LOL.

GoldenRed Phoenix, I think this chapter pretty much says what Draco is going to do. And see, I have made them suffer some more.

Gin, hmmm now that the kiss has happened I wonder what you'll be waiting for next. ^^

Themis, your back! I was worried when you weren't reviewing…Kiss has happened now… Too bad it was in an overly-depressing chapter.

Rikonra, *looks up in Draco/Ginny fan fiction writers dictionary, looks up cute and sees her picture along with instructions to look up sweet* I have a bad habit of writing sweet/cute stuff.

A Devilish Angel, Sorry I made you wait so long for this chapter. I was too darn picky and rewrote this one a couple of times.

Okay you're so close to reviewing that you should review if your still reviewing this. So *eyes pleading* write me a review?