I Really Do Believe That I Don't Belong Here
Chapter Eight – When You Have Faith
By Lindsey Ann
Author Notes: Aaaaaaa! I have the best reviewers in the world. Yes, I do. Some of you guys e-mail me which I just love! Please note that when a song entirely makes me write I'll probably name the chapter after this. This chapter heavily focuses on Snape and his past. Sorry for taking so long.
Summary: Ginny Weasley has always been unsure about herself, especially when it comes to the fact that she belongs in Gryffindor. In a long talk with Draco Malfoy, she starts to think he actually does act like a person, and that maybe she belongs in Slytherin.
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"Before I answer... Can I ask you about Snape?" Draco asked as Fawkes rubbed his head on Draco's hand which was pretty sweaty, and Draco's face showed shock. Maybe the shock could go away if he only knew what had gone on?
"Severus should tell you this, but I don't want you to leave here with wrong ideas. I will tell you some and not all. You'll have to ask him the rest," Dumbledore reasoned. In truth, he didn't know all about, just major details and then a few minor things.
He opened up a book from his book shelf. "See this?" He asked. It was a whole chapter on how Godric's family had been lost throughout the years. "It all started when...."
"Salazar! If you leave and do carry out everything with an heir you do know what will happen?" A brave, courageous Godric Gryffindor said his dark, black hair very messy.
"And what would that be, Godric?" Salazar said spitefully. He hated Godric with all of his heart.
"You'll never know who my heir will be."
Quivering on the inside Salazar quickly replied, "Am I scared?"
"Professor it..." Draco said before he was interrupted by Dumbledore.
"Doesn't make any sense..." He said as he walked around his study. "No sense, except it means Voldemort had a harder time...," Dumbledore said. Voldemort made Draco feel uncomfortable.
"And so he found a muggle girl?"
"Oh not any muggle girl, a magical one."
"Then she was a witch, right?"
"No, Godric had sealed all of his heir's powers, only to be passed along to another wizard who would need, hence his second heir."
The old fool wasn't making any sense. Draco sighed. None of it made sense. "So...." Draco said his voice trailing off.
"Basically Draco – Andrea was Godric's blood descendent but her powers were given to another – just because Godric knew that Salazar's heir would go after anyone with his blood."
Draco knew what was going to happen. "Potter got it, right? She died and when she died her powers were transferred."
"Precisely, Mister Malfoy," Dumbledore said.
"Does Potter know that helped?"
"No, he doesn't. His mother had some power, but I'm afraid if we told him about his inner strength he'd do something stupid like go out and face Voldemort by himself." Dumbledore said as he shook his head.
"So Andrea – that was Snape's girl?" Draco asked.
"Hard to believe what love does to someone, right Mister Malfoy?"
Draco wanted to shout a loud, "Yes," Merlin knew that he was in love with Virginia Weasley. And he wanted to tell the whole world. But instead he mumbled it. "Yes, it is. Hardly believable until you experience it," he said with each word fading fast.
Dumbledore gave him a sly smile. "Yes, changes everything you ever though." Dumbledore sat down again and noticed that outside that a tree was gaining blossoms... Spring was in the air. "So, Mister Malfoy, why did you choose this way?"
Draco Malfoy felt a rush of blush come to his cheeks, "A girl, Professor Dumbledore," he said as he looked away avoiding Professor Dumbledore's eyes. Draco had never been more embarrassed in his life.
"A girl, Mister Malfoy," Dumbledore smirked. "A girl," he said.
Funny how love was, it did things to you. It made you the way you were. "Yeah," Draco answered back. Dumbledore stroked his breads waiting for a name, "Virginia," he managed to say before coming to a conclusion that the look on Dumbledore's face was serious but at any moment could break out laughing.
"Oh? When did you two get together?" Dumbledore asked. It was quite ironic that he knew when students were good or bad, but he couldn't tell when two of his students were going out. Was it old age that made him so unkeen on this subject?
"It's a long story," Draco began. "But I'll tell you." He began.
Dumbledore was intent to know. The two were complete opposites – but now if Draco had changed for the better than those two were meant to be – or a mistake that Merlin did that turned out for the better.
"Right before Christmas at the library, I saw Virginia," he began as he played with his hands finding a good way to say this. How do you tell someone something you yourself can't describe to your own mind?
"She was a bit grumpy... I don't know how Merlin made me do it but I asked her what was wrong and then we started to talk."
Dumbledore grinned. Ginny Weasley had lately been a bit of a loner, it was good that she had someone on her side – someone she could trust. Ever since the diary incident of her first year, she had been a complete loner with each year getting worse. He pitied the girl.
"We agreed to meet the next day. I don't know why," he said as he shrugged. "But I had lost a picture and when she found it – I told her something that not even Crabbe or Goyle knew. Only Professor Snape really knows."
"Oh?" He asked with curiosity. He somewhat knew what the picture was, but in a way didn't.
"It was of my real mother," Draco said before getting interrupted.
"Grace Schaller. She was a sweet girl to bad she had to go into hiding."
"She's alive?!" Draco asked as his jaw nearly touched the ground.
"You'd have to find her secret keeper. She's on Voldemort's wanted list. But last time I checked she was in excellent condition. Showed her a bit of your school things and she cried, so sad she couldn't take care of her baby." He paused. "When I became headmaster I made everyone do a survey so I could know all of my students. She was in the first year and wrote something peculiar."
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Hmmm.... How to answer this, Grace thought. The question was What do you want in life? She knew what she wanted, but did she want somebody else to know.
"Come on mudblood, it's not that hard," she heard a voice say.
"Mudblood?" She asked. Was that a bad term? The whole wizarding thing was very new to her – that and her new parents who had adopted her claiming to know what she was, that was the day she got her Hogwarts letter
"Muggle born," the boy spat out at her. He had short blonde hair and eyes Grace couldn't keep herself from looking into.
"It's not a bad thing. At least I'm not a cute jerk," she said. Did she say cute? What was going on? How could she have said that? She smirked.
"Girls," was all the boy could say before going back to his table.
She knew how to answer. Carefully she began to write: 'I want to have a big family full of children and a husband who loves me... I don't care if it'll take a thousand years. I want it. I want at least six children.
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"You see, Mister Malfoy, your mother had all of her names she wanted to name someone. At the top of the list with a circle was your name, Draco. She had six names," Dumbledore explained.
"My mum wrote that in her first year?" It was a shock. Wizard and Witches normally didn't get those ideas in their heads when they were that young. While muggle girls were already proclaiming these things at that age, witches would be in the stage of 'Ewww boys are icky!'
"Had a lot of other things written down. What love was to her and the type of person she wanted to marry. Quite a shock when I found out that from under my nose your father and her had been dating. I never imagined it – he often made her cry her first and second years and then something must have happened. No one really knew and it was all a shock that she married the day after she graduated from Hogwarts... Of course her parent's weren't too happy... Well, her adoptive parents that is. Real parents would have been happy – they were an unlikely pair a German ex-Nazi with a pacifist." Dumbledore knew a lot about his mom. How come he never told him before? And if his mom was alive how come she didn't tell him?
"Adoptive?"
"Yes, her muggle parent's died before entering Hogwarts. Some thought it would be good that she would be adopted by magical parents. Of course she still kept her muggle heritage used things they did. She loved how she had the best of both worlds. Still photographs were her favorite because it captured the emotion. Excelled in muggle studies we had all thought she would have taught that when she graduated but we were wrong." He said. "We all got these big fancy invitations saying if anyone could make it the wedding which was that day that we could come."
"How come she didn't ever come or somehow tell me she was alive?" Draco asked.
"Draco, if she does that then the secret is out because her secret keeper would love to tell you but can't because he knows its best for you and her. As soon as this bloody war is finished, you'll meet her until then she wanted me to give you this after you graduated from Hogwarts but I see it fit to give it to you now." Dumbledore handed him a piece of parchment.
On it was a very beautiful handwriting and words of love and encouragement. He read it.
My Baby Draco,
Words cannot tell you how I bad I feel to never be able to sing to you like a real mother could or for you to even have met me and remembered. But I assure you it wasn't because I didn't love you because I did. I loved you and your father with all of my heart. But for you two I had to do some things. I love you and I'll love you until the end of time.
Love,
Your Mother
Draco felt like crying. But he knew he'd have to wait. But he'd get rid of Voldemort quickly – even if Potter had to help him.
"Now, Mister Malfoy, please continue on with your reasoning."
Draco nodded with his eyes closed and took a deep breath. "Well, I eventually... It's unexplainable. I knew I wanted what was best for Virginia when I asked her something."
"And what was that?"
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"Ginny, do you ever think about getting married?" Draco asked rather abruptly. It was an odd question, especially from a guy who was her friend, and nothing more than that. The thought saddened Draco, but then made him happy; it was extremely difficult to understand.
Ginny gave a funny look at Draco. She giggled softly. "Every once in a while I think about it," she said truthfully. In a house full of guys she had no one to talk about marriage and dating, especially when they were immature boys who lived in her house. She felt good talking about something she didn't have a lot of opportunity to talk about it. It was like lifting up a burden deeply in her soul. "I want a sleeveless white dress that glitters when you walk in the sunlight with a long train following it. I want a tiara of sterling silver and diamonds in my hair." She said. She had every detail in her head. She began to blush, "And…," she was too embarrassed to continue with what she was going to say.
"And?" Draco asked.
"I want a man to marry me someone who I truly will love and cherish in sickness and in health. I want a house full of kids, three boys and three girls. Daniel, Luke, and Joshua for the boys names. Kelly, Hallie, and Sarah. Sounds stupid, right?"
"How is wanting something so much stupid?" He asked as looked into Ginny's eyes. It was as if time had stopped. Ginny looked stunning right there at him smiling back weakly, not knowing what to say exactly. Even in confusion, she looked beautiful. What was he saying?
"It isn't then," She said as she slipped her right hand into his hand, the fingers intertwined. "What about you? Have you thought about marriage?"
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Draco continued on, "Merlin knows why I asked that but I don't. I don't think I'll ever know why." Draco said.
Dumbledore was smirking. "So we need to find a plan for you. I suppose..." Dumbledore's thought trained off for a moment but he was interrupted.
"I could pretend to be a spy," Draco said. "I could pretend to be on his side and I could tell him that I'd go to the Weasley's so I can find out more about Potter." He suggested.
That way he could be with Virginia and not endanger her life.
"But the question is, are you willing to risk it?"
"I am."
Snape came in through the doors. "Albus I cannot work with that man," he began but quickly stopped as he saw Draco. "I take it we can trust him?" He asked.
Dumbledore nodded. "Just look at Fawkes." Fawkes was perched on Draco's shoulder.
"Its good we can then," Snape said. "Welcome to the right side." He smiled.
It was the first time he had heard Snape commend him on something that wasn't school-related. He was shocked.
"We should all work this out then," Dumbledore suggested. "So we know everything. Draco would you mind getting Miss Weasley?" Draco nodded and quickly left.
"Miss Weasley?"
"Long story, Severus. You will have to make sure you explain everything about why you went good. Draco considers you a second father and currently he doesn't trust his own because he held things from him. It wouldn't be an excellent thing to not have his trust right about now."
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Author notes: I'm making a website for this and I need detailed reviews on it. Any volunteers? I just need like why you happened to like or didn't like it and some good reasons. OR I'd just love it if some of you guys would send me/tell me your favorite scenes. My e-mail is lindseyann14@hotmail.com so uhmm send stuff there! As for you guys being so awesome, you all are. And all are mind-readers, Gin happened to guess one of the things I was going to do! I love you all. Next chapter expect an official site URL for this. Hehe! Thanks for everyone doing some happy birthday wishing. I loved that. P.S. The flashback was taken directly from the chapter it came from just so I could remind you all that was my favorite scene I wrote. And uhmm... Instead of almost four pages you guys got like almost five pages in an 8pt Verdana font. No complaining that it was short now, okay?
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