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CHAPTER 9 - THE DANGERS OF EMOTION
Far, far away from Hogwarts, in the deepest shadowed depths of the fens, the
Dark Lord summoned his loyal servants to do his bidding and to hear his words.
They came from all four corners of wizarding Europe - from England to Russia to
Albania - and from all classes and walks of life.
And first among them all was Lucius Malfoy - by virtue of his own power and
ruthlessness and the status he enjoyed within the wizarding world. Voldemort
would never have gained the following and the credibility he had enjoyed at his
height had it not been for the support of the Malfoy - reluctant on the part of
Marcus Malfoy, and wholehearted from Lucius. But that had been then, and this
was now. He had no liking for Peter Pettigrew, who even at Hogwarts had been a snivelling
coward, but it gave the Dark Lord much amusement to hold him above his former,
most faithful servants. He encouraged division and quarrelling within the ranks
- he fed on hatred and fear the way the Malfoy fed on lust...
And Pettigrew, despite his privileged position, was completely
terrified...terrified of Voldemort, terrified of the Death Eaters he so
sneeringly lorded it over, and terrified of his former friends, Black and
Lupin, who were just as hungry for his blood as the slighted Death Eaters. But
Pettigrew, even in his fear, retained the native cunning of the rat he was in
truth - he sat at Voldemort's side for more than just pettiness. He could
evaluate and judge his peers - this one was too insolent, this one was too
weak...this one was lacking in zeal.
This one was disloyal...his gaze fell upon a proud, arrogant figure standing
with all the confidence and sangfroid of the aristocrats Pettigrew despised but
secretly emulated. He hated, yet he lusted after that white skin, that silver
blonde hair and the scent, the maddening scent of sandalwood, always so
tantalizing and elusive... He wanted to smash those silver eyes, which had
mocked him ever since their first year at Hogwarts...
Malfoy.
Only the Lord had come - the other, the bastard, had turned traitor and run to
shelter behind Dumbledore at Hogwarts. If Lucius thought the fact that he had
stayed loyal would save his treacherous brother...Pettigrew giggled to himself,
rocking back and forth beneath his master's stroking hand. Proud Lucius. Arrogant
Lucius, who would never turn against his brother, no matter how vehemently he
swore loyalty. Dangerous, intelligent, independent Lucius, who was a High Clan
Lord before he was a Death Eater - Pettigrew knew how he thought, what he
valued; well, well, well, they would test Lucius' loyalty, and see what there
was to see.
Loyal or disloyal, Lucius was bound by his own actions, by his own choices -
and the Malfoy, the strong, powerful, influential Malfoy, would fall; one way
or another, he would see them broken. Maybe then he would be able to exorcise
those silver eyes, finally capture that elusive sandalwood scent...
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Lucius was extremely aware of Pettigrew's manic, intent gaze, penetrating even
through the ivory mask and the hooded robes. Normally the thought of the rat,
lost in the maze of lust Lucius had trapped him in long, long ago, which had
been the last straw pushing him to betray the Potters, would have made him
smile in malicious amusement. But that had been before the Dark Lord had
returned, before Pettigrew had been placed above them - with power to dominate
the Death Eaters not dominant enough to refuse him. He had never caused Lucius
any direct trouble, but he had felt those eyes, watching him, following him, weighing
him…just waiting for him to trip up and make a mistake.
His instincts were screaming warnings at him, and had been ever since Luc had
openly declared his loyalty. Now that everything was out in the open, their
hands could be forced, and now, if he didn't take extreme care (and even, he
believed, if he did) no matter which way the cards fell, House Malfoy lost...
He cursed Voldemort. He cursed his father. He cursed himself, and his brother,
and his ambitious ice-bitch of a wife who valued power and money above all
else, who had been growing restless lately - and most of all he cursed Augustus
Antoninus Snape, whom he blamed for anything and everything that happened since
his father, so opposed to upsetting the status quo, had been persuaded to
change his mind.
He and Luc should have taken longer killing him. Six hours had not been nearly
enough...
He had the feeling that everything could soon begin tumbling down around him
while he watched helplessly, and that Pettigrew would somehow, somewhere be
watching him, giggling and stroking himself, feeding off the sight of the
mighty bought low so that the pettiest of scavengers could tear them apart.
And enjoying every minute of it.
But that would not happen as long as Lucius could prevent it. He still had some
power, some choice - he was still the first, the most cunning, the most
powerful, and he would never, ever bend his head to Peter Pettigrew. Still less
would he allow...that...to ever destroy his family. Not while he was still
alive.
And perhaps, if he was willing to pay the price, not even after his death...
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Severus Snape glided back into Hogwarts, a silent, ghostly shadow, black robes
seeming to float around him, rather than billow as they did in the daytime, his
ivory-masked face inhumanly impassive in the silver moonlight. He made no sound
as he passed, but the corridors seemed a little bit colder, and a silent,
wholly instinctive sense of danger accompanied him like an invisible cloak.
This was not Professor Snape, snarky and sarcastic Potions master - this was
the Lord of High Clan Snape, the Dark Lord's Chief Inquisitor, the merciless,
conscienceless murderer who could and would kill cold-bloodedly for the sake of
power and ambition. He didn't enjoy killing - that smacked too much of baser,
vulgar animal desires which offended his academic sense of aesthetics. To him
it was an intellectual exercise, which was perhaps more dangerous that animal
passion. He was not emotional like the Malfoy – who, despite all their claims
of complete impassivity, were in reality rather passionate beings who quite
often felt all too much - he, as a Snape, could focus entirely on an
intellectual goal and carry through with it no matter what it took.
The Malfoy tended to bring emotions into it - such as hatred, pride, love,
(yes, they believed in love) and all too often, this clouded the issue, leading
them to overreact. Yes, they were quite remarkably controlled, quite strictly
disciplined – but their very nature was passionate, intense, and they burned
all too brightly, often burning themselves out with the strength of their
intensity.
His father had told him this, long ago, when he'd first met the two Malfoy
brothers, and he'd seen the truth of it for himself over and over again. Marcus
Malfoy had allowed himself to be forced into servitude to a half blood wizard
because of his love for his sons. Lucius Malfoy had followed in his footsteps
out of a desire for revenge against the Ministry, and his brother Luc out of desire
for a lost lover, rather than for the ambition he claimed was the sole reason.
The Malfoy, the oldest, supposedly coldest, most intelligent and politically
savvy Clan of them all, could be manipulated through their love for their
family and for their estate. It was all too easy, if you know which buttons to
press. And having gone to school with two of them, having known them as
intimately as it was possible to know another human being, male or female,
being bound by them and binding them in turn – he knew exactly which buttons to
press.
Not that he ever would. Not now.
Entering Dumbledore's office he found the headmaster and his senior staff
gathered around him, awaiting his return eager for the news he brought; perhaps
even one or two had been concerned for him as well. If so they hid it well -
only Dumbledore's blue eyes, so wise and all knowing, and yet so clear and
reflective, showed any concern or any relief at all. Luc had not even turned at
his entrance, and was still leaning against the window embrasure and looking
out into the night at Gods only knew what.
Yes, Severus knew both Malfoy brothers intimately, knew their minds, their
thought patterns and the way they played chess. Knew which buttons to press to
get a knee-jerk reaction; but he didn't know the first thing about the deepest
emotions of their souls, or what could make such an intelligent, analytical,
brilliant mind stare off into the night absently, almost wistfully. He'd never
been able to understand, beyond the love for family and estate and subjects,
what emotions seethed beneath the calm, impassive exterior.
But the Lady had known he'd wanted to, long ago...
He made his report. Who had returned, who had refused the Call, who had hedged
their bets, who had remained neutral. He mentioned the plan to liberate
Azkaban, high on Voldemort's list of spectacular, demoralizing plans, and of
Pettigrew's obsession with the Malfoy, and what exactly it might mean. He spoke
of Voldemort's plans for any de Sauvigny caught in the open without protection
– oh, Voldemort planned to make of his former favourite assassin a most
educational example – and he spoke of Lucius Malfoy, who had been given the
splendid chance to demonstrate his loyalty by bringing his erstwhile brother
back into the fold, and his son too while he was at it.
Watching quite closely he hadn't even seen the muscles in Luc's back flinch, or
even react at all to the news that he had dragged two whole Clans into an all
out vendetta with a Dark Lord; he hadn't even turned around. In fact, there was
no indication at all that he had even been listening. That was the problem with
the Malfoy - even knowing that they could be manipulated, knowing their weak
spots, it was so damned hard to know when you'd hit a nerve...
They had such good masks. He'd only ever seen unfeigned, spontaneous emotion
when they'd given over all control and let the ardeur ride them; in fact, there
had been one memorable occasion in third year, after their Head of House had
been called away, and the Slytherin students had come out to play. Sex, drugs,
alcohol and classical music...and crisp linen sheets, with cool limbs
intertwined so completely they hadn't known where Luc and Lucius and Severus
ended or where they began...the scent of sandalwood had hung in the air like a
drug all of its own, intoxicating, provoking...maddening…
They were generous lovers, both of them - the only thing Luc hadn't shared had
been Kate. Muggle born, she'd been vulnerable in Slytherin; with a sister in
Gryffindor and dating James Potter her position had been even more precarious.
Only the protection of a Malfoy had kept her safe all those years; that and her
natural charm and charisma - everyone in Slytherin had loved Kate, and they had
every one of them mourned her loss.
Even Severus, intellectual creature that he was, had missed her a little. He
regretted her absence, as he regretted few things in life. She'd been so
bright, and when she'd gone, she'd taken all the light with her.
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Luc dared not turn around to acknowledge Severus face to face. The emotions
Snape regarded so scornfully were stirred up dangerously, clouding his reason
and his ability to think at all clearly; oh, he knew well the dangers of giving
into passion. They'd been drummed into him, as they were drummed into every
passionate, intense Malfoy child who learned that it was not at all desirable
to burn so brightly and so powerfully that one burned oneself out.
Emotion clouded judgement. But emotion was the spark that made us all human;
not enough and life was not worth living, too much and life was far too much.
Emotion intensified power. A known fact - and the very basic premise behind the
Malfoy cool mask; they never, ever became angry or enraged without the
strongest possible shielding. It was far, far too dangerous to anyone around -
the ardeur boosted by cold rage was bad enough, even if it was controlled. But
boosted by uncontrolled, hot, mindless rage such as that of a young child – it
lashed out anywhere and everywhere.
There had been a Malfoy once, whose mother, while pregnant, had married another
man, and the child had been raised as a Warwick, a prominent Gryffindor family.
Not having had the proper training, he had allowed his emotions free reign, and
just coming into puberty, when his body was changing and his magic with it, he
had gotten very, very angry... Rage was a very, very dangerous thing. It
destroyed composure, will, judgement, control, and it played havoc with one's
life – it was far more trouble than it was worth.
And this rage was beyond anything he had ever known.
Imagine his surprise when, this afternoon, during the Friday 5th year
Gryffindor/Slytherin lesson which focused on the practical rather than the
theoretical, he'd felt the faintest stirrings of the ardeur. At first, taking
it for Draco using wandless power rather than his wand, he'd sent a mild
warning look his way. But no, Draco had been behaving himself; and there was no
one else of Malfoy blood in this classroom, was there? Surely there was no one
else of Malfoy blood in this whole school, let alone the classroom.
Apparently not.
Ignoring it, dismissing it, he'd gone on teaching, until he'd felt the faint
scent of sandalwood again, felt the slight subliminal hum. Concentrating this
time, he'd tracked it back to...Brandon Greyson. The American boy, whose mother
was a Muggle and whose father was a stiff- necked fool who thought he could
fight evil without getting his hands dirty. The black haired, grey-eyed boy who
could use the ardeur...and yet, and yet, he was fifteen years old.
Kate had died in their seventh year, when they'd been seventeen. Brandon would
have been born when they'd been twenty or twenty-one, surely. Logically,
Brandon couldn't be his son. The facts were too skewed. But the emotion that
he'd been trained to ignore surfaced, raised its head. Instinct, which was more
acceptable, screamed out in recognition. Like calls to like, blood to blood.
Even Draco recognized it, taking Brandon under his wing and into his confidence
in an astonishingly short time.
Under the guise of helping with concentration, he'd held up his palm and told
the boy to match and fit his own palm against Luc's. A fully mature man, Luc's
hand was bigger, longer than the fifteen year old boy's, but the hands themselves
– the fine, elegant shape, the long elegant fingers – were like younger mirror
images. And more than that, there was a...buzz, a reaction when Luc fed ardeur
out through his open palm into Brandon's hand. A recognition, a welcoming.
Blood calls to blood.
This boy was his. His mother, so Draco had said, was an English Muggle who'd
gone to Hogwarts from 1971 to 1977 – her name was Kate. She'd been Kate Evans,
once, of Slytherin house...and she had green eyes.
But that was impossible. Kate was dead. He'd felt her die. He'd felt the soul
bond snap.
And then he thought back to That Night - the night when his whole world had
shattered...and found a discrepancy.
The sudden, rising force of the rage, coming up from his soul, from his
memories, caught him by surprise, taking him unawares and almost breaking
through the relaxed control of Friday afternoon's last lesson. His eyes had
probably gone completely silver, feral in their intensity, his face rigid and
masklike, and he'd almost crushed the boy's hand; from the look on his face, he
had indeed noticed the sudden change of demeanour and been just as surprised by
the cool, amused cynicism changing to fierce intensity as Luc himself had been.
Only for a moment, but a moment was enough to shatter illusions, trust and a
sense of security – Brandon had seen the darker side of his soul, and had been
frightened to the very depths of his being.
And that had only enraged Luc further.
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Snape mistrusted the way Luc accompanied him back to the dungeons. He
mistrusted the cool nonchalance with which the tai-pan had acted all night, and
he mistrusted the way the very air seemed to cool around him and begin to hum.
Very definitely a Malfoy in the grip of some strong emotion. Not to be trusted.
This was borne out when, as he made the fatal mistake of turning his back on
the other man, an all too tangible force picked him up and slammed him into the
door, hard enough to split his lip and cause his ears to ring. He felt the power,
shaped by experienced will, craft aural, magical and visual shields around his
quarters, blocking out any possible help from the outside. His door was hidden
under layers of nasty warding spells already - Luc added a few of his own and
activated them all on full strength. Slumped dazedly against the wall, he saw
Luc squat down just out of arms reach, felt the invisible fist close against
his windpipe and begin to cut off the air. Despite himself, he almost grinned.
After they had gone to see the muggle film Star Wars as teenagers, on Kate's
birthday, Luc had tried to figure out a way to strangle people with only magic,
as they had all seen Darth Vader do; it had taken the combined expertise of all
of the Lords of Slytherin nearly two weeks to figure out how it was done. After
that, though...they'd lost nearly four hundred points that week alone. At the
time, they'd all felt it had been worth it.
Unfortunately, they'd developed the technique further, Luc especially, but
Snape had never thought he would see it used on him by his best friend.
"What in Merlin's name are you doing?" he tried to snarl, but could
only croak. The invisible hand didn't budge.
Luc smiled coldly. "Tell me what happened to Kate," he all but
crooned. Oh dear, that was a bad sign...but what was he saying?
"Kate died, remember? Black," he all but spat the name, "hit her
with a bludger, and she never woke up."
His eyes blazed silver, and with a wordless whisper the world exploded in pain.
He would have screamed if he could have breathed at all. "Liar," he
heard softly, the only thing in a world of pain.
"It's true," he breathed, lungs heaving. "You
were there when she died."
Pain exploded again. This was far, far worse than the Cruciatus; he knew what
this was, if he could just get a slight respite to think...
"Tell me," the voice repeated.
"She died! You felt the bond snap yourself!" he choked it out
desperately.
"Then why is she still alive in America? Why does she have a fifteen year
old son?" Again, the pain, but old training kicked in, and he ignored it.
"I don't know what the hell you're thinking, Malfoy..."
Standing up, Luc crossed over to Snape's own potions cabinet, selecting a vial
of clear, transparent liquid.
Veritaserum.
Holding the potions master's nostrils shut he poured the potion down the man's
reluctant throat, forcing him to swallow or choke.
"What happened that night, Snape?" Oh, his voice was so very, very
soft: not a good sign. Not at all.
Overcoming veritaserum needed a cool, clear and collected mind - he was very,
very good at it - but not when pain was constantly flooding through his veins
like acid, and not when insidious whispers in his ear repeated the question
endlessly, triggering the impulse to tell the truth, and not when the teasing
tendrils of the ardeur tugged at his brain with sandalwood strings...
He opened his mouth and just barely stopped everything from spilling out.
"Bond...snapped," he gasped, almost hyperventilating.
"Not good enough," came the voice, and the agony doubled in
intensity. The voice was angry with him, and it reflected in the
ardeur...images of pain and blood and torture flooded his mind - not his
thoughts, not his memories. He tried to close his mind off, but magic forced it
open, and an Other intruded, sifting through his mind, through his memories...
Oh, it was so cold, he was shivering...where was Luc? Where was his friend, his
companion, his lover? Why was Luc angry with him? What had he done? What was
wrong? Oh, oh, it hurt...
The voice came again, insistent, enraged, ringing and echoing in his head.
"What happened that night?"
As he braced himself for one last resistance, the pain peaked to an
unbelievable high and his concentration was lost. He opened his mouth, and the
truth came tumbling out.
"My father…" he whispered hoarsely. "He wanted her out of
the way…"
Luc's face froze. "And did you always follow his orders so faithfully?"
The hoarse, bitter chuckles were terrifying. "In this, yes…"
"Why?"
The laughter intensified, rising until Luc slapped him hard,
bringing him back. But even then, Snape's black eyes were filled with terrible
mirth. Everything Luc had always known and never acknowledged about his
relationship with the other man was contained in that look.
Snape was almost gleeful as the past finally came out. "She woke up while
you were sleeping..." he smiled nastily at Luc's dismay. "I told her
that you were going to join the Death Eaters, and that you wanted her safe,
somewhere far, far away – she was only too eager to sacrifice her happiness for
yours..." He managed to sneer disdainfully even in his drug induced haze.
And then came the cold, cold triumphant smile. "A little asphodel, a
little wormwood…the Drought of Living Death was more than enough to simulate
real death, and a conscious will snapped the bond - freely given, freely
accepted, freely returned – and then a masterful illusion, if I may say so
myself; and voila! Luc Malfoy, in his grief, turns against all that he could
have been to wreak revenge and pain and death on his tormentors..."
Luc's heart actually stopped beating, for all of five seconds or so. The
tension stretched unbearably, and he struggled to hold back the rage so he
could ask one more question. "Then how is that Brandon is my son?" He
saw Snape slipping towards unconsciousness and repeated the question harshly.
But Snape only smiled in feral mockery, laughed and said, quite distinctly,
"All are punish'd", before relaxing, and fainting.
For the space of about ten seconds, Luc remained still, on his knees beside the
slumped figure of the man he had thought of as his best friend, while his whole
world shattered around him and reformed crazily. Then he snapped, and the rage
he had been holding in check for hours broke free of the chokehold he'd been
keeping on it. The whole world went blind.
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Two minutes later the red haze cleared from his eyes, and he looked about him
bewildered at the complete and utter destruction of Snape's rooms. There was
nothing, nothing that had been left whole - the potions cupboard was smashed,
the potions leaking together on the floor, some hissing in reaction. The panelling
was scored and splintered, and the furniture was shattered into small pieces of
wood and material. The books had exploded; the smell of burning parchment
reeked in the air, competing with the chemical smell of the spilled potions.
All the glass had melted and had been reformed into crazy, unrecognisable
shapes, and the only thing that hadn't been touched was the sprawled body on
the floor, still lying where he had lost consciousness.
Holding his hands to his face in shocked horror, Luc actually saw them tremble,
felt them quivering as he clenched them into fists and pulled himself together.
He hadn't done this since the night Kate had d- since Snape had persuaded her
to leave. It was the very reason why the Malfoy never, ever gave into temper.
It blinded them, took them over completely...turned them from thinking,
reasoning men to beasts and animals that were a danger to everything and
everyone around them.
Just like he'd been tonight.
At least he'd gotten part of what he came for. She was still alive. He smiled,
slowly, dangerously. Very soon, she would be his again. Forever, this time.
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** "All are punish'd" is from Shakespeare's Romeo and Juliet. I thought it appropriate.
