Hey every one, I am sorry that I took a day off, but I had to go to a
Christmas thing, and then my best friend slept over, so I didn't have
enough time to update. But here it is, and update
Reviews are fun.
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"Do you want to ask the first question ..... Since you suggested the game?" Ginny asked. She had moved to sit on the floor with her back against her own wall so that she was facing Draco, who had sat up and was facing him.
"Sure, I just need a few seconds to think of what I am going to ask" He replied, looking around the small room. He tried to remember the questions that he had asked her the first time they had played truth or dare together. He didn't want to ask anything major of her yet, so he smirked and looked at her.
"Ok, let's start with the classic question, are you a virgin?" Draco smiled at her. Ginny just laughed.
"Draco, we have had children together, so I think that answers your question" Ginny smiled. She understood what he was trying to do. Draco was trying to get her to loosen up around him.
It felt unusual, because the atmosphere between them had changed so quickly. They had gone from being enemies to almost being friends again, and it was all because they were trapped in the damn closet again. Ginny didn't understand how the slamming of a door could make them be civil to each other. But maybe it wasn't just the locking of the closet door; maybe they were being nice to each other in order to get some sort of closure on the situation.
"What, it is always one of the first questions I used to ask" Draco replied.
"Oh really, and how many girls have you played truth or dare with over the years?" Ginny asked humor heavy in her voice.
"Well, just you, but if you remember last time, I did ask you that question last time we played" Draco reminded her. Ginny nodded.
"Yeah, you did, now, it is my turn to ask a question" Ginny took a few seconds to think. There were so many questions buzzing around in her head, but she wasn't sure if it was the right time to ask anything major. Ginny didn't want to start another fight with him.
"Do you really like my brothers, or have you just been pretending all these years?" She asked. Draco smiled and ran his hands through his hair.
"Of course I like your brothers, they are all great people once you get to know them. And once they stopped hating me it was easier for me to stop hating them" Draco told Ginny. She could tell that once again he was going to be completely honest with her, so she might as well be honest with him.
"Nice answer" She told "It's your turn"1 1 "Do you ever regret getting married to me?" He asked, Ginny thought of her answer for a few seconds.
"Never, never have you given me any reason to regret my decision, because it had always been the best decision I have made. Even after we started fighting all the time, it was always my best accomplishment. You and Zeke, Saxon and Xander, you are the best things that have ever happened to me. I don't want to regret the decision that brought the four of you into my life. My family." Ginny sighed; she hoped he understood what she was trying to say.
Now she had to ask him a question "Do you ever wish that you stayed in better contact with your parents and your slytherin friends?"
"I never regretted forgetting about them. I knew a time would come when I would have to leave my parents behind. They were my past but I knew I had better things in my future, things like you. And as for my friends, you know I didn't have any"
"How long did it take for you to realize that you loved me?" Draco asked. Ginny smiled at him from across the room.
"I realized that I was in love with you the moment I told you that I didn't need you to be overbearing with me. Remember, I was running a temperature and you didn't know how to deal. I yelled and screamed at you and we had a huge fight, and that was when I realized I loved you. Because I knew that if I cared weather or not you cared, then you had to mean the world to me. Does that make sense?" She asked. Draco scratched his head.
"No" he confusedly admitted.
"I realized that I didn't want to you act like the rest of my family did because I wanted you to care for me in a different way. You proved to me that you cared, but you went the wrong way about it. The fact that I was so angry about which way you cared about me made me realized I loved you, or at least cared about you a whole lot" Ginny tried to explain, but she didn't think she was making much sense.
"That made a little bit more sense I guess. I think I understand what you are trying to say" Draco replied. "So it is your turn to ask a question"
"Same question, when did you realize you loved me?"
"I realized that I honestly truly loved you after you blushed. I had just kissed you for the first time and you asked me why I kissed you. I remember telling you what I was feeling then, and what I thought of you, and then, you blushed, and it was the cutest blush in the world. The way your cheeks heated up and you kind of looked away from me, like you were scared I was going to laugh or tease you. I loved you from then, because I knew that if I could look at a Weasley and use the words 'cute' and 'blush' in the same sentence, then it would have to be love." Draco told her. Ginny smiled. She remembered the day in the closet that he had said all those sweet things. She never remembered blushing, but she knew that she would have.
Draco remembered the day well. They had been locked in the storage closet for at least 12 hours, and they had already played truth or dare together. He had taken her completely by surprise by kissing her and then taken her by surprises once again by apologizing. Ginny didn't understand why some one would want to kiss her, up until that point, no one had given her a compliment. Draco had told the truth, calling her beautiful, smart, funny and strong willed. And Ginny had blushed.
Love had never been on the cards for Draco Malfoy, but as soon as Ginny blushed at him, he had fallen. He wanted the opportunity to make her blush again and again, he had wanted to make her smile and laugh. At that moment, he wanted nothing more than to spend the rest of his life with her. And it had been a mutual plan, up until recently.
"When did you fall out of love with me?" Draco asked softly. Ginny looked over at him.
"I still love you" She whispered. Draco looked at the floor. "I just don't know if I can stay in love with you when you don't love me"
"I love you!" He exclaimed, looking up from the ground. "You are the only woman I have ever loved; you gave me the gift of love. With out you, I never would have fallen in love with any one"
"But do you love me, or do you love the idea of me?" Ginny asked. Draco looked at her. "Do you love me because I am me, or do you love me because I was the girl who showed you love?"
"I love you for you Ginny. Sure, you showed me love, but you also gave me so much more than anything you could ever realize. You gave me hope and understanding, and even now, there is not a day that goes by that I don't relies I am the luckiest man alive. I do love you, but maybe I was right all along, some times love is not enough" Draco replied. Ginny wiped her cheeks and wasn't surprised to find tears there.
Draco watched as Ginny wiped her tears. He was amazed how much the truth had affected him to. It had been the first time in a long time that he admitted to anyone that he still loves his wife. When they had begun to fight, he had just found it easier to tell himself that he didn't really care about her, and after a few months, in some ways he actually began to believe it.
The silence was once again to deafening for Ginny, she needed to talk, and she needed him to talk. Anything would have been better than the emptiness of the room. Ginny didn't know whose turn it was to ask a question, but a question was burning deep down in side of her.
Ginny didn't want to know that answer, but if she didn't ask it now, she would never be able to move on properly.
"Do you blame me for Avril?"
Draco looked across at her, and this time his eyes did well with tears. How could she possibly think that? How could she think that any one was to blame over the death of their little girl?
He stood and moved across the room to where Ginny was crying. He needed to comfort her. No longer caring if he was over stepping the bounds of their confusing relationship or not. Draco sat, and wrapped his arms around her shoulders.
Ginny turned, and buried her head into his neck, just as she had done on many other occasions when she had been sad. He stroked her hair and as she cried into his shirt.
"Ginny, I don't blame you, I can't blame you. Avril's death was no one's fault, especially not yours" he soothed her just as he had just after they had lost Avril.
"But it is my fault, it is all my fault" She sobbed.
"Gin, no, I never blamed you, and the boys never blamed you, so you shouldn't blame yourself" Draco murmured into her hair. Ginny just kept crying.
"Did you hate me because I couldn't give you a daughter?" She whispered. Draco sighed.
"I was disappointed, but I didn't hate you. I was just so depressed. And I am sorry that I made it seem like I hated you, but I didn't." He replied.
"Did I offend you when I suggested that we should have another baby?" Ginny asked, she had always wanted to know that, because that was the time that the fighting had started. It was on that day that they had had their first fight, and it felt like they had not stopped fighting since.
Draco tensed, his arms falling away from her body. He didn't exactly know how to answer the question she had asked. He wanted to be honest with her, but he also didn't want to hurt her.
"I was offended. And I think for just the smallest amount of time that day, I hated you. I hated you for suggesting that we replace Avril so quickly....." Draco began.
"I wasn't suggesting that at all, nothing could have replaced Avril" Ginny replied.
"But it had been to soon Ginny, it just felt like you didn't care and that you were trying to replace her"
"I just didn't want to be sad any more" Ginny replied. There was silence between them. Draco had moved away from her, but was still sitting by her side.
"Do you know how many days had passed between your miscarriage and your suggestion?" Draco asked. Ginny didn't answer, she had no idea.
"177 days .... not even a year Gin, that was not enough time, not by my standards. And I was so angry that you had not even given me the time to grieve properly before springing that on me" Draco sighed.
"I am sorry, it was really insensitive of me to suggest" Ginny began.
"No, you had your reasons for saying it, and I had my reasons to be angry" Draco replied. Then he stood and looked down at her. He began to pace the room, finding the comfortable track from wall to wall that he had created the first time he had been locked in there.
Ginny stood and intercepted his path. Draco looked down at her, a slight frown on his lips.
It was only a second later that his frown was covered by her lips, pressed lightly to his. Ginny took initiative in the kiss, carefully begging him to kiss her back.
Out of reflex, his hands rested on her hips. They ran up her sides, over her arms and then coming to rest on her shoulders. He sighed under her lips, and then pushed her away.
"Ginny, no, don't confuse things any more than they are"
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AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Any way, I will probably update before Christmas, but incase some of you are taking a reading break, I want to take this opportunity to wish you a Merry Christmas and a Pippin new year.
Reviews are fun.
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"Do you want to ask the first question ..... Since you suggested the game?" Ginny asked. She had moved to sit on the floor with her back against her own wall so that she was facing Draco, who had sat up and was facing him.
"Sure, I just need a few seconds to think of what I am going to ask" He replied, looking around the small room. He tried to remember the questions that he had asked her the first time they had played truth or dare together. He didn't want to ask anything major of her yet, so he smirked and looked at her.
"Ok, let's start with the classic question, are you a virgin?" Draco smiled at her. Ginny just laughed.
"Draco, we have had children together, so I think that answers your question" Ginny smiled. She understood what he was trying to do. Draco was trying to get her to loosen up around him.
It felt unusual, because the atmosphere between them had changed so quickly. They had gone from being enemies to almost being friends again, and it was all because they were trapped in the damn closet again. Ginny didn't understand how the slamming of a door could make them be civil to each other. But maybe it wasn't just the locking of the closet door; maybe they were being nice to each other in order to get some sort of closure on the situation.
"What, it is always one of the first questions I used to ask" Draco replied.
"Oh really, and how many girls have you played truth or dare with over the years?" Ginny asked humor heavy in her voice.
"Well, just you, but if you remember last time, I did ask you that question last time we played" Draco reminded her. Ginny nodded.
"Yeah, you did, now, it is my turn to ask a question" Ginny took a few seconds to think. There were so many questions buzzing around in her head, but she wasn't sure if it was the right time to ask anything major. Ginny didn't want to start another fight with him.
"Do you really like my brothers, or have you just been pretending all these years?" She asked. Draco smiled and ran his hands through his hair.
"Of course I like your brothers, they are all great people once you get to know them. And once they stopped hating me it was easier for me to stop hating them" Draco told Ginny. She could tell that once again he was going to be completely honest with her, so she might as well be honest with him.
"Nice answer" She told "It's your turn"1 1 "Do you ever regret getting married to me?" He asked, Ginny thought of her answer for a few seconds.
"Never, never have you given me any reason to regret my decision, because it had always been the best decision I have made. Even after we started fighting all the time, it was always my best accomplishment. You and Zeke, Saxon and Xander, you are the best things that have ever happened to me. I don't want to regret the decision that brought the four of you into my life. My family." Ginny sighed; she hoped he understood what she was trying to say.
Now she had to ask him a question "Do you ever wish that you stayed in better contact with your parents and your slytherin friends?"
"I never regretted forgetting about them. I knew a time would come when I would have to leave my parents behind. They were my past but I knew I had better things in my future, things like you. And as for my friends, you know I didn't have any"
"How long did it take for you to realize that you loved me?" Draco asked. Ginny smiled at him from across the room.
"I realized that I was in love with you the moment I told you that I didn't need you to be overbearing with me. Remember, I was running a temperature and you didn't know how to deal. I yelled and screamed at you and we had a huge fight, and that was when I realized I loved you. Because I knew that if I cared weather or not you cared, then you had to mean the world to me. Does that make sense?" She asked. Draco scratched his head.
"No" he confusedly admitted.
"I realized that I didn't want to you act like the rest of my family did because I wanted you to care for me in a different way. You proved to me that you cared, but you went the wrong way about it. The fact that I was so angry about which way you cared about me made me realized I loved you, or at least cared about you a whole lot" Ginny tried to explain, but she didn't think she was making much sense.
"That made a little bit more sense I guess. I think I understand what you are trying to say" Draco replied. "So it is your turn to ask a question"
"Same question, when did you realize you loved me?"
"I realized that I honestly truly loved you after you blushed. I had just kissed you for the first time and you asked me why I kissed you. I remember telling you what I was feeling then, and what I thought of you, and then, you blushed, and it was the cutest blush in the world. The way your cheeks heated up and you kind of looked away from me, like you were scared I was going to laugh or tease you. I loved you from then, because I knew that if I could look at a Weasley and use the words 'cute' and 'blush' in the same sentence, then it would have to be love." Draco told her. Ginny smiled. She remembered the day in the closet that he had said all those sweet things. She never remembered blushing, but she knew that she would have.
Draco remembered the day well. They had been locked in the storage closet for at least 12 hours, and they had already played truth or dare together. He had taken her completely by surprise by kissing her and then taken her by surprises once again by apologizing. Ginny didn't understand why some one would want to kiss her, up until that point, no one had given her a compliment. Draco had told the truth, calling her beautiful, smart, funny and strong willed. And Ginny had blushed.
Love had never been on the cards for Draco Malfoy, but as soon as Ginny blushed at him, he had fallen. He wanted the opportunity to make her blush again and again, he had wanted to make her smile and laugh. At that moment, he wanted nothing more than to spend the rest of his life with her. And it had been a mutual plan, up until recently.
"When did you fall out of love with me?" Draco asked softly. Ginny looked over at him.
"I still love you" She whispered. Draco looked at the floor. "I just don't know if I can stay in love with you when you don't love me"
"I love you!" He exclaimed, looking up from the ground. "You are the only woman I have ever loved; you gave me the gift of love. With out you, I never would have fallen in love with any one"
"But do you love me, or do you love the idea of me?" Ginny asked. Draco looked at her. "Do you love me because I am me, or do you love me because I was the girl who showed you love?"
"I love you for you Ginny. Sure, you showed me love, but you also gave me so much more than anything you could ever realize. You gave me hope and understanding, and even now, there is not a day that goes by that I don't relies I am the luckiest man alive. I do love you, but maybe I was right all along, some times love is not enough" Draco replied. Ginny wiped her cheeks and wasn't surprised to find tears there.
Draco watched as Ginny wiped her tears. He was amazed how much the truth had affected him to. It had been the first time in a long time that he admitted to anyone that he still loves his wife. When they had begun to fight, he had just found it easier to tell himself that he didn't really care about her, and after a few months, in some ways he actually began to believe it.
The silence was once again to deafening for Ginny, she needed to talk, and she needed him to talk. Anything would have been better than the emptiness of the room. Ginny didn't know whose turn it was to ask a question, but a question was burning deep down in side of her.
Ginny didn't want to know that answer, but if she didn't ask it now, she would never be able to move on properly.
"Do you blame me for Avril?"
Draco looked across at her, and this time his eyes did well with tears. How could she possibly think that? How could she think that any one was to blame over the death of their little girl?
He stood and moved across the room to where Ginny was crying. He needed to comfort her. No longer caring if he was over stepping the bounds of their confusing relationship or not. Draco sat, and wrapped his arms around her shoulders.
Ginny turned, and buried her head into his neck, just as she had done on many other occasions when she had been sad. He stroked her hair and as she cried into his shirt.
"Ginny, I don't blame you, I can't blame you. Avril's death was no one's fault, especially not yours" he soothed her just as he had just after they had lost Avril.
"But it is my fault, it is all my fault" She sobbed.
"Gin, no, I never blamed you, and the boys never blamed you, so you shouldn't blame yourself" Draco murmured into her hair. Ginny just kept crying.
"Did you hate me because I couldn't give you a daughter?" She whispered. Draco sighed.
"I was disappointed, but I didn't hate you. I was just so depressed. And I am sorry that I made it seem like I hated you, but I didn't." He replied.
"Did I offend you when I suggested that we should have another baby?" Ginny asked, she had always wanted to know that, because that was the time that the fighting had started. It was on that day that they had had their first fight, and it felt like they had not stopped fighting since.
Draco tensed, his arms falling away from her body. He didn't exactly know how to answer the question she had asked. He wanted to be honest with her, but he also didn't want to hurt her.
"I was offended. And I think for just the smallest amount of time that day, I hated you. I hated you for suggesting that we replace Avril so quickly....." Draco began.
"I wasn't suggesting that at all, nothing could have replaced Avril" Ginny replied.
"But it had been to soon Ginny, it just felt like you didn't care and that you were trying to replace her"
"I just didn't want to be sad any more" Ginny replied. There was silence between them. Draco had moved away from her, but was still sitting by her side.
"Do you know how many days had passed between your miscarriage and your suggestion?" Draco asked. Ginny didn't answer, she had no idea.
"177 days .... not even a year Gin, that was not enough time, not by my standards. And I was so angry that you had not even given me the time to grieve properly before springing that on me" Draco sighed.
"I am sorry, it was really insensitive of me to suggest" Ginny began.
"No, you had your reasons for saying it, and I had my reasons to be angry" Draco replied. Then he stood and looked down at her. He began to pace the room, finding the comfortable track from wall to wall that he had created the first time he had been locked in there.
Ginny stood and intercepted his path. Draco looked down at her, a slight frown on his lips.
It was only a second later that his frown was covered by her lips, pressed lightly to his. Ginny took initiative in the kiss, carefully begging him to kiss her back.
Out of reflex, his hands rested on her hips. They ran up her sides, over her arms and then coming to rest on her shoulders. He sighed under her lips, and then pushed her away.
"Ginny, no, don't confuse things any more than they are"
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AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Any way, I will probably update before Christmas, but incase some of you are taking a reading break, I want to take this opportunity to wish you a Merry Christmas and a Pippin new year.