OH MY GOD, OH MY GOD, OH MY GOD, OH MY GOD, OHMYGODOHMYGODOHMYGOD!!!!!!!!
I HAVE FINALLY SEEN THE TWO TOWERS. COULD THAT MOVIE BE ANY COOLER?
It was funny, it was awesome, it was to cool. It was Orlando Bloom. It was Dominic Monaghan, it was Billy Boyd, It was everything I wanted and more.
AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!
If you have not seen it yet, I beg you to go and see it, it is so cool. And even if you don't see it for the story, go and see it for the cute boys.
Ok, with that said, this chapter is pretty lame and really short, I am sorry!!! The next will be much better.
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His fingers traced the outline of his lips, thinking of how, only an hour earlier, Ginny's lips had been on his once again. Her deep red, soft, lips stick covered lips had been pressed against his, sending his mind back to a time when he used to get kisses like that for no reason. He had dreamed of her kissing him like that again. But he did what he knew he had to do.
But he had pushed her away.
Pushing her away had been one of the hardest decisions he had ever had to make, it had also been one of the easiest decision he had to make. Things between them were just to complicated, they had been complicated for years now. And her kissing him, although a major part of him wanted it, there was also a part of him that knew it wasn't right.
They couldn't just kiss and make up. Their problems ran to deep now. Resolutions had been pushed aside and kept on the back burner for to long, and now, the pain was well under the skin.
Their problems couldn't just be resolved with a kiss. Draco wished that they could. He wished that all it would take to save his marriage was a kiss from Ginny. But he knew that they needed so much more work than that.
She had kissed him, but why. Had it been because she was in a moment and just wanted to kiss him? Had it been sympathy and compassion because they were talking about baby Avril? Had it been because she wanted to kiss him, because she wanted to get past everything and help their relationship?
Draco had no idea, all he did know was that he could not let her kiss him again. Because he knew that if her lips came to rest on his again, he would not be able to stop himself. He would have no choice but to hold her body to his and kiss her like there was no tomorrow. He knew he would have no choice, that his self control would fly out the window.
And if he lost his self control, then what? Would Ginny still leave him in the morning?
So now he sat, with his back against the wall, looking across the room to where Ginny was laying on the floor. She had cried for a while, and now she was just laying there, staring at the ceiling. Draco couldn't help but feel guilty. She had kissed him, and she had pushed her away.
Why couldn't life just be simple? Why couldn't he have just had a normal life with a normal family. His life started out crap, and now, it looked like it was heading on a downwards spiral. Ginny had been the best thing that happened to him. And then it got complicated.
Complications sucked.
He wished he understood why things had turned out the way that they did. He knew that there was a good chance that it was his fault, or at least half his fault, he just didn't know why.
He looked across the room to Ginny again. This room used to hold so much hope for them, and now it was just awkward.
"Why did you push me away?" Ginny's voice sounded haunted and hurt. You could hear from her voice that she had been crying again. She had turned on her side, watching him as she thought.
"It felt as though you just had something to prove? I mean, why did you kiss me then?" he asked. Ginny sighed.
"It felt right" She replied softly.
"It has not felt right in a long time Ginny, what made this time any different?" He asked softly. "And do you understand what a kiss could do to us, we are all ready so confused about everything"
"I know, I am sorry, I just needed to feel you around me again. I am sorry" She muttered.
"Do be sorry" He replied, and then the silence lingered between them.
"Do you really want a divorce?" She asked after a few minutes of silence. Draco sighed, running his hands through his hair.
"I don't want a divorce, I want us to last, but it will never happen, and we both know it." Draco replied.
"I never saw us ending in divorce, I never would have guessed it would turn out this way"
"No one predicts that it would end this way" He told her truthfully.
"Especially not me. I grew up in a house where my parents had the strongest relationship in the world. My parents have been together 35 years, and nothing ever seems to come between them." Ginny told him "I thought we could have a perfect relationship like that"
"I hope you don't mind me saying, but maybe because your parents had such a great relationship, you were always comparing us to them. And then when we had problems, you considered us a failure because it never happened to your parents" Draco pondered. Ginny couldn't help but laugh slightly.
"I do believe that you chose the wrong career Professor Malfoy, you should have been a therapist." She told him. Draco grinned.
"Well, what did it ell you all those years ago, I am a very deep person" Draco smiled. Ginny laughed.
"So, As a deep person who should be a therapist, what do you suggest to save out marriage?" She asked.
"You want to save out marriage?" He asked. Ginny nodded.
"Of course I do, don't you?"
"Of course, it is just, it was your idea for you to move out, I kind of thought that you were giving up on us" He replied quietly.
"I could never give up on you" came her reply.
"Then I think we have a lot to talk about" Draco muttered.
"Well, I am not going anywhere"
I HAVE FINALLY SEEN THE TWO TOWERS. COULD THAT MOVIE BE ANY COOLER?
It was funny, it was awesome, it was to cool. It was Orlando Bloom. It was Dominic Monaghan, it was Billy Boyd, It was everything I wanted and more.
AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!
If you have not seen it yet, I beg you to go and see it, it is so cool. And even if you don't see it for the story, go and see it for the cute boys.
Ok, with that said, this chapter is pretty lame and really short, I am sorry!!! The next will be much better.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
His fingers traced the outline of his lips, thinking of how, only an hour earlier, Ginny's lips had been on his once again. Her deep red, soft, lips stick covered lips had been pressed against his, sending his mind back to a time when he used to get kisses like that for no reason. He had dreamed of her kissing him like that again. But he did what he knew he had to do.
But he had pushed her away.
Pushing her away had been one of the hardest decisions he had ever had to make, it had also been one of the easiest decision he had to make. Things between them were just to complicated, they had been complicated for years now. And her kissing him, although a major part of him wanted it, there was also a part of him that knew it wasn't right.
They couldn't just kiss and make up. Their problems ran to deep now. Resolutions had been pushed aside and kept on the back burner for to long, and now, the pain was well under the skin.
Their problems couldn't just be resolved with a kiss. Draco wished that they could. He wished that all it would take to save his marriage was a kiss from Ginny. But he knew that they needed so much more work than that.
She had kissed him, but why. Had it been because she was in a moment and just wanted to kiss him? Had it been sympathy and compassion because they were talking about baby Avril? Had it been because she wanted to kiss him, because she wanted to get past everything and help their relationship?
Draco had no idea, all he did know was that he could not let her kiss him again. Because he knew that if her lips came to rest on his again, he would not be able to stop himself. He would have no choice but to hold her body to his and kiss her like there was no tomorrow. He knew he would have no choice, that his self control would fly out the window.
And if he lost his self control, then what? Would Ginny still leave him in the morning?
So now he sat, with his back against the wall, looking across the room to where Ginny was laying on the floor. She had cried for a while, and now she was just laying there, staring at the ceiling. Draco couldn't help but feel guilty. She had kissed him, and she had pushed her away.
Why couldn't life just be simple? Why couldn't he have just had a normal life with a normal family. His life started out crap, and now, it looked like it was heading on a downwards spiral. Ginny had been the best thing that happened to him. And then it got complicated.
Complications sucked.
He wished he understood why things had turned out the way that they did. He knew that there was a good chance that it was his fault, or at least half his fault, he just didn't know why.
He looked across the room to Ginny again. This room used to hold so much hope for them, and now it was just awkward.
"Why did you push me away?" Ginny's voice sounded haunted and hurt. You could hear from her voice that she had been crying again. She had turned on her side, watching him as she thought.
"It felt as though you just had something to prove? I mean, why did you kiss me then?" he asked. Ginny sighed.
"It felt right" She replied softly.
"It has not felt right in a long time Ginny, what made this time any different?" He asked softly. "And do you understand what a kiss could do to us, we are all ready so confused about everything"
"I know, I am sorry, I just needed to feel you around me again. I am sorry" She muttered.
"Do be sorry" He replied, and then the silence lingered between them.
"Do you really want a divorce?" She asked after a few minutes of silence. Draco sighed, running his hands through his hair.
"I don't want a divorce, I want us to last, but it will never happen, and we both know it." Draco replied.
"I never saw us ending in divorce, I never would have guessed it would turn out this way"
"No one predicts that it would end this way" He told her truthfully.
"Especially not me. I grew up in a house where my parents had the strongest relationship in the world. My parents have been together 35 years, and nothing ever seems to come between them." Ginny told him "I thought we could have a perfect relationship like that"
"I hope you don't mind me saying, but maybe because your parents had such a great relationship, you were always comparing us to them. And then when we had problems, you considered us a failure because it never happened to your parents" Draco pondered. Ginny couldn't help but laugh slightly.
"I do believe that you chose the wrong career Professor Malfoy, you should have been a therapist." She told him. Draco grinned.
"Well, what did it ell you all those years ago, I am a very deep person" Draco smiled. Ginny laughed.
"So, As a deep person who should be a therapist, what do you suggest to save out marriage?" She asked.
"You want to save out marriage?" He asked. Ginny nodded.
"Of course I do, don't you?"
"Of course, it is just, it was your idea for you to move out, I kind of thought that you were giving up on us" He replied quietly.
"I could never give up on you" came her reply.
"Then I think we have a lot to talk about" Draco muttered.
"Well, I am not going anywhere"