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Chapter Eight
Support, is one of the many things Jamie never failed to give me. She always believed in me and I guess it made me want to do well in medical school even more. The night before I had a major exam I stayed up late studying. I had to do well on it, and the longer I stayed up, the more determined I was that I was not prepared enough. Fatigue was setting in from my hunched position at the kitchen table, and as if sensing I needed a massage, Jamie placed her warm hands on my shoulders, rubbing them gently. She brought her mouth to my ear, whispering. "Hey.why don't you come to bed?" It was around three in the morning, and she had gone to bed hours before and had already checked on me once.
"I'll come in a minute." I mumbled, still looking at my book.
"That's what you said two hours ago."
"Just a little longer. I have to do well on this exam."
"Landon, you're not going to do well if you don't get any sleep."
"I know." My eyes were so tired I could hardly see straight. I brought my hands to them, hearing Jamie pull out the chair beside me and take a seat. She removed one of my hands from its position over my eye, taking it in her own.
"Listen to me, I know that this is important to you. But I also know that you put a lot of pressure on yourself when you don't need to. It's like you're trying to prove something Landon. You don't have to do that. There's nothing that could make me love you any less."
"I know that." I whispered, but she wouldn't let me get off that easy. Looking back, I'm glad she didn't.
"Do you?" Those two words pushed me to say something I should have said a long time ago.
"Jamie it's just you deserve so much more than what I give you. You made me want to be better. You still do. You believed that I could get into medical school, and I did. I don't want to fail you now." It felt good to say it. I knew I could tell her anything, it just hadn't felt like the right time until then.
"You couldn't." Her fingers caressed me face. "You can do this Landon. Promise me something though."
"Anything." And I would have done anything for her.
"When you ace that exam tomorrow, ace it for you and for Him, not for me or anyone else." I stared into her beautiful brown eyes and nodded.
"I promise." This pleased her and her eyes shined at me. It was a wonderful feeling, knowing that she was happy and that I had contented her.
"Now, are you coming to bed?" I nodded and she smiled, taking my hand and leading me to the bedroom. The softness of the bed felt good, and I felt like I could sleep for hours. Jamie drew my arms around her waist, lying closely to me. She was asleep instantly, leaving me to my own thoughts.
I felt the baby move and smiled to myself, then noting that Jamie had slept through it. I kissed her shoulder, leaving my chin in the crook of her neck. She had once again managed to make me feel better about myself and underhandedly reminded me to give it to God. And with those thoughts in mind, I felt asleep.
When the alarm clock went off, I realized that Jamie was no longer in my arms. I saw her in the doorway then, tray in hand. "Good morning! How 'bout some breakfast? I made your favorite." She was cheerful as always and I laughed under my breath.
"It-it sounds good. Thanks." She smiled and brought the tray over to me, then joined me on the bed. "Jamie you didn't have to do this."
"Hey you have a big day and you should start it off with the proper nutrition."
"Yes, but I want you to take it easy okay?" I tried not to let on, but I worried about her. Not just because of her present condition, but because of her previous. And though she had been cancer free for a while, her health still concerned me.
"Yes sir." She saluted me with a smirk and I could help smiling at her.
"When's your next doctors appointment anyway?" I asked between bites of eggs and toast.
"Today." She said nonchalantly, stopping me from in-taking my next bite.
"Today? Jamie why didn't you tell me?"
"Because I knew that your exam was today, and I didn't want you to have one more thing on your mind." Did she ever think of herself?
"Jamie I want to be there with you though." She gently took my hand in hers, smiling that wonderful smile.
"I know. Its okay, really."
"What time's the appointment?"
"10:30."
"If I finish the exam early enough I can make it."
"Landon don't rush okay. You've worked too hard for this."
"I won't. I better get ready." I kissed her cheek and hopped out of bed. I glanced back at her before I left the room, but her eyes were closed. My lips parted to say something, but I didn't.
TBC
Chapter Eight
Support, is one of the many things Jamie never failed to give me. She always believed in me and I guess it made me want to do well in medical school even more. The night before I had a major exam I stayed up late studying. I had to do well on it, and the longer I stayed up, the more determined I was that I was not prepared enough. Fatigue was setting in from my hunched position at the kitchen table, and as if sensing I needed a massage, Jamie placed her warm hands on my shoulders, rubbing them gently. She brought her mouth to my ear, whispering. "Hey.why don't you come to bed?" It was around three in the morning, and she had gone to bed hours before and had already checked on me once.
"I'll come in a minute." I mumbled, still looking at my book.
"That's what you said two hours ago."
"Just a little longer. I have to do well on this exam."
"Landon, you're not going to do well if you don't get any sleep."
"I know." My eyes were so tired I could hardly see straight. I brought my hands to them, hearing Jamie pull out the chair beside me and take a seat. She removed one of my hands from its position over my eye, taking it in her own.
"Listen to me, I know that this is important to you. But I also know that you put a lot of pressure on yourself when you don't need to. It's like you're trying to prove something Landon. You don't have to do that. There's nothing that could make me love you any less."
"I know that." I whispered, but she wouldn't let me get off that easy. Looking back, I'm glad she didn't.
"Do you?" Those two words pushed me to say something I should have said a long time ago.
"Jamie it's just you deserve so much more than what I give you. You made me want to be better. You still do. You believed that I could get into medical school, and I did. I don't want to fail you now." It felt good to say it. I knew I could tell her anything, it just hadn't felt like the right time until then.
"You couldn't." Her fingers caressed me face. "You can do this Landon. Promise me something though."
"Anything." And I would have done anything for her.
"When you ace that exam tomorrow, ace it for you and for Him, not for me or anyone else." I stared into her beautiful brown eyes and nodded.
"I promise." This pleased her and her eyes shined at me. It was a wonderful feeling, knowing that she was happy and that I had contented her.
"Now, are you coming to bed?" I nodded and she smiled, taking my hand and leading me to the bedroom. The softness of the bed felt good, and I felt like I could sleep for hours. Jamie drew my arms around her waist, lying closely to me. She was asleep instantly, leaving me to my own thoughts.
I felt the baby move and smiled to myself, then noting that Jamie had slept through it. I kissed her shoulder, leaving my chin in the crook of her neck. She had once again managed to make me feel better about myself and underhandedly reminded me to give it to God. And with those thoughts in mind, I felt asleep.
When the alarm clock went off, I realized that Jamie was no longer in my arms. I saw her in the doorway then, tray in hand. "Good morning! How 'bout some breakfast? I made your favorite." She was cheerful as always and I laughed under my breath.
"It-it sounds good. Thanks." She smiled and brought the tray over to me, then joined me on the bed. "Jamie you didn't have to do this."
"Hey you have a big day and you should start it off with the proper nutrition."
"Yes, but I want you to take it easy okay?" I tried not to let on, but I worried about her. Not just because of her present condition, but because of her previous. And though she had been cancer free for a while, her health still concerned me.
"Yes sir." She saluted me with a smirk and I could help smiling at her.
"When's your next doctors appointment anyway?" I asked between bites of eggs and toast.
"Today." She said nonchalantly, stopping me from in-taking my next bite.
"Today? Jamie why didn't you tell me?"
"Because I knew that your exam was today, and I didn't want you to have one more thing on your mind." Did she ever think of herself?
"Jamie I want to be there with you though." She gently took my hand in hers, smiling that wonderful smile.
"I know. Its okay, really."
"What time's the appointment?"
"10:30."
"If I finish the exam early enough I can make it."
"Landon don't rush okay. You've worked too hard for this."
"I won't. I better get ready." I kissed her cheek and hopped out of bed. I glanced back at her before I left the room, but her eyes were closed. My lips parted to say something, but I didn't.
TBC