Disclaimer: Bosco does not belong to me, and is being used without
permission. The quoted lyrics are from the song "A Chance To Sing For The
Queen", by the Minstrels of Mayhem (ahem!).
For A Chance Just To...
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"I'd travel the road
And walk many a mile,
To get to the faire
I would use all my guile,
I'd cross over swamps
And step on crocodiles,
For a chance just to...
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I this what love is supposed to feel like? Is it supposed to be this painful, this uplifting? Is it
supposed to be such a contradiction? You know pain and pleasure all wrapped up into one tight knot in the pit of your stomach? Maybe it is the power of the mystery that surrounds her. I don't know, don't really even care. I just know that it hurts, but I don't want it to stop.
There is something in her that speaks to me, that speaks to some part of my soul that I never knew exisited before I knew her. Poetic huh? What can I say, she inspires that in me. From the moment that I met her, I felt it. Pleasure and pain, need and want. It always seems like she is near me, while feeling so far away. Does that make any sense? I didn't think so. It is like we are always together, but forever apart. You know, she is right here with me, but I can't have her. Like that, like the forbidden fruit.
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"I'd tangle with guards
Just to get through the gate,
I'd cut through the line so
I wouldn't be late,
For the chance to get close
I would gamble with fate,
For a chance just to..."
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No one else knows how much I love her, I can't tell them. They would make fun of me, tease me for being such a fool. I know that I shouldn't feel this way, that I can't feel this way
about her. It just isn't right, just isn't fair to either of us. I made my decision, walked away. I have no right to feel this way now. But I do feel this way, every single minute. It's not so bad when she isn't here in the city, when she is off with Thomas or busy with her dancing. But when she free time, she spends it with me. I'm not complaining, not in the least. I live for the time
that she spends with me, and die when she is gone. Just to be near her, that is all I want. Well, that was a huge lie! I want so much more than that. But being near her is all that I have.
I think that she knows, I think that she can see it in my eyes. Sometimes, I just sit and watch her. Mostly when there isn't anyone else around, and when she is distracted by a book or something. That way I can watch her without anyone knowing. But, sometimes I'm not careful enough, and she catches me. She'll look up at me, those sapphire eyes locked with mine. That smile will creep across her face, the one that is so full of innocence; but hints at deep wells
of knowledge. The smile that never fails to melt my heart. The smile that haunts my dreams. She'll look at me, her head tilted to the side, like I'm some great mystery that she is till trying to solve. Join the club babe. I feel the same way, like I am trying to figure out who and what she is. Maybe that is the secret to all of this. Maybe once I figure out the mystery, I can move on. God, I hope so; because I don't know how much longer I can deal with this.
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"And I'll sing her a song that I hope she'll adore,
A song or a poem and a dance 'cross the floor.
And I pray when I'm finished that she'll give me
Just one more chance to...
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Shit, I've done it again; and she knows it. Those eyes staring into mine, that subtle smile. And just when did she come over here, when did she get so close; right next to me.
"Hey, I have been trying to get your attention for the past five minutes, but you've been off in your own little world again.", she teases me.
"Sorry.", I say, getting lost in those sapphire eyes.
"Don't worry about it. You're kind of cute when you're all dreamy eyed."
Cute huh? Please don't say that to me Ember, I'm not a child.
"Umm, thanks.", I mumble, not meaning it to be so sarcastic.
"I was just going to ask if you wanted to go get something to eat with me and Thomas tonight?", her voice calm and measured, and I know that I have hurt her feelings.
Did I forget to mention the prodigal boyfriend? The golden boy? The very reason that I can't have what I want. The one person she loves more than life, the one person that she would die for.
"No thanks. I...I've got plans.", I sigh; my mood turning dark.
And then her gentle hand is on my forhead, the bells around her wrist tinkling. Those damn gypsy bells! Always around her wrist or her ankle; always tinkling. And somehow that sound is wired into the sexual part of my brain, that tinkling little noise that makes me sweat.
"You sure you feel okay?", concern in her voice.
Oh god, please. Just go, before I go to far. Just go back to your precious Thomas, and leave me here alone.
"Yeah, sure."
She looks at me for a minute, like she doesn't really believe that. Then she turns and leaves, the sound of tinkling bells fading away. Yeah sure, I'm fine. Never been better. I just hurt, that's all. It hurts like hell, but I don't want it to stop.
~Fin
For A Chance Just To...
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"I'd travel the road
And walk many a mile,
To get to the faire
I would use all my guile,
I'd cross over swamps
And step on crocodiles,
For a chance just to...
*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*
I this what love is supposed to feel like? Is it supposed to be this painful, this uplifting? Is it
supposed to be such a contradiction? You know pain and pleasure all wrapped up into one tight knot in the pit of your stomach? Maybe it is the power of the mystery that surrounds her. I don't know, don't really even care. I just know that it hurts, but I don't want it to stop.
There is something in her that speaks to me, that speaks to some part of my soul that I never knew exisited before I knew her. Poetic huh? What can I say, she inspires that in me. From the moment that I met her, I felt it. Pleasure and pain, need and want. It always seems like she is near me, while feeling so far away. Does that make any sense? I didn't think so. It is like we are always together, but forever apart. You know, she is right here with me, but I can't have her. Like that, like the forbidden fruit.
*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*
"I'd tangle with guards
Just to get through the gate,
I'd cut through the line so
I wouldn't be late,
For the chance to get close
I would gamble with fate,
For a chance just to..."
*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*
No one else knows how much I love her, I can't tell them. They would make fun of me, tease me for being such a fool. I know that I shouldn't feel this way, that I can't feel this way
about her. It just isn't right, just isn't fair to either of us. I made my decision, walked away. I have no right to feel this way now. But I do feel this way, every single minute. It's not so bad when she isn't here in the city, when she is off with Thomas or busy with her dancing. But when she free time, she spends it with me. I'm not complaining, not in the least. I live for the time
that she spends with me, and die when she is gone. Just to be near her, that is all I want. Well, that was a huge lie! I want so much more than that. But being near her is all that I have.
I think that she knows, I think that she can see it in my eyes. Sometimes, I just sit and watch her. Mostly when there isn't anyone else around, and when she is distracted by a book or something. That way I can watch her without anyone knowing. But, sometimes I'm not careful enough, and she catches me. She'll look up at me, those sapphire eyes locked with mine. That smile will creep across her face, the one that is so full of innocence; but hints at deep wells
of knowledge. The smile that never fails to melt my heart. The smile that haunts my dreams. She'll look at me, her head tilted to the side, like I'm some great mystery that she is till trying to solve. Join the club babe. I feel the same way, like I am trying to figure out who and what she is. Maybe that is the secret to all of this. Maybe once I figure out the mystery, I can move on. God, I hope so; because I don't know how much longer I can deal with this.
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"And I'll sing her a song that I hope she'll adore,
A song or a poem and a dance 'cross the floor.
And I pray when I'm finished that she'll give me
Just one more chance to...
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Shit, I've done it again; and she knows it. Those eyes staring into mine, that subtle smile. And just when did she come over here, when did she get so close; right next to me.
"Hey, I have been trying to get your attention for the past five minutes, but you've been off in your own little world again.", she teases me.
"Sorry.", I say, getting lost in those sapphire eyes.
"Don't worry about it. You're kind of cute when you're all dreamy eyed."
Cute huh? Please don't say that to me Ember, I'm not a child.
"Umm, thanks.", I mumble, not meaning it to be so sarcastic.
"I was just going to ask if you wanted to go get something to eat with me and Thomas tonight?", her voice calm and measured, and I know that I have hurt her feelings.
Did I forget to mention the prodigal boyfriend? The golden boy? The very reason that I can't have what I want. The one person she loves more than life, the one person that she would die for.
"No thanks. I...I've got plans.", I sigh; my mood turning dark.
And then her gentle hand is on my forhead, the bells around her wrist tinkling. Those damn gypsy bells! Always around her wrist or her ankle; always tinkling. And somehow that sound is wired into the sexual part of my brain, that tinkling little noise that makes me sweat.
"You sure you feel okay?", concern in her voice.
Oh god, please. Just go, before I go to far. Just go back to your precious Thomas, and leave me here alone.
"Yeah, sure."
She looks at me for a minute, like she doesn't really believe that. Then she turns and leaves, the sound of tinkling bells fading away. Yeah sure, I'm fine. Never been better. I just hurt, that's all. It hurts like hell, but I don't want it to stop.
~Fin