Shattered Dreams
Chapter 1: Nothing Left To Hang On To
By: Yuki Obsidian
I don't own any of the characters, I'm just borrowing them for my own amusement. There will be yaoi later on, but since this is Gravitation, it's expected.
My dream was over.
That one person that I held so close and dear to my heart, gone with another, just like that.
I tried not to let it get to me. I told myself countless times that it would never last and that when his heart was broken, I'd be there to mend the pieces back together. But, it never happened. As much as I hated to admit it, my best friend had found that one person just right for him... his lover... his soulmate.
And me? Well, let's just say that I haven't been the same since.
I'm laying on my bed now, arm draped over my eyes and music blaring from the speakers of my stereo. Don't ask what song was playing, because I'm not even sure myself. The cigarette I lit 15 minutes ago lays untouched in the ashtray, slowly becoming just a pile of ashes. How appropriate. That's exactly what's happening to me now.
Even though I never meant for it to happen, I'm making myself sick over this whole situation. I haven't eaten in days, because everything that I do eat, just seems to come right back up...
How could Shuichi do this to me? Leave me to become the shadow of my former self. I know you never meant to. We've been best friends since high school and you've always been a little... well, maybe very naive. There's no way you could have known about the feelings I have for you. We used to always joke that we were lovers, because that's what everyone thought about us. We both knew otherwise though. We were friends, bandmates, compantions, but never lovers. I wish we were but... it will never happen. You have Yuki now and even though he used to act like a complete bastard to you, he's changed and it's obvious how much he really does care for you. I can tell by the way he looks at you when he doens't think anyone is watching. I'm not sure how to describe it... it's like, a deep admiration and happiness. Yuki is really and truly happy with you, Shuichi, and I'm sorry that I never realized it until now.
The CD has ended and now the room is completely silent. There's nothing for me to do. I missed practice a couple of hours ago and I just know Sakano-san will have my head for it. I'll hear all about it tomorrow, if I decide to even show up that is. I know I should, since we have a concert in a week, but it really kills me to see Shuichi right now and to be honest, I don't think I have the strength to get there.
I never knew a broken heart could hurt so much...
I never knew how drastically it could change me...
Me... Hiroshi Nakano.
To Be Continued...
I don't own any of the characters, I'm just borrowing them for my own amusement. There will be yaoi later on, but since this is Gravitation, it's expected.
My dream was over.
That one person that I held so close and dear to my heart, gone with another, just like that.
I tried not to let it get to me. I told myself countless times that it would never last and that when his heart was broken, I'd be there to mend the pieces back together. But, it never happened. As much as I hated to admit it, my best friend had found that one person just right for him... his lover... his soulmate.
And me? Well, let's just say that I haven't been the same since.
I'm laying on my bed now, arm draped over my eyes and music blaring from the speakers of my stereo. Don't ask what song was playing, because I'm not even sure myself. The cigarette I lit 15 minutes ago lays untouched in the ashtray, slowly becoming just a pile of ashes. How appropriate. That's exactly what's happening to me now.
Even though I never meant for it to happen, I'm making myself sick over this whole situation. I haven't eaten in days, because everything that I do eat, just seems to come right back up...
How could Shuichi do this to me? Leave me to become the shadow of my former self. I know you never meant to. We've been best friends since high school and you've always been a little... well, maybe very naive. There's no way you could have known about the feelings I have for you. We used to always joke that we were lovers, because that's what everyone thought about us. We both knew otherwise though. We were friends, bandmates, compantions, but never lovers. I wish we were but... it will never happen. You have Yuki now and even though he used to act like a complete bastard to you, he's changed and it's obvious how much he really does care for you. I can tell by the way he looks at you when he doens't think anyone is watching. I'm not sure how to describe it... it's like, a deep admiration and happiness. Yuki is really and truly happy with you, Shuichi, and I'm sorry that I never realized it until now.
The CD has ended and now the room is completely silent. There's nothing for me to do. I missed practice a couple of hours ago and I just know Sakano-san will have my head for it. I'll hear all about it tomorrow, if I decide to even show up that is. I know I should, since we have a concert in a week, but it really kills me to see Shuichi right now and to be honest, I don't think I have the strength to get there.
I never knew a broken heart could hurt so much...
I never knew how drastically it could change me...
Me... Hiroshi Nakano.
To Be Continued...