FLF: well, well, well. Here we are.
Voices: Us too.
FLF: And this chap is all new, sweet thang. So enjoy!
Voices: Or in other words, drink a hellish amount of that strong stuff until Fur's writing looks like she has talent that you could enjoy.
FLF: Or you could just smoke until you got there. Anyway, I want you to like this, Damnit! So grab that sweet stuff.
Disclaimer: I don't own much in this little old world, but for sure I don't own Digimon.
~*~
Kari's POV
I rested in TK's arms and pretended to watch what was on TV. I felt his heart beat. I felt his breath on my forehead. I felt love again. I felt good. There were three more days until I would go back to school, and I wasn't sure whether to dread or not, but it didn't matter. Right now I had to enjoy every second of TK holding me close. I smiled, when I did go back to school the letters would come again, the poems too. He would make sure that no matter where I was I would be surrounded by his love, and this time I would do that too.
I smiled softly as he placed a kiss between my eyes, and pulled me closer. I gently fingered at my necklace. A light chain held the promise ring TK had given me for Christmas, a thin white gold band that twisted at the top where a small pink sapphire was beautifully faceted. He must have saved for some time to get me such a beautiful gift. I had been speechless when I opened up the box, just as he had been when I gave him my gift. It had been a picture I painted right before break, the two of us dancing, the background- hazy. He'd loved it and I'd helped him hang it in his room. At this moment, right here, lying in his arms I felt I was at an apex. I could tell when I looked him in the eye that he felt it too. Love, life, everything could get any better than it was at this very moment. I knew it full well. Only right then did it occur to me, as it always does when you stand at a mountain's peak, that the only way to go was down.
"Ding-dong, Ding-dong." Chimed the doorbell. I went up to answer it; I knew that it was the pizza guy. We'd ordered about twenty minutes ago because TK and I were staying in tonight and watching some old movies. It would be nice just to spend some time alone, away from the other Digidestined, so I'd treated Tai and Sora to dinner to get them out of the house. TK couldn't have been happier with the idea.
"Ben?" I cried in complete shock as I opened the door, "You're a pizza guy?"
"Not Ben." replied the boy who had a strong American accent, "I'm his twin brother. I'm Logan." He looked me over, "And you're the girl from on TV! Man, Ben told me you were hot, but damn..."
"Um, thank you?" I replied awkwardly, fiddling with an earring. I couldn't think of anything to say to fill the awkward silence, "Can I have my pizza, now?" I finally asked waving some money out in front of his face. He grabbed the money and handed me the pizza.
"Thank you," He said
"Have a nice evening." I replied, shutting the door. But he stopped it and grabbed me by the arm.
"So why isn't my brother good enough for you, huh?" He hissed
"It's not that he's not good eno." I began, but he cut me off
"What is he not good looking enough for you?" his voice was sharp and quick
"No, it's not that."
"Not smart enough?"
"I know he's smart, but I."
"Is he not a good enough artist? Not. what, girl? What the hell's wrong with my brother that you have to go hurt him so bad?"
"Nothing is wrong with your brother! If you'd let me talk I'd."
"If nothing is wrong with my brother," he sneered, "Then why has he been sulking around this entire vacation? Tell me that? Why has he been a sniveling mess? Why? Why wasn't he good enough for you? Why did you have to go and break his heart?"
"I. I have a. boyfriend. and. he." I began to cry. Why did everything always end up such a mess? I hadn't ever intended to hurt Ben, I just had needed TK back and. I guess I wasn't really thinking about his feelings. What had I done? I looked up to find Logan walking down the hall.
"Wait!" I called after him "Tell Ben I'm sorry!" but I don't think he ever heard me.
~*~
TK's POV
When Kari walked back into the apartment with the pizza I knew that something was very wrong. I tried to ask her, but she just shook her head. I thought that we'd worked everything out, what was wrong with her now? Just when everything was so perfect, why was she in such a funk? I sighed. I figured that there wasn't very much that I could do at the moment except get her a piece of pizza and wait for her to calm down. And sure enough ten minutes later with a mouth full of pizza, Kari spoke.
"It was Ben's brother."
"The pizza guy?" I asked her, puzzled
"Yeah, at first I thought it was Ben himself, they're twins."
"What'd he do?"
"He didn't do anything. But he said." her voice trailed off.
"What?"
"He said that Ben's not okay, that he's been a mess all break. He says I broke his heart." Kari looked at me through bleary eyes, "I didn't mean to."
"I know," I reassured
"I just wanted you back, and. God, I was so angry, I just didn't think."
"Shhh." I whispered to Kari who was sobbing into my chest. "You'll tell him that when you get back to school. But right now we have the whole night ahead of us, so I suggest that you calm down and make the most of it. Okay?" I asked lifting her chin so that she met my eyes.
"Okay." She said and leaned over to give me a kiss. "We'll have a nice evening."
But the night just wasn't nearly the same as it should have been.
~*~
Kari's POV
I hopped on the bus to school after getting a nice long goodbye kiss from TK. I put my things in the overhead compartment and took the window seat that Izzy had saved for me. All the way up we talked about my situation. Izzy was so mature. He knew just how to deal with everything and he made me feel very at ease. He told me that all I needed to do was tell the truth and everything would turn out all right. He said that if ever anything did go wrong that he would be there for me, no matter what. And I hoped with my whole heart that this was the truth.
When we climbed off the bus and walked into the main hall of HSA, the first thing I remember was being tackled by Hanae and then listening to her long detailed descriptions of some guy that she met over break. He was supposedly the son of a rich doctor, and very good-looking. She said that he was smart and funny and I smiled when she said that she wanted to marry him. I told her about how everything had worked out with TK. My eyes were scanning the room to see if I could find Kaori, and just when I thought I had, I heard a deep voice from behind me call out my name.
"Ben?" I asked as I whirled around. He flashed me a quick smile. I watched Hanae wink at me as she disappeared into the crowd of students.
"So I heard that you met my brother." He said with a smirk, but I saw that his eyes were indeed sad.
"Yes, yes I did." I replied, "Look, Ben? I really need to talk to you. There's some stuff I need to say."
"I thought you already dealt with that before break." He replied coolly.
"No, you deserve me to be calm. I want you to understand some things."
"Alright," he pulled over a couple chairs for us to sit on. "What did you wanna say?"
"I'm sorry," I began and looked into his sad eyes, "I didn't mean to hurt you, you can't even begin to imagine what I was going through. Well maybe you can. Oh God. Look, don't hate me. I know that you don't want to hear excuses, because there is no excuse for how I blew up at you. How I humiliated you. I knew you liked me, I just didn't feel like dealing with it until it was too late. I didn't know that you didn't know that I had a boyfriend. I just wanted to be your friend because you are smart and funny and artistic and. I just want to be friends. Do you think that we could be friends, Ben?"
"I dunno, Kari. Not yet. Is that okay?"
"Yeah, I guess so."
"Look, just give me some time,"
"You don't hate me?" I asked him
"I could never hate you," he replied, "It's just hard right now."
"Okay. I'll see you around then."
"Yeah, see ya." He replied.
Something about the way he just stood there, so unsure of what he'd just said made me feel so terrible that I couldn't help but tear at the thought. Before I knew it was running back to give him a hug. After a minute, the shock wore off and he pushed me away. He gave me an angry look and yelled, "Go."
I ran blindly up the stairway intending to go to my dorm room but when Kaori wasn't there yet I moved on. I needed to talk to someone. I rushed through the hallways bumping into people until I made it to where I was going. I knocked on the door.
"Kari," Izzy spoke softly, as he invited me into his room to sit down. "What's the matter?" And I told him how I told Ben the truth, how he didn't want to be my friend anymore. And how I'd just hugged him, and how I'd wanted to just keep hugging him. I told Izzy about how Ben had fumed at me, and how confused I was because I should only want to be in TK's arms.
Izzy shushed me and took me into his arms and rocked me back and forth as I cried. He told me that it was okay. He said it was simply my nature to want to make everyone happy and that's why I hugged Ben. He said that love was confusing, but that if he'd ever seen true love it was the love that TK and I shared. I wiped my eyes with my sleeve and smiled up at him.
"Thank you," I whispered, "You always know how to make things okay, Izz."
"Anytime, Kari. You know you can always come to me if you need anything."
"You too, Izzy, you too." And with that I walked out the door. I had some important letters to write and they simply couldn't be put off.
~*~
Dear Ben,
I'm sorry that I keep messing everything up... I swear I don't mean to. But I don't think things can get better until you let me be your friend. I need to move forward and get over this gap up ahead, but your friendship is the bridge that will take me to the other side.
I know that you must think that I'm horribly screwed up, but I'm not. I'm just confused. It's really weird for me right now, but I'm sure that if you build that bridge for me, what's on the other side is a wonderful friendship.
Sincerely,
Hikari Kamiya.
~*~
TK's POV
A couple days after school started I got a letter from Kari. I smiled. She must have written this as soon as she got there. I missed her already.
I hastily opened it up, to find her normal perfect handwriting in sweet pink ink. But I just couldn't believe what it said.
~*~ ~*~
Uh-oh. What did it say???
Voices: Us too.
FLF: And this chap is all new, sweet thang. So enjoy!
Voices: Or in other words, drink a hellish amount of that strong stuff until Fur's writing looks like she has talent that you could enjoy.
FLF: Or you could just smoke until you got there. Anyway, I want you to like this, Damnit! So grab that sweet stuff.
Disclaimer: I don't own much in this little old world, but for sure I don't own Digimon.
~*~
Kari's POV
I rested in TK's arms and pretended to watch what was on TV. I felt his heart beat. I felt his breath on my forehead. I felt love again. I felt good. There were three more days until I would go back to school, and I wasn't sure whether to dread or not, but it didn't matter. Right now I had to enjoy every second of TK holding me close. I smiled, when I did go back to school the letters would come again, the poems too. He would make sure that no matter where I was I would be surrounded by his love, and this time I would do that too.
I smiled softly as he placed a kiss between my eyes, and pulled me closer. I gently fingered at my necklace. A light chain held the promise ring TK had given me for Christmas, a thin white gold band that twisted at the top where a small pink sapphire was beautifully faceted. He must have saved for some time to get me such a beautiful gift. I had been speechless when I opened up the box, just as he had been when I gave him my gift. It had been a picture I painted right before break, the two of us dancing, the background- hazy. He'd loved it and I'd helped him hang it in his room. At this moment, right here, lying in his arms I felt I was at an apex. I could tell when I looked him in the eye that he felt it too. Love, life, everything could get any better than it was at this very moment. I knew it full well. Only right then did it occur to me, as it always does when you stand at a mountain's peak, that the only way to go was down.
"Ding-dong, Ding-dong." Chimed the doorbell. I went up to answer it; I knew that it was the pizza guy. We'd ordered about twenty minutes ago because TK and I were staying in tonight and watching some old movies. It would be nice just to spend some time alone, away from the other Digidestined, so I'd treated Tai and Sora to dinner to get them out of the house. TK couldn't have been happier with the idea.
"Ben?" I cried in complete shock as I opened the door, "You're a pizza guy?"
"Not Ben." replied the boy who had a strong American accent, "I'm his twin brother. I'm Logan." He looked me over, "And you're the girl from on TV! Man, Ben told me you were hot, but damn..."
"Um, thank you?" I replied awkwardly, fiddling with an earring. I couldn't think of anything to say to fill the awkward silence, "Can I have my pizza, now?" I finally asked waving some money out in front of his face. He grabbed the money and handed me the pizza.
"Thank you," He said
"Have a nice evening." I replied, shutting the door. But he stopped it and grabbed me by the arm.
"So why isn't my brother good enough for you, huh?" He hissed
"It's not that he's not good eno." I began, but he cut me off
"What is he not good looking enough for you?" his voice was sharp and quick
"No, it's not that."
"Not smart enough?"
"I know he's smart, but I."
"Is he not a good enough artist? Not. what, girl? What the hell's wrong with my brother that you have to go hurt him so bad?"
"Nothing is wrong with your brother! If you'd let me talk I'd."
"If nothing is wrong with my brother," he sneered, "Then why has he been sulking around this entire vacation? Tell me that? Why has he been a sniveling mess? Why? Why wasn't he good enough for you? Why did you have to go and break his heart?"
"I. I have a. boyfriend. and. he." I began to cry. Why did everything always end up such a mess? I hadn't ever intended to hurt Ben, I just had needed TK back and. I guess I wasn't really thinking about his feelings. What had I done? I looked up to find Logan walking down the hall.
"Wait!" I called after him "Tell Ben I'm sorry!" but I don't think he ever heard me.
~*~
TK's POV
When Kari walked back into the apartment with the pizza I knew that something was very wrong. I tried to ask her, but she just shook her head. I thought that we'd worked everything out, what was wrong with her now? Just when everything was so perfect, why was she in such a funk? I sighed. I figured that there wasn't very much that I could do at the moment except get her a piece of pizza and wait for her to calm down. And sure enough ten minutes later with a mouth full of pizza, Kari spoke.
"It was Ben's brother."
"The pizza guy?" I asked her, puzzled
"Yeah, at first I thought it was Ben himself, they're twins."
"What'd he do?"
"He didn't do anything. But he said." her voice trailed off.
"What?"
"He said that Ben's not okay, that he's been a mess all break. He says I broke his heart." Kari looked at me through bleary eyes, "I didn't mean to."
"I know," I reassured
"I just wanted you back, and. God, I was so angry, I just didn't think."
"Shhh." I whispered to Kari who was sobbing into my chest. "You'll tell him that when you get back to school. But right now we have the whole night ahead of us, so I suggest that you calm down and make the most of it. Okay?" I asked lifting her chin so that she met my eyes.
"Okay." She said and leaned over to give me a kiss. "We'll have a nice evening."
But the night just wasn't nearly the same as it should have been.
~*~
Kari's POV
I hopped on the bus to school after getting a nice long goodbye kiss from TK. I put my things in the overhead compartment and took the window seat that Izzy had saved for me. All the way up we talked about my situation. Izzy was so mature. He knew just how to deal with everything and he made me feel very at ease. He told me that all I needed to do was tell the truth and everything would turn out all right. He said that if ever anything did go wrong that he would be there for me, no matter what. And I hoped with my whole heart that this was the truth.
When we climbed off the bus and walked into the main hall of HSA, the first thing I remember was being tackled by Hanae and then listening to her long detailed descriptions of some guy that she met over break. He was supposedly the son of a rich doctor, and very good-looking. She said that he was smart and funny and I smiled when she said that she wanted to marry him. I told her about how everything had worked out with TK. My eyes were scanning the room to see if I could find Kaori, and just when I thought I had, I heard a deep voice from behind me call out my name.
"Ben?" I asked as I whirled around. He flashed me a quick smile. I watched Hanae wink at me as she disappeared into the crowd of students.
"So I heard that you met my brother." He said with a smirk, but I saw that his eyes were indeed sad.
"Yes, yes I did." I replied, "Look, Ben? I really need to talk to you. There's some stuff I need to say."
"I thought you already dealt with that before break." He replied coolly.
"No, you deserve me to be calm. I want you to understand some things."
"Alright," he pulled over a couple chairs for us to sit on. "What did you wanna say?"
"I'm sorry," I began and looked into his sad eyes, "I didn't mean to hurt you, you can't even begin to imagine what I was going through. Well maybe you can. Oh God. Look, don't hate me. I know that you don't want to hear excuses, because there is no excuse for how I blew up at you. How I humiliated you. I knew you liked me, I just didn't feel like dealing with it until it was too late. I didn't know that you didn't know that I had a boyfriend. I just wanted to be your friend because you are smart and funny and artistic and. I just want to be friends. Do you think that we could be friends, Ben?"
"I dunno, Kari. Not yet. Is that okay?"
"Yeah, I guess so."
"Look, just give me some time,"
"You don't hate me?" I asked him
"I could never hate you," he replied, "It's just hard right now."
"Okay. I'll see you around then."
"Yeah, see ya." He replied.
Something about the way he just stood there, so unsure of what he'd just said made me feel so terrible that I couldn't help but tear at the thought. Before I knew it was running back to give him a hug. After a minute, the shock wore off and he pushed me away. He gave me an angry look and yelled, "Go."
I ran blindly up the stairway intending to go to my dorm room but when Kaori wasn't there yet I moved on. I needed to talk to someone. I rushed through the hallways bumping into people until I made it to where I was going. I knocked on the door.
"Kari," Izzy spoke softly, as he invited me into his room to sit down. "What's the matter?" And I told him how I told Ben the truth, how he didn't want to be my friend anymore. And how I'd just hugged him, and how I'd wanted to just keep hugging him. I told Izzy about how Ben had fumed at me, and how confused I was because I should only want to be in TK's arms.
Izzy shushed me and took me into his arms and rocked me back and forth as I cried. He told me that it was okay. He said it was simply my nature to want to make everyone happy and that's why I hugged Ben. He said that love was confusing, but that if he'd ever seen true love it was the love that TK and I shared. I wiped my eyes with my sleeve and smiled up at him.
"Thank you," I whispered, "You always know how to make things okay, Izz."
"Anytime, Kari. You know you can always come to me if you need anything."
"You too, Izzy, you too." And with that I walked out the door. I had some important letters to write and they simply couldn't be put off.
~*~
Dear Ben,
I'm sorry that I keep messing everything up... I swear I don't mean to. But I don't think things can get better until you let me be your friend. I need to move forward and get over this gap up ahead, but your friendship is the bridge that will take me to the other side.
I know that you must think that I'm horribly screwed up, but I'm not. I'm just confused. It's really weird for me right now, but I'm sure that if you build that bridge for me, what's on the other side is a wonderful friendship.
Sincerely,
Hikari Kamiya.
~*~
TK's POV
A couple days after school started I got a letter from Kari. I smiled. She must have written this as soon as she got there. I missed her already.
I hastily opened it up, to find her normal perfect handwriting in sweet pink ink. But I just couldn't believe what it said.
~*~ ~*~
Uh-oh. What did it say???