Lost (Other Side of Schwarz)
The next ficlet. I've got a bit of the main fic done, but I want to nearly finish it before I post it. This is me trying to get a handle on Nagi's character.
I haven't quite made up my mind on pairings for the story, even though there's none in these ficlets. If you have any preferences, let me know.
~oOo~
I'm lost. Just a child lost in this great wide world. Except... I'm not. A child that is. But everyone assumes that I am. They all watch, and wait for me to fail. My leader automatically believes that I will fail, or betray. When I was with her... I did love her, in a way. I loved her innocence. But it wasn't enough, and Farfarello killed her.
And as for the other... he is such a slut. I sometimes wonder why Crawford keeps him around. But, he's often the only one to help me with things, when it gets too much. Farfarello would just make some crazy little speech about 'god' and who knows what else, Crawford would just tell me to deal with it. Schuldich... he listens. I know he isn't stupid, but how would someone like him know as much as he does. I see him as 'street-smart', not 'book-smart', but except for the fact that he can barely read Japanese, he's smarter than Crawford.
And Wieß. They call themselves 'white' but they are not that different to us. The others believe that I have a crush on Bombay. I don't. I envy him. He kills, but he can still smile, and be normal. His smile, Tot's innocence. I want them both. If Schuldich knows the real reason I look for information on Bombay, he isn't telling anyone. I envy his amnesia, too. I wish I didn't remember what my past was.
He did try to warn me, about getting too attached to Tot. but... he wouldn't understand. Why would he? He's content with his one-night stands, and his mind-games. How old was he when he first heard people's thoughts? Did his parents know? Did he have parents? Did they reject him, as mine did? How did he end up in Schwarz? I know less about him than I do Crawford. That is a frightening thought.
I don't think Crawford realises. He's definitely underestimating Schuldich. It makes me wonder whether I do too.
~oOo~
All that's really left now, is for me to get a fix on how I'll portray Crawford, then I can really work on the arc.
The next ficlet. I've got a bit of the main fic done, but I want to nearly finish it before I post it. This is me trying to get a handle on Nagi's character.
I haven't quite made up my mind on pairings for the story, even though there's none in these ficlets. If you have any preferences, let me know.
~oOo~
I'm lost. Just a child lost in this great wide world. Except... I'm not. A child that is. But everyone assumes that I am. They all watch, and wait for me to fail. My leader automatically believes that I will fail, or betray. When I was with her... I did love her, in a way. I loved her innocence. But it wasn't enough, and Farfarello killed her.
And as for the other... he is such a slut. I sometimes wonder why Crawford keeps him around. But, he's often the only one to help me with things, when it gets too much. Farfarello would just make some crazy little speech about 'god' and who knows what else, Crawford would just tell me to deal with it. Schuldich... he listens. I know he isn't stupid, but how would someone like him know as much as he does. I see him as 'street-smart', not 'book-smart', but except for the fact that he can barely read Japanese, he's smarter than Crawford.
And Wieß. They call themselves 'white' but they are not that different to us. The others believe that I have a crush on Bombay. I don't. I envy him. He kills, but he can still smile, and be normal. His smile, Tot's innocence. I want them both. If Schuldich knows the real reason I look for information on Bombay, he isn't telling anyone. I envy his amnesia, too. I wish I didn't remember what my past was.
He did try to warn me, about getting too attached to Tot. but... he wouldn't understand. Why would he? He's content with his one-night stands, and his mind-games. How old was he when he first heard people's thoughts? Did his parents know? Did he have parents? Did they reject him, as mine did? How did he end up in Schwarz? I know less about him than I do Crawford. That is a frightening thought.
I don't think Crawford realises. He's definitely underestimating Schuldich. It makes me wonder whether I do too.
~oOo~
All that's really left now, is for me to get a fix on how I'll portray Crawford, then I can really work on the arc.