Title:The time for changes
Name: Linn
E-mail: linnrothen@hotmail.com
Raiting: G
Category R/J
Spoilers: Set after the "Lazy,hazy,crazy days" episode and "Haunted leg".
Summary: Rory sends all her letters to Jess.
Rory POV
Suddenly I just stood there, watching him kissing a girl that wasn't me.
Who am I kidding? I knew he wasn't going to wait around for me all summer,
but somehow I wished he would. My shoebox is filled with letters , not a pair of shoes.
Letters only written to him, some finished, some only have a few sentences.
I never dialed his number, not even once. I tried, but it only ended with me changing my mind.
I need to give him an explanation, an excuse or something, I owe him that.
She wasn't happy. I know what she's thinking. I know that she's worried.
I wish I could convince her that everything will turn out all right in the end. But I can't.
I think she knows that I have feelings for Jess that are more than just "friendly" feelings.
After the picknick I had with Jess, she said that she thought that I shouldn't hang out with him because he was "bad news".
But I couldn't stay away from him. I tried. But he was something different. Someone that I connected with.
I had finally found someone that I could talk to about books, music and
about everything else in the world.
Later the same night when I came home from Washington, I took out the shoebox from my closet and sat down behind my desk.
I counted them all and there was 30 letters. That's when I decided to finally send them.
I put on a pair of jeans and a sweater and headed for the diner.
When I reached their mailbox I took a deep breath and put it in.
When I got home I changed into my PJs, crawled under the covers and fell asleep.
Jess POV
I woke up with Fonuntainhead lying on my chest. I told Rory that I would never read it, but here it is.
I put on a pair of jeans and my blue shirt. I hear Luke as I walk slowly down the stairs.
The diner is crowded, but Luke tells me to get the mail as soon as he sees me. I nod and walk out to get it.
I watch some people passing by and into the diner, giving Luke more to do. I smirk and start looking through the mail.
A big envelope is almost everything in the mail, except a bill to Luke. On the envelope my name is written.
I walk back inside the diner, just staring at the envelope. I toss the bill on the counter and I walk upstairs.
Luke calls after me, but I ignore him. I sit down on my bed and open the envelope. Inside it I only find many letters,
there must be thirty of them or something. I let them all fall down on the floor. I pick one up, open it and I start to read.
When I finish it I finally know who they all are from, they are from Rory.
I open another and another, some are finished and some only has my name on it. I slid down on the floor and continues to read.
and I don't even notice Luke knocking on my door, because I'm so busy reading.
He stands in the doorway, saying my name out loud, but it seems like he's to far away for me to hear him.
After a while he just sighs, closes the door and walk back down to the chaos downstairs.
I'm touched by the words she has written in the letters, letters that I waited for all summer.
I might be with Shane now, but Shane is only someone to keep my mind of Rory.
But now when she's back it only makes it harder.
Everytime I see her, the memory of the kiss always comes back to the surface.
It flashes through my head just like a movie.
I can still taste her, feel her hand on my body. It drives me slowly insane. I know that there's nothing I can do.
She has made up her mind. But hope rises again as I read her letters.
I want to go her right then and there and tell her the truth. But I can't. It's not my place.
She is the one that has to choose. Maybe we both have to make decisions. I open the final letter, dated only three days ago.
" I don't know how to speak to you anymore. I'm afraid that you will see the truth in my eyes.
You have always had the power to see inside of me so easy. That's a gift that scares me. There is so many things that scares me.
I know that it's time for me to start seeing the truth. To take a chane.
But there is so many in the way. To many might get hurt in the process. I don't know if I'm strong enough to take a chance.
But I want to. I need to.
I have tried to drive you out of my heart. But you live there.
I have accepted that now."
TBC.......
*How will Jess react after reading Rorys letter?*
Name: Linn
E-mail: linnrothen@hotmail.com
Raiting: G
Category R/J
Spoilers: Set after the "Lazy,hazy,crazy days" episode and "Haunted leg".
Summary: Rory sends all her letters to Jess.
Rory POV
Suddenly I just stood there, watching him kissing a girl that wasn't me.
Who am I kidding? I knew he wasn't going to wait around for me all summer,
but somehow I wished he would. My shoebox is filled with letters , not a pair of shoes.
Letters only written to him, some finished, some only have a few sentences.
I never dialed his number, not even once. I tried, but it only ended with me changing my mind.
I need to give him an explanation, an excuse or something, I owe him that.
She wasn't happy. I know what she's thinking. I know that she's worried.
I wish I could convince her that everything will turn out all right in the end. But I can't.
I think she knows that I have feelings for Jess that are more than just "friendly" feelings.
After the picknick I had with Jess, she said that she thought that I shouldn't hang out with him because he was "bad news".
But I couldn't stay away from him. I tried. But he was something different. Someone that I connected with.
I had finally found someone that I could talk to about books, music and
about everything else in the world.
Later the same night when I came home from Washington, I took out the shoebox from my closet and sat down behind my desk.
I counted them all and there was 30 letters. That's when I decided to finally send them.
I put on a pair of jeans and a sweater and headed for the diner.
When I reached their mailbox I took a deep breath and put it in.
When I got home I changed into my PJs, crawled under the covers and fell asleep.
Jess POV
I woke up with Fonuntainhead lying on my chest. I told Rory that I would never read it, but here it is.
I put on a pair of jeans and my blue shirt. I hear Luke as I walk slowly down the stairs.
The diner is crowded, but Luke tells me to get the mail as soon as he sees me. I nod and walk out to get it.
I watch some people passing by and into the diner, giving Luke more to do. I smirk and start looking through the mail.
A big envelope is almost everything in the mail, except a bill to Luke. On the envelope my name is written.
I walk back inside the diner, just staring at the envelope. I toss the bill on the counter and I walk upstairs.
Luke calls after me, but I ignore him. I sit down on my bed and open the envelope. Inside it I only find many letters,
there must be thirty of them or something. I let them all fall down on the floor. I pick one up, open it and I start to read.
When I finish it I finally know who they all are from, they are from Rory.
I open another and another, some are finished and some only has my name on it. I slid down on the floor and continues to read.
and I don't even notice Luke knocking on my door, because I'm so busy reading.
He stands in the doorway, saying my name out loud, but it seems like he's to far away for me to hear him.
After a while he just sighs, closes the door and walk back down to the chaos downstairs.
I'm touched by the words she has written in the letters, letters that I waited for all summer.
I might be with Shane now, but Shane is only someone to keep my mind of Rory.
But now when she's back it only makes it harder.
Everytime I see her, the memory of the kiss always comes back to the surface.
It flashes through my head just like a movie.
I can still taste her, feel her hand on my body. It drives me slowly insane. I know that there's nothing I can do.
She has made up her mind. But hope rises again as I read her letters.
I want to go her right then and there and tell her the truth. But I can't. It's not my place.
She is the one that has to choose. Maybe we both have to make decisions. I open the final letter, dated only three days ago.
" I don't know how to speak to you anymore. I'm afraid that you will see the truth in my eyes.
You have always had the power to see inside of me so easy. That's a gift that scares me. There is so many things that scares me.
I know that it's time for me to start seeing the truth. To take a chane.
But there is so many in the way. To many might get hurt in the process. I don't know if I'm strong enough to take a chance.
But I want to. I need to.
I have tried to drive you out of my heart. But you live there.
I have accepted that now."
TBC.......
*How will Jess react after reading Rorys letter?*