disclaimer: Yes!! I own Cardcaptor Sakura!!! :P No, not really though. Wish
I did.
A/N: there will be a few implications of... stuff in this chapter that might not be appropriate for younger readers. You know, suicide, sex, etc, etc...
A Guardians' Feelings - ch.9 - He's Gone... by neko_valentine
Sakura was still nervous even after Li had left. Yue tried to calm her down but it was to no avail.
"He said 'Don't come crying to me if you find him dead'!!! How can I not be worried about you?!"
Yue hugged her lovingly. "Do not worry, Sakura," he said. "I am very capable of taking care of myself."
Sakura sighed. She wouldn't be able to stop worrying about him for a long time. Li had practically threatened to KILL Yue and he wanted her to calm down? Not with her past experiences with Li and his angry side...
"Sakura..."
She snapped out of her trance and looked at the white haired guardian that sat beside her on the bed. She smiled at him. 'He loves me,' she thought. 'He really loves me and I love him back. Li was never like this... so compassionate... so loving...'
"Sakura," Yue said. "I hate to see you so worked up over that little thing HE said. Please, don't worry about me. He won't try anything."
~*~*~*~*~*~
"I can't BELIEVE her!!!"
The angry 18 year old stormed down the street, walking at a fast pace. He eventually calmed down and slowed his pace enormously. He now walked, dragging his feet along the ground, head hung.
"How could she leave me..?" Li asked himself sadly. "I only hurt her cuz I was afraid... afraid she would leave me. But not even that worked!!" He stopped and kicked at a can lying on the road.
A sudden thought struck him. Sakura didn't need him anymore. She had her big strong YUE to love and protect her! And she loved Yue back...
It was right then and there that he decided to end all the hurt.
~*~*~*~*~*~
It was the next morning that Sakura was woken up by a furious pounding on the door of Julian's house. The knocking didn't seem to disturb Yue's peaceful slumber.
"Oh well..." Sakura thought out loud. She got up out of bed and went to the door. She looked out through the little window and saw that it was only Madison. She hurriedly opened the door.
"Hey, Madison!" Sakura said cheerfully. Her smile dropped when she saw that Madison looked grave. Very grave indeed. "What's wrong?"
Madison suddenly hugged Sakura tightly around the waist and burst into tear. "It-it's Li..." she said between sobs. "He... he's..."
"He's what, Madison?"
She sniffled. "He... killed himself..."
Sakura looked down at her with wide eyes. "He... what?!"
"It was last night... He stabbed himself... though the stomach. I went to his apartment this morning because he looked really sad yesterday... and I found him lying in his kitchen floor in a puddle of blood!" Madison started crying hysterically again.
Sakura couldn't believe it. She stood in the doorway, eyes wide, stroking Madison's black hair. Slowly, she started to cry. She loved him, she really did. But it was just that she loved Yue more and when Li hurt her, she lost sight of all the love... But it didn't matter anymore because he was gone! He'd beaten her, abused her, and now had to put her through the grief of him killing himself.
'When is all the pain going to end?' she asked herself.
~*~*~*~*~*~
Yue awoke from his peaceful slumber, stretched and yawned. He noticed that Sakura wasn't sleeping beside him like she was the night before. As he pondered on that, he heard the faint sound of someone crying. He got up off the bed and looked for the source.
He found Sakura holding a crying Madison in her arms in the doorway to his house. Tears were silently flowing down Sakura's cheeks as well but if you weren't looking directly at her, you wouldn't be able to tell that she was crying.
"Sakura?" Yue called softly. She immediately snapped her head to the side to look at him. He saw that her emerald green eyes were all red and puffy.
"Sakura, what is the matter?" he asked.
She sniffed. "It-it's Li..." she stuttered. "He killed himself last night."
Yue's eyes went wide. He couldn't believe it. 'Li.. he couldn't have... He wouldn't of! He really isn't that cruel as to put Sakura through that... is he?'
"Oh, Sakura," Yue said stepping towards her. "I am so sorry. I know that you loved him very much, even though he..."
Suddenly, Madison looked up from Sakura's shoulder. "Oh, Yue!" she said, mock cheerfulness, eyes puffy. "I didn't know you were here. I-I'll leave now..."
And she did.
~*~*~*~*~*~
After Madison left, Yue came up behind Sakura and wrapped his arms around her waist. He nuzzled her shoulder with his face.
"Yue.." she said. "Why won't the pain end..? Why is all of this happening to me?"
Yue sighed. "I do not know, Sakura," he said softly. "But I do know this; all the pain you are going through now will help you somehow later in life*."
She let her head fall backwards onto Yue's shoulder and closed her eyes. "How could such pain help me later in life..?"
Yue turned Sakura around in his arms and tilted her head up so he could look in her eyes. "By making it seem so small in comparison." He slowly started to lower his head.
Sakura smiled, a small one, but a smile none the less. Then she tilted her head up to meet his lips.
The kiss was soft at first then turned deeper as the two wanted more and more to forget all that was going on around them. Sakura put her hands up onto Yue's shoulders and desperately tried to pull him closer than he already was.
As if gravity was moving them, the two started moving. They blindly stumbled about until they found their way to the bed. Gently, Yue laid Sakura down on it and she pulled him down on top of her. Slowly, they undressed each other and continued making their sweet love.
~fin of ch.9~
*= I was told this by my school consular when I was in therapy because of depression when my grandfather died. The consular was nuts... PAIN CAN'T HELP YOU!!! YOU MUST LEARN TO FACE IT LIKE A MAN!!!! Or woman, whatever.
A/N: what did you think?? I didn't want to continue cuz I can't write lemons. I tried with this but it sounded like something from a bad porno film... Anyway, R+R plz.
A/N: there will be a few implications of... stuff in this chapter that might not be appropriate for younger readers. You know, suicide, sex, etc, etc...
A Guardians' Feelings - ch.9 - He's Gone... by neko_valentine
Sakura was still nervous even after Li had left. Yue tried to calm her down but it was to no avail.
"He said 'Don't come crying to me if you find him dead'!!! How can I not be worried about you?!"
Yue hugged her lovingly. "Do not worry, Sakura," he said. "I am very capable of taking care of myself."
Sakura sighed. She wouldn't be able to stop worrying about him for a long time. Li had practically threatened to KILL Yue and he wanted her to calm down? Not with her past experiences with Li and his angry side...
"Sakura..."
She snapped out of her trance and looked at the white haired guardian that sat beside her on the bed. She smiled at him. 'He loves me,' she thought. 'He really loves me and I love him back. Li was never like this... so compassionate... so loving...'
"Sakura," Yue said. "I hate to see you so worked up over that little thing HE said. Please, don't worry about me. He won't try anything."
~*~*~*~*~*~
"I can't BELIEVE her!!!"
The angry 18 year old stormed down the street, walking at a fast pace. He eventually calmed down and slowed his pace enormously. He now walked, dragging his feet along the ground, head hung.
"How could she leave me..?" Li asked himself sadly. "I only hurt her cuz I was afraid... afraid she would leave me. But not even that worked!!" He stopped and kicked at a can lying on the road.
A sudden thought struck him. Sakura didn't need him anymore. She had her big strong YUE to love and protect her! And she loved Yue back...
It was right then and there that he decided to end all the hurt.
~*~*~*~*~*~
It was the next morning that Sakura was woken up by a furious pounding on the door of Julian's house. The knocking didn't seem to disturb Yue's peaceful slumber.
"Oh well..." Sakura thought out loud. She got up out of bed and went to the door. She looked out through the little window and saw that it was only Madison. She hurriedly opened the door.
"Hey, Madison!" Sakura said cheerfully. Her smile dropped when she saw that Madison looked grave. Very grave indeed. "What's wrong?"
Madison suddenly hugged Sakura tightly around the waist and burst into tear. "It-it's Li..." she said between sobs. "He... he's..."
"He's what, Madison?"
She sniffled. "He... killed himself..."
Sakura looked down at her with wide eyes. "He... what?!"
"It was last night... He stabbed himself... though the stomach. I went to his apartment this morning because he looked really sad yesterday... and I found him lying in his kitchen floor in a puddle of blood!" Madison started crying hysterically again.
Sakura couldn't believe it. She stood in the doorway, eyes wide, stroking Madison's black hair. Slowly, she started to cry. She loved him, she really did. But it was just that she loved Yue more and when Li hurt her, she lost sight of all the love... But it didn't matter anymore because he was gone! He'd beaten her, abused her, and now had to put her through the grief of him killing himself.
'When is all the pain going to end?' she asked herself.
~*~*~*~*~*~
Yue awoke from his peaceful slumber, stretched and yawned. He noticed that Sakura wasn't sleeping beside him like she was the night before. As he pondered on that, he heard the faint sound of someone crying. He got up off the bed and looked for the source.
He found Sakura holding a crying Madison in her arms in the doorway to his house. Tears were silently flowing down Sakura's cheeks as well but if you weren't looking directly at her, you wouldn't be able to tell that she was crying.
"Sakura?" Yue called softly. She immediately snapped her head to the side to look at him. He saw that her emerald green eyes were all red and puffy.
"Sakura, what is the matter?" he asked.
She sniffed. "It-it's Li..." she stuttered. "He killed himself last night."
Yue's eyes went wide. He couldn't believe it. 'Li.. he couldn't have... He wouldn't of! He really isn't that cruel as to put Sakura through that... is he?'
"Oh, Sakura," Yue said stepping towards her. "I am so sorry. I know that you loved him very much, even though he..."
Suddenly, Madison looked up from Sakura's shoulder. "Oh, Yue!" she said, mock cheerfulness, eyes puffy. "I didn't know you were here. I-I'll leave now..."
And she did.
~*~*~*~*~*~
After Madison left, Yue came up behind Sakura and wrapped his arms around her waist. He nuzzled her shoulder with his face.
"Yue.." she said. "Why won't the pain end..? Why is all of this happening to me?"
Yue sighed. "I do not know, Sakura," he said softly. "But I do know this; all the pain you are going through now will help you somehow later in life*."
She let her head fall backwards onto Yue's shoulder and closed her eyes. "How could such pain help me later in life..?"
Yue turned Sakura around in his arms and tilted her head up so he could look in her eyes. "By making it seem so small in comparison." He slowly started to lower his head.
Sakura smiled, a small one, but a smile none the less. Then she tilted her head up to meet his lips.
The kiss was soft at first then turned deeper as the two wanted more and more to forget all that was going on around them. Sakura put her hands up onto Yue's shoulders and desperately tried to pull him closer than he already was.
As if gravity was moving them, the two started moving. They blindly stumbled about until they found their way to the bed. Gently, Yue laid Sakura down on it and she pulled him down on top of her. Slowly, they undressed each other and continued making their sweet love.
~fin of ch.9~
*= I was told this by my school consular when I was in therapy because of depression when my grandfather died. The consular was nuts... PAIN CAN'T HELP YOU!!! YOU MUST LEARN TO FACE IT LIKE A MAN!!!! Or woman, whatever.
A/N: what did you think?? I didn't want to continue cuz I can't write lemons. I tried with this but it sounded like something from a bad porno film... Anyway, R+R plz.