A/N: Thoughts of Stark over how he feels about Rygel.
Warning: This fic contains slash. That means members of the same sex together. (This fic contains nothing graphic but has male liking male.) If this is not to your taste then please go away now.
Disclaimer: I own the bar. Farscape belongs to whoever owns it (I forgot). I do not own it though so don't sue me.
There wasn't too many people in the bar. It was late. That was why. I don't care. I ordered another Raslack (sp?), Chiana was right. It was good for taking your thoughts of your troubles. Just not good enough.
"I'm sorry. We've closed. You'll have to leave." The bartender said to me.
"I'm not leaving."
"Yeah you are." He said. The next thing I knew I had been thrown out of the bar and into the streets of this pathetic comerce planet.
It was dark. I didn't care.
It was raining. I didn't care.
It was dangerous. I didn't care.
I didn't care for much anymore.
I hadn't for ages. I think that I might have forgotten how.
Everyone aboard Talyn recons that I'm upset over Zhaan, they don't know the real reason why I'm acting like this.
A while ago I didn't even know why I was acting like this.
I know now though.
I'm in love.
With Dominar Rygel 16th.
Pathetic I know but I suppose that I am a pathetic kind of person.
I can't stop thinking of him.
I want him to notice me every solar day.
I hate myself for being so stupid.
I now have nowhere to go.
Personally, I don't care.
I take his barbs all the time, it pains me deep inside to be insulted by him.
To have nothing good said about me.
Nothing at all.
I wake up in the morning.
My head hurts.
I drank too much.
Crichton says that it is a hangover.
I don't care anymore.
Rygel says I'm a frelling idiot.
I'm glad that he noticed me. Spoke to me even if it is not the words I want him to say.
Crichton tells me him and Aeryn are together. He says that love is a wonderful thing.
He's wrong.
Love is a terrible thing.
A/N: Well, what did you think? This is more depressing than I thought it would be and my fics aren't usually like this. This started out in my head as a cheerful fic but alas it was not to be. Anyway, please R/R.