A/N Aight, another section of Riff's life. This one deals from where the last one left off, to right before they leave for earth. Dunno how many more chapters there are going to be…….but do enjoy this part!!
July 18
I don't know what's gotten into me but I've been looking at everything that walks differently. With eager eyes. I've gotten almost as bad as the prince. But I don't know if there is anyone on the planet that can get as bad as Frank. But at least Frank is beautiful. I'm the ugly one. I'm the ugly slave labor. Frank and Magenta are the only two who'll look at me. Frank, only because I'm another person, just another conquest. But Magenta, she's been looking at me, almost as if pleading with me to go after her again. I want to, I want to so badly, but it just seems…..wrong.
October 30
My 16th birthday. I don't know how much longer I can last without going after someone. But no girls seem interested in me. And I've had to drop out of school. We needed the money too badly. Mom hasn't been here since last year. I'm stuck supporting the two of us myself. Magenta's almost old enough to work. But I don't want her to wind up like me. She's just as brilliant as I am. She just needs to apply herself. She needs to focus on school. I keep telling her that, I keep telling her to keep her mind on her studies, that I can manage the house just fine. But I feel so guilty. Because, in fact, the house is starting to fall apart. But it's a roof over our heads. It's something.
February 16
I couldn't hold out any more. She was sitting on the couch next to me, and I just leaned in and kissed her. and she didn't resist, she didn't push me away. If anything, she welcomed it. She welcomed it, and returned it. But it was over too quickly. I pulled back. It isn't right. It isn't. but yet, it feels perfect. I want so badly to do something more. But I can't. I have to look out for her, I'm supposed to be protecting her. I'm suppose to make sure she lives a normal life. I'm supposed to make sure that she doesn't turn out like me.
April 15
Magenta's 12th birthday. She seems so much older than she really is. She's so mature. She's been looking at me almost as eagerly as I've been looking at every one else. i want nothing more than to take her. but I refuse to give in. At least I get some pleasure now from what's become almost daily sessions with Frank. But I know that I mean nothing to him. how can I? he has his choice of anyone. I'm just the one who's there for instant pleasure. Right at his beck and call. I don't know why Magenta looks at me the way she does. She's beautiful enough to have any man she chooses. And yet, she looks to me. I hate it, because it's only more temptation to go after her, more temptation to do what I've been dreaming about.
September 7
Magenta gave up waiting, and made a move on me herself. It felt wonderful. But I let her down when I backed out. She tried again, but I stayed firm in my decision. But I dream about her. And last night, she had a nightmare, and came to sleep with me in my bed. I had to sleep facing away from her, to stop her from realizing how much I wanted her. I don't know if I can stand it any more. I don't know how I'll act the next time she tries to make a move on me.
October 30
I'm almost an adult now, I'm 17. but I don't feel it. I feel so much older. And yet, I feel so much younger. I never had a chance to fully experience what all the other kids did. I never had a full childhood. That's why I want Magenta to do everything I didn't. I want her to have a chance to really experience life. More than I did. She tried to get me to give in, claiming that it would be my birthday present, but I had to resist. I just can't give in. she's too young, to fragile.
January 8
She forced me to go farther than I ever have before with her today. It still wasn't as far as either of us would have liked, but she's still in my opinion, too young to experience any of this. We barely went beyond necking, but I found myself in my bedroom, picturing the scene that I had seen so often in my dreams. I hate how she can get at me like that, but I love her so dearly, I put her above everything else, even my life.
April 15
Magenta turned 13. she's just as manipulative as Frank can be. She tried to trick me into giving her what she wanted. I've made up my mind, the next time she tries to go after me, I'll give up, it's driving me insane resisting her. She's already been accepted for a job at the castle, working with me and Frank. At least I'll be able to see her when she get out of school. Which is more than I normally see her.
July 18
At least now I can have no qualms about Magenta being to young. She came to me, and told me what happened rather simply. Frank deflowered her, took her and left her. and yet, she didn't care. But now, now I can have her and not feel guilty about her being so young. But she deserves Frank more than she deserves me. Frank can give her so much. But he'll never look at her any more than he looks at me. To him, we're nothing more than servants.
October 30
I'm officially an adult, officially 18. But I feel no different. Except for perhaps the fact that I finally gave in to Magenta. She finally eroded my defenses. And it was the best feeling in the entire world. Better than in my dreams. Much better than with Frank. I savoured every moment of it. And so did she. She didn't seem to mind a bit. She seemed to be enjoying it almost as much as i. and I thought that there was nothing that could compare. I love her so much, so much that it hurts.
March 18
There's talk about the possibility of a mission to earth. And talk of sending Frank with it. And if Frank goes, it means that Magenta and myself have to go. I hope we don't have to go, I like it where we are, thank you very much.
April 15
Magenta and I both took the day off to celebrate her birthday. I surprised her by taking us out. we haven't eaten out in the longest time. Not since mom left for good. Almost 4 years ago. And I gave her what she called the best birthday present ever. I don't know about that. But I just hope that she enjoyed it even more than she let on.
August 20
The mission to Earth has been deemed official. But it's not going on for another few years. At least we have another few years here on Transexual.
October 30
My 19th birthday. Frank's let up on Magenta and I. He's found some of the higher nobles to be worth his time more than lowly servants like us. But as much as I hated it, I miss the sessions in a way. But I still have Magenta, she's still the one waiting for me every night.
April 15
I haven't had any time to write. Frank's been keeping us so busy, doing something or other. Ever since he officially became an adult, he's found great pleasure in excerting his newfound authority on us. Magenta's 15th birthday. Not much to note other than that. But that's always something to note. She's gotten a body to match her beauty, which grows with every day. I swear, every day, she grows more and more beautiful.
July 8
Frank's starting to try my nerves. I hate him. Now not only does he demand all this work from Magenta and myself, but he also wants us to pleasure him whenever he wishes. Sometimes it's only one of us, but sometimes, he forces the two of us to pleasure him at the same time. At least those times, I sort of get the chance to be with Magenta. I love her more and more every day.
October 30
My 20th birthday. The mission to Earth is supposed to start in a few months. I hate it. I don't want to go. But we have to. At least I'll have Magenta with me. That's one comforting thought. At least I'll have her. at least I'll have the one I love.