Don't Cry, Don't Beg: Swallow Up My Mind (I See)
A/N: Ok, here we are again! This one
Disclaimer: I own some songs, Ro, Malene, Lyn, Bren, the plot, Bia, and Ro's family.
Rating: PG-13 for curse words and issues to be named later
Genre: Romance/Drama
Summary: Lily and James are in love. But Lily's best friend Ro still hates all of James' friends- especially the one in love with her. Can Ro, who's been closed off to love for so long, find love with a person she now considers an enemy? Sirius/Ro, Remus/New character. Read 'When I Fall Down Who Will Pick Me Up' before reading this.
~*~Chapter 2: Won't Give Up~*~
Ro sat down next to Lily and James in the common room, leaning on the arm of the large couch. She groaned at the firelight and turned towards the couch. "Light..... bad...... dark..... good......." she muttered.
"Go to sleep, Ro!" Lily exclaimed.
Ro shook her head. "Can't. Can't move."
Lily groaned. "I give up!" she finally cried, standing up and pulling James with her, dragging him up the stairs to the girl's dorm.
Ro felt a hand on her shoulder. "Go away," she muttered.
"We need to talk," Sirius said from behind her. Ro flipped over quickly, all tiredness gone.
"Why do you keep trying to talk to me?" Ro asked.
"Because I like you, Ro," Sirius said calmly, sitting next to her.
"But I don't like you," Ro reminded him.
"You will," Sirius said calmly. "I'm not giving up." He got up and left, going up to his dorm.
Ro sighed and sat up, then picked up her guitar from where she'd left it that afternoon. She started playing one of her favorite songs.
"I recommend getting your heart trampled on to anyone I recommend walking around naked in your living room Swallow it down (what a jagged little pill) It feels so good (swimming in your stomach) Wait until the dust settles
You live, you learn; you love, you learn You cry, you learn; you lose, you learn You bleed, you learn; you scream, you learn
I recommend biting off more than you can chew to anyone I certainly do I recommend sticking your foot in your mouth at anytime Feel free Throw it down (the caution blocks you from the wind) Hold it up (to the rays) You wait and see when the smoke clears
You live, you learn; you love, you learn You cry, you learn; you lose, you learn You bleed, you learn; you scream, you learn
I recommend; I recommend I recommend; I recommend
Wear it out (like a three-year-old would do) Melt it down (you're gonna have to eventually anyway) The fire trucks are coming up around the bend
You live, you learn; you love, you learn You cry, you learn; you lose, you learn You bleed, you learn; you scream, you learn
You grieve, you learn; you choke, you learn You laugh, you learn; you choose, you learn You pray, you learn; you ask, you learn You live, you learn "
She finished the song and laid back, falling asleep with a clear head.
~*~
Ro ran onto the Quidditch field, holding her broom tightly in one hand, with a quill and parchment in the other.
She mounted the broom and kicked off, leaning against the broom. It went high, fast. She sat up quickly, straightening the broom so it flew straight. Her legs trembling slightly, she pulled in her feet so the crooks fit around the broom, charming it to temporarily be glued there. She stood on the broom, still holding the quill and parchment, in a position resembling a surfer on top of a wave. She let go of the parchment, quickly spelling it to hold in mid-air in front of her. The quill laid on the paper until she cleared her throat. Then it jumped to attention, the black feather in front of her eyes.
She thought a few minutes, humming softly. A few minutes later she started singing.
"Knives can cut you deep But they can also slip Who wants to die When I just wanted to see the blood?
"So I'll take my chances with a paper clip Small enough to control No one has to ever know
I'll take my paper clip cuts They're as sharp as a knife's"
She took her time thinking as the quill hurried to finish the last sentence.
"Boo," someone whispered behind Ro. She lost her balance and fell backwards, into Sirius.
"You!'' she shouted when she was standing on her broom again. "Idiot!"
"Who, me?" Sirius asked innocently. Ro glared at him as her rose higher on his broom to be eye-to-eye with her.
Ro groaned. "Get AWAY from me, Black!" she shouted, crossing her arms.
"We need to talk," Sirius announced, ignoring her.
"About what?" Ro snarled.
"You and me."
"Then there's nothing to talk about."
Sirius grabbed her arms and pulled her closer.
"Get OFF me," Ro shouted, "Or I'll-"
But Sirius didn't hear what she'd do to him, because he kissed her, hard. She tried to struggle away, but he was stronger then her, holding her there. Finally, she pushed him away and pulled out of his grip.
"WHAT THE HELL DO YOU THINK YOU'RE DOING, BLACK?!?!?!?!?!" Ro shouted, punching him in the stomach.
"Oof," Sirius groaned, holding his stomach with one hand. "You sure can pack a punch."
"Then don't kiss me," Ro growled.
Sirius didn't know what to say about that.
"Now get away," Ro said, dangerously soft.
Sirius didn't move. "We used to be friends- remember?" he asked, then paused. "We almost were more."
Ro softened, sitting down on her broom now. "I remember," she half- whispered. She shook her head, clearing it. "But that was then, Sirius. Things are different."
"I haven't changed that much," Sirius said, taking her hand.
"But I have," Ro said, sighing. "Three years have passed since we were friends- I'm different now. You're different. It's all changed."
He raised his hand to her cheek, keeping it there when she didn't flinch or pull away. "Ro- one thing has changed," he whispered. "Before, I just wanted to be your friend. Now- I love you, Ro."
Ro sighed. "I don't- I CAN'T love you," she told him, coming closer. "It would just hurt us both." She hugged him. "Sirius- we aren't who we were. Everything we both have now, everything would change. I'll always remember our friendship, though."
She pulled back, and Sirius sighed. "I won't give up on you. You're different then other girls, Ro. That's why I love you. You'll love me one day." Then he left.
"Goodbye, Sirius," Ro whispered, watching him leave. She started to cry, breaking all her previous spells. "Forever."
The parchment, full of writing, drifted slowly to the ground.
~*~
Lily picked the piece of parchment from the air, reading it and smiling. She read the entire conversation and turned to James.
"They'll fall in love," she predicted confidently as she handed him the parchment. "You can count on it."
~*~
A/N: Here we are- the second chapter! Hope you loved it as much as I did!!!
To my reviewers:
SiriDragon: LoL. Don't worry, Ro's my fave. I won't hurt her too much. And yeah, don't Ro and Sirius go good together? :)
MarauderChic-Stripes: Thanks! And I agree! And I'll check out your story!
A/N: Ok, here we are again! This one
Disclaimer: I own some songs, Ro, Malene, Lyn, Bren, the plot, Bia, and Ro's family.
Rating: PG-13 for curse words and issues to be named later
Genre: Romance/Drama
Summary: Lily and James are in love. But Lily's best friend Ro still hates all of James' friends- especially the one in love with her. Can Ro, who's been closed off to love for so long, find love with a person she now considers an enemy? Sirius/Ro, Remus/New character. Read 'When I Fall Down Who Will Pick Me Up' before reading this.
~*~Chapter 2: Won't Give Up~*~
Ro sat down next to Lily and James in the common room, leaning on the arm of the large couch. She groaned at the firelight and turned towards the couch. "Light..... bad...... dark..... good......." she muttered.
"Go to sleep, Ro!" Lily exclaimed.
Ro shook her head. "Can't. Can't move."
Lily groaned. "I give up!" she finally cried, standing up and pulling James with her, dragging him up the stairs to the girl's dorm.
Ro felt a hand on her shoulder. "Go away," she muttered.
"We need to talk," Sirius said from behind her. Ro flipped over quickly, all tiredness gone.
"Why do you keep trying to talk to me?" Ro asked.
"Because I like you, Ro," Sirius said calmly, sitting next to her.
"But I don't like you," Ro reminded him.
"You will," Sirius said calmly. "I'm not giving up." He got up and left, going up to his dorm.
Ro sighed and sat up, then picked up her guitar from where she'd left it that afternoon. She started playing one of her favorite songs.
"I recommend getting your heart trampled on to anyone I recommend walking around naked in your living room Swallow it down (what a jagged little pill) It feels so good (swimming in your stomach) Wait until the dust settles
You live, you learn; you love, you learn You cry, you learn; you lose, you learn You bleed, you learn; you scream, you learn
I recommend biting off more than you can chew to anyone I certainly do I recommend sticking your foot in your mouth at anytime Feel free Throw it down (the caution blocks you from the wind) Hold it up (to the rays) You wait and see when the smoke clears
You live, you learn; you love, you learn You cry, you learn; you lose, you learn You bleed, you learn; you scream, you learn
I recommend; I recommend I recommend; I recommend
Wear it out (like a three-year-old would do) Melt it down (you're gonna have to eventually anyway) The fire trucks are coming up around the bend
You live, you learn; you love, you learn You cry, you learn; you lose, you learn You bleed, you learn; you scream, you learn
You grieve, you learn; you choke, you learn You laugh, you learn; you choose, you learn You pray, you learn; you ask, you learn You live, you learn "
She finished the song and laid back, falling asleep with a clear head.
~*~
Ro ran onto the Quidditch field, holding her broom tightly in one hand, with a quill and parchment in the other.
She mounted the broom and kicked off, leaning against the broom. It went high, fast. She sat up quickly, straightening the broom so it flew straight. Her legs trembling slightly, she pulled in her feet so the crooks fit around the broom, charming it to temporarily be glued there. She stood on the broom, still holding the quill and parchment, in a position resembling a surfer on top of a wave. She let go of the parchment, quickly spelling it to hold in mid-air in front of her. The quill laid on the paper until she cleared her throat. Then it jumped to attention, the black feather in front of her eyes.
She thought a few minutes, humming softly. A few minutes later she started singing.
"Knives can cut you deep But they can also slip Who wants to die When I just wanted to see the blood?
"So I'll take my chances with a paper clip Small enough to control No one has to ever know
I'll take my paper clip cuts They're as sharp as a knife's"
She took her time thinking as the quill hurried to finish the last sentence.
"Boo," someone whispered behind Ro. She lost her balance and fell backwards, into Sirius.
"You!'' she shouted when she was standing on her broom again. "Idiot!"
"Who, me?" Sirius asked innocently. Ro glared at him as her rose higher on his broom to be eye-to-eye with her.
Ro groaned. "Get AWAY from me, Black!" she shouted, crossing her arms.
"We need to talk," Sirius announced, ignoring her.
"About what?" Ro snarled.
"You and me."
"Then there's nothing to talk about."
Sirius grabbed her arms and pulled her closer.
"Get OFF me," Ro shouted, "Or I'll-"
But Sirius didn't hear what she'd do to him, because he kissed her, hard. She tried to struggle away, but he was stronger then her, holding her there. Finally, she pushed him away and pulled out of his grip.
"WHAT THE HELL DO YOU THINK YOU'RE DOING, BLACK?!?!?!?!?!" Ro shouted, punching him in the stomach.
"Oof," Sirius groaned, holding his stomach with one hand. "You sure can pack a punch."
"Then don't kiss me," Ro growled.
Sirius didn't know what to say about that.
"Now get away," Ro said, dangerously soft.
Sirius didn't move. "We used to be friends- remember?" he asked, then paused. "We almost were more."
Ro softened, sitting down on her broom now. "I remember," she half- whispered. She shook her head, clearing it. "But that was then, Sirius. Things are different."
"I haven't changed that much," Sirius said, taking her hand.
"But I have," Ro said, sighing. "Three years have passed since we were friends- I'm different now. You're different. It's all changed."
He raised his hand to her cheek, keeping it there when she didn't flinch or pull away. "Ro- one thing has changed," he whispered. "Before, I just wanted to be your friend. Now- I love you, Ro."
Ro sighed. "I don't- I CAN'T love you," she told him, coming closer. "It would just hurt us both." She hugged him. "Sirius- we aren't who we were. Everything we both have now, everything would change. I'll always remember our friendship, though."
She pulled back, and Sirius sighed. "I won't give up on you. You're different then other girls, Ro. That's why I love you. You'll love me one day." Then he left.
"Goodbye, Sirius," Ro whispered, watching him leave. She started to cry, breaking all her previous spells. "Forever."
The parchment, full of writing, drifted slowly to the ground.
~*~
Lily picked the piece of parchment from the air, reading it and smiling. She read the entire conversation and turned to James.
"They'll fall in love," she predicted confidently as she handed him the parchment. "You can count on it."
~*~
A/N: Here we are- the second chapter! Hope you loved it as much as I did!!!
To my reviewers:
SiriDragon: LoL. Don't worry, Ro's my fave. I won't hurt her too much. And yeah, don't Ro and Sirius go good together? :)
MarauderChic-Stripes: Thanks! And I agree! And I'll check out your story!