Chapter 2 Waiting
It seemed like an endless ride to the hospital, as all Elizabeth was
doing was
praying. Every time a monitor would beep irregularly or the paramedic gave
a funny look, Elizabeth's heart would skip a beat.
Finally they arrived at county. Everyone got out and in no time, they were racing down the hall as the paramedic was rattling off her stats. It was all Elizabeth could do to keep from falling, as she felt her knees would give out any minute.
"Dr. Corday, are you alright?" asked a worried Abby who didn't know that Ella had been rushed to the hospital.
"I'm fine, I just need to know." as she was talking, her legs gave out under her and Abby was right there to catch her.
"Here, let me help you." She said as she led the terrified and weak Elizabeth to a chair and they sat down together.
Elizabeth buried her head in her hands. "She was depressed, Abby. She was depressed and I didn't even know it."
Abby gave Elizabeth a confused look.
"It all started about 6 months ago.."
FLASHBACK
"I'll never do well in school. I can't do math, I can't do science, I can't do history, I can't do ANYTHING. I don't have a father, I have no friends, I have nothing."
"Ella stop it, you're doing fine and you have lots of friends."
"No, I can't do it." Ella yelled as she went up to her room and slammed the door.
"ELLA!" Elizabeth called up to her. "Damn." Elizabeth cursed and went upstairs to find Ella in her bathroom cutting herself.
"Ella, God damn it what are you doing to yourself?" Elizabeth felt the tears running down her cheeks as she grabbed the razor blade from Ella's hands.
"I shouldn't be living mom. I am worthless on this earth. I might as well die, I might as well be--"
"Ella stop it, stop it." She cried as she knelt down and hugged her daughter. Ella was hesitant but accepted the embrace and then she too started to cry. They sat on the floor for what seemed like hours, just crying together.
END OF FLASHBACK
"And then she got some therapy and I thought everything was fine. I had no idea that she was actually hurting again. I had no idea she'd do something this drastic. I.just.don't know what to do. I love her, God I love her more than the world itself. She's all I have. I can't bare the thought of losing her and now this?" Elizabeth said and could no longer talk as her crying became uncontrollable sobs.
"I'm so sorry Elizabeth." Abby said, a few tears running down her cheeks. She had no idea that Ella was like this. She had become good friends with Ella and they enjoyed shopping trips together and movies and girls nights out. But all the time she was with her, she had never noticed the depression.
"I just wish I could know more about how she's doing." Elizabeth said, now able to talk again.
"Want me to check for you?" Abby asked.
"Please" was all Elizabeth could manage.
Abby went into the trauma room to see Kerry and Carter trying to save her life.
"How's it look?" Abby asked hopefully.
"It doesn't look good." Kerry said. Little did she know Elizabeth had followed Abby into the trauma room.
"Oh God." Elizabeth replied as they heard a flat beeping from the monitor.
Finally they arrived at county. Everyone got out and in no time, they were racing down the hall as the paramedic was rattling off her stats. It was all Elizabeth could do to keep from falling, as she felt her knees would give out any minute.
"Dr. Corday, are you alright?" asked a worried Abby who didn't know that Ella had been rushed to the hospital.
"I'm fine, I just need to know." as she was talking, her legs gave out under her and Abby was right there to catch her.
"Here, let me help you." She said as she led the terrified and weak Elizabeth to a chair and they sat down together.
Elizabeth buried her head in her hands. "She was depressed, Abby. She was depressed and I didn't even know it."
Abby gave Elizabeth a confused look.
"It all started about 6 months ago.."
FLASHBACK
"I'll never do well in school. I can't do math, I can't do science, I can't do history, I can't do ANYTHING. I don't have a father, I have no friends, I have nothing."
"Ella stop it, you're doing fine and you have lots of friends."
"No, I can't do it." Ella yelled as she went up to her room and slammed the door.
"ELLA!" Elizabeth called up to her. "Damn." Elizabeth cursed and went upstairs to find Ella in her bathroom cutting herself.
"Ella, God damn it what are you doing to yourself?" Elizabeth felt the tears running down her cheeks as she grabbed the razor blade from Ella's hands.
"I shouldn't be living mom. I am worthless on this earth. I might as well die, I might as well be--"
"Ella stop it, stop it." She cried as she knelt down and hugged her daughter. Ella was hesitant but accepted the embrace and then she too started to cry. They sat on the floor for what seemed like hours, just crying together.
END OF FLASHBACK
"And then she got some therapy and I thought everything was fine. I had no idea that she was actually hurting again. I had no idea she'd do something this drastic. I.just.don't know what to do. I love her, God I love her more than the world itself. She's all I have. I can't bare the thought of losing her and now this?" Elizabeth said and could no longer talk as her crying became uncontrollable sobs.
"I'm so sorry Elizabeth." Abby said, a few tears running down her cheeks. She had no idea that Ella was like this. She had become good friends with Ella and they enjoyed shopping trips together and movies and girls nights out. But all the time she was with her, she had never noticed the depression.
"I just wish I could know more about how she's doing." Elizabeth said, now able to talk again.
"Want me to check for you?" Abby asked.
"Please" was all Elizabeth could manage.
Abby went into the trauma room to see Kerry and Carter trying to save her life.
"How's it look?" Abby asked hopefully.
"It doesn't look good." Kerry said. Little did she know Elizabeth had followed Abby into the trauma room.
"Oh God." Elizabeth replied as they heard a flat beeping from the monitor.