Baka Kitsune

Hiei thinks about Kurama. It's one-shot.

Ok, this is my first Hiei/Kurama fic! Be gentle! My other romances in other animes got good reviews, so heck, why not? Actually, this is my first Yu Yu fic ever.

So, sit back, relax, and enjoy while I am under the influence of iced tea and rewatching the Yu Yu episode with Kurama vs. Genbu.

I'll admit I usually sound cold, especially to people. But, he sees right through me, doesn't he? Is that why he befriended me in the first place?

Baka kitsune, always too gentle.

But that's how you are, isn't it?

I guess... I guess that's why. Why I feel as such. I admire him so greatly, being who he is with two lives. I'll admit it is stupid that he doesn't just let his human life go, he became attached.

I look around, up in a tree like I usually do, surveying the area.

I see him walking down there, towards his human home. Why does he put up with it?

The setting sun glints its dying light off of his rose-red hair. A rose, and a smell just as sweet.

Damn it, you're getting poetic. Over a hopeless subject too.

I moved just as he looked up in my direction. I was letting my guard down, I guess.

But I so wanted him. Above a physical level.

He lowered his face as he looked away from my previous location. As if something was hurting him. Maybe something was. Not some physical wound, he never let those get in his way. A wound inside. Spiritual stuff, I guess.

What if it was the same pain I felt?

I shook my head. No, he couldn't. Why would he have any reason to? It's not like I'm anything special or especially kind to him or anything. As far as anyone could tell, I was just as cold towards him as to others, and only associated with him due to tactical advantages.

But it goes so much more than that.

And you seem to see right through me.

I wanted to just stand up and announce my presence. I wanted him to know I was right there.

Seems I didn't have to.

"Hiei? I can sense you. Come on out." I saw his emerald eyes searching for me.

I didn't move. I should have.

He walked a few steps away from me, then swept his gaze in my direction and took a few more steps.

I had to get out of here, lest he saw me.

Summing up all my speed, I sprinted away.

"Hiei!"

I saw the pain in his eyes as I sprinted off.

"I'm sorry, Kurama." I whispered, though the words were lost in the wind. "Sorry that I was unable to say anything. I'm sorry for everything I've caused. I... I love you."

I can't say goodbye,

I can't let you out of my life.

Even if you don't feel,

I just can't let myself be without you.

Even if it's only in my dreams,

I need you more than you think.

Sometimes dreams can come true, right?

Even if you believe you mean nothing to anyone,

You mean nothing to the world,

Play no part in a life,

Less than oblivion in the Design,

You can't know how wrong you are.

You are my everything, you are life.

So, how was it? I coulda done better, but how is it for an experimental fic? I hope to do better, all depends. I'm stuck on a Yu Yu Hakusho and Yugioh loop. Those two TV shows basically run my life right now...