A/N: This is my first Spidey fic so bare with me. It was inspired by an
Avril Lavine song. The title incorporates the most remembered lyrics. So
here it goes.
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Chapter 1: Damn Cold Nights
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"Its all I have to give," he said almost whispering. Her heart plummeted as her face denied his words. He walked away as she fought with her emotions and the urge to cry. Why? Why does he refuse me? I can tell he is lying. He loves me I know he does. I've seen the way he looks at me. That was not how friends kiss. The passion in that kiss .kisses .No .it can't be . Spiderman .Peter? She watched him walk away, watched the way he walked. He walks as if he was about jump and fly away. And he could if he wanted to.
************************************************************************ His arm shot out as he launched himself into open air. He reveled in the exhilaration of flying. Adrenaline pushed back the sorrow and self-anger. For a few minutes he was completely free. As he landed on his balcony and sat on his bed it all came rushing back. The wave of emotions from the last few days threatened to drown him. All he could do was cry and think. Why? Why did I do it? Why didn't I tell her? Because she could die. Because I am Spiderman. I am a danger to anyone I love. But I love her and she loves me. she said it.but I .I was stupid. I lost the chance to be with the one person I love. Why did I have to become Spiderman?
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Mary Jane stared at the ceiling as she thought. All the little puzzles about Peter since the first appearances of Spiderman, started to all make sense. Like how he caught her in the lunch room.how he beat up Flash.being late for work.getting hurt.disappearing and reappearing out of nowhere. It all just fell into place. Suddenly a thought hit her. He has saved me three times. That's what he meant when he said he would always be there for me. Another thought hit her and it was like a slap in the face. He knew my name. Spider-man knew who I was when he was saving me. He said that I knew who he was after the World Unity Festival. And he was right. I feel like such an idiot. It was right in front of me the whole time. Then why doesn't he say that he loves me? Suddenly the answer came to her. He is my protector. He is afraid to lose me. But I can't lose him. Not now. Now that I have found him I can't let him go. And I won't. I can't. I can't stand being alone anymore. I am tired of all those damn cold nights.
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I can't take it anymore! I am tired of it. I am tired of being quiet. I am tired of keeping secrets. I am tired of being Spiderman. He sighed heavily at that thought. I am just plain tired. But I have to continue.for Ben.for Mary Jane. I am just to tired of spend the cold nights alone.
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I hope you liked it. Please tell me what you think, please review.
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Chapter 1: Damn Cold Nights
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"Its all I have to give," he said almost whispering. Her heart plummeted as her face denied his words. He walked away as she fought with her emotions and the urge to cry. Why? Why does he refuse me? I can tell he is lying. He loves me I know he does. I've seen the way he looks at me. That was not how friends kiss. The passion in that kiss .kisses .No .it can't be . Spiderman .Peter? She watched him walk away, watched the way he walked. He walks as if he was about jump and fly away. And he could if he wanted to.
************************************************************************ His arm shot out as he launched himself into open air. He reveled in the exhilaration of flying. Adrenaline pushed back the sorrow and self-anger. For a few minutes he was completely free. As he landed on his balcony and sat on his bed it all came rushing back. The wave of emotions from the last few days threatened to drown him. All he could do was cry and think. Why? Why did I do it? Why didn't I tell her? Because she could die. Because I am Spiderman. I am a danger to anyone I love. But I love her and she loves me. she said it.but I .I was stupid. I lost the chance to be with the one person I love. Why did I have to become Spiderman?
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Mary Jane stared at the ceiling as she thought. All the little puzzles about Peter since the first appearances of Spiderman, started to all make sense. Like how he caught her in the lunch room.how he beat up Flash.being late for work.getting hurt.disappearing and reappearing out of nowhere. It all just fell into place. Suddenly a thought hit her. He has saved me three times. That's what he meant when he said he would always be there for me. Another thought hit her and it was like a slap in the face. He knew my name. Spider-man knew who I was when he was saving me. He said that I knew who he was after the World Unity Festival. And he was right. I feel like such an idiot. It was right in front of me the whole time. Then why doesn't he say that he loves me? Suddenly the answer came to her. He is my protector. He is afraid to lose me. But I can't lose him. Not now. Now that I have found him I can't let him go. And I won't. I can't. I can't stand being alone anymore. I am tired of all those damn cold nights.
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I can't take it anymore! I am tired of it. I am tired of being quiet. I am tired of keeping secrets. I am tired of being Spiderman. He sighed heavily at that thought. I am just plain tired. But I have to continue.for Ben.for Mary Jane. I am just to tired of spend the cold nights alone.
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I hope you liked it. Please tell me what you think, please review.