TITLE: Tears for Innocence
AUTHOR: Neniae, aka Nen Chan
CONTACT: My email's aslyinn@yahoo.com and if you play Neopets, my username there is aslyinn (I check my Neomail more often than my email, so if you are on Neopets, I would suggest using that).
RATING: Tenatively PG-13, but it may have to go up to R later for violence... I'm not sure...
WARNINGS: Umm... well, it's more origional writing than anything... so no spoilers that I can think of... however, beware, there is some mature and/or disturbing content in here, including violence, language, depression, abuse, and mention of rape (don't worry, there aren't ANY details at all, cause I'm not disturbed like that O.o). Also, a lot of the questions that the characters in here are asking are sort of deep, so don't consider this to be light reading.
DISCLAIMER: Unfortunately, Star Wars doesn't belong to me... I can still wish though, can't I? lol... Well anyways, this is sort of a crossover between the real world and the universe that Star Wars takes place in, so I don't own any of the characters from the Star Wars movies, but I do own some people in that universe that I've made up for this story. All of the characters in the real world belong to me... and yes, I got my email from Ahsilna aka Ahsi, (pronounced Ahs ill nah and Ahs e) the main character.
SUMMARY: Well, I don't want to give away too much of the story... it's about a young girl named Ahsilna, who lives in the real world, and her life with her family, and what happens to her. Some of this is told from Ahsi's point of view, and some is told through different people's flashbacks, and some of it is told from other characters' points of views, and some is told through her diary... it's a Star Wars crossover, but I can't tell you how the crossover occurs, because that would ruin the story, so just read it and you'll see. The setting in the real universe is somewhere around the year 2002. The setting in the Star Wars universe is this: Luke Skywalker and the Rebels have overthrown the Empire at last - or so they think. For just as they have brought peace to the galaxy, a new dark jedi appears...
NOTES: Unless I get at least 2 reviews for this story per chapter I won't continue, because that would say that no one really cares about it, so please r & r. Oh, and I do work on the "You r & r for me and I'll r & r for you" system, so if you're an author on here as well and you review this, I'll review one or more of your stories within about a week (longer if my stoopid parents ground me for no reason -_-' ). You may put it in an archive if you want to; just tell me the url so that I can brag about it! ^_^
PLEASE READ THE ABOVE STUFF BEFORE READING THE STORY! IT'S REALLY IMPORTANT, AND I PROMISE THAT I WON'T PUT THIS ON THE START OF ANY FOLLOWING CHAPTERS! -Thank you.
- October 21, about 12:30 PM, the real world -
I sat curled up in the window seat, gazing at the stars as they passed by overhead, my diary open on my lap. I don't know why I called it a diary - it was really just a bunch of scraps of paper that I'd tied together with some tattered dirty string from somewhere... I'd been writing in it for as long as I could remember. I picked up a pencil and began to write slowly...
Dear Diary,
Today living fire rushed past my window as I leaned against the window. My reflection stared at me from the glass, and then a shooting star went by... the eyes of my reflection burned brightly with silver-blue starlight for a moment before the star had gone, and then I was left staring at an empty sky as my own eyes burned with the blue fire. One single tear rolled down my face, and then all was quiet again. It's always so quiet at night. During the day, the sunlight hides the truth in its bright glare as the people ouside of this house go on with their happy lives... but I think that I love the night because of the quiet and dark all around me. When I'm alone like this, with no people about, I feel as one with the universe, and the heavens seems to cry for my life as they look down upon this broken house with its broken family. I wonder if they really see the broken hearted little girl in the window seat as she stares up at them and wishes that she was among them with no more worries, no more fears, to never again be punished for simply being alive...
- October 22, 1:37 AM, the Star Wars universe -
Princess Leia hurried down the hallways, wishing that her duties as one of the delegates in the new Alliance didn't require her to attend all of the meetings, no matter what unreasonable hour of the day or night they were at. At least, she assumed that it was a meeting. When her maid in waiting had woken her up, she had found a message from her brother Luke lying on the table that simply stated that she must be down in the meeting hall as soon as possible. As the opened one of the doors, Han started to walk up to her. She sighed as she saw him behind her. He grinned, "Hey sweetie, what's all the hurr-" She slammed the door in his face and walked on, serenaded by the sound of someone, enraged and yelling, going through more curses than she had ever thought existed... damn this meeting anyways. Normally she'd have stayed around long enough to see how many paramedics it took to hold him down for long enough to place him on a stretcher. She sighed again, shook her head sadly, then stood in front of the entrance to the meeting hall, unsure whether to knock or not...
- October 22, 6:12 AM, the real world -
When I had finished writing earlier, I hid my diary where no one could find it, and then I fell asleep in the window seat... one of the worst mistakes that I think I've ever made. Every morning I always get up at 3:00 AM, so that I can clean the house, cook the meals, wash the dishes... I always get it done before my family wakes up, about two hours later. I'm always done with all the work by the time they're awake. But this morning I overslept, and theywere awake before I'd even finished sweeping downstairs. I was punished, of course. I'm always punished for things like that. They always find a way to punish me, even when I didn't do anything... it's not fair...
What am I saying? I bang my head against the wall and collapse in tears. They are my parents. They have a right to do... anything... they want to me. I was bad. I didn't get my chores finished. So they punished me. I probably deserved to be punished more than what they did. I know they really do love me and they just want what's best for me. That's what they always say. So I wipe the blood off of my body and hide all of my sadness inside, and become once again the cheerful little girl that all my friends at school see...
- October 22, 10:46 AM, the Star Wars universe -
When Leia had walked into the room earlier, she had been startled to see not the other delegates, but the jedi council, waiting for her... now that there was peace through the universe they didn't meet very ofter, after all... but she knew instantly by their faces that something had gone horribly wrong. She couldn't believe that all that they had fought so hard for, all of the lives that had been lost, had been for nothing but a few days filled with the illusion of peace. She looked around the room, wondering which one of them would be the next one to die in this hopeless struggle.
No matter what they did, it seemed as if they would never have true peace... all the lives that had been lost in the last battle was a number somewhere above 1,000, and each day that number rose as even more bodies were found, as even more innocent people who had been destroyed for a cause that, good as it might be, was utterly hopeless... she placed one hand lightly upon the glass of the window before her, tracing the outlines of the faces of many that her heart still mourned for, and could almost see before her, asking her that impossible question... why? Why did this happen? Why didn't you do anything?
The rain outside fell down heavily, mixing with the clay in the soil to form crimson pools on the ground. And as she looked out at it, Leia's tears fell upon the window sill... for it was so far away, and yet in all of their hearts... an endless sea formed with the blood of innocents, the waters of which separated them and isolated them from one another, leaving confused and hurt people who tried to hide all of their emotions inside until they built up, and then they struck out at each other, too scared to think about what they were doing, making everyone move farther than ever away from them at the very time when they needed the help of those people the most...
Author's notes: Sorry 'bout it being so short. I have to go do homework now so I can't write any more. Gah... stoopid school... but it does sound like an ending, so that's it for this chapter. Please review! After all, it only takes five seconds... *sad puppy eyes* pwease?
Suggested Reading: "The Dark That Hunts" by Laralanthalasa - it's a really good origional story!
AUTHOR: Neniae, aka Nen Chan
CONTACT: My email's aslyinn@yahoo.com and if you play Neopets, my username there is aslyinn (I check my Neomail more often than my email, so if you are on Neopets, I would suggest using that).
RATING: Tenatively PG-13, but it may have to go up to R later for violence... I'm not sure...
WARNINGS: Umm... well, it's more origional writing than anything... so no spoilers that I can think of... however, beware, there is some mature and/or disturbing content in here, including violence, language, depression, abuse, and mention of rape (don't worry, there aren't ANY details at all, cause I'm not disturbed like that O.o). Also, a lot of the questions that the characters in here are asking are sort of deep, so don't consider this to be light reading.
DISCLAIMER: Unfortunately, Star Wars doesn't belong to me... I can still wish though, can't I? lol... Well anyways, this is sort of a crossover between the real world and the universe that Star Wars takes place in, so I don't own any of the characters from the Star Wars movies, but I do own some people in that universe that I've made up for this story. All of the characters in the real world belong to me... and yes, I got my email from Ahsilna aka Ahsi, (pronounced Ahs ill nah and Ahs e) the main character.
SUMMARY: Well, I don't want to give away too much of the story... it's about a young girl named Ahsilna, who lives in the real world, and her life with her family, and what happens to her. Some of this is told from Ahsi's point of view, and some is told through different people's flashbacks, and some of it is told from other characters' points of views, and some is told through her diary... it's a Star Wars crossover, but I can't tell you how the crossover occurs, because that would ruin the story, so just read it and you'll see. The setting in the real universe is somewhere around the year 2002. The setting in the Star Wars universe is this: Luke Skywalker and the Rebels have overthrown the Empire at last - or so they think. For just as they have brought peace to the galaxy, a new dark jedi appears...
NOTES: Unless I get at least 2 reviews for this story per chapter I won't continue, because that would say that no one really cares about it, so please r & r. Oh, and I do work on the "You r & r for me and I'll r & r for you" system, so if you're an author on here as well and you review this, I'll review one or more of your stories within about a week (longer if my stoopid parents ground me for no reason -_-' ). You may put it in an archive if you want to; just tell me the url so that I can brag about it! ^_^
PLEASE READ THE ABOVE STUFF BEFORE READING THE STORY! IT'S REALLY IMPORTANT, AND I PROMISE THAT I WON'T PUT THIS ON THE START OF ANY FOLLOWING CHAPTERS! -Thank you.
- October 21, about 12:30 PM, the real world -
I sat curled up in the window seat, gazing at the stars as they passed by overhead, my diary open on my lap. I don't know why I called it a diary - it was really just a bunch of scraps of paper that I'd tied together with some tattered dirty string from somewhere... I'd been writing in it for as long as I could remember. I picked up a pencil and began to write slowly...
Dear Diary,
Today living fire rushed past my window as I leaned against the window. My reflection stared at me from the glass, and then a shooting star went by... the eyes of my reflection burned brightly with silver-blue starlight for a moment before the star had gone, and then I was left staring at an empty sky as my own eyes burned with the blue fire. One single tear rolled down my face, and then all was quiet again. It's always so quiet at night. During the day, the sunlight hides the truth in its bright glare as the people ouside of this house go on with their happy lives... but I think that I love the night because of the quiet and dark all around me. When I'm alone like this, with no people about, I feel as one with the universe, and the heavens seems to cry for my life as they look down upon this broken house with its broken family. I wonder if they really see the broken hearted little girl in the window seat as she stares up at them and wishes that she was among them with no more worries, no more fears, to never again be punished for simply being alive...
- October 22, 1:37 AM, the Star Wars universe -
Princess Leia hurried down the hallways, wishing that her duties as one of the delegates in the new Alliance didn't require her to attend all of the meetings, no matter what unreasonable hour of the day or night they were at. At least, she assumed that it was a meeting. When her maid in waiting had woken her up, she had found a message from her brother Luke lying on the table that simply stated that she must be down in the meeting hall as soon as possible. As the opened one of the doors, Han started to walk up to her. She sighed as she saw him behind her. He grinned, "Hey sweetie, what's all the hurr-" She slammed the door in his face and walked on, serenaded by the sound of someone, enraged and yelling, going through more curses than she had ever thought existed... damn this meeting anyways. Normally she'd have stayed around long enough to see how many paramedics it took to hold him down for long enough to place him on a stretcher. She sighed again, shook her head sadly, then stood in front of the entrance to the meeting hall, unsure whether to knock or not...
- October 22, 6:12 AM, the real world -
When I had finished writing earlier, I hid my diary where no one could find it, and then I fell asleep in the window seat... one of the worst mistakes that I think I've ever made. Every morning I always get up at 3:00 AM, so that I can clean the house, cook the meals, wash the dishes... I always get it done before my family wakes up, about two hours later. I'm always done with all the work by the time they're awake. But this morning I overslept, and theywere awake before I'd even finished sweeping downstairs. I was punished, of course. I'm always punished for things like that. They always find a way to punish me, even when I didn't do anything... it's not fair...
What am I saying? I bang my head against the wall and collapse in tears. They are my parents. They have a right to do... anything... they want to me. I was bad. I didn't get my chores finished. So they punished me. I probably deserved to be punished more than what they did. I know they really do love me and they just want what's best for me. That's what they always say. So I wipe the blood off of my body and hide all of my sadness inside, and become once again the cheerful little girl that all my friends at school see...
- October 22, 10:46 AM, the Star Wars universe -
When Leia had walked into the room earlier, she had been startled to see not the other delegates, but the jedi council, waiting for her... now that there was peace through the universe they didn't meet very ofter, after all... but she knew instantly by their faces that something had gone horribly wrong. She couldn't believe that all that they had fought so hard for, all of the lives that had been lost, had been for nothing but a few days filled with the illusion of peace. She looked around the room, wondering which one of them would be the next one to die in this hopeless struggle.
No matter what they did, it seemed as if they would never have true peace... all the lives that had been lost in the last battle was a number somewhere above 1,000, and each day that number rose as even more bodies were found, as even more innocent people who had been destroyed for a cause that, good as it might be, was utterly hopeless... she placed one hand lightly upon the glass of the window before her, tracing the outlines of the faces of many that her heart still mourned for, and could almost see before her, asking her that impossible question... why? Why did this happen? Why didn't you do anything?
The rain outside fell down heavily, mixing with the clay in the soil to form crimson pools on the ground. And as she looked out at it, Leia's tears fell upon the window sill... for it was so far away, and yet in all of their hearts... an endless sea formed with the blood of innocents, the waters of which separated them and isolated them from one another, leaving confused and hurt people who tried to hide all of their emotions inside until they built up, and then they struck out at each other, too scared to think about what they were doing, making everyone move farther than ever away from them at the very time when they needed the help of those people the most...
Author's notes: Sorry 'bout it being so short. I have to go do homework now so I can't write any more. Gah... stoopid school... but it does sound like an ending, so that's it for this chapter. Please review! After all, it only takes five seconds... *sad puppy eyes* pwease?
Suggested Reading: "The Dark That Hunts" by Laralanthalasa - it's a really good origional story!