Panic…must…find…asylum~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm going with Amy again, because all things return to mother, according to EVA…
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The Blue And The Pink
Chapter 6
Suicide Note
I am a lost child, destroyed
By defeat, sadness, and panic.
Whenever I must let out a word,
Violence rages, fire comes down from mountains,
People run in vainly futility,
No tomorrow, no today, no future.
I hate you.
Not because I don't love you
But because of what your love has done to me.
Why couldn't we work it out?
Tell me why, Sonic, why couldn't we?
Is it because of something I said?
Is it because I never gave you enough kisses?
Attention? Ecstasy? Comfort?
I never gave you all these things, Sonic,
And I will not apologize for that.
Loving you has destroyed everything I hoped for.
I wanted to be the best lover for you,
But your love has turned me into a woman
Without hope,
Without faith,
Without compassion,
Without an act of God, or Buddha, or Allah, or Amon-Ra,
Without any shot in hell what I could believe in.
Because of you, I have never wanted to be
Somebody my friends could be with,
If I have any.
What's the use? They've all come and gone
Like a green wave that destroyed paradise awash,
And has made a mockery out of the hype a team must live by.
Your love has turned me into one confused with rage,
A woman tormented by evil,
An antichrist robed with avarice, and pride
That cannot be broken.
You have cast me into the fire.
I don't need to know why you did
What you did.
It is as if a billion kings have came and
Razed the cities of world to pulverized ashes.
It is as if Godzilla combined with Sauron
And laid incomparable destruction on everything that
Ever lived.
It is as if God had eaten fruit of the
Tree of the knowledge of good and evil
Like Adam and Eve.
I am now a serpent,
Slithering, sliding, smashing, sloshing, smothering
My way through this sordid town.
I have become a destroyed relic,
Once garnished with everything that is good
In this world, but now has been thrown
Away. Everything. All thrown away.
Believable, isn't it?
Now I don't trust anyone.
Not you, not your friends, not my friends,
Not the evils of this world.
Why? Because I loved you.
Your love has made the earth
Become split into two,
All its citizens, rotting, icy corpses,
Floating in space,
Now a polluted haven for hellfire,
Pins and needles, AIDS, disease,
Terrrorist, Bin Laden and Omar,
Every known evil in this world
Has now triumphed
Because I loved you.
You, though good, heavenly in nature,
Have prevented me from becoming the same.
I wanted to be like you. But ever since you and me
Eloped,
My world has become shattered,
Like the most valuable diamond
Broken into shrapnel upon shrapnel of destruction,
And my hands have become grizzled with blood,
Your blood, and they won't come off.
You have turned me into Macbeth's insane wife,
Invoking the evil spirits, the haughty, maniac spirits,
Making them dance into an almighty formation,
Everyone of them dancing, leaping, somersaulting,
Implementing the Havah Nagilah
In me.
All because I loved you.
I come to my room, and I
destroy everything that belongs
To me.
My cameras, my clothes, my perfume and makeup,
My trinkets, my jewelry, anything that reminded me
Of you,
And I grab a knife,
Dip it in cyanide
And slice myself down the middle,
Rip out my guts,
Watch the blood flow all over the floor
And sleep peacefully.
This is my Christmas gift for loving you.
I hope you're happy now,
because now I will be smiling forever…
In hell.
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End Chapter 6
Please give me some-a reviews, ne's pas?
Damned Tulaners…they got my respect…L
I'm going with Amy again, because all things return to mother, according to EVA…
**********************
The Blue And The Pink
Chapter 6
Suicide Note
I am a lost child, destroyed
By defeat, sadness, and panic.
Whenever I must let out a word,
Violence rages, fire comes down from mountains,
People run in vainly futility,
No tomorrow, no today, no future.
I hate you.
Not because I don't love you
But because of what your love has done to me.
Why couldn't we work it out?
Tell me why, Sonic, why couldn't we?
Is it because of something I said?
Is it because I never gave you enough kisses?
Attention? Ecstasy? Comfort?
I never gave you all these things, Sonic,
And I will not apologize for that.
Loving you has destroyed everything I hoped for.
I wanted to be the best lover for you,
But your love has turned me into a woman
Without hope,
Without faith,
Without compassion,
Without an act of God, or Buddha, or Allah, or Amon-Ra,
Without any shot in hell what I could believe in.
Because of you, I have never wanted to be
Somebody my friends could be with,
If I have any.
What's the use? They've all come and gone
Like a green wave that destroyed paradise awash,
And has made a mockery out of the hype a team must live by.
Your love has turned me into one confused with rage,
A woman tormented by evil,
An antichrist robed with avarice, and pride
That cannot be broken.
You have cast me into the fire.
I don't need to know why you did
What you did.
It is as if a billion kings have came and
Razed the cities of world to pulverized ashes.
It is as if Godzilla combined with Sauron
And laid incomparable destruction on everything that
Ever lived.
It is as if God had eaten fruit of the
Tree of the knowledge of good and evil
Like Adam and Eve.
I am now a serpent,
Slithering, sliding, smashing, sloshing, smothering
My way through this sordid town.
I have become a destroyed relic,
Once garnished with everything that is good
In this world, but now has been thrown
Away. Everything. All thrown away.
Believable, isn't it?
Now I don't trust anyone.
Not you, not your friends, not my friends,
Not the evils of this world.
Why? Because I loved you.
Your love has made the earth
Become split into two,
All its citizens, rotting, icy corpses,
Floating in space,
Now a polluted haven for hellfire,
Pins and needles, AIDS, disease,
Terrrorist, Bin Laden and Omar,
Every known evil in this world
Has now triumphed
Because I loved you.
You, though good, heavenly in nature,
Have prevented me from becoming the same.
I wanted to be like you. But ever since you and me
Eloped,
My world has become shattered,
Like the most valuable diamond
Broken into shrapnel upon shrapnel of destruction,
And my hands have become grizzled with blood,
Your blood, and they won't come off.
You have turned me into Macbeth's insane wife,
Invoking the evil spirits, the haughty, maniac spirits,
Making them dance into an almighty formation,
Everyone of them dancing, leaping, somersaulting,
Implementing the Havah Nagilah
In me.
All because I loved you.
I come to my room, and I
destroy everything that belongs
To me.
My cameras, my clothes, my perfume and makeup,
My trinkets, my jewelry, anything that reminded me
Of you,
And I grab a knife,
Dip it in cyanide
And slice myself down the middle,
Rip out my guts,
Watch the blood flow all over the floor
And sleep peacefully.
This is my Christmas gift for loving you.
I hope you're happy now,
because now I will be smiling forever…
In hell.
************************
End Chapter 6
Please give me some-a reviews, ne's pas?
Damned Tulaners…they got my respect…L