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What to do?
Tell me someone!
~*~
Jess was at a loss for what to do with himself. Shane had flounced off after he couldn't answer her question. But she would be back. He knew of her ways by now.
The problem was what to do for the next hour until Rory came back. Reading was the obvious chose. Books had always been a haven for him, an escape from the ordinary world. He would be totally absorbed in the book, imagining the scenes that the characters got themselves into.
Jess smirked to himself. What a messy scene had he gotten himself into. But he couldn't help it. Rory had intrigued him from the beginning. She was the only goddamn thing going for him in this crazy town. He thought that he would just have some fun with her then go back to New York and get on with his life. But everything turned to be very different. She was a challenge for him. Instead of finding an innocent, simple, fairy-tale princess, perhaps a slight interest in books, he found a complex, intelligent and beautiful girl. Who of course, loved literature just as much as he did. She understood him, she enjoyed the things he did. He found his first real love, his soul mate.
Jess run his fingers through his hair. Grabbing his notebook, he yelled out to Luke and went down to the bridge.
Jess had always liked the water. Creeks especially. They trickled down the rocks, the water always moving, and its future unknown. A bit like him. High on nature, Jess let his emotions run free through his pen and onto the page.
~*~
"Mommmm!" Rory cried as she ran arms out towards Lorelai.
"My wonderful-but-deserting-her-poor-old-mom-for-an-entire-6-weeks daughter!" Lorelai cried back as they hugged fiercely.
"Missed me, huh?" Rory joked.
"Missed you? Like cat in the hat without his hat!" Lorelai mournfully answered.
"Didn't he take it off sometimes?" Rory wondered.
Lorelai spun towards her daughter, her hands on her hips, "No he did not!"
"He so did!" Rory fought back.
"Why do you think they call him cat in the hat then. You don't hear of cat not in his had, do you?" Lorelai argued.
"Boy, did you miss me," Rory grinned.
"Am I that see through?" Lorelai asked, pretending to be surprised.
"Yup, afraid so. Like cinderella's glass slippers," Rory replied.
Lorelai groaned, "Don't get started on the fairytales."
"What's ever is the problem, my darling snow white?" Rory asked, trying to look concerned.
"This poor Cinderella is going to change into a pumpkin unless she has coffee very soon," Lorelai warned.
"Cinderella didn't turn into a pumpkin, that was the carriage," Rory exclaimed loudly.
"I told you not to start on the fairytales!"
"What a disgrace, my own mom doesn't know her fairytales," Rory said, shaking her head.
"This mom is going to turn into a ratty old woman with rags for clothes if we don't go and have some coffee."
Rory's face suddenly changed, "You mean you've made up with Luke?"
"The one and only," Lorelai smiled.
"Wow. This I gotta see."
"Let us be off," Lorelai yelled with a flourish, causing a few people to turn their heads.
"Lead on," Rory joyfully replied, completely forgetting about Jess.
~*~
"Lukey boy! Coffee!" Lorelai ordered at Luke's back as they came through the door.
"Lorelai, for the tenth time this week, do not call me that!" Luke growled and turned to face her. "Oh Rory, you're back."
Rory nodded dumbly. After getting over seeing her mom again, she realised that going to Luke's will also mean seeing Jess for the first time after the kiss. "Yeah, I'm back."
"How was your trip?"
"Okay," she mindlessly replied, her eyes skimming her surroundings for any sign of Jess.
Luke noticed, so did Lorelai.
"If you're looking for Jess, I think you could find him down at the bridge," Luke informed her.
"Okay, thanks," she answered hesitantly. Rory didn't know whether she really wanted to see him yet or not.
"Oh and Dean should be at his house which is the third house along Cassia St," Lorelai told Rory warily, hoping Rory would understand what she really meant.
Rory did.
"Do you really think that I don't know where my own boyfriend's house is?"
"Well lately I think you need a bit of directions,' lorelai replied, half turned around in her stool to face Rory.
Luke uncomfortably crept away.
"What do you mean, lately? I've been away for six weeks.'
"All the more reason to go and see him."
Rory turned to Luke, "Don't worry Luke, I'm leaving," then spun around and angrily walked out the door.
Lorelai wanted to follow her and demand Rory what was going on but that would just make things worse.
Luke laid a comforting hand on her arm, "Don't worry. Rory's a sensible girl. Besides, you know how much she cares for Dean."
Lorelai wanted to agree with him and say yes, Rory wouldn't let anything or anyone come between her and Dean. But she knew. It was a replay of her. Rory, how much she tried to deny it, couldn't control her heart and who occupies it. She knew this from experience.
So instead she replied, "But does she love him? Would she skip school and my graduation for Dean?"
Luke racked his brain for a response.
Lorelai, still upset, went on, "I guess I should trust he more than I do. But it's her heart I don't really trust. Gilmore Girls' heats can fall for anyone, despite what our brains tell us."
Luke's breathing became heavier. Despite his efforts, his mind was wondering whether Lorelai's heart could do that for him.
"Anyway, I better go and say sorry to Rory. Thanks for listening, Lukey boy." Lorelai got up and went out before Luke could return from his daze and tell her not to call him that.
~*~
Rory's head was spinning. She had lost her cool so quickly. But Lorelai's prodding had hit so close to home. Too close. She had been feeling so guilty about what she's doing to Dean. But soon all thoughts about Dean turned into Jess. All of this was his fault. His fault?
Rory sighed. She had gone through this a hundred times already at camp. This was her fault. But her heart was so confusing. All she knew was that she had to stay true to herself. She didn't want her name to change into a heartless bitch. She wanted to stay as the nice girl that everybody thought her as. However, she couldn't deny her heart. She had to do something, and quickly, before she caused any more pain for anyone.
~*~
Jess had lost track of the time. He was too caught up in his writing. Soft footsteps echoed in his subconscious. His pen still moved on, but he couldn't ignor the feeling that someone else was there. He looked up.
"Hey."
Rory. Eyes downcast, nervously playing with the him of her cute miniskirt. Her top exposed her sof skin.
"You look good," Jess told her.
Rory smiled, he had noticed. "Thankyou."
"How was your trip?" Jess asked, ignoring the weird feeling that he felt.
"Good," Rory answered, trying to keep calm.
Jess felt the tension mount up between them. He broke the silence.
"Is it just me, ore do you feel the sensation that something like this has happened before?"
Rory faltered. She had to face up to it. Gathering up her strengthm she quietly said, "Ah Jess. . . about that. . ." she tried to think of a suitable word.
'Accident, heart breaker, fluke, incident, mistake?" Jess suggested, his emotions of hurt taking over the words he really wanted to say.
"Jess, please don't be that way," Rory desperately pleaded him.
"Why not?" Jess demanded.
"My feelings, they're just so confused. Everything's just a mess,' Rory explained.
"Well sort them out."
"I can't. You don't know what you do to me."
Jess laughed hollowly, "What I do to you?" He laughed bitterly again and started to sing sofly;
"Are you aware of what you make me feel, baby
Right now I feel invisible to you, like I'm not real
Didn't you feel me lock my arms around you
Why'd you turn away?
Here's what I have to say I was left to cry there,
waiting outside there grinning with a lost stare
That's when I decided
Why should I care
Cuz you weren't there when I was scared I was so alone'
Rory felt tears fall silently down her cheeks. She recognised Avril Lavgine's Losing Grip. Jess made no effort to comfort her. Instead, he looked out on the water and into the distance. They stayed in that position for a while, with Rory was rocking herself and Jess staring. Rory had never felt so much guilt before. To do this to him was just so unlike her.
Jess looked up at Rory, "No call, no letter. Nothing Rory, nothing." His pain was overflowing, not allowing himself to feel guilty about Rory's tears. Rory, defences stripped, turned around and started to walk away.
"Jess?"
Rory snapped out of her trance. Jess quietly groaned. Shane. Perfect timing, as always. Building up his self composure, he got up and greeted Shane with a kiss.
Rory watched, wide eyed. It was too much. She spun back around and started to do what she does when she panics; she ran.
"Rory!" Jess regretfully clled after her retreating back. But it was too late.
~*~
Authors note: I tried to make this chapter longer. Thanks for the people who suggested it! Anything else wrong, plz tell me!
Disclaimer: I do not own gg or Avril Lavigne's Losing Grip.
What to do?
Tell me someone!
~*~
Jess was at a loss for what to do with himself. Shane had flounced off after he couldn't answer her question. But she would be back. He knew of her ways by now.
The problem was what to do for the next hour until Rory came back. Reading was the obvious chose. Books had always been a haven for him, an escape from the ordinary world. He would be totally absorbed in the book, imagining the scenes that the characters got themselves into.
Jess smirked to himself. What a messy scene had he gotten himself into. But he couldn't help it. Rory had intrigued him from the beginning. She was the only goddamn thing going for him in this crazy town. He thought that he would just have some fun with her then go back to New York and get on with his life. But everything turned to be very different. She was a challenge for him. Instead of finding an innocent, simple, fairy-tale princess, perhaps a slight interest in books, he found a complex, intelligent and beautiful girl. Who of course, loved literature just as much as he did. She understood him, she enjoyed the things he did. He found his first real love, his soul mate.
Jess run his fingers through his hair. Grabbing his notebook, he yelled out to Luke and went down to the bridge.
Jess had always liked the water. Creeks especially. They trickled down the rocks, the water always moving, and its future unknown. A bit like him. High on nature, Jess let his emotions run free through his pen and onto the page.
~*~
"Mommmm!" Rory cried as she ran arms out towards Lorelai.
"My wonderful-but-deserting-her-poor-old-mom-for-an-entire-6-weeks daughter!" Lorelai cried back as they hugged fiercely.
"Missed me, huh?" Rory joked.
"Missed you? Like cat in the hat without his hat!" Lorelai mournfully answered.
"Didn't he take it off sometimes?" Rory wondered.
Lorelai spun towards her daughter, her hands on her hips, "No he did not!"
"He so did!" Rory fought back.
"Why do you think they call him cat in the hat then. You don't hear of cat not in his had, do you?" Lorelai argued.
"Boy, did you miss me," Rory grinned.
"Am I that see through?" Lorelai asked, pretending to be surprised.
"Yup, afraid so. Like cinderella's glass slippers," Rory replied.
Lorelai groaned, "Don't get started on the fairytales."
"What's ever is the problem, my darling snow white?" Rory asked, trying to look concerned.
"This poor Cinderella is going to change into a pumpkin unless she has coffee very soon," Lorelai warned.
"Cinderella didn't turn into a pumpkin, that was the carriage," Rory exclaimed loudly.
"I told you not to start on the fairytales!"
"What a disgrace, my own mom doesn't know her fairytales," Rory said, shaking her head.
"This mom is going to turn into a ratty old woman with rags for clothes if we don't go and have some coffee."
Rory's face suddenly changed, "You mean you've made up with Luke?"
"The one and only," Lorelai smiled.
"Wow. This I gotta see."
"Let us be off," Lorelai yelled with a flourish, causing a few people to turn their heads.
"Lead on," Rory joyfully replied, completely forgetting about Jess.
~*~
"Lukey boy! Coffee!" Lorelai ordered at Luke's back as they came through the door.
"Lorelai, for the tenth time this week, do not call me that!" Luke growled and turned to face her. "Oh Rory, you're back."
Rory nodded dumbly. After getting over seeing her mom again, she realised that going to Luke's will also mean seeing Jess for the first time after the kiss. "Yeah, I'm back."
"How was your trip?"
"Okay," she mindlessly replied, her eyes skimming her surroundings for any sign of Jess.
Luke noticed, so did Lorelai.
"If you're looking for Jess, I think you could find him down at the bridge," Luke informed her.
"Okay, thanks," she answered hesitantly. Rory didn't know whether she really wanted to see him yet or not.
"Oh and Dean should be at his house which is the third house along Cassia St," Lorelai told Rory warily, hoping Rory would understand what she really meant.
Rory did.
"Do you really think that I don't know where my own boyfriend's house is?"
"Well lately I think you need a bit of directions,' lorelai replied, half turned around in her stool to face Rory.
Luke uncomfortably crept away.
"What do you mean, lately? I've been away for six weeks.'
"All the more reason to go and see him."
Rory turned to Luke, "Don't worry Luke, I'm leaving," then spun around and angrily walked out the door.
Lorelai wanted to follow her and demand Rory what was going on but that would just make things worse.
Luke laid a comforting hand on her arm, "Don't worry. Rory's a sensible girl. Besides, you know how much she cares for Dean."
Lorelai wanted to agree with him and say yes, Rory wouldn't let anything or anyone come between her and Dean. But she knew. It was a replay of her. Rory, how much she tried to deny it, couldn't control her heart and who occupies it. She knew this from experience.
So instead she replied, "But does she love him? Would she skip school and my graduation for Dean?"
Luke racked his brain for a response.
Lorelai, still upset, went on, "I guess I should trust he more than I do. But it's her heart I don't really trust. Gilmore Girls' heats can fall for anyone, despite what our brains tell us."
Luke's breathing became heavier. Despite his efforts, his mind was wondering whether Lorelai's heart could do that for him.
"Anyway, I better go and say sorry to Rory. Thanks for listening, Lukey boy." Lorelai got up and went out before Luke could return from his daze and tell her not to call him that.
~*~
Rory's head was spinning. She had lost her cool so quickly. But Lorelai's prodding had hit so close to home. Too close. She had been feeling so guilty about what she's doing to Dean. But soon all thoughts about Dean turned into Jess. All of this was his fault. His fault?
Rory sighed. She had gone through this a hundred times already at camp. This was her fault. But her heart was so confusing. All she knew was that she had to stay true to herself. She didn't want her name to change into a heartless bitch. She wanted to stay as the nice girl that everybody thought her as. However, she couldn't deny her heart. She had to do something, and quickly, before she caused any more pain for anyone.
~*~
Jess had lost track of the time. He was too caught up in his writing. Soft footsteps echoed in his subconscious. His pen still moved on, but he couldn't ignor the feeling that someone else was there. He looked up.
"Hey."
Rory. Eyes downcast, nervously playing with the him of her cute miniskirt. Her top exposed her sof skin.
"You look good," Jess told her.
Rory smiled, he had noticed. "Thankyou."
"How was your trip?" Jess asked, ignoring the weird feeling that he felt.
"Good," Rory answered, trying to keep calm.
Jess felt the tension mount up between them. He broke the silence.
"Is it just me, ore do you feel the sensation that something like this has happened before?"
Rory faltered. She had to face up to it. Gathering up her strengthm she quietly said, "Ah Jess. . . about that. . ." she tried to think of a suitable word.
'Accident, heart breaker, fluke, incident, mistake?" Jess suggested, his emotions of hurt taking over the words he really wanted to say.
"Jess, please don't be that way," Rory desperately pleaded him.
"Why not?" Jess demanded.
"My feelings, they're just so confused. Everything's just a mess,' Rory explained.
"Well sort them out."
"I can't. You don't know what you do to me."
Jess laughed hollowly, "What I do to you?" He laughed bitterly again and started to sing sofly;
"Are you aware of what you make me feel, baby
Right now I feel invisible to you, like I'm not real
Didn't you feel me lock my arms around you
Why'd you turn away?
Here's what I have to say I was left to cry there,
waiting outside there grinning with a lost stare
That's when I decided
Why should I care
Cuz you weren't there when I was scared I was so alone'
Rory felt tears fall silently down her cheeks. She recognised Avril Lavgine's Losing Grip. Jess made no effort to comfort her. Instead, he looked out on the water and into the distance. They stayed in that position for a while, with Rory was rocking herself and Jess staring. Rory had never felt so much guilt before. To do this to him was just so unlike her.
Jess looked up at Rory, "No call, no letter. Nothing Rory, nothing." His pain was overflowing, not allowing himself to feel guilty about Rory's tears. Rory, defences stripped, turned around and started to walk away.
"Jess?"
Rory snapped out of her trance. Jess quietly groaned. Shane. Perfect timing, as always. Building up his self composure, he got up and greeted Shane with a kiss.
Rory watched, wide eyed. It was too much. She spun back around and started to do what she does when she panics; she ran.
"Rory!" Jess regretfully clled after her retreating back. But it was too late.
~*~
Authors note: I tried to make this chapter longer. Thanks for the people who suggested it! Anything else wrong, plz tell me!