Title: Doushite?
Author: Hikari
Email: machi_no_tenshi@excite.com
Rated: PG-13
Part: Part 4
Disclamer and Traditional Warnings...
This fanfiction takes place right after the end of Hikaru no Go:
Volume 15. Due to the rating you can expect Mild Shounen-Ai,
and my paring of choice is Hikaru x Akira. This story is my own
and will hope that no one posts it else where without my permission.
Also, just in case you're wondering, 'doushite' means 'why.'
DOUSHITE?
Part 4: WHO?
Shindo's eyes strayed past his opponent to the boy sitting
behind him. The thin rigid frame was always so proper when engaged
in battle... Hikaru could look at him all day. Shaking his head, he
returned his thoughts to the game at hand and placed his move. He
had to finish before Touya did. He had to ask him what was wrong.
He thought they had progressed. He thought that they would
be closer now... somehow. After all, now they could play as many times
as they wished. But then, why was Touya giving him the cold shoulder
again. His body tensed as a shiver crept up his spine. 'Those eyes...'
he thought remembering the encounter. 'Had looked right through me.'
"I... resign."
Hikaru blinked and stared at the bent head of his opponent.
"Thank you." He said as he bowed in respect and began to place back
his stones. His eyes glanced covertly from beneath his lashes past
his adversary, and widened when he realized that Touya had finished
his match already!
Quickly, he went to the board, wrote down his victory and ran
out the door in search of Touya. He looked to the right... to the
left... but he was no where to be seen. "Damn it!" he cursed softly
as he ran down the hall.
Up ahead, close to the elevator, his eyes fell on his prey.
"Touya!" he called out, only to notice the boy steel himself so as not
to turn around. Inside, his blood began to boil. 'What the hell...?!'
he thought as he finally reached him. Grabbing him by his arm, he
yanked on it –forcing Touya to look at him and asked, "What's wrong
with you?"
Akira's eyes went quickly from the place where Shindo's hand
held him, to the boy's lips and quickly up to his eyes. The expression
on his own face was cold as he glared with disdain. "LET GO!" he yelled
as he pried his arm away.
His cheeks flamed as Hikaru felt everyone's eyes turn on them.
The elevator rang, and without thinking, he cupped his hand over Touya's
mouth and dragged him into the lift while smiling sheepishly at the
onlookers. As the doors closed, Touya broke free and seeked shelter
close to the buttons. The elevator was heading down and he –he had to
wait in order to talk with him: there were people in the lift with them.
However, as Hikaru balled his hands into fists his determination
grew strong. He had at least one clue now to his favor. Touya was mad.
Yes, that was obvious. But the catch there was that he was mad at him.
Now all he'd have to do is find out what he'd done and... 'Ground floor
and Touya was already trying to run away,' he thought as he caught the
boy squeeze past the metal doors to be the first one out.
Akira quickened his pace, fully aware that his little advantage
hadn't bought him much time. He had to leave... he had to escape...
'Damn Shindo!' he thought to himself. 'Those warm hands... Those angry
eyes...' It was he who should be angry! 'To have been played the fool
and now strung up so tight...'
He heard footsteps behind him, and soon afterwards felt Hikaru's
strong hand take him by the arm and lead him forcefully into the lounge.
His touch made him sick... It was like looking at candy through a shop
window when you had no money, and your palette was craving for a taste.
He looked up into his rival's face but turned away almost immediately.
"Let go..." he said through gritted teeth. He had to remember, he
couldn't forget...
Hikaru studied Touya's expression and complied with his request
by letting his hand release its grip and allowing his fingers to caress
their way down before his arm fell to his side. "Now do you want to
tell me what's wrong?" he ventured on.
Akira made a move to leave but Shindo blocked his way. "Tell
me!" he yelled at him, only to have the green haired boy make another
evasive maneuver. Yet, his eyes were sharp and knew that this
confrontation was not going to be an easy one. Hikaru wrapped his arms
around the boy's body from behind and held him fast. "Tell me why
you're angry with me!"
Touya turned around as the angry tears he had been trying to
contain broke free. "Let go of me YOU LIAR!"
"Liar?" Hikaru repeated numbly as he thought really hard as
to what he meant –and with the slight slip of his grip Akira almost
got away. "Wait, what did I lie about?"
His body stopped struggling as it dawned on him the truth of
Hikaru's words. Never had he said or asked him if he was going out
with someone. Never had they really had a conversation about how each
other felt besides rivalry. Never had Hikaru promised him anything
besides a challenging game. "Never mind," he whispered, not trusting
his voice, and quickly disentangled himself and sprinted away.
But he should have expected Hikaru to be right behind him. He
should have known that he would not let the issue go so easily. And
yet, he could not help but be amazed at the strength which hauled him
back into the room and slammed his back against the cool wall. "Sorry,"
he heard the boy say softly as he repositioned his arms to either side
of his body –holding him prisoner. "But I'm not letting you go that
easily." His face was coming closer... he could feel his warm breath
as he said, "Not now that I've caught you."
Hikaru smiled sadly upon seeing Touya's face contort in misery
at his words. He didn't understand what was wrong... what he had done
to hurt him. And so, he let his feelings take over by allowing his
hand to trace the curve of Akira's cheek. "Why are you upset with me?"
He slowly lowered his head. 'They had gotten past this point,' he
thought, 'So it would be ok it they kissed, right?' He leaned his face
in, his eyelids lowering ever so slowly –but Touya moved away.
"Don't," he said as he turned his head to the side.
"But..." he looked perplexed. He couldn't understand. "But
why not?" If he had done something wrong, Touya should just let him
know. That way he could apologize for it and things would be ok. Why
couldn't he just tell him?!
His voice was dead as he said, "Won't your girlfriend be upset
if the word gets out?"
"GIRLFRIEND?!" Hikaru's eyes grew wide as he backed away
from Touya –his face red. "What are you talking about? Who has a
girlfriend?"
"Don't lie!" he snapped, unknowingly pouting his lips. "I know
about Akari."
Shindo blinked. "Akari?"
"YES!" he said exasperated, but when he caught a look at
Hikaru's face his conviction began to crumble. 'Had he... had he
gotten the story wrong?' And then, to his own mortification, the boy
who led him around with blinders on began to giggle.
"Akari and me?" Touya heard him repeat in an even more
incredulous manner as he threw his head back laughing. It was slowly
dawning on him that his behavior mirrored that of a jealous wife. A
pink blush began to stain his features as he raised his hand to cover
his mouth.
Hikaru's smile was bright. "You though Akari and me were
together?" He had finally gotten control over his mirth. "What ever
gave you *that* messed up idea?"
"But," his face was red with embarrassment. "But I thought
that since you two were so close..." he grew silent. "And then with
your date yesterday..." he paused once more. "And Kurata-san said..."
he trailed off.
"So it was he who gave you that idea!" Hikaru said as he finally
put the puzzle together. "I'll get him back for this," his conviction
clear. "I'll beat him the next time we play!" Warm green eyes glanced
back at Touya, a smile on his lips. "Is that why you were upset?"
The boy nodded sheepishly.
"Baka..." he said as he neared him once more. Akira was smiling
up at him with relief in his eyes. But as he looked deeper into their
blue depths, Hikaru lost his nerve. He had seen that self assured
expression in them before. Scratching the back of his head, he said,
"Maybe I should start heading back..."
Touya grinned and as Hikaru made a move to leave, it was him
this time that grabbed a hold and reversed their positions. "Sorry,"
he said, though his face didn't show the least bit of remorse. "But
you're not going anywhere yet."
Shindo could see the intensity in his rival's eyes. It was in
times like these that it was hard for him to try and be the suave one...
He knew he could never be a match when Akira wished to demonstrate his
strength.
He could feel his body shiver with anticipation and his lower
lip tremble before Touya captured it with his own. Hikaru felt the
boy's gentle touch on him as his hands traced his ribcage from outside
his shirt. He was loosing his thoughts as he gave himself to the
sensation of that feeling. 'Touya's warmth... Touya's strength...'
Before he knew it, he had braced his knees against one another to keep
standing, while his back arched to support his weight against the wall.
And Touya's strong hand secured him in his position as it rested on the
small of his back.
Akira stepped back and held Hikaru's eyes. There was a
mischievous grin on his lips as his eyes took in the state in which
his kiss had left his rival. "Are you ok with this?" he asked, for
this time there would be no misunderstandings... no barriers...
The question was vague, but Hikaru knew what he was talking
about. "Yes," He said, completely certain about his feelings and to
prove it, he grabbed a hold of Touya's shirt and pulled him down.
Licking his lips, he proceeded to leave small butterfly kisses along
his jaw-line and finally on his mouth.
The green haired boy's arms wound themselves more possessively
around Shindo's waist. And as Touya slipped his tongue once again
within Hikaru's lips, and felt it slide across the boy's he knew that
his feelings were reciprocated. While their bodies quivered with
anticipation, they both knew that everything would be ok. They had
finally met someone worthy to chase after, and they had finally caught
up to one another.
Hikaru would continue to play in order to be worthy of being
Touya's rival and also because he still had a goal to achieve: The
Hand of God. And if Sai didn't come back... then it would still be
alright because he had realized something bigger, something far beyond
his age: The spirit was eternal, and so they would eventually meet
again in the afterlife where they would be able to play go for all
eternity.
~THE END~
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Author's Notes:
So, that's it. That's all there is. I want to give thanks to those
of you that were nice enough to review my story. It was because of
you that I kept posting it. Really people... you should let the
author know how you feel if you read it. That way we know if it
sucks or not.
Anyway... I'm not planning on writing a sequel to this, but I may
be talked into it if I get enough requests. I do, however, plan
on writing another HNG fic... so if you liked my story keep an eye
out for it. Thanks to everyone and a very special 'thank you' to
my dear dear friend Misty Spotts. She's the pervert that made me
admit my obsession with this pre-pubesent boy. And... you could
say that this story was kind of for her.
Till next time, Minna!
att: Hikari
Author: Hikari
Email: machi_no_tenshi@excite.com
Rated: PG-13
Part: Part 4
Disclamer and Traditional Warnings...
This fanfiction takes place right after the end of Hikaru no Go:
Volume 15. Due to the rating you can expect Mild Shounen-Ai,
and my paring of choice is Hikaru x Akira. This story is my own
and will hope that no one posts it else where without my permission.
Also, just in case you're wondering, 'doushite' means 'why.'
DOUSHITE?
Part 4: WHO?
Shindo's eyes strayed past his opponent to the boy sitting
behind him. The thin rigid frame was always so proper when engaged
in battle... Hikaru could look at him all day. Shaking his head, he
returned his thoughts to the game at hand and placed his move. He
had to finish before Touya did. He had to ask him what was wrong.
He thought they had progressed. He thought that they would
be closer now... somehow. After all, now they could play as many times
as they wished. But then, why was Touya giving him the cold shoulder
again. His body tensed as a shiver crept up his spine. 'Those eyes...'
he thought remembering the encounter. 'Had looked right through me.'
"I... resign."
Hikaru blinked and stared at the bent head of his opponent.
"Thank you." He said as he bowed in respect and began to place back
his stones. His eyes glanced covertly from beneath his lashes past
his adversary, and widened when he realized that Touya had finished
his match already!
Quickly, he went to the board, wrote down his victory and ran
out the door in search of Touya. He looked to the right... to the
left... but he was no where to be seen. "Damn it!" he cursed softly
as he ran down the hall.
Up ahead, close to the elevator, his eyes fell on his prey.
"Touya!" he called out, only to notice the boy steel himself so as not
to turn around. Inside, his blood began to boil. 'What the hell...?!'
he thought as he finally reached him. Grabbing him by his arm, he
yanked on it –forcing Touya to look at him and asked, "What's wrong
with you?"
Akira's eyes went quickly from the place where Shindo's hand
held him, to the boy's lips and quickly up to his eyes. The expression
on his own face was cold as he glared with disdain. "LET GO!" he yelled
as he pried his arm away.
His cheeks flamed as Hikaru felt everyone's eyes turn on them.
The elevator rang, and without thinking, he cupped his hand over Touya's
mouth and dragged him into the lift while smiling sheepishly at the
onlookers. As the doors closed, Touya broke free and seeked shelter
close to the buttons. The elevator was heading down and he –he had to
wait in order to talk with him: there were people in the lift with them.
However, as Hikaru balled his hands into fists his determination
grew strong. He had at least one clue now to his favor. Touya was mad.
Yes, that was obvious. But the catch there was that he was mad at him.
Now all he'd have to do is find out what he'd done and... 'Ground floor
and Touya was already trying to run away,' he thought as he caught the
boy squeeze past the metal doors to be the first one out.
Akira quickened his pace, fully aware that his little advantage
hadn't bought him much time. He had to leave... he had to escape...
'Damn Shindo!' he thought to himself. 'Those warm hands... Those angry
eyes...' It was he who should be angry! 'To have been played the fool
and now strung up so tight...'
He heard footsteps behind him, and soon afterwards felt Hikaru's
strong hand take him by the arm and lead him forcefully into the lounge.
His touch made him sick... It was like looking at candy through a shop
window when you had no money, and your palette was craving for a taste.
He looked up into his rival's face but turned away almost immediately.
"Let go..." he said through gritted teeth. He had to remember, he
couldn't forget...
Hikaru studied Touya's expression and complied with his request
by letting his hand release its grip and allowing his fingers to caress
their way down before his arm fell to his side. "Now do you want to
tell me what's wrong?" he ventured on.
Akira made a move to leave but Shindo blocked his way. "Tell
me!" he yelled at him, only to have the green haired boy make another
evasive maneuver. Yet, his eyes were sharp and knew that this
confrontation was not going to be an easy one. Hikaru wrapped his arms
around the boy's body from behind and held him fast. "Tell me why
you're angry with me!"
Touya turned around as the angry tears he had been trying to
contain broke free. "Let go of me YOU LIAR!"
"Liar?" Hikaru repeated numbly as he thought really hard as
to what he meant –and with the slight slip of his grip Akira almost
got away. "Wait, what did I lie about?"
His body stopped struggling as it dawned on him the truth of
Hikaru's words. Never had he said or asked him if he was going out
with someone. Never had they really had a conversation about how each
other felt besides rivalry. Never had Hikaru promised him anything
besides a challenging game. "Never mind," he whispered, not trusting
his voice, and quickly disentangled himself and sprinted away.
But he should have expected Hikaru to be right behind him. He
should have known that he would not let the issue go so easily. And
yet, he could not help but be amazed at the strength which hauled him
back into the room and slammed his back against the cool wall. "Sorry,"
he heard the boy say softly as he repositioned his arms to either side
of his body –holding him prisoner. "But I'm not letting you go that
easily." His face was coming closer... he could feel his warm breath
as he said, "Not now that I've caught you."
Hikaru smiled sadly upon seeing Touya's face contort in misery
at his words. He didn't understand what was wrong... what he had done
to hurt him. And so, he let his feelings take over by allowing his
hand to trace the curve of Akira's cheek. "Why are you upset with me?"
He slowly lowered his head. 'They had gotten past this point,' he
thought, 'So it would be ok it they kissed, right?' He leaned his face
in, his eyelids lowering ever so slowly –but Touya moved away.
"Don't," he said as he turned his head to the side.
"But..." he looked perplexed. He couldn't understand. "But
why not?" If he had done something wrong, Touya should just let him
know. That way he could apologize for it and things would be ok. Why
couldn't he just tell him?!
His voice was dead as he said, "Won't your girlfriend be upset
if the word gets out?"
"GIRLFRIEND?!" Hikaru's eyes grew wide as he backed away
from Touya –his face red. "What are you talking about? Who has a
girlfriend?"
"Don't lie!" he snapped, unknowingly pouting his lips. "I know
about Akari."
Shindo blinked. "Akari?"
"YES!" he said exasperated, but when he caught a look at
Hikaru's face his conviction began to crumble. 'Had he... had he
gotten the story wrong?' And then, to his own mortification, the boy
who led him around with blinders on began to giggle.
"Akari and me?" Touya heard him repeat in an even more
incredulous manner as he threw his head back laughing. It was slowly
dawning on him that his behavior mirrored that of a jealous wife. A
pink blush began to stain his features as he raised his hand to cover
his mouth.
Hikaru's smile was bright. "You though Akari and me were
together?" He had finally gotten control over his mirth. "What ever
gave you *that* messed up idea?"
"But," his face was red with embarrassment. "But I thought
that since you two were so close..." he grew silent. "And then with
your date yesterday..." he paused once more. "And Kurata-san said..."
he trailed off.
"So it was he who gave you that idea!" Hikaru said as he finally
put the puzzle together. "I'll get him back for this," his conviction
clear. "I'll beat him the next time we play!" Warm green eyes glanced
back at Touya, a smile on his lips. "Is that why you were upset?"
The boy nodded sheepishly.
"Baka..." he said as he neared him once more. Akira was smiling
up at him with relief in his eyes. But as he looked deeper into their
blue depths, Hikaru lost his nerve. He had seen that self assured
expression in them before. Scratching the back of his head, he said,
"Maybe I should start heading back..."
Touya grinned and as Hikaru made a move to leave, it was him
this time that grabbed a hold and reversed their positions. "Sorry,"
he said, though his face didn't show the least bit of remorse. "But
you're not going anywhere yet."
Shindo could see the intensity in his rival's eyes. It was in
times like these that it was hard for him to try and be the suave one...
He knew he could never be a match when Akira wished to demonstrate his
strength.
He could feel his body shiver with anticipation and his lower
lip tremble before Touya captured it with his own. Hikaru felt the
boy's gentle touch on him as his hands traced his ribcage from outside
his shirt. He was loosing his thoughts as he gave himself to the
sensation of that feeling. 'Touya's warmth... Touya's strength...'
Before he knew it, he had braced his knees against one another to keep
standing, while his back arched to support his weight against the wall.
And Touya's strong hand secured him in his position as it rested on the
small of his back.
Akira stepped back and held Hikaru's eyes. There was a
mischievous grin on his lips as his eyes took in the state in which
his kiss had left his rival. "Are you ok with this?" he asked, for
this time there would be no misunderstandings... no barriers...
The question was vague, but Hikaru knew what he was talking
about. "Yes," He said, completely certain about his feelings and to
prove it, he grabbed a hold of Touya's shirt and pulled him down.
Licking his lips, he proceeded to leave small butterfly kisses along
his jaw-line and finally on his mouth.
The green haired boy's arms wound themselves more possessively
around Shindo's waist. And as Touya slipped his tongue once again
within Hikaru's lips, and felt it slide across the boy's he knew that
his feelings were reciprocated. While their bodies quivered with
anticipation, they both knew that everything would be ok. They had
finally met someone worthy to chase after, and they had finally caught
up to one another.
Hikaru would continue to play in order to be worthy of being
Touya's rival and also because he still had a goal to achieve: The
Hand of God. And if Sai didn't come back... then it would still be
alright because he had realized something bigger, something far beyond
his age: The spirit was eternal, and so they would eventually meet
again in the afterlife where they would be able to play go for all
eternity.
~THE END~
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Author's Notes:
So, that's it. That's all there is. I want to give thanks to those
of you that were nice enough to review my story. It was because of
you that I kept posting it. Really people... you should let the
author know how you feel if you read it. That way we know if it
sucks or not.
Anyway... I'm not planning on writing a sequel to this, but I may
be talked into it if I get enough requests. I do, however, plan
on writing another HNG fic... so if you liked my story keep an eye
out for it. Thanks to everyone and a very special 'thank you' to
my dear dear friend Misty Spotts. She's the pervert that made me
admit my obsession with this pre-pubesent boy. And... you could
say that this story was kind of for her.
Till next time, Minna!
att: Hikari