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A/N: I'm trying for a second time at a Lily/James Love/Hate story. I love reading them, and since I think of myself as a writer I thought I'd try my hand at it. Didn't go too well my first time (with At Odds) and so here goes for a second time. Wish me luck! R/R please!

If Only..

Chapter 1: Just the Beginning

"Good-bye dear!" Lily's parents called from inside their Volvo. "Have a great year! Send us bunches of letters!"

"Okay!" Lily called back, happy to be finally leaving for Hogwarts.

"Have a great time in freak-ville," Petunia, her younger sister, sulkily from the backseat. Lily stuck her tongue out at her, and Petunia did the same.

"Say good-bye, guys," Lily's dad said, addressing the rivaling sisters. "You won't be seeing each other until Christmas time."

"Good-bye, Petunia," Lily said sarcastically.

"Good-bye." Petunia didn't look in Lily's direction. The two parents laughed and waved good-bye to their older daughter one last time.

Okay, Lily told herself. Let's get to Hogwarts Express, be thankful your parents dropped you off so early, or else you wouldn't have enough time to get settled. She pulled the train ticket out of her jeans pocket, she was going to change into her Hogwarts uniform once on the train. Her eyes looked for the platform number and finally found it, 9¾. She started to walk down the line of platforms. 4.5.6. Lily counted to herself. 9..10

"Wait!" Lily yelled aloud, loud enough for everybody at the station to glare at her. Her face reddened and softly she muttered a sorry.

"May I help you, ma'am?" somebody who worked there asked.

"Um..Yes, you can. Where can I find Platform 9¾?"

"Excuse me?"

"Platform 9¾."

"I'm sorry, miss, but there's no such Platform. Where are you going?"

"Hog." Lily paused. This must have something to do with wizards trying to keep their world secret or something of the sorts. Kind of like Diagon Alley, Lily observed, hidden in the back of a non-descript wizarding bar that can only be seen by wizards. "Never mind, sir. Thank you for your help."

The man bowed and quickly hurried off with an expression of confusion on his face.

"Oh dear," Lily whispered. "Now what?" She stood in confusion in between Platforms 9 and 10 for awhile, trying to find out what she was supposed to do. Her owl hooted quite loudly and quickly Lily tried to shush it.

"Sshhhh." Lily tried to coo it. "Now's not the time, Kivrin. Not now!" Kivrin stared past Lily and hooted again. Lily turned around to see what her owl was looking at and saw a crowd of people pushing a cart with a load similar to Lily's.

"Excuse me!" Lily cried, rushing over to the people.

"Yes?" said a kindly old women with graying hair, turning around.

"Ummm...well." Lily said, confused. What if they're not wizards? I'd feel SO stupid. It's better to feel stupid than to miss the train to Hogwarts.

Lily continued having a mental argument with herself until the woman asked, "Are you looking for Platform 9¾?" Lily practically fainted with relief and nodded. "Oh, well then, you've come to the right woman. All you have to do is run through that brick wall and voila, you're there."

Lily looked at the women with a shocked look, was she being serious.

"Here, I'll have one of the boys go through to show you. Sirius!" the women beckoned a boy with tousled brown hair.

"Yes?" he asked.

"Go on through to the platform to show this nice young lady how it's done."

Sirius glanced at Lily, whose face quickly reddened, and grinned. "No problemo, here goes!" and he ran right at the wall. Lily was getting ready for him to run into it and fall down, his load flying in all directions. When he simply disappeared Lily was shocked.

"Where did he go?" Lily asked, turning towards the woman.

The woman laughed and said, "Why, to the platform, of course. Your turn!" Lily tried to protest but the woman pushed her towards the wall and Lily started walking. "I'd run if I were you!" Lily heard the woman call after her.

Taking her advice Lily started running as fast her heavy cart permitted her too. The wall came closer, and closer, and closer. Lily closed her eyes, prepping for a huge crash. It didn't come. She cautiously opened them and saw a huge bustle and a train with the words Hogwarts Express written in large golden letters near the front.

Lily handed her ticket to an attendant and went down the hall to find a compartment to sit in until they arrived at Hogwarts. None of them were empty, so she asked to join two girls already sitting comfortably on the padded seats.

"Excuse me?" Lily said timidly. "Can I join you?"

"Of course," a girl with short black hair said. "I'm Lisa, this is Heather." Lisa pointed at a rather plump girl cuddling a cat, she nodded in Lily's direction.

"I'm Lily Evans," Lily said as she sat down next to Lisa. There was an awkward silence for awhile and Heather was the first to break the silence.

"What house do you want to be in?" she asked.

"Excuse me?" Lily was plainly confused. Well, I live in my parent's house.she added to herself.

"You know, house," Lisa put in. "Slytherin, Hufflepuff, Gryffindor, or Ravenclaw? I'd prefer Gryffindor myself, because the people are usually smart and brave there. But I suppose Ravenclaw wouldn't be that bad, although I've heard that the Jocks usually go there."

"I'm going to be in Gryffindor for sure," Heather said. "I'm in a long line of pure-bloods, all who have been placed in Gryffindor, so I'm a given.

"Well, I hope I'm put in the same house as you guys," Lily said shyly. "I mean, I don't know anybody else here."

"You're a Muggle-born, aren't?" Lisa asked kindly.

"Excuse me?" Lily said for a second time. "Muggle-born? What's that?"

"It's where both your parents are not wizards."

Lily nodded, "Yeah, that's me."

All three of them jumped when a long whistle blew and a voice came over the loudspeakers. "Five minutes to Hogwarts. Five minutes!" Then the whistle blew again.

"I guess we better get in our clothes," Lisa said.

After Lily was all dressed she gazed out the window, trying to get a glimpse of her new school. When she finally did she gasped. "How beautiful," she whispered. It was majestic and scary at the same time; all the windows were lit up, glistening in the vast lake surrounding it.

Outside she, Lisa, and Heather had no clue what to do next. They noticed a group of four boys just to their right.

"Should we ask them for help?" whispered Lisa.

"Yes," said Heather, as if she was proclaiming a death sentence. If that makes any sense.

"You go," whispered Lily.

"No, you!" Heather and Lisa said in unison, pushing her towards the group. Nervously she approached them.

"Excuse me?" she asked, tapping one of them on the shoulder. The boy who had showed her how to get to Platform 9¾ turned around. "Oh, hello," said Lily, surprised. "Sirius, right?"

"Wait!" said a boy, shoving in front. "You know Sirius, and not me?" Lily looked in the boy's direction with a look of disgust. "How is this?"

"I helped her get to Platform 9¾ back at the station, that's all James," Sirius said, shoving to the position next to the boy apparently name James.

"Oh," James said, feeling stupid.

Lily almost said, "Well you should feel stupid," but she didn't, and she felt it would be too rude, even regarding the circumstances.

"Anyways," Lisa said, who had apparently been standing next to Lisa the whole time. "We have no clue what we're supposed to be doing, and were wondering if you did."

"Nope," Sirius said.

"Mine name's Lisa, this is Lily, and this is Heather," Lisa said, pointing to Lily an Heather as they said their name.

"I'm Sirius, this is James, Peter, and Remus," said Sirius.

"Okay! First years! Hop onto your boats and we'll head across the lake!" a voice boomed. Lily glanced in the general direction of it and was shocked to see a larger than life human with an abundance of dark hair growing off his face.

"That's Hagrid," Lisa whispered. "People say he's a giant, but he's not quite big enough to be one" Lisa, Lily, and Heather hopped into the nearest boat and started their first journey towards the famous wizarding school.