Chapter 5: I Tried!
There was an awkward silence for awhile as the two walked towards the Infirmary. James kept trying to say something, but stopped himself each time by remembering what she had done to him that morning.
Lily glanced at James' stone face and started to crack up.
"What is it?" James asked furiously.
"Nothing," Lily said amid giggles. They had stopped now because Lily found it difficult to walk because of her laughter that echoed throughout the hall.
"Oh, if it's nothing then I guess we'll continue, won't we?" James said, as if he were a professor sternly asking for a student to listen to him. This caused Lily to crack up even more.
"Stone.Blue.." Lily tried to explain, but very few of the words were able to get past the laughter.
James shook his head and continued limping down the hall without her. She looked up, saw him, and immediately stopped.
"Wait!" she called. "I didn't mean anything!"
"Oh, really?" he said, turning to her with an angry face. "You didn't? Then why would you be laughing except at me? That's nothing, is it? Well, nothing sure hurts my feelings."
Lily looked in his eyes and saw past the fury, he seemed sad. Why does he seem sad? Lily asked herself. "I was only laughing because you sure haven't had a great day so far," she admitted truthfully.
"No thanks to you," he added. They were now at the Infirmary and in minutes James was settled in a bed and Lily was sent back to class.
On the way back she thought about how wonderful it was to look into James eyes once and find an emotion other than mischievousness and anger. Not that the mischievous look wasn't bad, it did have a certain glint to it..
The seven fourth-year Gryffindors were all sitting on Seria's bed and giggling about what they had done during the half-day they had had off.
"Well." Lisa said, giggling. "Fred (the Ravenclaw she went to Hogsmeade with) and I took a walk around the school today," she said, winking when she said 'walk.' Everybody laughed, and seeing that they were, Lily joined in.
"What did you do on your walk?" asked Amber, a smart girl but someone who had NO street sense. Everybody looked at her like she was crazy, and then continued talking. "Well?" she asked again. And, again, they ignored her completely.
Lisa was staring off into space and she only laughed when others did, even though she didn't pay attention to why. She fiddle with her long red hair, running her fingers through it. Why did I have to laugh? She asked herself. I had a perfect chance to become better friends with James, and I blew. Her fingers paused and she looked out the window next to the bed. Why do you even want to be friends with James? He's despicable and only likes you because you're a perfect target for pranks, she told herself. And yet she couldn't stop kicking herself for being so idiotic on the way to the Infirmary today.
"Hey, Lily," Sonya said, poking her in the ribs. Lily doubled over, her ribs were her most ticklish spot, but Lily didn't laugh. "What's got your goat?" Sonya laugh, poking her again.
Lisa mouthed to the rest of the girls, "Shove off," and moved closer to Lily. "What's the matter, girlfriend?" Lisa asked.
Lily looked at her and had a look of confusion on her face. "I really don't know," she said truthfully.
"Tell me the story," Lisa said, knowing that her best friend wouldn't act like this without a reason.
"Well, there was a huge explosion in Double Potions today."
Lisa interrupted, "You don't have to tell me, I was there." Lily gave her a dirty look and Lisa motioned for her to continue.
"I knelt down next to James and he looked so.." Lily was looking for the right word. "Pathetic." She said, pleased with herself. "He opened his eyes, saw me, and looked like he made a move to roll over, like he didn't want to see me. It must have hurt him or something, because he didn't. Then Thunklebottom sent me to bring him to the Infirmary, and halfway there I cracked for some odd reason. Maybe I saw some last strand he had missed of blue hair, but I think it was because of his facial expression, you know? You see someone with a stone face, or what looks like one, and you wonder what made him like that. But, I didn't need to wonder, I already knew. It was me, all me, he was mad that he had to be stuck with me. So there, that's what I've been thinking about; how awful James and I have been to each other. We exchanged some harsh words and I think that my laughing was completely uncalled for." Lily paused and looked away, a single tear trickling down her passive face.
Lisa looked shocked; she didn't know what to say. Her friend had emotions about being mean to a boy that was mean right back to her? Lisa didn't understand, and didn't know if she wanted to. "But, what he's done to you."
"Were all in fun," Lily cut in. "I'm a great target; I get pissed off quite easily. I don't know, I'll probably be completely back to normal in the morning and concocting another way to completely embarrass him." She paused and the room was silent for awhile. "But now." another pause. "I'm sorry for what I did. I tried, and will try, and I don't think I'll ever succeed. I think, well, I think that James and I will never be friends."
Lily stood up and started walking towards the door. Lisa tried to stop her, but Lily shook her off.
A/N: This is probably a bit mushy for you, but i needed to set it up for next chapter. p.s. do you know when the marauders became animagi?
There was an awkward silence for awhile as the two walked towards the Infirmary. James kept trying to say something, but stopped himself each time by remembering what she had done to him that morning.
Lily glanced at James' stone face and started to crack up.
"What is it?" James asked furiously.
"Nothing," Lily said amid giggles. They had stopped now because Lily found it difficult to walk because of her laughter that echoed throughout the hall.
"Oh, if it's nothing then I guess we'll continue, won't we?" James said, as if he were a professor sternly asking for a student to listen to him. This caused Lily to crack up even more.
"Stone.Blue.." Lily tried to explain, but very few of the words were able to get past the laughter.
James shook his head and continued limping down the hall without her. She looked up, saw him, and immediately stopped.
"Wait!" she called. "I didn't mean anything!"
"Oh, really?" he said, turning to her with an angry face. "You didn't? Then why would you be laughing except at me? That's nothing, is it? Well, nothing sure hurts my feelings."
Lily looked in his eyes and saw past the fury, he seemed sad. Why does he seem sad? Lily asked herself. "I was only laughing because you sure haven't had a great day so far," she admitted truthfully.
"No thanks to you," he added. They were now at the Infirmary and in minutes James was settled in a bed and Lily was sent back to class.
On the way back she thought about how wonderful it was to look into James eyes once and find an emotion other than mischievousness and anger. Not that the mischievous look wasn't bad, it did have a certain glint to it..
The seven fourth-year Gryffindors were all sitting on Seria's bed and giggling about what they had done during the half-day they had had off.
"Well." Lisa said, giggling. "Fred (the Ravenclaw she went to Hogsmeade with) and I took a walk around the school today," she said, winking when she said 'walk.' Everybody laughed, and seeing that they were, Lily joined in.
"What did you do on your walk?" asked Amber, a smart girl but someone who had NO street sense. Everybody looked at her like she was crazy, and then continued talking. "Well?" she asked again. And, again, they ignored her completely.
Lisa was staring off into space and she only laughed when others did, even though she didn't pay attention to why. She fiddle with her long red hair, running her fingers through it. Why did I have to laugh? She asked herself. I had a perfect chance to become better friends with James, and I blew. Her fingers paused and she looked out the window next to the bed. Why do you even want to be friends with James? He's despicable and only likes you because you're a perfect target for pranks, she told herself. And yet she couldn't stop kicking herself for being so idiotic on the way to the Infirmary today.
"Hey, Lily," Sonya said, poking her in the ribs. Lily doubled over, her ribs were her most ticklish spot, but Lily didn't laugh. "What's got your goat?" Sonya laugh, poking her again.
Lisa mouthed to the rest of the girls, "Shove off," and moved closer to Lily. "What's the matter, girlfriend?" Lisa asked.
Lily looked at her and had a look of confusion on her face. "I really don't know," she said truthfully.
"Tell me the story," Lisa said, knowing that her best friend wouldn't act like this without a reason.
"Well, there was a huge explosion in Double Potions today."
Lisa interrupted, "You don't have to tell me, I was there." Lily gave her a dirty look and Lisa motioned for her to continue.
"I knelt down next to James and he looked so.." Lily was looking for the right word. "Pathetic." She said, pleased with herself. "He opened his eyes, saw me, and looked like he made a move to roll over, like he didn't want to see me. It must have hurt him or something, because he didn't. Then Thunklebottom sent me to bring him to the Infirmary, and halfway there I cracked for some odd reason. Maybe I saw some last strand he had missed of blue hair, but I think it was because of his facial expression, you know? You see someone with a stone face, or what looks like one, and you wonder what made him like that. But, I didn't need to wonder, I already knew. It was me, all me, he was mad that he had to be stuck with me. So there, that's what I've been thinking about; how awful James and I have been to each other. We exchanged some harsh words and I think that my laughing was completely uncalled for." Lily paused and looked away, a single tear trickling down her passive face.
Lisa looked shocked; she didn't know what to say. Her friend had emotions about being mean to a boy that was mean right back to her? Lisa didn't understand, and didn't know if she wanted to. "But, what he's done to you."
"Were all in fun," Lily cut in. "I'm a great target; I get pissed off quite easily. I don't know, I'll probably be completely back to normal in the morning and concocting another way to completely embarrass him." She paused and the room was silent for awhile. "But now." another pause. "I'm sorry for what I did. I tried, and will try, and I don't think I'll ever succeed. I think, well, I think that James and I will never be friends."
Lily stood up and started walking towards the door. Lisa tried to stop her, but Lily shook her off.
A/N: This is probably a bit mushy for you, but i needed to set it up for next chapter. p.s. do you know when the marauders became animagi?