Government Project X: Bolvangar chapter five
"Oh dear god, do you think he is?" Nagataka said, running in front of me. I ran past a door and heard muffled voices, obviously locked in a serious conversation. I continued to run down the hallway, when I started to analyze those voices more. "Please, if Courtney ever found out, I think she'd die on the spot." The male voice echoed through my head. "She's going to find out sooner or later, you should tell her now Seki." That fearless female voice said. "What was that again?" I asked myself, screeching to a halt. Nagataka stopped as well, trotting back to me. "What's wrong?" He asked confused. "That was Stella and Seki back there." I said, turning around and walking back to that closed closet door. "Why hasn't she has figured out? Now that I think about it, you two do look a lot alike." Stella's soft voice said through the door. "I'm not exactly sure myself, but I have a feeling she'll find out soon." Seki replied, sounding worried. I grabbed onto the door handle and flung it open, to see Seki and Stella in a tight hug. "S-Seki." I said quietly, a rush of emotions taking my body over quickly. Seki and Stella let go of each other and turned to me. Seki nodded his headed slowly, while Stella's face grew with excitement. " A family reunion! Long lost brother and sister, meeting at the most unlikely place." Stella shouted with a burst of energy. Seki and I starred at each other for a long time, memories of each other, family, and home came back in an instant. "Guys, are you alright?" Stella asked, her energy now turned into concern. "Finish morning rounds, I'll talk to you guys later." I said turning my back to them. I could feel their cold-confused stares freeze my back, but I continued my forced steps back to my blank room, trying to fight battle of emotion, but to quickly find I was not the victor. I slammed my door, fled to my bed and buried my face into my pillow until I could see nothing put a painful black. My eyes swelled with tears and my pillow was soon drenched with a wet form of fear, confusion, hurt sorrow and despair. It was a lot of emotions for me to keep locked in all at once. "How could he not tell me? Why did he come back in the first place? Why did I have to find out myself?" That was all I could say through my tears.
Soft fur brushed across my neck, and I weakly turned onto my back and sat up, wiping away my tears. But when I looked, Nagataka was gone and in his place was.Yoshiko? "What are you doing here? Where's Nagatka?" I asked softly through sniffles. Yoshiko looked at me with onyx eyes, and crawled into my arms silently. But after a long pause, she spoke quietly. "Seki returned to you to become your care taker. He wanted to watch you grow up and tell you about Mom and Dad. He never meant harm, and he defiantly didn't want to lose you to depression. How could you blame him for that?" I starred at her with shock. I couldn't blame him for doing the human thing. And as I though of her word, my room melted away and re-molded into large trees, bright emerald grass and a small quaint house. My house.
I starred in amazement, while Yoshiko seemed to get a pleasure from this. As I watched, the door creaked open and out stepped a little girl with short bright yellow hair, grasping onto a similar male figure whom was smiling as bright as the sun. "That's me." I murmured softly. "You remember this? Don't you? How happy you were?" Yoshiko whispered. I watched in silence, I barely remember this memory, but as the scene unfolded, it came flooding back. As the younger me bounded off into a forest, Seki followed closely behind, occasionally running around in circles. "I. I was so happy then." What happened to that happiness? Dusk quickly set upon the forest, and fait glowing sphere floated upwards into the dark blue sky. The young Courtney's eyes lit up like fireworks and soon loud giggles from both children echoed though out the forest. I turned my back and walked away, this was too much fun and laughter for me. It hurt too much. "Take me back Yoshiko." I demanded. But there was no response from the white fur ball. "Yoshiko! Now!" I yelled forcefully. But when I turned around, she was gone and the world around me turned gray and slowly faded away. "Yoshiko?!" I cried out. "Where are you?!" I begged, my voice echoing off the blank chalkboard. There was an extreme flash of white light and there I was, back in my bed, upon my tear-soaked pillow. "What the hell Yoshiko.?" I whispered loudly. I laid in my bed with confusion stamped all over my face. What was she trying to do? I know how good and wonderful my life was; there was no need to remind me of it.
But, according to her, I guess there was. A heavy sigh hung itself in the air, and all I could do was watch it die. Minutes rolled on by as I continued to lay in bed, but a soft knock at the fake wooden door shattered the peace within my room. I didn't even bother to answer it. So after a long pause, the click of the doorknob alarmed me someone was coming in. But it wasn't as if I cared, let everyone come in and torture me, it wouldn't make a difference. "Courtney? Are you alright?" Not even a breath left my mouth. "Courtney, c'mon, you can't stay quiet your whole life." "My whole life? All 15 years of it Seki?" I asked with anger raging though out my body, as the figure of my.brother stood in front of me. "There's no need to get test with me!.After all. I AM your big brother." He said with less than ten percent of my anger. I crossed my arms harshly over my chest and looked at him, sympathy starting to seep in. "Why Seki? Why did you run away? What made you so mad that I had to go find you, even though I was told to stay home. What was it?" I asked, my anger dwindling down to nothing. He looked away, almost as if he was ashamed of himself. "I left because of you..." He murmured softly, I starred at him with a huge amount of disbelief. "What did I do?" I asked. "You ripped up my favorite and most valuable sports card." He said in a skittish tone. "SPORTS CARD?!" I yelled out in pure frustration. But then I stopped myself, and a little vein at the top of my forehead pumped like crazy. ".I-I killed you." I said to myself. "What are you talking about? Mrs. Coulter killed me." Seki responded. "If I never sneaked into our room, if I never found that shiny, sparkling card, and if I never ripped it up.we would still be at home, and you would still be alive." I said in pain. Seki looked at me with a new expression I've never seen before. It was like he was depressed, lost and confused. "I.I." He stuttered over and over. "I killed you! It was me! My fault! If I had never caused you to run away, you would still be alive! Don't you understand?!" I yelled out in disparity. There was silence after that. Not a work spoken. I felt that there was a heavy pressure on my shoulders. Here I was, locked up from the world, not even knowing I had killed my own brother. We didn't speak after that. There was no need to. This whole incident, Seki leaving, me trying to find him, him being kid napped, then me, followed by his death, and soon mine. He eventually walked out of my room about a half hour later, his head hung low. "What have I done Nagataka?" I asked weakly. An ocelot Nagataka crawled out from under my pillow, and looked me in the eyes. "You're starting to realize that life can get a lot worse than it already is, and that the truth is more than hurtful." He said strongly. I groaned and turned over, trying to hint that I was done talking to him. "You just can't stand that after all this time, you finally meet some one you have relation to. You can't stand that people care for you, for who you are!" He said with anger bubbling up. "SHUT THE HELL UP NAGATAKA!" I screamed my eyes glaring into his tiny, weak, pathetic soul. His glared burned into my chest, through my heart, and pierced my back. So I had to turn away, I had to get out; I had to leave before I killed myself.
As I stomped down the hallway, a few strangler kids saw me coming and backed themselves against the wall, praying I wasn't going to report them to Mrs. Coulter. But they're just damn kids! They've only been here a year or less, they don't know shit! A frustrated scream echoed off of the hospital and endless blank plains outside this poser-prison. And most likely, there were beams of heat shooting out from my head like the Saturday morning cartoons. But, the more I thought about it, I had no reason to be mad. Maybe my anger was covering my guilt.
Then I stopped. That's what happened. I pinned this all on myself, and now since Nagataka actually put it out in the open, he was more than right. and so was Seki. Realizing this for the first time, I leaned up against a foggy window, and thought about it. The memory of Seki leaving. slowly, and fuzzy came into mind.
"Oh dear god, do you think he is?" Nagataka said, running in front of me. I ran past a door and heard muffled voices, obviously locked in a serious conversation. I continued to run down the hallway, when I started to analyze those voices more. "Please, if Courtney ever found out, I think she'd die on the spot." The male voice echoed through my head. "She's going to find out sooner or later, you should tell her now Seki." That fearless female voice said. "What was that again?" I asked myself, screeching to a halt. Nagataka stopped as well, trotting back to me. "What's wrong?" He asked confused. "That was Stella and Seki back there." I said, turning around and walking back to that closed closet door. "Why hasn't she has figured out? Now that I think about it, you two do look a lot alike." Stella's soft voice said through the door. "I'm not exactly sure myself, but I have a feeling she'll find out soon." Seki replied, sounding worried. I grabbed onto the door handle and flung it open, to see Seki and Stella in a tight hug. "S-Seki." I said quietly, a rush of emotions taking my body over quickly. Seki and Stella let go of each other and turned to me. Seki nodded his headed slowly, while Stella's face grew with excitement. " A family reunion! Long lost brother and sister, meeting at the most unlikely place." Stella shouted with a burst of energy. Seki and I starred at each other for a long time, memories of each other, family, and home came back in an instant. "Guys, are you alright?" Stella asked, her energy now turned into concern. "Finish morning rounds, I'll talk to you guys later." I said turning my back to them. I could feel their cold-confused stares freeze my back, but I continued my forced steps back to my blank room, trying to fight battle of emotion, but to quickly find I was not the victor. I slammed my door, fled to my bed and buried my face into my pillow until I could see nothing put a painful black. My eyes swelled with tears and my pillow was soon drenched with a wet form of fear, confusion, hurt sorrow and despair. It was a lot of emotions for me to keep locked in all at once. "How could he not tell me? Why did he come back in the first place? Why did I have to find out myself?" That was all I could say through my tears.
Soft fur brushed across my neck, and I weakly turned onto my back and sat up, wiping away my tears. But when I looked, Nagataka was gone and in his place was.Yoshiko? "What are you doing here? Where's Nagatka?" I asked softly through sniffles. Yoshiko looked at me with onyx eyes, and crawled into my arms silently. But after a long pause, she spoke quietly. "Seki returned to you to become your care taker. He wanted to watch you grow up and tell you about Mom and Dad. He never meant harm, and he defiantly didn't want to lose you to depression. How could you blame him for that?" I starred at her with shock. I couldn't blame him for doing the human thing. And as I though of her word, my room melted away and re-molded into large trees, bright emerald grass and a small quaint house. My house.
I starred in amazement, while Yoshiko seemed to get a pleasure from this. As I watched, the door creaked open and out stepped a little girl with short bright yellow hair, grasping onto a similar male figure whom was smiling as bright as the sun. "That's me." I murmured softly. "You remember this? Don't you? How happy you were?" Yoshiko whispered. I watched in silence, I barely remember this memory, but as the scene unfolded, it came flooding back. As the younger me bounded off into a forest, Seki followed closely behind, occasionally running around in circles. "I. I was so happy then." What happened to that happiness? Dusk quickly set upon the forest, and fait glowing sphere floated upwards into the dark blue sky. The young Courtney's eyes lit up like fireworks and soon loud giggles from both children echoed though out the forest. I turned my back and walked away, this was too much fun and laughter for me. It hurt too much. "Take me back Yoshiko." I demanded. But there was no response from the white fur ball. "Yoshiko! Now!" I yelled forcefully. But when I turned around, she was gone and the world around me turned gray and slowly faded away. "Yoshiko?!" I cried out. "Where are you?!" I begged, my voice echoing off the blank chalkboard. There was an extreme flash of white light and there I was, back in my bed, upon my tear-soaked pillow. "What the hell Yoshiko.?" I whispered loudly. I laid in my bed with confusion stamped all over my face. What was she trying to do? I know how good and wonderful my life was; there was no need to remind me of it.
But, according to her, I guess there was. A heavy sigh hung itself in the air, and all I could do was watch it die. Minutes rolled on by as I continued to lay in bed, but a soft knock at the fake wooden door shattered the peace within my room. I didn't even bother to answer it. So after a long pause, the click of the doorknob alarmed me someone was coming in. But it wasn't as if I cared, let everyone come in and torture me, it wouldn't make a difference. "Courtney? Are you alright?" Not even a breath left my mouth. "Courtney, c'mon, you can't stay quiet your whole life." "My whole life? All 15 years of it Seki?" I asked with anger raging though out my body, as the figure of my.brother stood in front of me. "There's no need to get test with me!.After all. I AM your big brother." He said with less than ten percent of my anger. I crossed my arms harshly over my chest and looked at him, sympathy starting to seep in. "Why Seki? Why did you run away? What made you so mad that I had to go find you, even though I was told to stay home. What was it?" I asked, my anger dwindling down to nothing. He looked away, almost as if he was ashamed of himself. "I left because of you..." He murmured softly, I starred at him with a huge amount of disbelief. "What did I do?" I asked. "You ripped up my favorite and most valuable sports card." He said in a skittish tone. "SPORTS CARD?!" I yelled out in pure frustration. But then I stopped myself, and a little vein at the top of my forehead pumped like crazy. ".I-I killed you." I said to myself. "What are you talking about? Mrs. Coulter killed me." Seki responded. "If I never sneaked into our room, if I never found that shiny, sparkling card, and if I never ripped it up.we would still be at home, and you would still be alive." I said in pain. Seki looked at me with a new expression I've never seen before. It was like he was depressed, lost and confused. "I.I." He stuttered over and over. "I killed you! It was me! My fault! If I had never caused you to run away, you would still be alive! Don't you understand?!" I yelled out in disparity. There was silence after that. Not a work spoken. I felt that there was a heavy pressure on my shoulders. Here I was, locked up from the world, not even knowing I had killed my own brother. We didn't speak after that. There was no need to. This whole incident, Seki leaving, me trying to find him, him being kid napped, then me, followed by his death, and soon mine. He eventually walked out of my room about a half hour later, his head hung low. "What have I done Nagataka?" I asked weakly. An ocelot Nagataka crawled out from under my pillow, and looked me in the eyes. "You're starting to realize that life can get a lot worse than it already is, and that the truth is more than hurtful." He said strongly. I groaned and turned over, trying to hint that I was done talking to him. "You just can't stand that after all this time, you finally meet some one you have relation to. You can't stand that people care for you, for who you are!" He said with anger bubbling up. "SHUT THE HELL UP NAGATAKA!" I screamed my eyes glaring into his tiny, weak, pathetic soul. His glared burned into my chest, through my heart, and pierced my back. So I had to turn away, I had to get out; I had to leave before I killed myself.
As I stomped down the hallway, a few strangler kids saw me coming and backed themselves against the wall, praying I wasn't going to report them to Mrs. Coulter. But they're just damn kids! They've only been here a year or less, they don't know shit! A frustrated scream echoed off of the hospital and endless blank plains outside this poser-prison. And most likely, there were beams of heat shooting out from my head like the Saturday morning cartoons. But, the more I thought about it, I had no reason to be mad. Maybe my anger was covering my guilt.
Then I stopped. That's what happened. I pinned this all on myself, and now since Nagataka actually put it out in the open, he was more than right. and so was Seki. Realizing this for the first time, I leaned up against a foggy window, and thought about it. The memory of Seki leaving. slowly, and fuzzy came into mind.