Olivia had always liked the finer things in life and underwear was one of them. She had started to buy sexy lingerie to go under her clothes when she had been in uniform, it was something she would do to feel femenine. The underwear had gotten sexier once she had met Elliot, wondering if in those earlier years he'd end up cheating on his wife with her.

Eventually it had become second nature, all of her underwear was expensive and sexy and she had a lot of it which was turning out to be a good thing because Elliot took joy in ripping most of it from her body.

She doesn't remember when she had bought this exact outfit but she had loved that the halterneck strap came off the bra and could be doubled as restraints. She doesn't remember using them on anyone, when she bought it she must have been thinking of a new toy for her next boyfriend but never in a million years did she think that man would be Elliot.

"Are you ready?" she asks him as she straddles his lap. He was fully naked below her and even though she hadn't even touched him since walking out of the bathroom he was hard against her core and she found herself grinding on him.

"Yes." he whispers, lifting his arms above his head. She'd asked tonight if she could tie him up and he'd agreed. It's not something he'd ever done before or ever wanted to do but with her he trusted that he'd enjoy anything she requested.

Olivia starts to untie the strap around her neck and he watches having no idea what she's doing until she pulls it full off her body and he notices it is in fact a tiny rope, just the royal blue shade of the underwear she had on.

"That's a concealed weapon." he jokes and she laughs, leaning forward to place a kiss on his lips as her hands wrap the cord around his wrists on one of the metal poles on her bed frame.

"Tell me if you want me to stop." She warns him leaning back to a seated position with her hands on his chest.

"Okay."

She smiles and runs her hands over his muscles and up to his neck, tightening around it as much as she could, but her hands were no match for the girth of it.

"I could do whatever I want to you." She says as she looks into his eyes.

"You could."

The slap across his face wasn't what he was expecting and by the look on her face when he turned back to her she hadn't planned it either.

"Don't speak." she tells him before he can ask what that was about. She rubs her hand over the red mark, leaving her hand there to swipe her thumb over it. "You left me Elliot."

He doesn't know if he was meant to speak or not at this point. He'd tried to say he was sorry since they had started dating but she had asked him not to, reassuring him that they didn't need to think about the past, only their future.

"I was so alone."

He goes to open his mouth but she moves the hand from his cheek and places a finger over his lips to silence him.

"I needed you so many times and you weren't there."

Her hand trails from his mouth and down his chest until she is at his cock and wraps around it.

"So many men that weren't you."

He growls at that and she smiles, glad to know even though he had her he was still jealous of every man that came before him.

"So alone."

She lifts herself up into her knees to rub the tip of his cock along her underwear and Elliot pulls at the restraints as he instinctively reaches out to grab her.

"It's hard isn't it Elliot? Not being able to have what you want the most? Even when you were here you were soo close…'". She moves the tip of his penis to push at her entrance through the underwear and looks into his eyes. "..but so far."

"Liv.." he pleads. He doesn't know if he'd pleading her to stop reliving the pain of their past or to let him fuck her. Probably both.

"But now you're here."

She pulls her panties to the side and runs the tip of her penis over her bare skin this time and they both let out a sigh.

"Say it El."

"I love you."

"Not that."

She lines his cock at her entrance and looks him in the eye again.

"I'm sorry."

She sinks her body onto his cock with a deep sigh.

"Again."

Elliot licks his lips as he looks between them at where their bodies connect, his penis moving in and out at her slowly as she adjusts herself to him.

"I'm sorry. I never should have left you. I was weak."

"Look at me."

He looks back into her eyes and she slaps him again on the other cheek this time.

"I hated you."

"I hated myself."

Her pace quickens as her eyes press closed. She doesn't know if she's going to cry and she doesn't want to do it mid sex.

"I need to hear.." she starts but she can't beg for it, he needs to say it himself.

"I'm never leaving you Liv. never again."

Her eyes squeeze shut even tighter as she holds back the tears. She digs her nails into his chest as she tries to distract herself from the burning at the back of her eyes.

Elliots hands strain against the headboard as he tries once again to move. He wants to hold her but if she isn't freeing him then he isn't going to ask for it, if it's what she wanted he knows she will do it. Instead he moves his hips with all the vigour he can muster, determined to make her feel good in one way.

"Look at me Liv."

She opens her eyes and looks down at him again and he can see how glassy they are.

"I love you Liv, I always have."

It was his words of assurance that tipped her over the edge. As he muttered promises of never leaving and apologies for all the wrong doings she let herself be bare to him, she let the tears fall as her orgasm became too much for her and she felt like they had opened up a new chapter for their relationship.

"I meant it all you know?" He tells her as he holds her a few moments later after she had freed his hands.

"I know."