You see, Subaru has lots of skills, from sewing to chess and having a crazy strong grip to have a very good fitness level.

And while Tappei sells him as a 'normal guy' he is far more accomplished than all of us in the skill department with how colorful his experiences are.

So it doesn't make sense for Subaru to be a clean slate shut-in that has done nothing in his life. He is too capable.

From that idea, I made this story.

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I was pointlessly walking on dark, empty streets.

I didn't know why, but again, ever since I felt everything was pointless. I was disconnected from everything. I felt like I was outside of things.

So I just didn't question my urge to go outside.

I said my goodbyes to my mother after cleaning the dishes for her. It was pointless, it was thoroughly meaningless.

I had no intention to ease the burden she carried. Since I was that burden, it would be hypocritical to think I have any good intentions for her at all. I just helped her because I didn't want to just leave without doing anything.

In any case. I was here.

Alone.

First I rejected that urge while still outside, so I just bought stuff so I would have an excuse to tell myself instead of accepting I just randomly decided to walk on the street.

Yet, that causes me to hate myself even more….

'What kind of person makes excuses for himself

With such thought. I decided to not escape at all. I didn't care if this decision was going to kill me… maybe I would die to a robber or someone dangerous like that.

I didn't care. I was self-aware more than any other person.

I had no self-preservation. That's how a talentless guy like me could somewhat stand at the top when he cared enough to try. I would relentlessly work and get to that point. People would care about themselves and that would put a limit on them, whether it's exercising or something else. I had no such limit. I didn't give a damn about myself.

Other than that… this self-awareness was the reason I had to make excuses for myself.

Since Natsuki Subaru was unable to lie to himself. He had to make excuses, which also didn't work but better than acting like myself right?

Deep inside I do want to get into something dangerous, that too, is undeniable.

But I am not sure if that's why I got out at this late hour.

"Spent too much money too – why did I do that?" Oh right, I didn't believe I would be able to sleep today so I just bought so much junk food and other stuff, my plastic bag became quite heavy.

I could do this without hating myself that much because I did work before… just for the sake of my shut-in time. I was a shut-in with money so I wasn't a burden in that department at least.

I got into the work without any hope of getting liked by anyone. I didn't put effort into social stuff, only worked hard and closed my mind to anything else.

…

Some people tried to connect with me.

But perhaps it was too late for me.

Nonetheless, I was working in a little place that made food and stuff… I didn't think it could be called a restaurant because it was too small.

I never did a thing with the money I gained thinking I would waste it when I became a shut-in.

At first, I was just a guy helping around…

Then the old man realized I am good with fixing stuff.

Then he realized I am good at making food… and good as a bartender.

He used me thoroughly, he had a dream to have a big place and I worked quite hard. I knew all of his intentions and didn't care. The stuff I learned left and right was put to good use.

Calligraphy, Art, and better ways to present cooking, I knew a few languages too, which I never practiced before. But surprisingly tourists did come to Japan?!

So yeah. I used even that. Talking with outsiders was fun I guess.

But it's not like I am a useful person… though none of the workers did see that way and the old man would slap me for saying that.

He got the place he dreamed of… and I was maturing too.

The girl, who was working there from the beginning, who had no interest in me whatsoever apparently liked me quite a bit now.

I was the same.

I was deeply in love with her and I wasn't hiding it.

Not one bit.

One big factor why I showed off my insignificant skills was that people around me were looking impressed.

One day I confessed that all of that skills came from my first time shutting in and the reason I work there is that I was gaining money to shut in again.

However, that changed nothing.

Which made me closer to them.

But… one day.

I learned she had someone she was… hanging around with.

She was vocal about it too.

Then all feelings inside of me died. Instantly. I

Later I was told that it was just an average attempt of a girl making you jealous.

I did acknowledge that. She apologized thoroughly and I had my first confession.

But I felt absolutely nothing.

That day, I, the person called Natsuki Subaru, who was supposed to completely know himself… was proven wrong.

I knew I was harboring super strong feelings out of nowhere and I knew I was too obsessed with a good ending for us.

However, who would've known I detested the idea of a woman I pursue and interact with actively to reach her just somewhat interacting with any other man romantically?

It couldn't be helped. Even if it didn't make sense. Or it was too weak of a reason to let everything turn into dust.

I felt my love die in a single moment.

And of course, that was the sign of me regaining the shut-in title.

However, saying I ended up with nothing would be wrong.

The old man apparently put my name into the restaurant which became a name and opened in different places later. I was an owner too. On paper.

I was sure he was using me like a tool and I was fine with that relationship.

Apparently, that was never the case. His reaction was as if I was some sort of sociopath….. Well, he did recommend me to a place where I can be diagnosed.

Well, in the end, I troubled him with my misunderstanding so much that he felt he needed to correct that no matter what.

It took hours until he was satisfied but the simple reasoning was…I looked way too dead with my already scary eyes when I didn't work.

Well, the conclusion is, I have no reason to ever stop being a shut-in. My relationships are destroyed and got back to zero. I had a passive income and stuff with my name on it. I don't feel a thing for any girl anymore and the only thing I thought about working for in the future is my driving license so I can be somewhat useful to my family.

I didn't finish high school… Nah I was way behind even though I know most of the stuff thanks to my studies from home. That doesn't matter when I can't even muster the strength to go to school. I wasn't even close to finishing high school.

I should've been in my last year now….

But I dropped it in my first year…

Normal POV

"Ah… truly, walking makes you think indeed," Subaru muttered with a normal voice.

But his thoughts didn't end there.

"It makes me think that I want to disappear too."

Natsuki Subaru was self-aware even though he was proven wrong once… that didn't change too much.

So that awareness brought one knowledge of why his suffering wouldn't end.

"But I can't give up." Natsuki Subaru is unable to give up.

Too determined to give up on himself.

Too disconnected to see anything worth doing in this world.

That was it. He was a living and breathing contradiction.

It had nothing to do with any sin but…

"Maybe I should just play video games all night. With how edgy I am today…anime won't do any good"

Fate won't be able to stop him. He didn't need sins to defy it.

He checks his good old phone for confirmation.

"6 AM. That's like an 8-hour walk? How am I not tired? I wasn't going slow too! Those exercises and the basement gym do some good but this is a red flag! Am I going bald?! Keeping the warm-up in those numbers for the meme was a mistake after all?!"

Subaru said with his loud voice in the middle of the nigh-

No, it wasn't night anymore.

"Oh man… Sun rises… well, I can at least watch this I guess." He sat down on a bench with a perfect view.

"Well… I have a long walk. I can rest for a while"

As the sun rose in the land of the rising sun… it also reached Natsuki Subaru for the last time.

"Ouch! And here I was thinking I was going to win the blinking contest!"

And then he stopped caressing his eyes and opened—

"Huh?"

'That's not where I was?'

He got up quickly and turned back.

"I wasn't sitting in front of a water fountain obviously and… why is the sun hitting me from above?! Why does it feel different?" Subaru calmly talked to himself, not realizing the weird gazes he was gathering.

"That… I can't read that sign." It wasn't German, definitely not English, French, or Japanese. It resembled a bit of Ancient Greek… but that's also not it.

The logic didn't work. Not one bit… That's why Subaru decided to believe what he wanted to believe ever since he opened his eyes.

"I got transported to another world."

He marveled. He was filled with so many emotions… but while he wanted to say that as a question, it came out as a very-confident statement.

It wasn't how any protagonist he read reacted.

It wasn't how he imagined he would react if… if he got isekaid.

Subaru, for the first time in his life, did not feel self-aware enough.

His calmness to this situation, his lack of reaction, his feelings, and his determination burned inside the moment he opened his eyes.

He wasn't normal.

We will see where this story will go, the only thing I can tell for sure… Arc 1 will be super detailed and quite long without an extreme death count.

Ch 2 of Unsatisfied Star is ready… but it's too early to publish that in my opinion.

Have a good day.

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