A/N Hey everyone!!! I REALLY appreciate all the reveiws especially the
poem (I tried emailing you to personally thank you but it wouldn't work
sorry). Well anywayz, the reason I haven't been updating like 3 times a
week is because I live with my mum and she doesn't have the internet and I
come to my dad's every sceond weekend and he does. We always stay here half
the holidays too so here I am for a full week! I may get at least 3
chapters in hopefully.
This chapter is slightly diff from my last two. There's one paragraph which
gives away a bit of the end but it'll probably leave you thinking a bit
though. lol. Well I made this one longer because I was bored at mum's so i
just writ it down on paper so...yeah. Well most of ya probably don't even
read the a/n and the rest I'm probably boring half to death so here goes...
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Alanna eventually found King Jonathan in one of the many gardens around the palace. It seemed slightly familiar in a way she couldn't tell. She shook the strange feeling off and walked up to Jon and bowed (she HATED to curtsy.) Your Highness, I am completely at your service," she said in a sarcastically, polite voice.
Jon stared at her unusually and then smiled. "Aren't these flowers just so pretty? I love flowers. I love lilfe." Coming from his mouth, it just didn't sound right to Alanna. Maybe coming from a little girl but not the king of all Tortall. "Ummm...Jon? Are you OK? You seem a little...dazed. Your not exactly acting normal."
Jon, still smelling the flowers and smiling happily, seemed to either ignore or not hear the question but he finally said," I see no harm in enjoying life and what great pleasures it holds."
"Well, yeah. Lots of people enjoy life but not like this. Jon, your the King. You can't just start going all mushy over life. You have to keep your professions in this kind of stuff," she couldn't thinkof anything to add to that so she just waited for his reply.
"Alanna, I really don't know what's wrong with me," this was completely diferent to the childish, happy voice, but full of worry and fear. "I just seem to lose myself sometimes and after I can barely remember what I did or said," he continued.
To Alanna all this sounded familiar. 'Maybe it was a disease starting?' she thought. 'Nah...It couldn't be. She had her own expierience in magic and healing and had never heard of anything like this. "Maybe you should see a healer," she said with great concern in her eyes,
Even thoughshe was married to Gorge and l.oved him dearly, she couldn't help but still had feelings for her one time lover, Jon. She didn't want to think of the outcome it would cause if half her dreams came true. She loved her husband and children too much and Queen Thayet, Jon's wife, was a great friend to her.
"See that's half the trouble. I've seen to every great healer and miracle worker in Tortall and all it's outlying regions. None of them can find a problem. Alanna what should I do?" Alanna was so caught up in thought, she didn't hear the last question.
' He has the same situation as Thom. Exept the different moods and the fact Jon can remember what happened and Thom can't. Well Jon IS alot older. What does all this mean? No one knows what is going on and no body knows what it means. I feel like I should know but I don't.'
"Alanna? Maybe you should a healer." "No, I'm fine. I was just thinking. I'm fine, really," she added when she saw the look of disbelief in his eyes. "About?" "Well...You've been acting a little...umm...unnormal and well...so has Thom."
Jonathan stared at her in surprise then said, "Thom as well? Oh gods...What is he like?" Alanna thought for a moment, trying to find the best way to explain her son's unusual behaviour. "He starts strange fits, screaming over and over that he isn't Gorge's son," she explained breifly, not wanting to tell him that Thom infact believes that Jon is really his father.
"Then he throws up and goes back to normal." "Well it's worse than my situation. You should be worrying about him instead of me. All I do is go all happy." "Jon, you're situation may not seem as bad but it still could be just as serious. What do you mean, not worry about you? I care about you just as I do Thom. You both need serious help but I just don't know where or how I'll get that."
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'She really cares about me?' Jon thought. 'I know friends do, but as she does Thom? Does he still love me? No, I shouldn't get too hopeful. She's married and so am I.' Jonathan still held strong feelings for Alanna although they were both married with children.
He had been hurt deeply when when she rejected him that time in the Bazhir Deserts [Woman Who Rides Like A Man]. He really did love Thayet but he just...didn't know what was going on in his heart.
"Well for the moment there's nothing much we can do. I'm really sorry about Thom. let's just pray to the gods that we'll find out what this is and cure it." He really didn't want to let Alanna go. He wanted to just reach forward and hold her in his arms again, but he knew she had duties to attend to so he had no choice.
"Yes, OK. Thank you. Please do try to get better. Goodbye, your higness." "Oh, please, Alan, just Jon," At least he made her laugh for just saying something he constantly had to say back in their page years when Alanna was known as a male and Alan.
"Goodbye." At that she bowed and walked towards the door. "Wait. Alanna. Would you and Gorge like to come to dinner tomorrow night?" Alanna considered the invitation for a moment then said, "It would be a pleasure to dine with you and Thayet." "Umm...Thayet won't be there. She was called away on buisiness with for rider groups." "OK, I'll see you then, Jon.
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"Can't we just gove then a small hint?" "No, Faithful, they must find out themselves in time. They will know when that time comes. Alanna is stubborn and willing enough and Jonathan is just the same. They'll work it out," replied the Great Mother Of Goddess.
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"Gorge? Is anyone home?" Alanna called as she walked through the door. "Yeah, Alanna, I'm in here." Alanna walked to the dining room, where Gorge's voice had come from. As soon as she saw Gorge she felt confused and upset all over again. He's cheeks were red, he's eyes swollen. He was a mess...he'd been crying. "Gorge!? Are you OK?" Alanna rushed over to him. "I'm fine. It's just all this...this..." "Gorge, you know Thom doesn't mean what he says. He loves you just as much as you love him. We'll fix the problem and all this."
As much as Gorgewould like to believe Alanna that the whole situation would just end forever but he couldn't. It just seemed to him as if this wouod go on forever. "I know," he lied, trying to look convincing. "I'm going to go to bed early, sorry. Goodnight." "Night, Gorge. And remember, it's all OK. There's nothing to worry about." He smiled, got up, kissed Alanna goodnight then left the room.
'Who am I trying to fool?" Alanna asked herself. 'Of course there's something to worry about.' She tried to think positively but it was practically impossible to be happy when your son and one of your closest friends may be in danger and your husband's depressed.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Alanna eventually found King Jonathan in one of the many gardens around the palace. It seemed slightly familiar in a way she couldn't tell. She shook the strange feeling off and walked up to Jon and bowed (she HATED to curtsy.) Your Highness, I am completely at your service," she said in a sarcastically, polite voice.
Jon stared at her unusually and then smiled. "Aren't these flowers just so pretty? I love flowers. I love lilfe." Coming from his mouth, it just didn't sound right to Alanna. Maybe coming from a little girl but not the king of all Tortall. "Ummm...Jon? Are you OK? You seem a little...dazed. Your not exactly acting normal."
Jon, still smelling the flowers and smiling happily, seemed to either ignore or not hear the question but he finally said," I see no harm in enjoying life and what great pleasures it holds."
"Well, yeah. Lots of people enjoy life but not like this. Jon, your the King. You can't just start going all mushy over life. You have to keep your professions in this kind of stuff," she couldn't thinkof anything to add to that so she just waited for his reply.
"Alanna, I really don't know what's wrong with me," this was completely diferent to the childish, happy voice, but full of worry and fear. "I just seem to lose myself sometimes and after I can barely remember what I did or said," he continued.
To Alanna all this sounded familiar. 'Maybe it was a disease starting?' she thought. 'Nah...It couldn't be. She had her own expierience in magic and healing and had never heard of anything like this. "Maybe you should see a healer," she said with great concern in her eyes,
Even thoughshe was married to Gorge and l.oved him dearly, she couldn't help but still had feelings for her one time lover, Jon. She didn't want to think of the outcome it would cause if half her dreams came true. She loved her husband and children too much and Queen Thayet, Jon's wife, was a great friend to her.
"See that's half the trouble. I've seen to every great healer and miracle worker in Tortall and all it's outlying regions. None of them can find a problem. Alanna what should I do?" Alanna was so caught up in thought, she didn't hear the last question.
' He has the same situation as Thom. Exept the different moods and the fact Jon can remember what happened and Thom can't. Well Jon IS alot older. What does all this mean? No one knows what is going on and no body knows what it means. I feel like I should know but I don't.'
"Alanna? Maybe you should a healer." "No, I'm fine. I was just thinking. I'm fine, really," she added when she saw the look of disbelief in his eyes. "About?" "Well...You've been acting a little...umm...unnormal and well...so has Thom."
Jonathan stared at her in surprise then said, "Thom as well? Oh gods...What is he like?" Alanna thought for a moment, trying to find the best way to explain her son's unusual behaviour. "He starts strange fits, screaming over and over that he isn't Gorge's son," she explained breifly, not wanting to tell him that Thom infact believes that Jon is really his father.
"Then he throws up and goes back to normal." "Well it's worse than my situation. You should be worrying about him instead of me. All I do is go all happy." "Jon, you're situation may not seem as bad but it still could be just as serious. What do you mean, not worry about you? I care about you just as I do Thom. You both need serious help but I just don't know where or how I'll get that."
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'She really cares about me?' Jon thought. 'I know friends do, but as she does Thom? Does he still love me? No, I shouldn't get too hopeful. She's married and so am I.' Jonathan still held strong feelings for Alanna although they were both married with children.
He had been hurt deeply when when she rejected him that time in the Bazhir Deserts [Woman Who Rides Like A Man]. He really did love Thayet but he just...didn't know what was going on in his heart.
"Well for the moment there's nothing much we can do. I'm really sorry about Thom. let's just pray to the gods that we'll find out what this is and cure it." He really didn't want to let Alanna go. He wanted to just reach forward and hold her in his arms again, but he knew she had duties to attend to so he had no choice.
"Yes, OK. Thank you. Please do try to get better. Goodbye, your higness." "Oh, please, Alan, just Jon," At least he made her laugh for just saying something he constantly had to say back in their page years when Alanna was known as a male and Alan.
"Goodbye." At that she bowed and walked towards the door. "Wait. Alanna. Would you and Gorge like to come to dinner tomorrow night?" Alanna considered the invitation for a moment then said, "It would be a pleasure to dine with you and Thayet." "Umm...Thayet won't be there. She was called away on buisiness with for rider groups." "OK, I'll see you then, Jon.
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"Can't we just gove then a small hint?" "No, Faithful, they must find out themselves in time. They will know when that time comes. Alanna is stubborn and willing enough and Jonathan is just the same. They'll work it out," replied the Great Mother Of Goddess.
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"Gorge? Is anyone home?" Alanna called as she walked through the door. "Yeah, Alanna, I'm in here." Alanna walked to the dining room, where Gorge's voice had come from. As soon as she saw Gorge she felt confused and upset all over again. He's cheeks were red, he's eyes swollen. He was a mess...he'd been crying. "Gorge!? Are you OK?" Alanna rushed over to him. "I'm fine. It's just all this...this..." "Gorge, you know Thom doesn't mean what he says. He loves you just as much as you love him. We'll fix the problem and all this."
As much as Gorgewould like to believe Alanna that the whole situation would just end forever but he couldn't. It just seemed to him as if this wouod go on forever. "I know," he lied, trying to look convincing. "I'm going to go to bed early, sorry. Goodnight." "Night, Gorge. And remember, it's all OK. There's nothing to worry about." He smiled, got up, kissed Alanna goodnight then left the room.
'Who am I trying to fool?" Alanna asked herself. 'Of course there's something to worry about.' She tried to think positively but it was practically impossible to be happy when your son and one of your closest friends may be in danger and your husband's depressed.