Chapter 12

Unrepressed Desire

A man shrouded in a dark hooded cloak gazed unblinking almost longingly into the foggy depth of a crystal sphere that was positioned before him. Fingers captured the icy surface of the ball, slowly caressing as if touching flesh. He watched as if in a trance, his mind seeking out invading the centre of the swirling mass as it slowly dissipated leaving a hazy image behind.

The crystal ball hummed slightly and the fingers drew away from the surface. He took a shuddering breath of air recognising the figure illuminated within the rock.

The man lent forward and draw back the shroud covering his face. He smiled wickedly stroked his right index finger over the cold pellucid substance.

Severus Snape alive and well. A small cruel smile touched his lips.

"With a girlfriend," he muttered. "Well I say. I never would have believed."

Abruptly he got to his feet distancing himself from the spying device.

It wasn't a usual crystal ball, the ones commonly used for divination, this one was different. It had been in his possession since the dark times. A useful tool for espionage and a device that was highly illegal, cast from black magic.

The image of Severus faded into the swirling fog again. Finally the fog itself solidified.

"The Potions Master of Hogwarts." He shook his head. His mind was spinning and with it the shock of seeing Severus Snape again after all those years hadn't stopped his heart from fluttering. The man clasped the stone into his hands and hastily buried it into his pocket then left the room.

Severus Snape awoke with a start realising he had somehow managed to press his body unceremoniously hard against hers with his right leg draped over her hip. He decided to lay there a few minutes longer savouring the pleasing tingle between his thighs.

Taya moaned in her sleep and became aware of the heavy pressure against her pelvice. It felt crushing but in a pleasurable way. She moved beneath the blanket unable to avoid rubbing herself against him.

"Severus," she moaned trying to leaver him off her. "You're heavy." She was awake he realised and jumped with a start, abruptly de-tangling himself and vaulted off the bed.

"It's all right," she said slightly amused while watching Severus try to smooth his robes rather unsuccessfully. The creases appeared to remain a permanent commodity. She sat up and leisurely crossed her legs. "What time is it?"

"Half past eleven," he said glancing at the alarm clock.

"Did we actually sleep that long?"

"Yes. I think you better return to your rooms." Taya stretched like a cat and yawned. She noticed the potion master expression gazing down at her. She smiled up at him deliberately running her hand over the satin fabric of her night dress over her curves. She watched fascinated by his face then got out of the bed then pulled the satin up just a fraction exposing a thigh.

She moved seductively. Deliberately riding the garment further up her body until she heard him take a sharp intake of breath. Abruptly Taya turned around, her back facing him, leaning slightly forward taking the full advantage that she was turning him on. Taya abruptly concealed herself.

"May I ask a personal question?" He said in a shaky voice.

"Of cause."

"Do you normally put on seduction shows, or is it only with me? You seemed to take keen delight in exposing yourself despite your apparent physical aliments earlier."

"Did it not titillate you Severus?"

"Ha ha," said Severus sarcastically. "Your singular wit excels you into further comedic superiority."

"Why do you ask?"

"Curiosity." She nodded.

"That's a fare enough answer I guess. Severus are you aroused?"

"Waa... what?" He spluttered.

"Did my little show turn you on. I would be very disappointed if all my efforts were in vain."

Blasted females, he thought. She was goading him. Without realising it he made a quiet breathy sound. Silently Taya stepped towards him. She stopped about a foot away then lifted the night dress over her head and dropped it to the floor. Severus gulped. She was completely naked and was currently snaking herself towards him.

"Do you think I'm beautiful?" She asked.

"Yes." his voice was like the soft caress of velvet snagged over something caustic and rough.

"Do you think I'm sexy?

His breathy sounds were now closer to that of sobs.

"Severus, can I kiss you?"

"Yes," he murmured. She drew close to him and wrapped her arms around his waist.

"You know, this has never felt so right."

She closed her eyes and leaned close, lightly kissing him on the cheek.

A feeling burst out into his mind, his brain and his body, a wanting he hadn't freely experienced before had trudged itself to the surface leaving Severus Snape slightly confused, slightly bare and if not completely aroused.

The other days fumbling had taken him by surprise and left him quite literally quaking in his boots much to his disgust. He found himself scoffing at it. For some reason that day, with that uncertain turn of events had left an imprint on his mind. Unconsciously he had found himself evaluating the picnic like a teacher evaluating a test. It was true he had for a brief few moments fallen into lust, but rationale had won the day, causing his mind to deny those feelings and detach himself from them. But for some reason he was uncertain of those feelings that had returned to haunt him this morning.

Had it not been from the mind blowing erection he had awoken with or the fact that when he had opened his eyes and found himself pinned down against his young lover maybe those passionate emotions wouldn't have stirred so bluntly and freely.

"Taya?"

"Yes?"

"I...want...you," he murmured.

"You have me." She kissed his chin.

"You don't understand."

"What is there to understand?" She cooed between her kisses.

He took her small hand into his and brought it up to his lips lightly pressing his lips into her palm. She smiled up at him and the tender gesture he was making. He kissed her wrist then turned her hand over, softly drawing circles with his fingers before kissing it.

"I want us...I mean I want to...This is difficult for me," he murmured shyly.

"Take your time."

"I want to...be with you."

"Do you mean-"

"Yes. " He pulled away. "But I sincerely hope that you do not require me to be some kind of Casanova because... I have never before been in this kind of situation."

"Oh Severus-"

"Please let me finish. Frankly I hope that you still don't have riotous expectations of me. I myself never deemed that any value would come from-" His voice took on a hint of desperation. "I...I can't hold back any longer."

"Severus, are you trying to say that you want to make love to me?"

He took a deep breath. "As much as I desire to resist you I feel that I can not pull myself away from you. I think that I-"

"Sush." She pressed her fingers to his lips. "Do you remember what I said about not being afraid any more?"

"Yes." She leaned in closer still and pulled off his cloak that was creased beyond hope since he had used it for a blanket the night before. Severus stood there not knowing quite what to do. Whether to push her away or pull her close. Trepidation gnawed at his mind despite his passion. Better stay focused, he thought as she absently ran her hand down his body. But how can I when she is so...naked.

"Oh Merlin!" he breathed. "What is to become of me?"

Starting at the hem Taya un-slid the buttons from their latches then slid off the jacket dropping it onto the chair. She was met with a waistcoat of the same colour and fabric which was hastily removed. She pulled his shirt out of his trousers and loosened the clasp at his throat. Taya leaned forward then planted butterfly kisses on his neck relishing the fact that he didn't resist.

"Then I assume that you accept my offer to 'make love.'"

"Yes Severus. Are you sure you are okay with this?"

"Yes."

"I was concerned because only a few hours ago you didn't want to. Tell me any time and I'll stop."

"I feel safer here," he said.

"I'm glad," she breathed and her tongue slid over his Adam's apple.

After a moment of gentle caresses she stopped.

"What do you want me to do?" He whispered in a trembling voice while staring at the naked swell of her chest. She took his hand and pressed it against her belly briefly before guiding it to the place she wanted.

"Here," she whispered breathlessly.

Without taking his eyes away from hers his fingers gently brushed against her nipple. He abruptly pulled away when he heard a soft moan from her. "It's okay Severus, I like this, don't be scared." She leaned closer.

"What do I do now then?"

"You needn't do anything. I want to finish undressing you."

"Very well," he said in an emotionless voice, a far cry from what he was actually feeling. With haste she removed the shirt. She smiled to herself as she eased the black trousers down over his slim hips and he stepped out of them.

He stood there virtually naked, she pressed her hand against his chest, the skin prickled.

"Your freezing," she commented. "No wonder, it's pretty chilly in here." She looked around for her wand, spotted it in the pile of clothes and picked it up pointing it at the unlit fireplace. A moment later a roaring fire melted away any remaining chilliness in the air.

Once again she took him into her arms, cautiously he responded and wrapped his arms awkwardly around her.

"That's nice." she murmured to him and briefly lent her head against his chest. "Kiss me Severus." He leaned down cupping her face in his large capable hands. His lower lip briefly rubbed against hers then her jaw slackened as his mouth suckled her upper lip. He pulled her closer to him, stooping a little lower for better leverage, then the kiss deepened from a chaste touching of lips into something much stronger. The passion that had him in it's grasp a moment ago was readily replaced with red hot burning recklessness. He slid his tongue into her mouth seeking out, touching and stoking. Then at last he pulled away.

"Taya?" he questioned in a voice so quiet it was barely discernible. "Please...touch me." She felt a flush of magical surrender claim her. She was touched by the soft tone of his voice. A complete contrast to the brash sarcastic way he choose his words normally, usually mocking other people. Then she became aware of the hardness pressing into her belly.

She ran her fingers over his chest and abdomen but stopped at the waistband of his underwear.

Stopping Taya looked up at his face. He nodded once. Taya smiled taking the invitation, then she slipped her fingers inside the band to stoke his bare hips for a few moments.

"Now...please," he murmered faintly. Taya pulled the material down savouring the sight of him, the thick ebony curls that framed his heightened sex.

His eyes were closed. She became aware of his erratic breathing, the short abrupt gasps as he inhaled and exhaled in anticipation of what was to come next.

Taya gently reached out and slid her fingers down the trail of belly hair and through the damp black curls.

Severus swallowed hard, his pulse was racing and he was trembling despite himself and he was burning. Taya noticed the sheen of perspiration on his chest.

She removed her hands from between his legs and slid them up his body to stroke his chest. He watched with odd curiosity as her teeth gently grazed a nipple, being careful not to inadvertently hurt him. Quickly she kissed him on the mouth. His eyes caught hers for a moment.

The faintest of a smile touched his mouth. She smiled back when his hand lightly brushed the side of her face.

"You look lovely when you smile Severus." He lowered his head slightly and she caught a glimpse of another smile and a the slight pink flush to his cheeks.

"Are you sure you want to do this? Me touching you. I mean if it's too soon please say now-"

"Do you really love me? Truly love me?"

"You know I do. Do I still have to keep reminding you?"

"Yes."

"Then I will. I love you more than anything in the world."

"Thank you," he whispered softly and pulled her hands onto his slim hips.

"Please," he murmured. "Touch me then." She nodded then pulled him over to the bed. He sat down.

"Come here," she said sliding down to her knees on the floor. Taya gazed up into his face watching his expression as she gently eased his legs apart.

Severus swallowed willing himself to remaim calm as her mouth was about to make contact with such a secret part of his body, a private caress that he had only ever experienced in dreams.

"I want to ravish you," she said before finally kissing him there.