Disclaimer: I don't own anybody 'cept Kayla, Aria, Tiffany, and some of the
teachers. The rest belong to J.K. Rowling.
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Chapter 15- Goodbye, my Love
The next morning was chaotic in the Ravenclaw girls 6th year Dorm rooms. Everyone having woken up late, was arguing over who got the shower, and after realizing that Tiffany had already taken the bathroom, they started to fight over who had it next, eventually, everyone got their shower, but in the end, the four girls ended up missing breakfast altogether.
"God, I'm hungry." Kayla whined as they began to walk towards Herbology Class. Lily groaned. "You've been saying that since you got out of the shower, Kayla! We know already!" Aria snapped in reply, causing her friends to stare at her. Aria blushed and mumbled something that sounded like "sorry" and continued out side to the green house.
"She seems bitchy today." Tiffany said as they watched Aria stomp her way across the grounds.
"Hmm." Lily said, deep in thought.
"Tonight's the full moon." Kayla commented as they began their decent in Aria's wake.
"I bet you that's why she's so . . . snappy." Lily mumbled. "We're still on for tonight though, aren't we?" she said looking at her two remaining friends.
They had been planning to go explore this cave that they had found past Hogsmeade a couple of weeks ago.
"Oh yeah." Kayla drawled, excitement ringing through her voice.
Tiffany nodded her head.
Lily smirked, 'This is going to be so fun.' She thought with glee.
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Aria, Kayla, Lily and Tiffany all walked in the Great Hall from their last class for lunch, scanned the Gryffindor table then walked over and sat at the Ravenclaw table, keeping four seats open. . . the fourth one just in case.
Lily laid her books down, and fleetingly glanced at them. For some reason they just seemed lighter today. Then she realized that she left her Care of Magical Creatures book in the dormitory.
"Hey, I forgot my C.o.M.C. book in the room, I'll be right back, kay?" She said hastily, then not waiting for a reply, got up from her seat, and taking the books that she no longer needed with her, went to go get her book.
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James and Sirius were having a little bit of trouble at the moment. You see, they, reguardless of their . . . expertise, they were cornered by a big - no, make that very large - amount of Hufflepuff girls in one of the hallways.
"Ladies, ladies, if you'd do us the honor of giving us just a little room here, please." Sirius begged vainly as three of the girls latched themselves to some part of his body.
"Jamesie-poo, don't you remember me? We spent those thirty fabulous minutes in the broom closet by the Charms class together." A 6th year Hufflepuff with short brown hair and light gray eyes purred into his ear as another girl slid her hand up and down his chest, muttering exotic things that she wanted him to do to her in his ears. "Ladies, please, I'm already taken. As big of a delight this encounter has been-" he started, but was soon cut off by a voice that could make anyone's blood chill at the moment. Or, at least that is what it did to James' blood.
"I believe that you better get your hands off of him before you end up in the hospital wing." Lily said, her eyes flashing yet her tone Artic cold. "NOW!" she screamed. The Hufflepuff's surrounding James giggled and for some stupid reason turned towards Lily and said, "Jealousy isn't flattering, you know." And turned back to stroking James' arm lovingly.
Lily slowly, as if trying not to give in to her temper, muttered under her breath, "abroganzione", and suddenly every single Hufflepuff that was hanging on to James was on the opposite side of the hall, looking around wildly, trying to see what went had just happened. Lily glared at the girls and turned a frosted glance at James.
"Lily!" two male voices rang after her as she turned to go to the Ravenclaw dorms.
"Wait! Help!" Sirius yelled.
"Stop! Please!" James yelled at the same time.
Lily ignored them both, and jogged the rest of the way to the Ravenclaw entrance trying to stay away from James at the moment. Lily stopped at the statue, said the password, and went in.
Having just put away the books that she brought with her, she started to look for her C.o.M.C. book, when she heard someone step into the room.
Lily stiffened; knowing whom it was without even looking. He always seemed to draw her attention unlike any other.
"Lils," he said softly, stepping further into the room. "What'd I do?" he asked. Lily turned around and looked James in the face. "You could have done something about them." Was all she said before she turned back to looking for her book. "Is that what this is about? Lily. I love you, not them. I couldn't get to my wand. I had stuffed it in my back pocket instead of my robe pocket, and couldn't reach it." Lily whirled around. "You can do wandless magic James, so don't give me that." She cried out. James' jaw dropped. "You know?" he croaked out. "Yes James, I know. You're a mage James! You could have gotten them off of you!" she said forcefully. " Yet you didn't." she said before he could explain in a broken voice as she sat down on her bed and buried her head in her hands.
"Why James? Why? Miss the attention? Is one girl not enough for you? Why? Why, answer me that." She whispered, and despised the fact that the tears were audible in her voice.
James walked over to Lily, his heart beating so loudly in fear that he was surprised that she couldn't hear it. He bent down and laid his hands gently, lovingly, on her knees. "Lily, you are enough for me, no one else will ever be able to take your spot in my heart. I love you with everything that I am. I have plans for us, I never want anyone else." He said, trying to get her to look at him, but she wouldn't raise her head from her hands. "Lily?" he said softly, knowing what she was thinking. "Please. Please Lily, say something. Anything other than what I think that you're going to say." He pleaded, his voice cracking with realization. 'I screwed this up big time, and just because I missed being fawned over, I'm losing the best thing that has ever happened to me.'
"James," she whispered, lifting her head and looking at him. "Look me in the eye and tell me that you didn't push them off because you missed the attention. Because you wanted something better than what I can give you, and I won't say what you think that I want to say." She told him. James closed his eyes in desperation. If he was to lie, she would know it just by looking in his eyes. "Lils," he said, opening his eyes to gaze into hers, drowning in the depths of them. One of his hands moved from the position on her knee and cupped her neck. James transferred to his knees and leaned into her, bringing her lips to his and gently, brushed his lips along hers and pulled back. He kept his hand where it was, looked her in the eye and said, "Lily. You are everything that I could ever want, more than I ever dreamed possible to have." Lily let out a sob, somehow knowing what he was going to say next. "But, I - I missed that part of my life. Being the center of attention. And just for a moment, I wanted to know what it felt like again. Lily I love you, and I have tried so hard to change for you, but I found that some of the things that I used to do would just . . .pop out sometimes. Jump out of that boxed that I'd enclosed them in. I'm so sorry, sweetheart. I never meant to hurt you. I'd rather die than cause you pain, and you know that."
Silent tears streaming down her face, Lily bent her head to his and kissed him. She poured everything that she felt for him in that kiss, and pulled back, fighting off the sobs that wanted to take over. 'I won't sob or morn, at least not until he can't hear.' She thought.
"James, I love you so much, but I don't want you to change for me. I fell in love with you because of who you were before we dated. But, I can't compete with you yourself. James, I want you to know, I'll love no other like I love you, but I refuse to even think if your ego is going to find another way to satisfy itself. I can't. I'm sorry. I love you, but-" at this, one sob came past her defenses and she had to take a deep, shuddering breath to keep the rest at bay. "But I can't be with you always wondering where you are when I'm not around." She gasped, tears flowing rapidly down her cheeks.
James, wiping his own tears with the hem of his sleeves, brought his hands to Lily's cheeks and ran his hand over her tear stained face in an attempt to wash away the tears.
"Lily! Come on, we're going to be late!" came Kayla's voice from the staircase. A second later, two sets of feet could be heard coming up them, towards the 6th years room.
James leaned in and kissed Lily, sliding his tongue in her mouth for one last taste before he pulled away, wiping away the fresh tears that tumbled over her lashes and onto her face. "I love you Lily Evans, don't forget that. I'll always love you." He whispered, brushing his lips against hers one last time as he got up.
"James, I'll never forget what we shared. And I'll love you for the rest of my life and beyond James Potter." She whispered back in a broken voice, just as Kayla came in to the room demanding, "Come on. We have to go now!"
James glanced at Lily then walked out of the door.
"Goodbye, my Love." Lily whispered as she heard the common room door shut and finally let the dam break and began to sob.
Kayla and Aria seeing this ran over to their friend and engulfed her in embraces. Lily sobbed even harder, already missing the warmth of James' love, his embraces, and his slightly cocky grins. Already missing him with every piece of her heart. "Ti amo, James." She whispered through her sobs, causing Kayla and Aria to look at each other in confusion.
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James walked slowly, concentrating on every step he took towards the Gryffindor common room, and then he had to concentrate on lifting his feet high enough to walk up the steps. It was only when he got to his room that he allowed his feelings show. Collapsing onto his bed, to weak to move, he cried out his pain.
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A/N: OMG! I cried so hard when I began to write this part. Sniffles . . . I really didn't want to make them break up, but it plays a big part in the plot, so I had to. Sorry. Please review.
Thank you,
Mistress del Mare
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Chapter 15- Goodbye, my Love
The next morning was chaotic in the Ravenclaw girls 6th year Dorm rooms. Everyone having woken up late, was arguing over who got the shower, and after realizing that Tiffany had already taken the bathroom, they started to fight over who had it next, eventually, everyone got their shower, but in the end, the four girls ended up missing breakfast altogether.
"God, I'm hungry." Kayla whined as they began to walk towards Herbology Class. Lily groaned. "You've been saying that since you got out of the shower, Kayla! We know already!" Aria snapped in reply, causing her friends to stare at her. Aria blushed and mumbled something that sounded like "sorry" and continued out side to the green house.
"She seems bitchy today." Tiffany said as they watched Aria stomp her way across the grounds.
"Hmm." Lily said, deep in thought.
"Tonight's the full moon." Kayla commented as they began their decent in Aria's wake.
"I bet you that's why she's so . . . snappy." Lily mumbled. "We're still on for tonight though, aren't we?" she said looking at her two remaining friends.
They had been planning to go explore this cave that they had found past Hogsmeade a couple of weeks ago.
"Oh yeah." Kayla drawled, excitement ringing through her voice.
Tiffany nodded her head.
Lily smirked, 'This is going to be so fun.' She thought with glee.
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Aria, Kayla, Lily and Tiffany all walked in the Great Hall from their last class for lunch, scanned the Gryffindor table then walked over and sat at the Ravenclaw table, keeping four seats open. . . the fourth one just in case.
Lily laid her books down, and fleetingly glanced at them. For some reason they just seemed lighter today. Then she realized that she left her Care of Magical Creatures book in the dormitory.
"Hey, I forgot my C.o.M.C. book in the room, I'll be right back, kay?" She said hastily, then not waiting for a reply, got up from her seat, and taking the books that she no longer needed with her, went to go get her book.
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James and Sirius were having a little bit of trouble at the moment. You see, they, reguardless of their . . . expertise, they were cornered by a big - no, make that very large - amount of Hufflepuff girls in one of the hallways.
"Ladies, ladies, if you'd do us the honor of giving us just a little room here, please." Sirius begged vainly as three of the girls latched themselves to some part of his body.
"Jamesie-poo, don't you remember me? We spent those thirty fabulous minutes in the broom closet by the Charms class together." A 6th year Hufflepuff with short brown hair and light gray eyes purred into his ear as another girl slid her hand up and down his chest, muttering exotic things that she wanted him to do to her in his ears. "Ladies, please, I'm already taken. As big of a delight this encounter has been-" he started, but was soon cut off by a voice that could make anyone's blood chill at the moment. Or, at least that is what it did to James' blood.
"I believe that you better get your hands off of him before you end up in the hospital wing." Lily said, her eyes flashing yet her tone Artic cold. "NOW!" she screamed. The Hufflepuff's surrounding James giggled and for some stupid reason turned towards Lily and said, "Jealousy isn't flattering, you know." And turned back to stroking James' arm lovingly.
Lily slowly, as if trying not to give in to her temper, muttered under her breath, "abroganzione", and suddenly every single Hufflepuff that was hanging on to James was on the opposite side of the hall, looking around wildly, trying to see what went had just happened. Lily glared at the girls and turned a frosted glance at James.
"Lily!" two male voices rang after her as she turned to go to the Ravenclaw dorms.
"Wait! Help!" Sirius yelled.
"Stop! Please!" James yelled at the same time.
Lily ignored them both, and jogged the rest of the way to the Ravenclaw entrance trying to stay away from James at the moment. Lily stopped at the statue, said the password, and went in.
Having just put away the books that she brought with her, she started to look for her C.o.M.C. book, when she heard someone step into the room.
Lily stiffened; knowing whom it was without even looking. He always seemed to draw her attention unlike any other.
"Lils," he said softly, stepping further into the room. "What'd I do?" he asked. Lily turned around and looked James in the face. "You could have done something about them." Was all she said before she turned back to looking for her book. "Is that what this is about? Lily. I love you, not them. I couldn't get to my wand. I had stuffed it in my back pocket instead of my robe pocket, and couldn't reach it." Lily whirled around. "You can do wandless magic James, so don't give me that." She cried out. James' jaw dropped. "You know?" he croaked out. "Yes James, I know. You're a mage James! You could have gotten them off of you!" she said forcefully. " Yet you didn't." she said before he could explain in a broken voice as she sat down on her bed and buried her head in her hands.
"Why James? Why? Miss the attention? Is one girl not enough for you? Why? Why, answer me that." She whispered, and despised the fact that the tears were audible in her voice.
James walked over to Lily, his heart beating so loudly in fear that he was surprised that she couldn't hear it. He bent down and laid his hands gently, lovingly, on her knees. "Lily, you are enough for me, no one else will ever be able to take your spot in my heart. I love you with everything that I am. I have plans for us, I never want anyone else." He said, trying to get her to look at him, but she wouldn't raise her head from her hands. "Lily?" he said softly, knowing what she was thinking. "Please. Please Lily, say something. Anything other than what I think that you're going to say." He pleaded, his voice cracking with realization. 'I screwed this up big time, and just because I missed being fawned over, I'm losing the best thing that has ever happened to me.'
"James," she whispered, lifting her head and looking at him. "Look me in the eye and tell me that you didn't push them off because you missed the attention. Because you wanted something better than what I can give you, and I won't say what you think that I want to say." She told him. James closed his eyes in desperation. If he was to lie, she would know it just by looking in his eyes. "Lils," he said, opening his eyes to gaze into hers, drowning in the depths of them. One of his hands moved from the position on her knee and cupped her neck. James transferred to his knees and leaned into her, bringing her lips to his and gently, brushed his lips along hers and pulled back. He kept his hand where it was, looked her in the eye and said, "Lily. You are everything that I could ever want, more than I ever dreamed possible to have." Lily let out a sob, somehow knowing what he was going to say next. "But, I - I missed that part of my life. Being the center of attention. And just for a moment, I wanted to know what it felt like again. Lily I love you, and I have tried so hard to change for you, but I found that some of the things that I used to do would just . . .pop out sometimes. Jump out of that boxed that I'd enclosed them in. I'm so sorry, sweetheart. I never meant to hurt you. I'd rather die than cause you pain, and you know that."
Silent tears streaming down her face, Lily bent her head to his and kissed him. She poured everything that she felt for him in that kiss, and pulled back, fighting off the sobs that wanted to take over. 'I won't sob or morn, at least not until he can't hear.' She thought.
"James, I love you so much, but I don't want you to change for me. I fell in love with you because of who you were before we dated. But, I can't compete with you yourself. James, I want you to know, I'll love no other like I love you, but I refuse to even think if your ego is going to find another way to satisfy itself. I can't. I'm sorry. I love you, but-" at this, one sob came past her defenses and she had to take a deep, shuddering breath to keep the rest at bay. "But I can't be with you always wondering where you are when I'm not around." She gasped, tears flowing rapidly down her cheeks.
James, wiping his own tears with the hem of his sleeves, brought his hands to Lily's cheeks and ran his hand over her tear stained face in an attempt to wash away the tears.
"Lily! Come on, we're going to be late!" came Kayla's voice from the staircase. A second later, two sets of feet could be heard coming up them, towards the 6th years room.
James leaned in and kissed Lily, sliding his tongue in her mouth for one last taste before he pulled away, wiping away the fresh tears that tumbled over her lashes and onto her face. "I love you Lily Evans, don't forget that. I'll always love you." He whispered, brushing his lips against hers one last time as he got up.
"James, I'll never forget what we shared. And I'll love you for the rest of my life and beyond James Potter." She whispered back in a broken voice, just as Kayla came in to the room demanding, "Come on. We have to go now!"
James glanced at Lily then walked out of the door.
"Goodbye, my Love." Lily whispered as she heard the common room door shut and finally let the dam break and began to sob.
Kayla and Aria seeing this ran over to their friend and engulfed her in embraces. Lily sobbed even harder, already missing the warmth of James' love, his embraces, and his slightly cocky grins. Already missing him with every piece of her heart. "Ti amo, James." She whispered through her sobs, causing Kayla and Aria to look at each other in confusion.
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James walked slowly, concentrating on every step he took towards the Gryffindor common room, and then he had to concentrate on lifting his feet high enough to walk up the steps. It was only when he got to his room that he allowed his feelings show. Collapsing onto his bed, to weak to move, he cried out his pain.
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A/N: OMG! I cried so hard when I began to write this part. Sniffles . . . I really didn't want to make them break up, but it plays a big part in the plot, so I had to. Sorry. Please review.
Thank you,
Mistress del Mare