Here I am again. Did you miss me my dear reader? I hate talking to
this damn computer.**Tap tap** Any one in there???? I speaketh at you once
more. God save you! If there is one. The whole Marius and time thing will
be explained. In a way it is partially my sight on things. I have two point
of views on the entire celestial issue. One is the point of view that
Marius has in this story as shown previously and as shall be further more
spoken of. The other the one in which I am more taken with is shown by
myself in this story. You will come to find in fact how similar we really
are. Hang tight I must warn you that I am feeling quite woosy while writing
this.
Wait wait wait!!!!!!! I should give another disclaimer. I own no two dimensional or fanastically contrived characters from any other story written by any one. I am not sure on this but I do not even think that I rightfully own myself yet. Marius owns me!!!!!!!! He does! Seriously! All I can ever think of are him and other supernal non exisent god-like characters.
Okay Im ready to continue now! HERE STARTS CHAPTER 6
I sat down. Oh this will definitely be a quite interesting conversation I thought to myself. I can feel it. Oh yes I can. I watched him watch me. Still placid and caring as ever. Why does he care? He is so like me. Like he was part of me.
***I am part of you.***
He still stared with such a penetrating gaze. He sees through me like glass.
***You are so deep and not always clear nor shallow as glass may be. Sharp yet smooth and sharp your edges are and glass is one or the other yet never both. You are so much more so very much more. You are not fragile but resilient as the tides. A deep dark sea you are with such turmoil yet so little animosity nor malice. Yes part of you I am and this I must thus explain.You will understand thisbefore you must recede from this haven.***
His face was subdued and he looked down at his hands. I was now attentive to his every word and waited for his continuance.
He looked up and began what he had waited to say all night since I had seen the ice and the stars. "What ever lies behind those stars you see every night, Rachel? You may never know and then again you may. Maybe it is completely obvious to some. Maybe it is just the scientific perspective or the religious one maybe it is both connected and flowing in a syncronized pattern together. Maybe science explains god. Is there a god? this I do not claim to know or even somewhat comprehend. There is one thing however in which I am positively certain on and that is that each individual person contains a essence or a soul if you will. My powers are not needed to learn such a thing. How ever much a person does wrong there is always a balance to their bad side. No one is fully evil and all can love and eventually do. Some are more easily persuaded to do so than others yet we all cherish the hope of love. This you may soon find out is much more consuming and important than what ever diety lies beyond the stars or in a temple or on a mountain. For they are not something to waste your time pondering over.
"Life passes so quickly I see it every day. All my life has been shrouded by death. Death eventually consumes all but myself and few others. As I watch death come and go ending the condrudum of mortal life I see the ending of many peoples suffering. They smile in their hearts. They smile at the prospect of finishing their pain. Other people who tended to be happy through out their lives also smile. They smile with rememberence and with joyful dispositions. They are glad and do not diminish and for these reasons I find that there must be more time on our hands than we can possibly imagine. A uncertain fate we have. All of us."
He grasped my hand and smiled. "You may never know the future but let it come as it will for there is nothing that we can do to change it. You must just live your life to it's fullest and not dwell on the things that do not matter. if there is some celestial force it shouldn't feel badly of living this way. It is the only way to live happy. Help but do not hate. And feel little remorse for we all seem to have a place in the sceme of things."
We sat silent for a long time. It was not an awkward silence for I was thinking of what he had said. It had all rang true and I had known it all the while yet now it was in order and comprehensible. I could identify with this knowledge. It is every thing I am. It is my identity, my knowledge, and a burden to carry and to share. I spoke to him then, "If all this is true then there is one point you were missing. That is what is the point of living."
Marius began to explain, "The...."
I put my hand up and stopped him, " I think it is my turn to tell beliefs. I have always thought that people lived to help eachother and to teach and learn and raise children and teach them what a person should do in their lives. Oh it is so hard to explain."
The reply I got was this, "This is because there is no textbook straight forward reasoning to life. I have lived for thousands of years and still I do not know." I toyed with the can opener and he smirked at me for unchartable reasons. I shook my head at his unpredictability.
I began covering the entire conversation again in my mind. "Wait a second so much is unawnsered yet. Where are we? You said I had to return to where I belonged. I believe I have more to hear."
"This is true, you are so vigilant Rachel. You will experience such a feat in the next weeks and I am here to prepare you for it. Nothing is planned yet nothing that will happen will be random. At the moment you are dreaming."
"I half figured so. Not every day you meet a 3000 year old man as good looking and kind as you are."
***I am not joking here***
"I am almost getting used to that mind thing you know?" I said with a grin. "Continue".
"This dreaming process you will go through will be created by your emotions and current affairs. Every one goes through it at least once when they are developing into maturity yet as all dreams they are eventually forgotten."
I gave Marius a very exasperated look, "Wait a second I'm confused! This is a normal human process? That is so odd."
"Yes love and yours will be especially interesting due to your enormous amount of imagination and creativity".
"Is that a bad thing?" I asked half worriedly half sarcastically.
"For you, Rachel, these dreams will most likely have a overall positive effect but they could do exactly the opposite. Each dream's roles are filled with something familiar to you that is on your mind the most. You could have whatever you desired yet your dreams may also contain whatever you are fearing or hating."
It dawned on me. "I am beginning to understand this far fetched thing now. Now I know why you seem so similar to me. You represent a part of me. A part of everyone really. Wisdom, knowledge, experience, love, caring, thought, encouragement, trying, and will. Your form embodies all the good things of human nature. You are truely the timeless goodness of the human soul".
"You must go now maybe you shall meet me again. Think of me and remember all I have told you. Good bye now love"
Good so far? Introduction complete. I am going to wake up now. Yes Michele! You and Leah shall be included! Very soon. Maybe even next chapter. Hey this is long enough to consider a chapter. Not a blurb.
Wait wait wait!!!!!!! I should give another disclaimer. I own no two dimensional or fanastically contrived characters from any other story written by any one. I am not sure on this but I do not even think that I rightfully own myself yet. Marius owns me!!!!!!!! He does! Seriously! All I can ever think of are him and other supernal non exisent god-like characters.
Okay Im ready to continue now! HERE STARTS CHAPTER 6
I sat down. Oh this will definitely be a quite interesting conversation I thought to myself. I can feel it. Oh yes I can. I watched him watch me. Still placid and caring as ever. Why does he care? He is so like me. Like he was part of me.
***I am part of you.***
He still stared with such a penetrating gaze. He sees through me like glass.
***You are so deep and not always clear nor shallow as glass may be. Sharp yet smooth and sharp your edges are and glass is one or the other yet never both. You are so much more so very much more. You are not fragile but resilient as the tides. A deep dark sea you are with such turmoil yet so little animosity nor malice. Yes part of you I am and this I must thus explain.You will understand thisbefore you must recede from this haven.***
His face was subdued and he looked down at his hands. I was now attentive to his every word and waited for his continuance.
He looked up and began what he had waited to say all night since I had seen the ice and the stars. "What ever lies behind those stars you see every night, Rachel? You may never know and then again you may. Maybe it is completely obvious to some. Maybe it is just the scientific perspective or the religious one maybe it is both connected and flowing in a syncronized pattern together. Maybe science explains god. Is there a god? this I do not claim to know or even somewhat comprehend. There is one thing however in which I am positively certain on and that is that each individual person contains a essence or a soul if you will. My powers are not needed to learn such a thing. How ever much a person does wrong there is always a balance to their bad side. No one is fully evil and all can love and eventually do. Some are more easily persuaded to do so than others yet we all cherish the hope of love. This you may soon find out is much more consuming and important than what ever diety lies beyond the stars or in a temple or on a mountain. For they are not something to waste your time pondering over.
"Life passes so quickly I see it every day. All my life has been shrouded by death. Death eventually consumes all but myself and few others. As I watch death come and go ending the condrudum of mortal life I see the ending of many peoples suffering. They smile in their hearts. They smile at the prospect of finishing their pain. Other people who tended to be happy through out their lives also smile. They smile with rememberence and with joyful dispositions. They are glad and do not diminish and for these reasons I find that there must be more time on our hands than we can possibly imagine. A uncertain fate we have. All of us."
He grasped my hand and smiled. "You may never know the future but let it come as it will for there is nothing that we can do to change it. You must just live your life to it's fullest and not dwell on the things that do not matter. if there is some celestial force it shouldn't feel badly of living this way. It is the only way to live happy. Help but do not hate. And feel little remorse for we all seem to have a place in the sceme of things."
We sat silent for a long time. It was not an awkward silence for I was thinking of what he had said. It had all rang true and I had known it all the while yet now it was in order and comprehensible. I could identify with this knowledge. It is every thing I am. It is my identity, my knowledge, and a burden to carry and to share. I spoke to him then, "If all this is true then there is one point you were missing. That is what is the point of living."
Marius began to explain, "The...."
I put my hand up and stopped him, " I think it is my turn to tell beliefs. I have always thought that people lived to help eachother and to teach and learn and raise children and teach them what a person should do in their lives. Oh it is so hard to explain."
The reply I got was this, "This is because there is no textbook straight forward reasoning to life. I have lived for thousands of years and still I do not know." I toyed with the can opener and he smirked at me for unchartable reasons. I shook my head at his unpredictability.
I began covering the entire conversation again in my mind. "Wait a second so much is unawnsered yet. Where are we? You said I had to return to where I belonged. I believe I have more to hear."
"This is true, you are so vigilant Rachel. You will experience such a feat in the next weeks and I am here to prepare you for it. Nothing is planned yet nothing that will happen will be random. At the moment you are dreaming."
"I half figured so. Not every day you meet a 3000 year old man as good looking and kind as you are."
***I am not joking here***
"I am almost getting used to that mind thing you know?" I said with a grin. "Continue".
"This dreaming process you will go through will be created by your emotions and current affairs. Every one goes through it at least once when they are developing into maturity yet as all dreams they are eventually forgotten."
I gave Marius a very exasperated look, "Wait a second I'm confused! This is a normal human process? That is so odd."
"Yes love and yours will be especially interesting due to your enormous amount of imagination and creativity".
"Is that a bad thing?" I asked half worriedly half sarcastically.
"For you, Rachel, these dreams will most likely have a overall positive effect but they could do exactly the opposite. Each dream's roles are filled with something familiar to you that is on your mind the most. You could have whatever you desired yet your dreams may also contain whatever you are fearing or hating."
It dawned on me. "I am beginning to understand this far fetched thing now. Now I know why you seem so similar to me. You represent a part of me. A part of everyone really. Wisdom, knowledge, experience, love, caring, thought, encouragement, trying, and will. Your form embodies all the good things of human nature. You are truely the timeless goodness of the human soul".
"You must go now maybe you shall meet me again. Think of me and remember all I have told you. Good bye now love"
Good so far? Introduction complete. I am going to wake up now. Yes Michele! You and Leah shall be included! Very soon. Maybe even next chapter. Hey this is long enough to consider a chapter. Not a blurb.