[A/N] So basically yes, I'm typing this in a hurry 'coz I'm going back to school tomorrow and I probably won't come online for a week! *sobs* EVIL PARENTS AND EVIL SCHOOL!! WHY DO YOU WRECK OUR LIVES SO! And notes to all of you readers: starting from next week onwards, I shall not be online on weekdays, therefore please check for updates on weekends. *sigh* Let's just say that school has ruined the lives of us fanfiction authors. Oh well.

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Thanks to:

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Cylca: Well...I think it'll stay at PG-13. It's not THAT limey, after all – I didn't know that June has a grudge against yaoi, and HONESTLY, May didn't tell me she wrote fics! Whoot!

Star-chan: Mou...good-bye! *sniff* Ingat to mail me tau! And continue being the loyal reader and reviewer that you are, Pei San! *blows nose on hanky* Zutto Daisuki! [as friends, of course, LOL] XD

Ashtoreth: Thank YOU! ^^

EeGuaNa: I know! *sobs* AND MY PARENTS WON'T LET ME FREAKING ONLINE UNTIL I GET INTO THE TOP 10 DAMNIT! ARGH!!!

Aspara: Hmm...I guess there is a dirty scene. I love YOUR fic, so keep it up! ;)

sTrAwBeRrYfAnSz: Homura won't die. Not sure though! ^^

camry maxwell: You actually made Sanzo propose to Goku! *blows nose* And they kissed in front of the setting sun! *glomps camry* I WUV YOU! XD XD

chris: Hehe. Go, get some sugar! XD

Ewen: Whoot! ^^ Hehe, good, you forgive me. XD Hope 2 see you online – you seem to be missing. =(

Morikawa Sei: I know how you feel...school is starting, damnit.

Hoshi: Well, not exactly – I wrote the whole new flashbacks! ^^ Without referring to the lime...and thanks!

cutie-pie16: Damn, still haven't got my topup. Call me lah...

gallatica: AAAAAAAH!!! HENTAIIIIIIII!!!!!!! Yes, he was stroking Goku's hair. -_-;; Hentai girl, you! *points accusingly at gallatica* Nah, can't blame you. :P Hehe. I will be writing an epilogue, and a sequel.

Jashuang: I WROTE FOR 1 HOUR AND MY GRAN CHASED ME OFF – I guess we're in the same situation. ^^;; Hey, make me a rabid fangirl! *begs* Please!

M-i: *sweatdrops* Okay...

black luna: Whoa...

Keitsu Han'ei: Okay, okay... ^^;; *runs*

Enervate AKA Serena: THANK GOD THAT WASN'T YOUR SURAT WASIAT. And I already reviewed Fraudulences of Words! ^^

sLL: School's starting as we speak *sobs* Me not smart. Here's next chap!

tensaispira: Yep, I know whatcha mean.

Darklighter: Well, in Gaiden, Goku is supposed to be MUCH, MUCH younger – 8, actually – but well, heck, I made him twelve so the scenes wouldn't be that bad. Har, har...lol.

deru: Damn, school's starting – I can't go online on weekdays already! *cries* And I'm in charge of 1K1 ...kampai if I can actually live through the first week!

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[Disclaimer:] Sanzo hasn't been spotted having sex with Goku...*sigh* so unfortunately, Saiyuki still belongs to the one and only Minekura-sensei. :P

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Dedicated specially to Kamen-ne-chan [AKA cutie-pie16], Pei San [AKA Star-chan], Serena [AKA enervate] and all of the loyal readers and reviewers. I love you all – forever! ^^

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Of Golden Eyes

#12 – Fugitive Rapture

I wish...

Goku snuggled closer to the warmth, embracing it tightly as he wrapped his hesitant arms around Konzen's slim waist, and sighed at the contact.

That...I could be with the one I love...

He moaned gently in response, as Konzen pulled him closer, placing a gentle kiss on his temple, caressing the soft skin tenderly with his lips.

I wish...that it would forever remain this way...

Goku purred quietly, and offered his lips quite shamelessly up to Konzen, and smiled as he felt his guardian's mouth against his own, urging his lips to play along, to take up the challenge.

Me, in his embrace...

Tongues met, and lips quivered; warring dominantly at the first electrical touch.

With the one that I hold dear...

Misty golden fluttered open, meeting glazed violet in their wake. Goku smiled, sweetly, tenderly. His fingers wound themselves in Konzen's sun-kissed locks, pulling him deeper into the kiss. The said blonde groaned, and his beautiful amethyst eyes shimmered; shining with love, adoration, sadness, devotion, ardor, melancholy, warmth and passion so great that it burned in his eyes, hot and fiery love that was for Goku; only Goku.

Forever...

They parted for breath, unwillingly, and gazed into each other's eyes, each drowning in gold and lavender depths.

With Konzen...

And their lips met again, ravaging each other in passionate lust, neither willing to give in as tongues warred for dominance, a raging battle ensued.

Aishiteru Konzen. [I love you, Konzen...]

Zutto. [Forever.]

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"Konzen? There's something urgent I need to tell you."

"Damnit," Konzen cursed, and rolled off Goku as he pulled on his black pants quickly, and left the child blissfully asleep. "All right, but hurry up, Tenpou!" he snapped.

Tenpou cleared his throat, and stepped in. Konzen didn't sound pleased; figured, though, the Marshal had interrupted them during a seeming particularly arousing lovemaking session, and the blonde sounded extremely pissed off.

And Tenpou meant extreme.

He gulped, opened his eyes, and immediately flushed a brilliant shade of crimson.

Konzen wasn't wearing anything, save his hastily dragged-on black pants that adorned his lower half, hugging his body tightly, showing off the form of his lean, lithe legs. The fact that his upper half wasn't covered didn't help; the piece of purple silk that usually clung to his chest was missing - Tenpou's gaze averted to the suspicious looking pile of clothes that lay quite forgotten on the floor - leaving his broad chest and stomach bare.

Not that it aroused Tenpou in anyway whatsoever - his heart was pretty much stuck to Kenren's, unfortunately or fortunately, he did not know – but as Konzen stood up, he exposed a very much naked Goku on the bed; his lower body, however, was thankfully concealed under the weight of the silken comforter, as he promptly fell back, and snored, exhausted.

'So...' Tenpou observed the scene. It seemed that the two of them had started intimacy the moment they had left them alone. 'Leave it to me,' Konzen had said. Tenpou chuckled softly. It seemed that Konzen had done his job right; hot, arousing sex was definitely a way to cheer Goku up, in his opinion. [A/N: Horny, horny Tenpou! =D] And in the meantime, the Marshal, oblivious to Konzen's death glares, hadn't realized that a wide smile had crept across his face.

It wasn't until Tenpou had started giggling like a schoolgirl did Konzen actually settled on the face that the brunette was off his rockers. Waving his hands in front of Tenpou, Konzen extracted no response. And took a deep breath,

"Bloody Hell! Kenren's in an apron – with nothing underneath!"

"Where!?" Tenpou was instantly jerked back to reality, and his eyes darted wildly around for his red-eyed sweetheart, before realizing that Konzen was only pulling his leg. He gave the blonde a murderous Look™ before resuming what he was supposed to say.

"Konzen," he whispered, his voice monotonous, the expression in his eyes unreadable. "I've bad news."

The golden-haired deity's fists clenched themselves unconsciously, and shock flickered in his amethyst orbs for a moment, to be replaced with suspicion. "What news?" he asked, his voice faltering, although he had a faint idea what the news was related to. "What bad news do you have?"

Tenpou shook his head slightly, and his lips curved into a sad smile.

"Goku will have to be returned to Homura, earlier."

Konzen felt something in his stomach lurch.

"When?"

"Tomorrow."

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Tenpou had left, shutting the door quietly behind him, and Konzen had sat down on the bed, stunned and enraged at the news. He sighed quietly, and a stray lock of gold fell on his face as he brushed his blonde hair aside, before his violet gaze settled on Goku's still, tranquil form.

[Flashback]

"Kanzeon broke the news to me," Tenpou said emotionlessly. "It seemed that Homura had questioned her intentions in another God Council Meeting – and it turned out that Tentei sided with Homura, believing that she and you," he looked pointedly at Konzen, "Were up to no good. It seems," he continued. "Due to him being the official master of the Heavenly Shaman Son Goku, he has gained an unseen power in the upper ruling levels in Heaven."

"What the fuck do they know!?" Konzen had burst out, his anger getting the better of him, and he grabbed Tenpou by the shirt, lifting him up by a few inches off the ground, and the Marshal's glasses fell with a clunk as Konzen shook him. "They're all fucking scared of Goku, the bloody cowards! He's a harmless kid! What the hell can he do to them!?

"All the shit they care about is about themselves; their own bloody business and nothing else! They don't even give a fucking damn about others, others who aren't of their kind; others who don't see what they see!" He released Tenpou, and collapsed on the bed, burying his face in his hands as his eyes blazed dangerously.

The brunette sighed, and brushed himself, before bending down to pick up his glasses, placing them on the frame of his nose. "I don't know, Konzen," he said silently, and Konzen swore that he saw a flicker of disappointed melancholy in those emerald eyes.

"I just don't know...just...please treasure your remaining time with Goku. It might be the last time you ever see each other..." his gaze averted to the still form on the bed. "So...onegai, Konzen. Show him how much you love him...while you have the chance."

[Flashforward]

Konzen leaned back, gazing at the ceiling, cursing himself for his helplessness.

"Why can't I do anything?" the blonde murmured, an unconscious tear brimming in his eye.

Goku stirred a little in his sleep, and huddled closer to Konzen, before his golden eyes peeked out from under his innocent eyelids. Looking up at his guardian, he sat up, and traced one finger down Konzen's porcelain cheek, before brushing that single tear away. Konzen looked at him, startled, before cupping Goku's face in his hands.

"Sleep, Goku," he whispered, and the broken tone of his voice startled Goku. "You need your rest."

"Konzen, what - " Goku paused, and lowered his face, his childlike eyes now hidden by his russet bangs. "I – I understand." His voice was so soft, so tender, it could barely be heard, but his words betrayed no one, as they shook with despondency. "You don't need me," he began; his eyes were beginning to mist, and tears fought to break.

"I know, Konzen. I'm just one child who can't understand what you guys go through, I'm of – I'm of no help," he gasped quietly, struggling to contain his sobs. "I only make the situation worse...everyone...everyone thinks that I'm useless...that I'm of no worth..."

He didn't expect Konzen to cup his chin, and lift up his face. His eyes exposed, an unwanted tear rolled down his cheek at that slight movement, tracing one wet trail down his face. "Look at me," Konzen commanded quietly, and Goku obliged, lifting his golden eyes unwillingly to meet the hard amethyst gaze.

And felt the pressure of gentle lips against his own, and Konzen's tongue flicked out, licking gently at Goku's bottom lip. The blonde deity drew back, and his rigid eyes immediately softened, tender love reflected in their depths. He stroked Goku's silken chocolate hair softly, his touch shivering with benign love.

"Goku," he whispered huskily.

The said child trembled, as he heard his name roll off his lover's lips, in the rough, reassuring voice that he loved so much. Shuddering slightly, Goku buried his brown head in Konzen's broad chest, and let the tears fall, tender crystalline drops that Konzen slowly kissed away, flicking out his tongue at the wetness on his cheeks, tasting the soft saltiness of those tears.

"Don't cry," he murmured, his hand moving down to rub gently on Goku's scarred back, tender little rubs, so as not to hurt those delicate cuts on the child's fragile skin. "Please," he said tenderly, lovingly. "You're not useless, Goku...its just - " he hesitated.

"I love you," he said quietly, the silent confession startling himself as he felt a jolting surge of love in his heart, caressing his soul. "I love you so much, Goku – I just don't want to hurt you with what I know. But I just want you to know that – I'll love you forever. In myself, my heart, my soul; Forever." And bent down, capturing Goku's chapped lips with his own.

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Goku moaned into the kiss, burying his young hands into his lover's sun-kissed hair as Konzen ravaged his mouth repeatedly, his tongue flicking across his virgin lips, tasting them gently and tantalizingly. Their tongues met, and intertwined, dancing tango as each stroked each other hotly and passionately. Their kiss wasn't just any kiss: it was a kiss of lovers; yet more than lovers, since the kiss was something special, something avidly affectionate. It was something that was zealously lustful, yet it was something tenderly soft at the same time.

His heart beating with a raging need, the child moved one sweat-slicked hand from that sun-like hair, and slipped into that purple silk, feeling Konzen's skin shiver under his touch.

Parting the kiss for the lack of oxygen, Goku took in a deep breath, his features deliciously flushed, his face pink and passionate from pleasure. He skillfully removed Konzen's lavender robes, and soon disposed of his own top and jeans, before he settled himself under the blonde, his eyes full of love.

He murmured Konzen's name once, and hooked his arms around the beautiful deity, pulling Konzen into a crushing kiss. Konzen groaned gently, and allowed Goku to work magic on his own mouth, as the child began to arouse him like none other had.

Goku smiled, sweetly, tenderly, and moved to plant teasing kisses down his body. Feeling Konzen's bulging desire against his own, Goku grinned mischievously, before dragging down the blonde's black pants, ignoring the surprised gasp from Konzen.

Oh yes, he did know more than others thought he knew.

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"Goku," Konzen murmured again, hesitantly, his face filled with worry, as he caressed Goku's face gently. "You have to return to Homura tomorrow," he said softly, and his heart broke at the statement, at the very fact that Homura would break Goku again... "So...that's the reason I couldn't – I couldn't tell you. Why I had to keep silent - " he was cut off, however, as virgin lips locked with his own in a gentle kiss.

"Thank you," he said quietly. "Thank you...I love you, Konzen," Goku whispered, his eyes brimming with tears, as he lay totally and utterly naked across Konzen's body, drained from the lovemaking. "I just wanted you to know; Aishiteru. Even if I don't come back – even if I die, even if you leave me, even if Homura breaks me again," he shuddered at the thought, "I just want you to know; even if I'm useless, even if I'm no use to you – I love you so much, I'll do anything for you, Konzen. Dakara - "

Konzen smiled sadly, and placed a finger on Goku's pink lips. "You're not useless, Goku...not at all. You've helped me in a lot of things, Goku." His voice quivered with emotion as he spoke every syllable. "You've helped me realize what was love. You enabled me to feel it, to hold it in my hands, to cherish it; to caress it softly with my words, to touch it with my heart, to show it with my eyes. And you have helped me a great deal; you let me know that no matter how true love, deep love, might be broken; it will be placed together gently in the end. Goku – aishiteru."

Goku felt his eyes misting with tears, and he buried his head in Konzen's chest.

"I love you..."

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Goku followed behind Konzen, his golden eyes quivering slightly as he clutched Konzen's hand tightly, from fear and love. Konzen squeezed it back, and flashed Goku a reassuring smile, a smile that held passionate and tender love so great, it broke all boundaries. Goku smiled back, a scared and unsure look crossing his face.

Konzen and Goku reached the room, the room that Homura had set for Goku's return.

Homura's room.

The child began to quake silently, and Goku felt himself crying again at the sight of the dreaded place, the place where he had lost all what remained of his innocence. Konzen drew him protectively to himself, and Goku buried his face in Konzen's silken robes, his tears wetting the robes as Konzen stroked his back heartrendingly, comfortingly.

Then, they entered.

"Okaeri, Son Goku," the ever-familiar voice whispered.

Goku whimpered quietly, and huddled closer to Konzen, gripping his gloved hands tighter than ever as the familiar scent of the room tickled his nostrils sickeningly.

The scent of blood. His blood.

Homura stood up, his cold face and equally arctic eyes revealed in the light. His dark black hair shone eerily, his blue and golden eyes moving to settle themselves on Goku's golden ones. His mouth curved into a smirk. "Heavenly Shaman Son Goku," he murmured mockingly, and stepped forward. "How pleasant to see you again..." his eyes traveled over Goku's lithe form, over every inch of skin on the child's body. And Goku, although fully clothed, squirmed as that intent gaze sent chills to his skin.

Homura made a move to touch Goku, his eyes glinting with lust, but Konzen blocked him.

"Don't lay your fucking hands on Goku," he said quietly, his amethyst eyes burning into Homura's mismatched eyes. His fear for his ex was now gone; only to be replaced with a hatred and anger that flared furiously in his violet orbs.

He was cut off, however, as Homura delivered a powerful punch to his stomach, and he crumpled to the ground, clutching his abdomen where he had been hit, before falling unconscious.

"Konzen!" Goku cried, and attempted to run towards his fallen lover. But Homura stopped him, desire flashing in his eyes as he blocked Goku's path. "No, Toushin Son Goku Taishi," he whispered, his voice deadly, and he leaned closer to Goku, his face hovering dangerously above the child's. "You shall not go near him..."

And he crushed his lips to Goku's, and murmured, "For you are mine."

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Goku screamed into his mouth, writhing and struggling to escape as Homura's hands began to roam over his body, and his eyes widened as he felt the god's fingers on the belt of his pants. His golden orbs burning with tears, Homura continued to ravage Goku's mouth mercilessly, attacking the child's lips with his callous tongue. Desperately afraid, and angrily hurt, Goku bit down on Homura's tongue.

Homura yelped, and shrank back. "Why you – you little bastard!" He rose up his hand, and Goku felt every vein in his body freezing in fear as he saw the dagger in Homura's hands; the same dagger that he had used on Goku, the dagger that had caused so many injuries, so many wounds on Goku's body. Homura brought the dagger down; Goku could not move from shock, and he closed his eyes as he braced for the impact.

It didn't come.

He looked up, and he saw a familiar figure in front of him, clad in luscious silken lavender robes and equally silken black pants, the lean, broad form that he knew so well...And the hair...the golden hair that shone like the sun, the beautiful sun-kissed hair that he loved oh so much...the beautiful long, blonde hair that was now stained with blood.

"KONZEN!"

The said blonde faced Goku, a sad, benign smile on his lips, his amethyst eyes filled with silent melancholy as he fixed his violet gaze on Goku. And mouthed three words: I love you.

Before he fell to the ground, his silken blonde hair shining in the sunlight, tainted with blood. Goku felt his knees weakening, and he collapsed on his knees, his hands shaking. "Konzen?" he whispered quietly, fearfully, as he uttered the name of his lover. Konzen smiled up at him again, the one smile that he only showed Goku.

"I love you. Forever..." he murmured. "Goku," before his lavender eyes fluttered shut, his purple robes stained with crimson. And his hand fell to the ground, as his head rolled over, unconscious.

"KONZEN!!!!!!"

And a deep, cracking sound was heard, the sound of golden bronze splitting in half, the sound of breaking gold. Goku threw his head back in a furious cry, and he screamed, a wild scream, a scream that rang through all the halls of Heaven; a scream that shook all hearts. Homura could only stare, his eyes widening in shock, at the scene before him.

Is that...?

Goku screamed one final time.

And what remained of his golden diadem fell to the floor, in broken pieces.

To be Continued

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[A/N] I can't believe it! For the first time in weeks, I finished this in 1 day! SHOCK! Anyways, since I won't be able to post new chapters for 5 days or so, this is for you guys! Hope it was okay...and yes, screw school! I'll have to study non-stop on weekdays...damnit. All right. Thank you all for your support – the next chapter is the epilogue! – I hope. OK! Um...please review? Hehe.

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