A/N: I don't Own Inu Yasha (Man that'd be nice though, and I wouldn't mind
at all! but I don't all the same) I wrote this piece because I was thinking
'What if they did get together, how would they deal with that damn Kikyo
chick?' and so I wrote this one shot from Kagome's POV. I really hope you
like it. Read and Review, and MAYBE I'll write one from Inu Yasha's view!!
-Spikesfangirl
Sometimes, at night, I hear him. I hear him whisper her name. I can't say it makes me feel good that he still loves her, but--
We admitted our feelings for one another a long time ago, and ever since, I knew that things were different. He seemed lovingly distant. Like he was always puzzled about how he felt, and simply echoed "I love you." to make me feel secure. All these years, I've thought it was her, that it was all about her, because he changed. The look in his eye changed, the way he took care of me, everything-- it was so different. I didn't mind, but I knew that the person he fell in love with first, was her.
Kikyo.
Now, even after all the years, she still haunts my dreams at night. What am I saying, she haunts me daily, and I have to wonder when I look in the mirror, does he love me--- or the fact that she and I share the same face? I don't know how to trust him. He calls her name in his sleep. Never loudly, but I always hear it, I always can hear it, even if it's just a breath that escapes his mouth, I hear everything he says.
When he embraces me now, it doesn't seem right, like before he said it, he loved all of me, but now he only sees her. Only sees what could have been-- what could have been if he hadn't taken the jewel. If he hadn't attacked her villiage. He's like an open book, so easily understood, and yet so complex on many levels. I don't even understand somethings about him. I wonder if he knows that I can see it all in his eyes, even when he tries to hide it with a smile. I know all the same, that all I am to him is a reincarnation of his love.
What makes it hurt so bad, is that I don't know who to blame. I can't blame him, because it's not his fault that he loves me-- because I look like Kikyo. I can't blame myself, because I had no control of being a reincarnated miko priestess. Sometimes when the sun sets, and I sit at my vanity, I want to curse God and want to shattter the mirror. I didn't ask for this, for the paranoia. I just want to be with him, want to live my life with him; for him. All I ever wanted was the be Kagome, and to be loved as Kagome.
Can he do that?
I hear him again. His voice calls her, he has a pained expression on his face. He's dreaming of the moment in which he was sealed. When I sealed him. No, when she did. Kikyo sealed him to the tree. I freed him. Released him from the ties that bound him. I gently wrap my arms around his body, he may be calling her, but I'm here. I'm here to make the pain go away. At least I have that satisfaction. Knowing that when the moment comes, when we've both reached our peak-- it's my name he screams.
Sometimes, at night, I hear him. I hear him whisper her name. I can't say it makes me feel good that he still loves her, but--
We admitted our feelings for one another a long time ago, and ever since, I knew that things were different. He seemed lovingly distant. Like he was always puzzled about how he felt, and simply echoed "I love you." to make me feel secure. All these years, I've thought it was her, that it was all about her, because he changed. The look in his eye changed, the way he took care of me, everything-- it was so different. I didn't mind, but I knew that the person he fell in love with first, was her.
Kikyo.
Now, even after all the years, she still haunts my dreams at night. What am I saying, she haunts me daily, and I have to wonder when I look in the mirror, does he love me--- or the fact that she and I share the same face? I don't know how to trust him. He calls her name in his sleep. Never loudly, but I always hear it, I always can hear it, even if it's just a breath that escapes his mouth, I hear everything he says.
When he embraces me now, it doesn't seem right, like before he said it, he loved all of me, but now he only sees her. Only sees what could have been-- what could have been if he hadn't taken the jewel. If he hadn't attacked her villiage. He's like an open book, so easily understood, and yet so complex on many levels. I don't even understand somethings about him. I wonder if he knows that I can see it all in his eyes, even when he tries to hide it with a smile. I know all the same, that all I am to him is a reincarnation of his love.
What makes it hurt so bad, is that I don't know who to blame. I can't blame him, because it's not his fault that he loves me-- because I look like Kikyo. I can't blame myself, because I had no control of being a reincarnated miko priestess. Sometimes when the sun sets, and I sit at my vanity, I want to curse God and want to shattter the mirror. I didn't ask for this, for the paranoia. I just want to be with him, want to live my life with him; for him. All I ever wanted was the be Kagome, and to be loved as Kagome.
Can he do that?
I hear him again. His voice calls her, he has a pained expression on his face. He's dreaming of the moment in which he was sealed. When I sealed him. No, when she did. Kikyo sealed him to the tree. I freed him. Released him from the ties that bound him. I gently wrap my arms around his body, he may be calling her, but I'm here. I'm here to make the pain go away. At least I have that satisfaction. Knowing that when the moment comes, when we've both reached our peak-- it's my name he screams.