Disclaimer: Inu Yasha and all the characters in it are the sole creation of
Rumiko Takahashi.
Chapter 5:
Rin watched Kohaku play with his nephew. The evening was calm, broken only by laughter; and sound spilling from the house where the others were cleaning up dinner. Rin tried to focus on the two Kohakus busily trying to tire each other out, but her mind wandered back to Jaken.
It didn't take much to rouse him after he fainted, but he was still dazed. He was shocked and appalled at Rin's boldness and her "appalling disrespect for Sesshoumaru sama", as he put it. Rin was hurt by his anger, but she also knew how much Jaken admired Sesshoumaru Sama. For so long, he had acted as a father to her, but she was startled by the slight jealousy that lined his words. Something shifted between them though she couldn't define what.
All she knew is that she had done what he himself had never dared. Though Jaken loved Sesshoumaru, Rin discovered how much he also feared him.
He said little else to her before he wandered off in a stupor.
Rin was concerned. She had never seen Jaken sama like that before. He walked away muttering to himself as he normally did, but Rin couldn't hear any of it. Instead she stood there silently hoping that he would drag her away and fix things. She was disappointed when he didn't, but also relieved that she wouldn't have to face Sesshoumaru's anger again.
But now the dull ache was back and she began to lose hope that she would have a chance to reconcile herself.
The white flower from the forest rested gently near her fingertips. She had held onto it without noticing and now her fingers wandered back to the petals. She smiled the bitter sweetness of her memory. Her fingers still remembered the feel of his warm fur, the way he trembled slightly when she touched him. She wished it had been joy, not rage that moved him.
Rin sighed.
One embrace had cost so much, yet deep inside she knew she'd do it all again in a heartbeat.
Rin looked at Kohaku. He was the one comfort she had found in the human world. Despite everyone's friendliness, he could understand her. She remembered the warmth of Kohaku's hand. It had startled her, yet comforted her as well. For a moment she didn't feel alone.
But she knew the comfort was temporal. It did nothing to truly relieve her from the pain of the situation or distance her from her feelings for Sesshoumaru.
"Kohaku! Time to come it, it's getting dark." Sango san's voice called from the doorway. Kohaku scooped up his nephew, threw the little one up on his shoulders and the two of them came back to the house.
Rin watched quietly, twirling the flower in her fingers. She sat deep in her own thoughts, wondering where Sesshoumaru was right now or whether he had even thought about her.
Jaken stomped quickly through the forest. He had known something was wrong but he was surprised to find out how right he was. This was certainly nothing he ever expected. And yet he had always secretly feared that something like this would happen.
Jaken couldn't blame Rin for loving Sesshoumaru sama. Goodness knows he could understand those feelings; but he always imagined her to be more sensible than to let petty emotions get in the way of what she knew was right.
At least he, humble Jaken, would always serve Sesshoumaru sama devotedly.
But then he remembered how sullen Sesshoumaru had seemed recently. "Certainly. . ." Jaken shook his head. Certainly Sesshoumaru sama can't be missing her, he thought to himself. Jaken would take off plenty of times and he never knew Sesshoumaru sama to be so sentimental, but now. . .
Jaken couldn't deny that he himself felt a tinge of sadness when he thought that Rin might no longer travel with them. "AH!" Jaken remembered that he had come searching for her with the intention of dragging her back, but in all his shock. . no, in all his jealousy, he had wandered off and forgotten to take her with him.
Jaken turned around and began heading back towards the village. Sesshoumaru sama would never say it, but Jaken was sure now that one thing bothered him. The very source of Jaken's jealousy; Sesshoumaru wanted Rin back.
Author's note: Hey all, sorry to cut this one so short. I didn't write as far as I wanted to but school got busy. _; I'll try to post at least a chapter each week so as not to keep you too anxious ^_~ Hope you enjoy.
Chapter 5:
Rin watched Kohaku play with his nephew. The evening was calm, broken only by laughter; and sound spilling from the house where the others were cleaning up dinner. Rin tried to focus on the two Kohakus busily trying to tire each other out, but her mind wandered back to Jaken.
It didn't take much to rouse him after he fainted, but he was still dazed. He was shocked and appalled at Rin's boldness and her "appalling disrespect for Sesshoumaru sama", as he put it. Rin was hurt by his anger, but she also knew how much Jaken admired Sesshoumaru Sama. For so long, he had acted as a father to her, but she was startled by the slight jealousy that lined his words. Something shifted between them though she couldn't define what.
All she knew is that she had done what he himself had never dared. Though Jaken loved Sesshoumaru, Rin discovered how much he also feared him.
He said little else to her before he wandered off in a stupor.
Rin was concerned. She had never seen Jaken sama like that before. He walked away muttering to himself as he normally did, but Rin couldn't hear any of it. Instead she stood there silently hoping that he would drag her away and fix things. She was disappointed when he didn't, but also relieved that she wouldn't have to face Sesshoumaru's anger again.
But now the dull ache was back and she began to lose hope that she would have a chance to reconcile herself.
The white flower from the forest rested gently near her fingertips. She had held onto it without noticing and now her fingers wandered back to the petals. She smiled the bitter sweetness of her memory. Her fingers still remembered the feel of his warm fur, the way he trembled slightly when she touched him. She wished it had been joy, not rage that moved him.
Rin sighed.
One embrace had cost so much, yet deep inside she knew she'd do it all again in a heartbeat.
Rin looked at Kohaku. He was the one comfort she had found in the human world. Despite everyone's friendliness, he could understand her. She remembered the warmth of Kohaku's hand. It had startled her, yet comforted her as well. For a moment she didn't feel alone.
But she knew the comfort was temporal. It did nothing to truly relieve her from the pain of the situation or distance her from her feelings for Sesshoumaru.
"Kohaku! Time to come it, it's getting dark." Sango san's voice called from the doorway. Kohaku scooped up his nephew, threw the little one up on his shoulders and the two of them came back to the house.
Rin watched quietly, twirling the flower in her fingers. She sat deep in her own thoughts, wondering where Sesshoumaru was right now or whether he had even thought about her.
Jaken stomped quickly through the forest. He had known something was wrong but he was surprised to find out how right he was. This was certainly nothing he ever expected. And yet he had always secretly feared that something like this would happen.
Jaken couldn't blame Rin for loving Sesshoumaru sama. Goodness knows he could understand those feelings; but he always imagined her to be more sensible than to let petty emotions get in the way of what she knew was right.
At least he, humble Jaken, would always serve Sesshoumaru sama devotedly.
But then he remembered how sullen Sesshoumaru had seemed recently. "Certainly. . ." Jaken shook his head. Certainly Sesshoumaru sama can't be missing her, he thought to himself. Jaken would take off plenty of times and he never knew Sesshoumaru sama to be so sentimental, but now. . .
Jaken couldn't deny that he himself felt a tinge of sadness when he thought that Rin might no longer travel with them. "AH!" Jaken remembered that he had come searching for her with the intention of dragging her back, but in all his shock. . no, in all his jealousy, he had wandered off and forgotten to take her with him.
Jaken turned around and began heading back towards the village. Sesshoumaru sama would never say it, but Jaken was sure now that one thing bothered him. The very source of Jaken's jealousy; Sesshoumaru wanted Rin back.
Author's note: Hey all, sorry to cut this one so short. I didn't write as far as I wanted to but school got busy. _; I'll try to post at least a chapter each week so as not to keep you too anxious ^_~ Hope you enjoy.