AN: first of all, I'm sooo sorry I haven't gotten this out earlier. Second of all, this chapter is dedicated to demon-heiress and Naatz-neechan (Netta-neechan)! Thanks you two ^____^ you're the people that build my muse ^__^. Oh and umm, don't kill me, but do you mind if I don't have so much humor anymore?? Please review! ^^
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(Inuyasha's POV)
Why am I helping her so much? I can't understand it, I used to hate her, actually, I still do; but there's just something that's different in the air, something I can't understand. Argh! I just wish so much that it was back to normal, it felt kind of good to tease her and make fun of her, but now, whenever I do it I just feel so empty. Am I so alone that I need to pick on another so that my ego could boost up?!
Feh…that's not who I am, is it? I don't know who I am, I don't know what I want, I don't know what to do…
That Shippo kid, the one that just came in, I don't even know who he is and he's been living with us, with me for the past couple of days. I wouldn't have done that, would I, if it was a couple of years ago?
Why is she leaving? I don't think she has any reason to…when she talked to me about it just hours ago, it seemed so idiotic. Having to leave because of the government? Federal policies? What the hell is all that?! I don't care if she breaks the damned rules and everything, isn't it supposed to be her choice?!
There I go again, another so called emotional outbreak, I want to hurt somebody, I want to hurt somebody real bad so that I can take away my anger…
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Kagome strode away from the center of the living room, brushing her long hair with her fingers. She paced around slightly and bit her lip, wondering what she had forgotten. Suddenly, it clicked in her head. "Gotta make dinner for Shippou and Inu-yasha! What should I make? And…how will I say to Shippou about the news?" Kagome decided to ignore that part of her thoughts and continued on consulting her recipe books for different kinds of food.
"I don't know what to choose, I'll just ask Inu-yasha then since Shippou's sleeping right now." Kagome walked up the stairs, throwing her apron over the railing as she tied her hair up in a bun.
"Inu-yasha?" Kagome asked, knocking on the door of his room quietly with her hand on the door knob.
"What?" Inu-yasha asked with a growl in his voice, he threw a dart onto the dart board above his bed with a badly drawn picture of Shippou on it.
"I'm just asking what you want for dinner."
Inu-yasha stumbled for a moment, "Whatever, I don't give a damn, wench, ask that kid or something, it's not like I even care! Besides, your cooking sucks like hell."
"Idiot." Kagome snarled as she karate-kicked the white door, causing a slight vibration in the earth. "I hate you!" She screamed out, not even bothering to look back at Inu-yasha, who had mysteriously popped out of his room.
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{Inu-yasha's POV}
I didn't mean it that way, really, I didn't. I didn't want to hurt her like that or make her angry, but I didn't want to show her what I felt inside. Jesus, I'm in a mess, if you took one glance at me, you wouldn't know it, but if some idiot suddenly found a mental detector test or something like that, then you'd see the difference.
A lot of people ask me what's wrong with me or why I act like I do, but even I don't know. I mean, just look at what I've done now with her…
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Kagome planted her feet firmly onto the ground, emphasizing on each step that she made. She traced the surface of the walls with her long fingernails as her mouth seethed into a trace of demonic stance.
"God, he was acting so nice just a minute ago and now he's turned back into his usual corny self. Maybe it's a good thing that I'm leaving! Really, then I won't have to see Inu-yasha's face again!"
"Come back…because I don't want to be alone…"
Kagome stopped in mid-track when she remembered what he had told her. "Loneliness?" she asked herself, taking no notice to the world that was revolving around her, "As if I care!" she sputtered out.
"Kagome, what are you talking about?" a sleepy voice asked from behind her, the holder of it was wiping his eyes gently with a small paw-like hand. Kagome gasped in surprise when she saw that it was Shippou.
"Ah, Shippou, nothing, nothing at all! Come here!" Kagome said while scooping the child up into her arms, she held him for a moment and pulled him away, still dangling him in the air, "What do you want to eat for dinner?"
Shippou's eyes sparkles in the light, "Really? I can choose?"
"Yup!" Kagome said while nodding.
"Mommy never let me choose! I want macaroni and cheese!" he jumped away from her grasp and hopped down the stairs while humming a tune from his favorite TV show. Shippou sat quietly in the living room and started to play a game of cards with himself.
"Am I going to be able to tell him too?" Kagome asked to herself with a sad look on her face.
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"inu-yasha! Come down…" Kagome screamed out while stirring the macaroni and cheese in the pot, she held the stirring stick gently and the timer ticked in the background; finally, it was cooked now. She poured the mixture into a glass bowl and placed it onto the dining table, making a slight clinking sound in the process. "When is he coming dow-..?"
Kagome was interrupted by the soft sound of steps inside the kitchen, her head immediately snapped around in annoyance and her face fell to an utter dismay when she realized that Inu-yasha had come down. "I almost wished that I could've gone up there and pounded him to go downstairs…" she muttered to herself.
"Macaroni and cheese?!" Inu-yasha asked in a terrified voice. He glanced at the food lying on the table and sneered his nose up. He wasn't going to eat something like that.
"Oh yeh, I forgot, you hate mac and cheese…" Kagome sighed with her hands on her hips, she tapped her foot impatiently and rolled her eyes while brushing back her hair away from her face.
"Make something else, wench." Inu-yasha ordered.
"What the…?" Kagome asked in annoyance, "I am NOT going to make something else just so YOU can get to eat what you want, OK? I'm tired and I'm angry and I'm depressed so one more word out of you and I'm going to kill you! God, you just make me so sick! I was stupid to think that you were going to be all nice with, 'let's make this the best month of your life', what waste of time telling you everything! I should've just gone away that instance an-…"
Kagome watched in wonder as Inu-yasha garbled down the macaroni with a frown on his face. She smiled a little and small beads of tears formed in her eyes while she wiped them away.
"What?" Inu-yasha asked while trying not to barf.
"Nothing, just, thank you…"
Kagome sat down on the dining chair and put her arms onto the table while she buried her head inside them. She stared at the long mahogany table while drawing small, intricate circles on it. Her lively blue eyes shifted into an unusual glance of tiredness inside them that seemed to bring down the atmosphere of the whole scene.
"What is it?" Inu-yasha finally said after a brief pause between the two of them.
"Nothing! Nothing at all!" Kagome smiled at him and skipped away from the dining room, living a confused Inu-yasha behind.
"She should just let it all out instead of pretending so much…" he said to the air, while pushing his chair back into its place, ready to leave the room. Suddenly, Shippou had come and walked inside completely out of Inu-yasha knowledge. He tripped over the kid, causing a catastrophe of broken plates and glasses on the floor from the impact.
"Aw crap…" Inu-yasha scratched his head slightly and lifted his brow.
"What is it?!" He could hear Kagome's concerned voice from upstairs as he tried to make up a passable excuse for the loud sound.
"Umm, uhh…"
"Inu-yasha rammed into the wall and bumped his head multiple times." Shippou screamed out, saving the older boy from the trouble of lying.
"Oh, OK, be careful next time. I'm going to watch TV upstairs so if you need me just call. Tell me when you're done eating too so I can wash the dishes!"
"Kid." Inu-yasha poked Shippou in the ribs, causing him to jump up in the air one meter high, "I've got an idea."
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Kagome yawned as she stretched out on the couch, shielding her eyes from the morning sunlight.
"Aw no! it's morning already! I haven't done all the dish-washing and everything! And the laundry too…" She quickly ran downstairs, not bothering to wash her face or brush her hair as she got a glimpse of the alarm clock. "No! It's the afternoon already! And I haven't cooked breakfast and lunch too…"
She entered the kitchen and whipped out four pieces of toast quickly while getting out the knives and other utensils.
"Shippou doesn't like the crusts so I have to cut them and inu-yasha likes his bread in circles so.."
"What are you doing?" Inu-yasha asked her from behind, tapping her on her shoulder, she huffed in surprise and gawked for a second.
"I haven't cooked breakfast yet or anything for you guys and –…"
"But we've eaten already."
"Eh?!"
"Yeh, I made breakfast."
"But…"
"What, so you think we're all helpless little prisses and everything?"
"No."
"Oh, and by the way," Inu-yasha said while going out of the kitchen, "We did the laundry and dishes for you too."
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A week passed by quickly and soon the summer fair was up and ready to be seen. Kagome desperately wanted to go but none of her friends were interested in viewing it. They either said it was all boring or stupid or even both of them. So she decided to go with Inu-yasha. Unfortunately, they all had to dress up to go to it. After hours of debate, Inu-yasha was finally forced to wear a potato costume.
"Come on, it isn't that bad!" Kagome whined at him while tugging his arm a little.
"Oh, it is that bad!"
"No-one's gonna notice you anyway, I mean, they'd all be dressed up in their own little…"
Kagome sweat-dropped when she realized the sign saying "you no longer need to wear a costume to get in".
"Whoops."
"I told you."
"Well I'm dressed in costume too!"
"You're not a potato."
Kagome snickered a little at what he said and continued on walking down the green fields.
"Oh my God! Look! There's a ferris wheel!" Kagome pointed out in joy as she noticed the small, run-down "wheel" that occupied a large plot of land.
She watched as Inu-yasha rolled his eyes and muttered a curse underneath his breath. Kagome glowered slightly and pouted her lip.
"Please-please-please-please-please!" Kagome whined like a little girl and dragged Inu-yasha against his will.
"fine fine, just shut up!"
"A-ri-ga-tou!"
A few minutes later, they had climbed onto the ferris wheel seats and comfortably seated themselves. Kagome looked frantically about them as she saw them go up into the air, suddenly, a shake of uncontrollable fear had elapsed her mind and she started to shiver in a dazed expression.
"Oi! Don't look so scared.." Inu-yasha commanded, but Kagome heard nothing at all.
"But—but…"
"It's all right…"
Inu-yasha slowly put his arm around her small, shaking form and drew her in closer while looking out of the ferris window, breathing in the lingering scent of her hair slightly.
What's he doing? Kagome thought as questions of anticipation formed inside her mind, she leaned against Inu-yasha's arm slightly, planning to push it away from her shoulders, yet the heavy weight of it would not budge. She looked up to Inu-yasha and studied the contents of his face carefully, to her surprise, he had already fallen asleep. Figures, he's been like this ever since we were kids! Kagome could still remember the times when Inu-yasha used to tease her endlessly about her fear of heights and then one minute later he would fall asleep on the ground, snoring out loud while mumbling some words that came out of his dreams. He used to drool on the carpet too! I'm going to miss all of this so much! A tear fell to Kagome's cheek, but she herself was not aware of it. Inu-yasha gently stirred beside her and she wiped her tears away, a small, silent sob escaping from her retched lungs.
"What's wrong?" Inu-yasha asked her, concern etched onto his brow.
"Nothing, nothing at all."
Inu-yasha stared at her again, his amber eyes boring into her soft blue ones, he slowly tilted his head to whisper something in her ear.
"If you ever need me…you know I'm here…Just remember it…"
"Th--.."
"…you can – trust…me you know?
Kagome blushed slightly at the comment, emancipating a few tingles of excitement to form inside her body. She gingerly pushed herself away from Inu-yasha death grasp on her arms and sighed inwardly, only to find that he gripped onto her ever more strongly.
"…don't go away yet…" his voice lingered in the air, filled with the slight apprehension of pain inside of it.
Kagome looked down guiltily and pushed her head to rest on Inu-yasha's shoulder while she strainfully closed her eyes and tried to enjoy the ride…
Kagome, you really shouldn't be doing this you know? A voice perpetrated her skull, its amused and childish tone sent waves of invisible perspiration to come steaming down her spine. She detested it when a sudden pollution of conscience suddenly engulfed her mind like this; it made her feel so in-human, so dirty, as if she were some kind of mental criminal that robbed people of their lives.
She watched in vain as she saw the innocent look on Inu-yasha's face, he looked so lost, like a little puppy that was dumped on in the street.
Still like a child…she thought, snuggling in even closer.
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AN: Well, didn't that just end greatly? Whoopsees, sorry about this chapter!!! You ask: When will there be fluff? I answer: I don't know! Muahahaha, *sweatdrops* and again, I'm sorry for the chapter, I swear, the next one will have more plot to it then this one! Please review ^__^