Hello everyone. This is the third and final chapter of "If you can call it
Life". I realized the other day that it just kinda sat there, so I decided
to finish the story this way.
Love,
Erin
DISCLAIMER: I do not own anything but the plot
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April 25th, 2002 Could they care any less? Would they even notice if I were gone? To them I'm just their target The target they aim all their hatred at. Do they not realize that I am human? That I have feelings, and when they Randomly fling their angry taunts at me I do get hurt? My days get no better. Instead they grow gradually worse. There is nothing- nothing at all that Can save me from my emptiness My loneliness The hurt and the pain. Nothing can save me from myself. Ami tried to be my friend But the rest of them ruined it! They ruined one of my only chances At happiness. They don't care. Haha. Oh, but they will care soon. What will happen when they find out? What I did? Will they feel bad? Regret everything they've said and Done to me? Oh, I'll be laughing as they all cry. Miserable for making me do this. Will Ami wish she never called me dumb? Wish she tried harder to be my friend? Will Raye feel stupid? Regret never giving me a chance? Will Lita hurt because she called me weak- And in turn see she was the weak one? Oh, will Mina feel bad too? For tripping me And taunting me? And then realize she did this? And Darien's thoughts will burn in his mind- He'll know he pushed me one too many times. He'll know he pushed me over the edge. Haha. Wait until they found out what I've done. I hate them all. So after school, I decided it was time. I have a little cupboard in the bathroom Full of medicine. Haha. Wait till they find out what I've done. Ten of the purple ones, six of the blue. I didn't count how many of the red- there were Far too many to count. Haha. Wait until they find out what I've done. Maybe over 70 pills in all. It took a Lot of water to get them down my Dry, dry throat. Oh, wait until they see. That was half an hour ago. My visions Getting hazy. I'm finding it hard to breathe. I'm getting really sleepy. I'll be laughing when they find me Here. Asleep And never to wake again. Haha. Wait until they all find out. Wait until they see. ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ I know, creepy, isn't it? I wrote this at 12:30 at night, and I felt, hey, this story needs a creepy ending. I felt it would bring a sense of realism to the fact that this does happen to kids everyday. Be nice to others, because you never know when YOU may be the cause of someone's bad day, or someone's death. I love you all, Erin
April 25th, 2002 Could they care any less? Would they even notice if I were gone? To them I'm just their target The target they aim all their hatred at. Do they not realize that I am human? That I have feelings, and when they Randomly fling their angry taunts at me I do get hurt? My days get no better. Instead they grow gradually worse. There is nothing- nothing at all that Can save me from my emptiness My loneliness The hurt and the pain. Nothing can save me from myself. Ami tried to be my friend But the rest of them ruined it! They ruined one of my only chances At happiness. They don't care. Haha. Oh, but they will care soon. What will happen when they find out? What I did? Will they feel bad? Regret everything they've said and Done to me? Oh, I'll be laughing as they all cry. Miserable for making me do this. Will Ami wish she never called me dumb? Wish she tried harder to be my friend? Will Raye feel stupid? Regret never giving me a chance? Will Lita hurt because she called me weak- And in turn see she was the weak one? Oh, will Mina feel bad too? For tripping me And taunting me? And then realize she did this? And Darien's thoughts will burn in his mind- He'll know he pushed me one too many times. He'll know he pushed me over the edge. Haha. Wait until they found out what I've done. I hate them all. So after school, I decided it was time. I have a little cupboard in the bathroom Full of medicine. Haha. Wait till they find out what I've done. Ten of the purple ones, six of the blue. I didn't count how many of the red- there were Far too many to count. Haha. Wait until they find out what I've done. Maybe over 70 pills in all. It took a Lot of water to get them down my Dry, dry throat. Oh, wait until they see. That was half an hour ago. My visions Getting hazy. I'm finding it hard to breathe. I'm getting really sleepy. I'll be laughing when they find me Here. Asleep And never to wake again. Haha. Wait until they all find out. Wait until they see. ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ I know, creepy, isn't it? I wrote this at 12:30 at night, and I felt, hey, this story needs a creepy ending. I felt it would bring a sense of realism to the fact that this does happen to kids everyday. Be nice to others, because you never know when YOU may be the cause of someone's bad day, or someone's death. I love you all, Erin