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Chapter 5.........God. Oh God no.
Max brought her knees to her chest and closed her eyes. "No!" she said. I remember what happened, that's not what happened!" she said. She could remember Ben kissing her forehead. But at the same time she had flashes of being with Alec.
"Max, that's what happened. I was going to leave, but you told me not to. You said you liked having me here" Alec said to her.
"No, your lying. It was Ben. I told Ben I liked him being here" she said. But as she said this she remembered Alec putting on his coat to leave, and her stooping him. It couldn't be, he had to be lying. She was with Ben. "It was Ben. I-I asked him t-to stay" she stumbled over her words. "He laid down with me and I went to sleep" she said.
"Max, no" Alec said. You came up to me, I asked you what you wanted to do. You took my hand and started kissing me. Max, please tell me you remember.
As he talked, she remembered what he was telling her. She remembered wrapping her arm around his neck and kissing him. Backing him into her room. He had acted surprised awkwardly putting a hand on her hip. But then, it was as though something had clicked inside of them both. His hand that wasn't on her hip went up to hold her head, kissing her back deeply. They had moved together. They had fit together perfectly.
She hated it. She could remember it happen, but she didn't even know it was happening at the time. "Max," he said quietly, "You have to remember" he said. he put a hand on her shoulder.
She rolled off the bed away from him, bringing the sheet with her and huddled in the corner of her room. Alec sat under her thin blue blanket looking horrified. "No, NO NO NO!!!" she shouted. She sat curled up gasping in the corner. She couldn't tell what was true. She remembered what Alec was saying, But Ben was here, she knew it. But her memories of What happened between her and Ben were fading into her Alec memories.
Alec swung his legs around the edge of the bed and put his boxers on. He walked over to where Max was. He put a hand on each one of her shoulders and looked at her. "Max, Ben is Dead, He has been dead since last year. I am not Ben, I am Alec. Alec, just Alec" He said to her.
Max lifted her head up and looked into his eyes. His dark blue eyes that were full of shadows. Yet they were warm. She didn't often see him with this look, he looked concerned. She believed him. Ben was dead, she had killed him. "II.... your, I think" she didn't know what to say.
She just wrapped her arms around his neck, pulling herself against him. He put his arms around her and rubbed her back comfortingly with his large strong hands. He put his other hand on her neck and stroked it slowly. "It's okay, as long as you know" he said. He pulled away from her a little and they looked at each other. They put there foreheads together and looked at each other.
Alecs skin was warm against hers. She felt safe and warm. She didn't want to leave his embrace, not now, not ever. She moved her face so that her cheek was against his, and nuzzled his face a little, and then, acting on an impulse, she kissed him. His full lips were soft and tender against hers. The kiss was pleasant, and filled her with his warmth. She pulled back and stared at him. He pressed his lips to hers again. a few times, in simple delicate closed mouth kisses, which she returned.
At last he fully pulled back, putting space between them. Her body ached and felt cold with the absence of his warmth. He would leave her now. Leave her with the knowledge that Ben was dead, and make her face it alone. "I think I should go back now, to Logans" he said.
Logan. Logan. No, oh God no. What could she possibly tell Logan? Alec stood up, and reached a hand down to help her up. "Alec, Logan, please don't tell him. I mean, he can't, I can't-"
Alec silenced her with a finger on her mouth. "I know" he said sadly. He found his pants and put them on. Max watched him do this. He was so beautiful. She had always been physically attracted to him. It was one of the reasons she found him so annoying. He was good looking, and he knew it.
His torso was long and lean and muscular. His skin was such a nice shade, so full of life, hardly ever pale. He pulled his light blue sweater over his head, completely covering his beautiful body, though not making him any less attractive.
She had never really thought of Ben as attractive. She knew he wasn't ugly, but he was her brother. But Alec. For some reason with Alec it was different. He moved in such way, with such a grace. She knew that it wasn't natural, that none of it was. It was from manticore. Just like with her. 'They know how to make 'em pretty' OCs voice rang through her head.
He ran a hand through his hair, straitening it out. His back was to her now, and she had to admit she was enjoying the view. From head to toe. The way his sandy hair was messed on top of his head, poofing out over his ears a little as it sometimes did. He had been letting is get a little longer lately. She liked it. How it came down in small delicate little curls over his bar code. The bar code she had specifically told him to cover up. He never did listen to her. She admired how she could see the muscles in his back though his sweater as he moved his arm up in a last desperate attempt to fix his hair.
"Do you have a comb or something I could use?" Alec asked Max.
She laughed t his vanity, "Yeah" she walked over to her dresser, keeping the sheet wrapped around her body, and grabbed Silver comb off of it. It had been a gift to her, from some foster mother. She couldn't remember anymore.
He took it from her, a look of disgust on his face, "anything less, feminine?" he asked.
Max grabbed his hand and put her fingertips on his nails, "that say that again moisturizing boy?" she asked, "By the way, I do have lotion, it's in the bathroom" she added.
He cringed and quickly ran the dainty comb through his hair. She smiled watching him. Her hand still healed one of his, and she laced their fingers. Alec put the comb down and grabbed the back of her head, pulling her into a kiss. She kept their hands laced through the whole passionate kiss, her free hand holding up the sheet, his free hand stroking the back of her neck. kiss was quick, but it left her breathless. He stepped back and left the room, holding on to her hand until the space separated their fingers. She was begging to see why he was so popular with the ladies, besides the obvious of course.
It had been an interesting few days. She had found a file on manticore, which she still needed to read all of. She had found her brother, albeit from insanity. And at the peek of her craziness, she had slept with Alec, and now she didn't know how she felt about him. She opened her dresser and pulled out a long oversized dark green shirt. She shut the drawer to open another one. She grabbed out a pair of underwear and slipped them on.
Out of the corner of her eye she saw a glint of something gold. She grabbed it to see what it was. It was Bens 'Blue lady' pendant. She had kept it when he died. As she looked at it, she was full of sorrow again.
"You looked so happy together" Ben came up behind her and took the necklace, fasting it behind her neck. "You should wear this" he said. Max turned around. "Your not here" she said, "Your a figment of my imagination. Your dead."
Ben looked truly hurt. "Maxie, if I'm dead how can I be here?" he reached out and touched her face. "Common baby sister, it's me, Ben, I'm right here. I said I wouldn't leave you and I'm not going to.
Max shook her head, trying to cling to reason, trying to hold on to sanity. But she could feal him. She could see him. She could smell him. He had always had this scent that was only his. Maybe it was her feline DNA, but he had this indescribable scent that was simply Ben. She made a last desperate attempt to hold on to her sanity, shaking her head, hoping he would disappear. But it didn't help, she was to far gone. She fell forward into his arms, feeling all reason floating away from her, and not caring. She missed him to much.
It had always been Ben and Zack over all else to her at Manticore. Zack was gone. She couldn't ever have him back with out causing harm to others. But Ben was hurting anyone. And she missed them both so much. If she had the chance to have one of them, why wouldn't she take it?".
Chapter 5.........God. Oh God no.
Max brought her knees to her chest and closed her eyes. "No!" she said. I remember what happened, that's not what happened!" she said. She could remember Ben kissing her forehead. But at the same time she had flashes of being with Alec.
"Max, that's what happened. I was going to leave, but you told me not to. You said you liked having me here" Alec said to her.
"No, your lying. It was Ben. I told Ben I liked him being here" she said. But as she said this she remembered Alec putting on his coat to leave, and her stooping him. It couldn't be, he had to be lying. She was with Ben. "It was Ben. I-I asked him t-to stay" she stumbled over her words. "He laid down with me and I went to sleep" she said.
"Max, no" Alec said. You came up to me, I asked you what you wanted to do. You took my hand and started kissing me. Max, please tell me you remember.
As he talked, she remembered what he was telling her. She remembered wrapping her arm around his neck and kissing him. Backing him into her room. He had acted surprised awkwardly putting a hand on her hip. But then, it was as though something had clicked inside of them both. His hand that wasn't on her hip went up to hold her head, kissing her back deeply. They had moved together. They had fit together perfectly.
She hated it. She could remember it happen, but she didn't even know it was happening at the time. "Max," he said quietly, "You have to remember" he said. he put a hand on her shoulder.
She rolled off the bed away from him, bringing the sheet with her and huddled in the corner of her room. Alec sat under her thin blue blanket looking horrified. "No, NO NO NO!!!" she shouted. She sat curled up gasping in the corner. She couldn't tell what was true. She remembered what Alec was saying, But Ben was here, she knew it. But her memories of What happened between her and Ben were fading into her Alec memories.
Alec swung his legs around the edge of the bed and put his boxers on. He walked over to where Max was. He put a hand on each one of her shoulders and looked at her. "Max, Ben is Dead, He has been dead since last year. I am not Ben, I am Alec. Alec, just Alec" He said to her.
Max lifted her head up and looked into his eyes. His dark blue eyes that were full of shadows. Yet they were warm. She didn't often see him with this look, he looked concerned. She believed him. Ben was dead, she had killed him. "II.... your, I think" she didn't know what to say.
She just wrapped her arms around his neck, pulling herself against him. He put his arms around her and rubbed her back comfortingly with his large strong hands. He put his other hand on her neck and stroked it slowly. "It's okay, as long as you know" he said. He pulled away from her a little and they looked at each other. They put there foreheads together and looked at each other.
Alecs skin was warm against hers. She felt safe and warm. She didn't want to leave his embrace, not now, not ever. She moved her face so that her cheek was against his, and nuzzled his face a little, and then, acting on an impulse, she kissed him. His full lips were soft and tender against hers. The kiss was pleasant, and filled her with his warmth. She pulled back and stared at him. He pressed his lips to hers again. a few times, in simple delicate closed mouth kisses, which she returned.
At last he fully pulled back, putting space between them. Her body ached and felt cold with the absence of his warmth. He would leave her now. Leave her with the knowledge that Ben was dead, and make her face it alone. "I think I should go back now, to Logans" he said.
Logan. Logan. No, oh God no. What could she possibly tell Logan? Alec stood up, and reached a hand down to help her up. "Alec, Logan, please don't tell him. I mean, he can't, I can't-"
Alec silenced her with a finger on her mouth. "I know" he said sadly. He found his pants and put them on. Max watched him do this. He was so beautiful. She had always been physically attracted to him. It was one of the reasons she found him so annoying. He was good looking, and he knew it.
His torso was long and lean and muscular. His skin was such a nice shade, so full of life, hardly ever pale. He pulled his light blue sweater over his head, completely covering his beautiful body, though not making him any less attractive.
She had never really thought of Ben as attractive. She knew he wasn't ugly, but he was her brother. But Alec. For some reason with Alec it was different. He moved in such way, with such a grace. She knew that it wasn't natural, that none of it was. It was from manticore. Just like with her. 'They know how to make 'em pretty' OCs voice rang through her head.
He ran a hand through his hair, straitening it out. His back was to her now, and she had to admit she was enjoying the view. From head to toe. The way his sandy hair was messed on top of his head, poofing out over his ears a little as it sometimes did. He had been letting is get a little longer lately. She liked it. How it came down in small delicate little curls over his bar code. The bar code she had specifically told him to cover up. He never did listen to her. She admired how she could see the muscles in his back though his sweater as he moved his arm up in a last desperate attempt to fix his hair.
"Do you have a comb or something I could use?" Alec asked Max.
She laughed t his vanity, "Yeah" she walked over to her dresser, keeping the sheet wrapped around her body, and grabbed Silver comb off of it. It had been a gift to her, from some foster mother. She couldn't remember anymore.
He took it from her, a look of disgust on his face, "anything less, feminine?" he asked.
Max grabbed his hand and put her fingertips on his nails, "that say that again moisturizing boy?" she asked, "By the way, I do have lotion, it's in the bathroom" she added.
He cringed and quickly ran the dainty comb through his hair. She smiled watching him. Her hand still healed one of his, and she laced their fingers. Alec put the comb down and grabbed the back of her head, pulling her into a kiss. She kept their hands laced through the whole passionate kiss, her free hand holding up the sheet, his free hand stroking the back of her neck. kiss was quick, but it left her breathless. He stepped back and left the room, holding on to her hand until the space separated their fingers. She was begging to see why he was so popular with the ladies, besides the obvious of course.
It had been an interesting few days. She had found a file on manticore, which she still needed to read all of. She had found her brother, albeit from insanity. And at the peek of her craziness, she had slept with Alec, and now she didn't know how she felt about him. She opened her dresser and pulled out a long oversized dark green shirt. She shut the drawer to open another one. She grabbed out a pair of underwear and slipped them on.
Out of the corner of her eye she saw a glint of something gold. She grabbed it to see what it was. It was Bens 'Blue lady' pendant. She had kept it when he died. As she looked at it, she was full of sorrow again.
"You looked so happy together" Ben came up behind her and took the necklace, fasting it behind her neck. "You should wear this" he said. Max turned around. "Your not here" she said, "Your a figment of my imagination. Your dead."
Ben looked truly hurt. "Maxie, if I'm dead how can I be here?" he reached out and touched her face. "Common baby sister, it's me, Ben, I'm right here. I said I wouldn't leave you and I'm not going to.
Max shook her head, trying to cling to reason, trying to hold on to sanity. But she could feal him. She could see him. She could smell him. He had always had this scent that was only his. Maybe it was her feline DNA, but he had this indescribable scent that was simply Ben. She made a last desperate attempt to hold on to her sanity, shaking her head, hoping he would disappear. But it didn't help, she was to far gone. She fell forward into his arms, feeling all reason floating away from her, and not caring. She missed him to much.
It had always been Ben and Zack over all else to her at Manticore. Zack was gone. She couldn't ever have him back with out causing harm to others. But Ben was hurting anyone. And she missed them both so much. If she had the chance to have one of them, why wouldn't she take it?".