A/N: Okay, now I'm happy ^_^ Lots of stuff happens this chapter, so pay attention!!!! Sheesh, I feel like a teacher.... oh well, read and enjoy!!!... and review!!!
2nd A/N: BTW, of course I've been imagining my characters, so I must tell you all this: I will have my drawings of Kae and Jacey posted soon, I really hope you all know what Bernard looks like, and Perrin is supposed to look like Elijah Wood... as I write this, I'm looking at the picture on the cover of my Your Magazine'... thats what he's supposed to look like! Shadowed eyes, pale skin, dark hair and bright blue eyes... you'll get it if you look at it,so I'll probably scan it! It is EXACTLY what Perrin looks like *nods*. I'm hoping you know who Elijah Wood is, and if not, he's the guy who plays Frodo in Lord of the Rings' except Perrin's hair isn't curly!
All The Things She Said
chapter 2
T.A.T.U. - All The Things She Said
All the things she said, all the things she said,
Running through my head, running through my head,
Running through my head.
All the things she said, all the things she said.
Running through my head, running through my head,
All the things she said.
This is not enough.
I'm in serious shit, I feel totally lost,
If I'm asking for help it's only because,
Being with you has opened my eyes,
Could I ever believe such a perfect surprise?
I keep asking myself, wondering how,
I keep closing my eyes but I can't block you out,
Wanna fly to a place where it's just you and me,
Nobody else so we can be free.
Nobody else, so we can be free.
All the things she said, all the things she said,
Running through my head, running through my head,
Running through my head.
All the things she said, all the things she said.
Running through my head, running through my head,
All the things she said.
This is not enough.
This is not enough.
All the things she said.
All the things she said.
And I'm all mixed up, feeling cornered and rushed,
They say it's my fault but I want her so much,
Wanna fly her away where the sun and rain,
Come in over my face, wash away all the shame.
When they stop and stare, don't worry me,
Cause I'm feeling for her what she's feeling for me,
I can try to pretend, I can try to forget,
But it's driving me mad, going out of my head.
All the things she said, all the things she said,
Running through my head, running through my head,
Running through my head.
All the things she said, all the things she said,
Running through my head, running through my head,
All the things she said.
This is not enough.
This is not enough.
All the things she said, all the things she said.
All the things she said, all the things she said.
All the things she said, all the things she said.
All the things she said, all the things she said.
All the things she said, all the things she said.
All the things she said.
Mother looking at me
Tell me what do you see?
Yes, I've lost my mind
Daddy looking at me
Will I ever be free?
Have I crossed the line?
All the things she said, all the things she said,
Running through my head, running through my head,
Running through my head.
All the things she said, all the things she said,
Running through my head, running through my head,
All the things she said.
This is not enough.
This is not enough.
All the things she said, all the things she said.
All the things she said, all the things she said.
All the things she said, all the things she said.
~*~
Kae was dreaming... that little she knew. Her dream was strange, though. It was a dark night, one without stars or moon, in a seeminly diserted city that would give almost anyone the creeps. In the middle of the street, she saw Bernard lying on his back, eyes closed, and a ghostly looking aura around him. Then, her vision switched to a different part of the city, where she saw Bernard standing in the middle of a different street, Perrin and Jacey behind him on either side. Somehow, she understood that these were Bernard's two sides. The one lying down was 712. The one standing up, staring into the darkness with the other two Grey Elves was the North Pole Bernard.
Her vision switched back to 712, right up next to his face. His eyes were moving rapidly behind closed lids. Suddenly, the image of a cloaked Dark Elf flashed through her mind before she saw 712's eyes snap open. The image backed away from 712 quickly as he stared into the darkness, different images of Bernard jumping into the air and screaming in fury cutting in every now and then.
Slowly, the cutting images subsiding, 712 sat up and looked around. For a moment, he seemed puzzled, but then it was as if he understood. The vision changed to Bernard, who was landing on the ground from his jump. Just as he stood back up to his full height, it switched back to 712 now standing in the street. He seemed afraid, yet somehow knowing. He looked around before walking away from the center, and Bernard was now crying out to the darkness from his part of the city. Suddenly, Kae saw many people walking through the city, all of them looking like punks and goths, the kind that young children shyed away from in fear.
Like her.
They were all walking to certain places, and Dark Elf cloaks were hung everywhere. Strangely, though, the cloak was more like a mask. It had the hood so it covered their faces and it had fabric around the neck, but that was it. She saw a girl with blonde, spiked up hair take her cloak and pull it on.
The vision would switch back and forth between Bernard, still calling out, and people sprinting somewhere. Kae got the feeling they were all running towards Bernard.
Sure enough, all the people made a large circle around Bernard, Perrin, and Jacey. It was as if Bernard was trying to tell them all something, but he was drowned out by their cheering and heavy-metal type music that had been growing steadily louder throughout the dream.
712, on the other hand, was moving slowly from between two, tall buildings. He seemed in slow motion as he jerked his head around, his hair flying wildly with him. He was looking at two, elderly, professional looking men. Suddenly, in a flash of black, he saw them in Dark Elf cloaks. He shut his eyes and looked at them again only to find normal men.
As for Bernard, more people were still joining. It was as if his call had summoned them all. Everyone would find their black cloak somewhere in the city and then sprint to Bernard's every growing circle.
And suddenly, Kae saw something she didn't expect. She saw 712 walk amongst the others and pull on his own Dark Elf cloak.
As he pulled it on, the clouds above them began swirling horribly, darkening the sky further. In the street walked four cloaked figures, and if Kae could've gasped, she would have. Even with the cloaks on, she recognized them as 712, Perrin's other side 971, Jacey's other side 4039, and her own Dark Elf side, 4041. It was their other sides... their Dark Elf sides.
In an explosion of water, rain soaked Bernard, Jacey and Perrin in the center of the crowd. Kae was almost surprised not to see herself with them.
All of them called out in the rain, everyone around them cheering. 712, 971, 4039, and 4041 joined the back of the crowd, slowly pushing their way to the front. It was strange that the rain only fell on Bernard, Perrin, and Jacey, leaving everyone else dry.
And suddenly, the four Dark Elves reached the front. Bernard's attention turned to 712, seeming to recognize him. 712 pulled off the hood to reveal his truly shocked face. Kae saw in the background Perrin back away as 971's hood fell, and Jacey's face twisted in horror as she covered her mouth with her hands at the revelation of 4039. Kae saw 4041 remove her own mask and she locked eyes with her other side.
And there they all stood, their White Elf sides soaked through and through, their Dark Elf sides dry. They stared at each other a moment before Kae looked to Bernard. She knew the look in his eyes. He wanted to run... oh she knew how badly he wanted to run, but he couldn't. None of them could.
There was nowhere to run.
Suddenly, her vision shot towards Bernard and straight into his left eye before backing away just as quickly from 712 lying on the ground in the middle of the street just like the beginning. 712 shut his eyes and everything faded away.
~*~
Kae opened her dark eyes and tried to focus on the room. Slowly, Bernard swam into view. She became aware of the blanket tucked under her chin as she lay on her side, and of Bernard's hand resting on her covered shoulder. Slowly, she began to make out the image of Perrin with his arm around Jacey comfortingly behind Bernard, and she began to feel the cool, damp cloth on her forehead.
Are you... allright? Jacey asked hopefully, walked forward with her hands clasped.
I've been better... Kae groaned, way better...! Jacey seemed almost relieved, but her eyes brimmed with tears.
OH KAE! she collapsed on top of the girl, arms thrown around Kae's neck, sobbing. How... how were able to stand?! You're so much more powerful than I am... I should have trained longer...
Wah! Get of me will ya? Kae cried, making Bernard and Perrin burst out laughing, and Kae's glaring at them didn't help.
I'm sorry... but how... I... it's just... KAE! Jacey continued wailing.
Kae to Jacey, LET ME GO NOW! Kae tried desperately to push Jacey off her.
So touching... Perrin wiped away imaginary tears, making Bernard howl with laughter. Kae, on the other hand, had managed to slip mostly away from Jacey. The red-head was clinging to Kae's arm, which Kae was shaking furiously.
Jacey, get OFF of me! her voice was practically a shriek. UGH! BERNARD... PERRIN... CAN'T SOMEONE GET HER OFF ME?! Finally, Kae managed to slip her arm away, and Jacey suddenly fell to the floor and clung to Bernard's ankle. The Head Elf cried out and jumped into the air, shaking his leg.
Think it's funny now?! Actually, that is really funny... Kae started laughing, and Perrin was leaning on the wall for support, holding his stomach.
IT'S NOT THAT FUNNY! Bernard cried.
Oh, I should have trained longer... and listened to you... Jacey was a wreck.
EVERYONE JUST CALM DOWN, WILL YA?! JACEY, IT'S NOT THAT UPSETTING! PERRIN, IT'S NOT THAT FUNNY! (Perrin laughed even harder) KAE... well... GET HER OFF ME!
In truth, it wasn't that funny, but when you lived a life as dark as they did, it was strange how things that weren't really that funny could suddenly become hysterical. Unfortunately, their rare moment of happiness was ended abruptly as they all cried out in pain, each of them slapping a hand to their chest.
WHAT THE HELL?! Kae cried.
Summon... a damn summon... Perrin growled.
Will the Dark One get mad if I get summoned and I've had a few drinks? Jacey asked innocently.
A few? Kae raised an eyebrow, and then they all dissapered in a shower of silver.
~*~
D.E.-712. D.E.-971, Bernard could feel his eyes begin to glow red as his second side was adressed. He and Perrin bowed on one knee, their heads tipped down.
Yes sir? they replied in almost perfect unison.
I understand we have two new members, the Dark One continued. 712, I would like you to train them. 971, I would like you to supervise.
Yes sir, they both bowed their heads again and rose to their feet.
I would like you to begin by taking them to a raid, his lips twisted into a horrid smile. Kae realized she was clenching and unclenching her fists and Jacey found she couldn't move. Bernard and Perrin, however, were far too used to what had originally made their insides run cold. Both of them bowed their heads again, rose to their feet and left the cavern, Kae and Jacey right at their heels.
~*~
So... what is a raid? Kae asked. They were all standing in a clump of trees in a park. The moon had abandoned the night and the stars didn't seem to shine at all.
You'll find out... Perrin seemed not to like the thought of it, though. Bernard was surprised to find himself shaking. It was strange... he'd murdered so many, yet he could never get used to the screams, or their faces pleading, the horrible hate flickering in their eyes. He often found himself wishing he had just stayed a normal elf.
But he never could have been a normal elf anyway. He was exposed to Dark Elf Magic when it killed his parents... no, he couldn't have been a normal elf. At least he could try and help the world with what he was doing. Yet at the same time, it bothered him to think he'd killed so many innocents... were all their lives really worth this single cause?
It had to be.
Suddenly, they saw red sparks shoot up from somewhere deeper into the forest. Bernard held out his hands, his palms upwards, and closed his eyes. Red sparks danced in his palms. Suddenly, they consumed him, spinning around him like a tornado. Then, in a flash of red, they became his black, Dark Elf cloak. Perrin followed suit while Kae and Jacey exchanged glances. Kae soon tried it and found herself dressed as Dark Elf. All eyes turned to Jacey.
Here goes nothing... she held her palms and red sparks began dancing in them. Sure enough, there was a flash of red, but she didn't quite get the result she wanted.
Everyone burst out laughing. Jacey's cloak had appeared on her backwards with the hood covering her face. She was stumbling around, her arms flailing, and hitting several trees.
Jacey... just how many drinks... did you... really have? Kae asked between laughs.
No comment, came Jacey's muffled reply as she pulled the hood down and turned it the right way. However, the mood was quickly ended when Bernard and Perrin remembered what was ahead. The girls pulled closer together, both of them frightened. Well, Kae wasn't really frightened... she was more curious about what could make Perrin and Bernard shake like that. The walked shoulder to shoulder, visibly shuddering.
They soon came to a clearing, but Bernard held his hand out almost protectively to keep Kae and Jacey from walking out of the trees. He imagined himself trying to hide two elves at the North Pole from something horrid... he had always felt protective over them all. He was quickly reminded that this wasn't the North Pole as Kae pushed his arm back down. He turned to look at her shadowed face and could barely see her eyes flickering beneath the cloud of blackness. Unfortunately, he also saw Jacey clinging to Kae's arm in fear.
Good luck... he told the darkness before turning to face the clearing.
Sure enough, a group of small children came running through, each of them pulling a parent along.
Come on mummy! We have to find the treasure! a little boy cried. Another girl was singing:
Going on a tweasure hunt, X marks de spawt! and was skipping through the grass. Jacey felt her heart lighten to see all these children, so happy...
And then she realized what was going on. All around them, red sparks began to flash in the trees. Fear overtook her and she turned to Bernard, hoping against hope that he wouldn't do the same.
But as Second Assasin, he was the first one to strike.
Jacey's scream was drowned out by the children's screams around them. She watched as Perrin raised his own palms and the sparks began to fly.
Children screamed, trying to run with their parents. Kae found herself letting the deadly red consume several. It burned her, every death making her want to scream. She knew she had to, though.
This is what I trained for... I have to get used to it! she told herself.
Jacey ran through the crowd with much different intentions. She wanted to get away... Jacey coudln't kill! In no time, she found herself facing a mother clinging desperately to her child.
Please... take me... just don't hurt him! she pleaded, tears running down her face.
I... I... Jacey shook her head and tried to focus. She lifted her arms, but she couldn't get anything. She couldn't do this. Feeling defeated, she lowered her arms.
A horrible cry of anger came from the mother as she threw a rock right at Jacey's head. The young elf found herself falling, blood running down her forehead.
She looked up at the woman, who was wound up to throw another rock, the look on her face a mixture of fear and hatred. Jacey held up her hands to stop the woman.
I don't want to hurt you! she cried. Hurry... run... get away! Jacey whispered urgently, nodding her head away from the place. The woman's face fell in shock, and then she bowed her own head. A moment later, she turned to flee...
And ran striaght into a cloaked figure.
Red sparks danced in the palms of the figure as it raised its hands and then smashed them against the woman. She screamed a terrible scream and began to fall, dead before she even hit the ground. Her child slowly sat up, staring into her face with wide, blue eyes. With a gasp, he grabbed her shoulders and tried to shake her.
Momma! MOMMA! his shakes became frantic, tears streaming down his face. Please, wake up! Open your eyes! MOMMA! He collapsed onto his mother's shoulder, hugging her neck, sobbing into her soft clothing. His mother... gone forever. Her eyes were expressionless, nothing behind them. He felt alone... so very alone! She was gone... His eyes red with the tears that were now running down his face, he looked up at the one who had killed his mother. The killer lifted its palms, and the sight of the red sparks made the boy's eyes go wide. He turned to run, but he didn't get far at all.
A red flash lit up the area. For a moment, he was held in mid-air by death's curse, and then he fell to the ground next to his mother, tears still running down his face.
As the red began to die, Jacey looked up at the figure with loathing eyes that quickly widened in shock. Her mouth twisted into a scream that wouldn't come, for in the moment's light, she saw who the killer was.
Bernard.
~*~
All of them sat in the Report Room, telling Christy, Ian, and Ron of the night's events. Kae looked as defiant as ever, for she knew if she didn't kill them, someone else would've. Still, Bernard found himself next to her. He tried to put his arm around her, but she shrugged it off, her eyes on the ground.
Perrin was sitting on a back bench, his arm around Jacey. The red-head had pulled her legs up to her chest, her eyes dull and lifeless. She couldn't believe it... Bernard, of all people! He had killed an innocent mother and child... why?! She grit her teeth in anger, making her body shake, and Perrin shifted his arm farther around her shoulder.
Sounds like a rough night, Christy said with a sigh. Any of you want a drink or something?
I'd love some cocoa, Bernard said gratefully, flopping down into a chair.
With the booze, I'm guessing? Christy laughed, to which Bernard nodded.
HOW DARE YOU?! a sudden voice from the back of the room startled everyone. Jacey was on her feet, fists clenched, tears running down her cheeks and utter hatred in her eyes. You... you killed that mother and child! I WAS RIGHT THERE! HOW COULD YOU?! THEY WERE INNOCENT... THEY DIDN'T DO ANYTHING!
Jacey, please... Perrin tried to get her to sit down, but she yanked her arm away from him.
NO! HE'S A MURDERER! HE'S A CRUEL, HEARTLESS MURDERER! she pointed at Bernard, who suddenly felt very sick. It was true, wasn't it... he'd never really though of himself as a murderer. Yet suddenly, he remembered how it felt when he lost his parents... he had been doing that to all these innocents. Bernard slumped down into his chair, and tears began to stream down his face. And before he could do anything to stop it, the memories came rushing back.
~*~
He finally struggled free of the broken boards and ran to where they both lay. The Dark Elves had vanished, leaving his parents dead on the grass. Bernard didn't understand, though...
he shrieked, falling to his knees at her side. He looked at her face, left without color, her eyes lifeless and lips slightly parted, a blade of grass sticking to the side of them. He looked at his father, face still twisted in terror. His father had died trying to protect the family... why had they taken him?! His parents didn't diserve to die! They were good people!
He looked at his father and remembered when they had gone fishing together, laughing in the small boat, lost in their happiness. He remembered camping, smores around the fire, the stories every night. His father would never pick him up again and spin him around, or tell him how proud he was of him, or ruffle his small black locks from under his lopsided beret, or help him reel in fish, or laugh at his jokes. His father... gone...
And his mother. She would never be there to protect him again. She wouldn't take him for walks in the garden, looking wherever he pointed and asked. She wouldn't bake him his favorite dinner, or kiss him goodnight, or pull him close when he was scared. When he was upset, he couldn't bury his face in her dress and feel her place her protecting arms around him. She couldn't ever shelter him from the world again, or read him bedtime stories tell he fell asleep, or sing him sweet songs to cheer him up. She just lay there, limp and lifeless.
they had arrived. One look at his parents told them all they needed to know. Bernard felt hands go around his arms and pull him away.
he cried, trying to take hold of his mother, but her cold fingers slipped through his. He screamed, fighting tooth and nail, biting at the hands that tried to hold him, tears streaming down his face. MOTHER! FATHER! He looked at them, lying with open eyes and cold faces on the ground. Their image blurred through the tears that brimmed in his eyes. Closing them, he jerked his head into the air and screamed for all he was worth.
And that was the last time he ever saw them.
~*~
Bernard let his head fall into his palms, sobbing horribly. He lifted his face a bit and stared with blurry eyes at his hands. With them, he had done to many what had tormented him his whole life. Jacey's words were true: He was nothing but a cruel, heartless murderer.
I'm sorry, Jacey, Bernard slowly raised his head to face the girl, dreading what he had to say next, but we all are.
Jacey's face fell into shock, her fists unclenching. For a moment, she just stood there, blinking at Bernard as a tear ran unchecked down his cheek. Then, clamped her eyes shut and shook her head.
and with that, she fled the room.
Jacey, wait- Bernard started to get up, but Kae pulled him back down. He eyed her quizzically, and for the first time in... well... ever, she looked symathetic.
Now that was something you don't see everyday. A street-elf looking sympathetic. It bugged Bernard.
Listen... I'll go talk to her. It'll all be fine, she smiled at him. Bernard blinked at her a moment before smiling back.
Who are you and what have you done with Kae? she punched his shoulder, making them all laugh. Bernard momentarily forgot about Jacey, who was right outside the door, hugging herself as the tears ran down her face, wondering how they could laugh after what happened. How?
What if she did become like them?
~*~
Kae glanced at her watch, tapping her foot impatiently. It was sunset, sending red and orange light through the forest trees on the mountainside. Not far away was Bernard's house where they were all going to meet for dinner. It had become a tradition to trade of houses and eat with eachother every Thursday. Kae, however, was waiting for Jacey. She was going to talk to her about what she had said to Bernard.
a small voice asked, causing the punk-elf to spin around.
Jacey, how could you do that to him?! she cried, making Jacey flinch. Kae didn't believe in small talk, instead just jumping to the point. Jacey hadn't really expected it so bluntly, but after all, this was Kae. Soon, though, Jacey met Kae's glare. She looked strong, but her voice shook.
He's a murderer...- Kae cut her off.
GET OVER IT! HE HAS TO BE! IF HE BACKS OUT NOW, THE DARK ONE WILL KILL HIM! Kae shouted, anger boiling up inside her. Oh, how she wanted to punch Jacey right then.
Let the Dark One kill him for all I care! Jacey screamed back, her fear of the she-elf in front of her fading.
Do you really want that, Jacey? HUH?! Cause you see, Bernard kills because he's trying to kill the Dark One. Every innocent's life helps him all the more. Should Bernard be killed, every innocent slaughtered by his hands will have died for nothing. He would have killed them and accomplished nothing by it. That's why he can't back out, Jacey! Don't you get it?! Kae understood very well, and the way Jacey's face fell told her the red-head was beginning to understand. Jacey, he wants to run. Look into his eyes and you can tell he does. But he can't... there isn't anywhere he can run! Kae thought back to her dream. It was if that dream had helped her understand. Did you even see how pained his eyes looked when you called him a murderer?! He hates it, but he does it to protect those he loves! He's risking his life for the world!
He didn't even hesitate though... he just... killed them! Jacey protested. Kae clenched her fists. She had had enough.
Kae's cry of anger and Jacey's of fear and pain had every bird within earshot screeching as they fled. Had they looked down, they would have seen Kae holding her fist and Jacey lying on the ground, blood running from her nose as the area darkened, tears in her eyes.
Grow up Jacey. We aren't innocent little elves anymore. Deal with it! and with that, Kae vanished.
Jacey lay on the ground a moment, shaking slightly, staring where Kae had just been. Then, slowly, she raised a hand to her nose. She winced at the touch before pulling away to see deep red liquid on her finger. Her eyes narrowed in anger, though not for Bernard anymore. As she thought about it, she began to understand. No, she wasn't upset with Bernard... but she was racking with anger for someone else now. She had to clench her teeth to keep from screaming in hatred. Instead, she resorted to something else.
she seethed, wiping the blood from her nose and getting to her feet.
~*~
I'm getting worried about Jacey... Bernard said, looking out the window.
I'll alert the media, Kae replied nonchalantly from where she sat on one of the rafters.
Okay Kae, what curse did you use to kill her and where is the body? Perrin asked, making Kae snort.
Kae, I'm serious! What did you do to her? Bernard cried.
I just knocked some sense into her... literally knocked some sense into her, Kae was struggling not to laugh.
How hard did you punch her? Bernard asked. Kae laughed and swung her legs over the rafter before slipping off it and dissapearing, reappearing a moment later standing on the ground. She sighed and leaned against the wall.
she laughed lightly. Pretty damn hard.
Bernard hung his head in frusteration.
You said you were going to help? Perrin raised an eyebrow. Kae grabbed a vase on a nearly table and chucked it at him, making Bernard leap across the room to catch it.
Okay, no throwing breakable stuff! he shouted, so Kae picked up a knife off the table and threw it.
Oh shit, Perrin laughed as he dove to the side, quickly getting back up to dodge a fork. Bernard sighed in defeat as Perrin continued dodging Kae's bombardment of kitchen utensils (A/N: Kitchen Utensil Club, I wrote this scene in thought of you guys!! I almost had Kae and Jacey's fight in the kitchen so that Kae could whack her with a frying pan... ^_^).
Eventually, Perrin found the bathroom door as a very nice shield, which Kae found very hard to break down. Bernard used the as a chance to reset the table. When Kae walked by asking where he kept his saws, he had to make them call a truce though.
I'm guessing Jacey's ditching tonight, Perrin sighed after another ten minutes of waiting.
Great! Let's eat! Kae immediately dove towards the table, soon followed by Perrin. Bernard, with one more glance outside, sat down to join them. Soon, the room shook with their laughter.
Honestly, Kae, you eat like someone's gonna steal it from you! Bernard laughed. Kae paused, met eyes with Bernard, then looked accusingly at Perrin before resuming her feast.
Perrin asked, making Kae choke on her food. All of them had learned it wasn't smart to attempt swallowing and laughing at the same time, as the end result was usually very similar to Kae's hacking coughs as she pounded her chest. That made Perrin and Bernard howl with laughter.
A sudden noise made them all look up, their laughter fading. They then heard the door close and someone take their shoes off before walking into their view.
the girl stood in the doorway, her head tipped down so that her eyes were shadowed underneath her hair. Kae rolled her own eyes and set her food down.
Bernard... I'm sorry... and...- she managed, though it seemed hard. She was clenching and unclenching her fists, as if trying to hold back from something. She was cut off by Kae, though.
God, finally! she cried, exasperated. That did it. Jacey snapped her head up to reveal her eyes, flickering in anger and near-hatred. She suddenly tore forward at the same moment that Kae jumped to her feet in near shock. Jacey leapt clear over the table and slammed against Kae, grabbing her by her shirt, and slammed the punk-elf's back into the wall.
I HATE YOU! Jacey cried.
WHY?! BECAUSE I TOLD YOU THE TRUTH?! YOU HAVE NOTHING TO HATE ME FOR, YOU BITCH! Kae threw Jacey across the room with little effort, but Jacey was back on her feet in no time, launching herself at Kae.
I DON'T CARE! IT'S MURDER ALL THE SAME AND I CAN'T SEE HOW YOU CAN JUST BRUSH IT OFF AS IF IT'S NOTHING! Jacey continued, winding up and attempting to punch Kae. Having grown up in a city where this happened all the time, Kae easily dodged it before grabbing Jacey's arm and slamming her into the ground.
Oh god... Bernard groaned before getting to his feet. Perrin, who was rather shocked and not sure who's side he was on, just sat on the floor feeling useless.
YOU DON'T EVEN CARE WHO BERNARD IS! YOU'RE SO BLINDED BY YOUR LOVE THAT YOU CAN'T EVEN COME TO GRIPS WITH REALITY! DARK ELVES CAN'T LOVE! Kae froze, too shocked to move, and in result recieved a hard punch across her face that knocked her backwards. Jacey dove to hit her again, but Bernard chose that moment to get between them and grabbed Jacey by the shoulders and shoved her backwards. Kae was crouched against the wall behind him, visibly shaking, tears running down her face.
YOU DON'T GET IT, DO YOU BERNARD?! Jacey cried before launching herself at them again. Bernard still shoved at her to keep her back, but it wasn't working. Kae didn't seem able to defend herself, for she just hid behind Bernard, which was very unusual. I'M TRYING TO GET THE POINT ACROSS TO YOU THAT SHE'S READY TO MURDER COUNTLESS INNOCENTS BECUASE OF YOU! SHE DOESN'T CARE ABOUT ANYONE ELSE, JUST YOU, THE SELFISH BITCH-
Bernard had had enough. Anger and frusteration boiled over, making him do something he never dreamt he would do to a friend.
STOP IT! he leapt forward, his hand outstretched. Jacey's eyes turned from anger to fear for a slipt second before it happened.
WHACK! He struck her across her left cheek with force enough to push her head all the way to the side. Time seemed to slow to a crawl as Jacey fell backwards with her head turned sideways and eyes closed while Bernard fell forward, hand still outstretched on his opposite side. Jacey crashed to the floor where she lay momentarily before propping herself up on one hand.
Jacey looked back up at him from her now-sitting position, her hand on her cheek. Bernard's eyes lost their angry look as if he had suddenly realized what he had just done to her. Sighing heavily, he hung his head before raising it again to meet her's. It was as if Bernard had just admitted it was him, despite the fact that there was no doubt, for Jacey's eyes widened, her lip quivering as her eyes brimmed with tears, before she jerked her head to the side, tilting it just so that she shadowed her eyes as the tears leaked from their corners.
Jacey look... I shouldn't have hit you, but you need to realize something, Bernard spoke affectionately, but it just made more tears stain Jacey's pale cheeks. We are all two-sided here... I truly believe each of us is still innocent, and the murderer is simply our other side. Yet at the same time, they are both still sides of one person, so in truth, all of us are murders. You can't hide from it, Jacey. You will be forced to kill... every murder is hard for me, but it all becomes easier when I'm up in the North Pole. Seeing those shining, innocent faces reminds me what I'm doing this for, and it gives me strength. We all want something to cling to... so that we can fight to protect it. Whether it's something hidden in Kae's past or simply something of her present life, its what she clings to. All of us here are fighting for eachother... we have to, or the murders would drive us insane. Unless you plan on winding up dead, which none of us would let happen, you will have to learn, Jacey. You will have to become a murder...
That's why Bernard wanted you to train longer, Perrin rose to his feet as he joined in, making Jacey snap her emerald eyes up to meet his pools of sapphire. The reason it was easier for Kae is because she trained for two, solid years. Bernard as well, and I trained for three. You didn't even train for a whole year... that was why Bernard was so upset. Its because he fears for you... we all do, Jacey. He smiled at her and Jacey turned her eyes to Bernard. Again they brimmed with tears, but no longer the same kind.
OH BERNARD! she leapt to her feet and burried her face in his shirt, which rather frightened the poor elf and he patted her awkwardly. Perrin crossed the room towards them only to have Jacey whirl around to glare at him.
WHY DIDN'T YOU STOP ME?! DO YOU NOT CARE ABOUT ME?! Perrin knew she was joking... well, halfjoking at least... but found himself wondering if he should tell her the truth.
You guys... um... Kae's gone, Bernard told them. I'm gonna go find her...
Perrin nodded at Bernard and then the elf left the room. Sighing heavily, Perring turned back to face Jacey. He had decided to tell her... He rested his hand gently on her cheek.
I do care about you... more than you know, she smiled at her... not a normal Perrin smile, but rather one she had never seen before.
Jacey was visibly shaking almost unable to believe what she was hearing. She asked a question with only her eyes, to which Perrin replied only with a smile.
You forget... we aren't true Dark Elves, Jacey, suddenly, Jacey's legs collapsed out from underneath her. She fell to her knees, Perrin crouching down with her while laughing. Jacey, on the other hand, was letting out a strange noise like a cross between a gasp and a laugh, staring with wide-eyes at Perrin.
You... you really... Jacey stuttered, tears springing to her eyes. Perrin was laughing and nodding.
Yes, Jacey, yes! he laughed. A huge smile broke out on Jacey's face and she nearly fell forward to embrace Perrin, who only laughed and hugged her back. Then, both of them leaned back, locking eyes. And in those next moments, nothing mattered anymore to either of them except eachother.
~*~
Bernard sighed in relief, seeing her standing outside on his balcony, her hands resting on the railing and looking down at the stream a couple hundred feet below, as she was on the second story and they were on a mountain side. What are you doing out here-?
Don't come near me, Kae cut him off with her command, but Bernard, being Head Elf, was not use to being commanded and didn't listen, but instead stood next to her.
Kae, what's the mat- he suddenly realized the answer to his question.
YOU DON'T EVEN CARE WHO BERNARD IS! YOU'RE SO BLINDED BY YOUR LOVE THAT YOU CAN'T EVEN COME TO GRIPS WITH REALITY! DARK ELVES CAN'T LOVE!
Kae... Kae loved him? Was that what it was... was she ashamed of it?
Don't pretend you don't know, Kae replied, and Bernard could have sworn he saw a tear run down her cheek. She's right... dark elves can't love. I gave up my whole life to be near someone who, for once, meant something to me... someone who finally made me feel like I was more than I was. And it blinded me... you're a Dark Elf. You couldn't ever... Kae seemed to collapse at that point, suddenly breaking down into horrible sobs. Shocked as he was from what Kae had said, he was surprised that Kae's crying didn't give him a heart attack.
And then, a thought struck Bernard. She loved him, but did he love her? But Dark Elves couldn't love... was that what Bernard had felt when he was around her. He looked at Kae and thought of the many times he had been around her. She was beautiful, strong, smart, brave...
Bernard... love someone?
You probably hate me now, Kae sobbed into her hands. Bernard put a hand on her back, but she spun her arm around to knock his away and ended up staring up at him, unable to tear her eyes away from his.
Don't you get it, Bernard?! she cried, tears streaming down her face. I love you, okay?! You're the reason I didn't kill myself when I had the chance! You... you're... Kae had lost her strength and had begun shaking again, falling slowly to her knees with her last words, closing her eyes and turning her head to the side as her shoulders shook with silent sobs. You're my whole world.
Bernard crouched down to her level and she looked up at him with fear in her eyes. And they locked eyes, brown and blue, everything else slipping away.
You hate me, don't you? Kae asked, fear ringing in her voice. Niether of them noticed Perrin and Jacey peering around the doorway and exchanging wondering glances. Was it true...?
No, Kae, Bernard smiled at her. It was impossible, yet somehow, he did. He truly did, and he finally realized it. I love you.
And he kissed her.
~*~
All the things she said, all the things she said,
Running through my head, running through my head,
Running through my head.
All the things she said, all the things she said.
Running through my head, running through my head,
All the things she said.
This is not enough.
I'm in serious shit, I feel totally lost,
If I'm asking for help it's only because,
Being with you has opened my eyes,
Could I ever believe such a perfect surprise?
I keep asking myself, wondering how,
I keep closing my eyes but I can't block you out,
Wanna fly to a place where it's just you and me,
Nobody else so we can be free.
Nobody else, so we can be free.
All the things she said, all the things she said,
Running through my head, running through my head,
Running through my head.
All the things she said, all the things she said.
Running through my head, running through my head,
All the things she said.
This is not enough.
This is not enough.
All the things she said.
All the things she said.
And I'm all mixed up, feeling cornered and rushed,
They say it's my fault but I want her so much,
Wanna fly her away where the sun and rain,
Come in over my face, wash away all the shame.
When they stop and stare, don't worry me,
Cause I'm feeling for her what she's feeling for me,
I can try to pretend, I can try to forget,
But it's driving me mad, going out of my head.
All the things she said, all the things she said,
Running through my head, running through my head,
Running through my head.
All the things she said, all the things she said,
Running through my head, running through my head,
All the things she said.
This is not enough.
This is not enough.
All the things she said, all the things she said.
All the things she said, all the things she said.
All the things she said, all the things she said.
All the things she said, all the things she said.
All the things she said, all the things she said.
All the things she said.
Mother looking at me
Tell me what do you see?
Yes, I've lost my mind
Daddy looking at me
Will I ever be free?
Have I crossed the line?
All the things she said, all the things she said,
Running through my head, running through my head,
Running through my head.
All the things she said, all the things she said,
Running through my head, running through my head,
All the things she said.
This is not enough.
This is not enough.
All the things she said, all the things she said.
All the things she said, all the things she said.
All the things she said, all the things she said.
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A/N: I love the way this song goes with it... Bernard thinking about what she said, and the mother/father thing being what his parents are thinking about him being a grey elf... anyhoo, REVIEW, cuz I'm waiting for at least five before I post the next chap! ^_^ Love ya all *hugs all reviewers*