Tetsuo seemed to walk around Hikari forever, he trudged through the dirt staring down at the floor unable to get that beautiful girl from the bar out of is mind. What was wrong with him? Maybe he shouldn't answer that question. He liked girls of course, what fifteen year old boy didn't, but there was something different about this girl, he only said three sentences to her yet he felt like he knew her. She was beautiful, rude but beautiful. Then again he was no gentleman. He was just some psychotic freak who killed his girlfriend and whose only friends at the moment were a weird telepathic drunk and a young flirt who wanted to give him a hand-job within a few minutes of meeting him. Then he remembered how he met Kaori in school, within a few minutes of meeting her they were making out in the staff room and a few minutes after that she had her head in his lap. He stopped dead in his tracks and stared up at the sky, it was starting to get dark. He made his way back to Nobuyuki's house and slowly walked inside. As soon as she saw him walk in Masyo came rushing up to him and flung her arms around him. "Oh my God Tetsuo! Where have you been? I was so worried about you," she said, holding on to him. "Masyo, you're not my sister and we only met a few hours ago, how can you be worried about me?" said Tetsuo, pushing her away. "Because I like you Tetsuo," she said smiling. Tetsuo looked up at the ceiling in disbelief. "You don't even know me Masyo," he said, walking away from her. "I don't have to know you to know that you're cute," replied Masyo. "You think I'm cute?" said Tetsuo, turning around and looking at Masyo strangely. "Of course I do. You're like the cutest boy I've ever seen, you have lovely blue eyes," smiled Masyo, walking over to Tetsuo seductively. "Yeah," said Tetsuo, "it's a shame that they're hazel." "Tetsuo have you ever been with a girl before?" asked Masyo. "That's my business Masyo! God!" said Tetsuo in disbelief, "Jeez do you always come on this strong?" Masyo walked up close to Tetsuo and wrapped her arms around him and gently run her forefinger down the center of his face passed his nose and across his lips. "Come Tetsuo, Nobuyuki would never know," Masyo whispered in his ear. "Have you got a condom?" "Masyo no! Fucking you isn't going to make me feel better, well I mean it would but I." Tetsuo hesitated. He looked around the room not knowing what to do and then he thought to himself was he crazy? A beautiful was throwing herself at him and he was turning her down. Girls never threw themselves at him, Kaneda and Yamagata maybe, but not him. "Do you not think I'm pretty enough Tetsuo is that it?" Masyo said sadly, looking into Tetsuo's eyes. "No babe it's not that, I think you're hot it's just I don't want to," said Tetsuo. Masyo sighed sadly and unwrapped her arms from around Tetsuo. Tetsuo walked away and then turned around to face Masyo again, he felt so horny right now, but he just couldn't. He felt like he was crazy, either that or he was turning funny and either one of those options wasn't good. Masyo sat down on the sofa and looked down sadly at the floor. Tetsuo sighed and walked into his room. It was now completely dark and the velvet sky was filled with diamond stars, he walked over to the window and stared up into the stars, resting his elbows on the window ledge. "I don't know if you're up there Kaori, or if you can even hear me," he said sadly, gazing up at the stars. "I can't believe I let things get as far as they did and I especially never wanted to hurt you. You were the only one who ever understood me, you cared about me and I treated you like shit. I hate myself more for that and I know that it never seemed that way or I never told you, but I really loved you Kaori!" he began to cry. "Huh look at me, I was always afraid of letting you see me cry and I acted like a bastard towards you whenever it happened to try and act tough, but you always stood by me to the very end. I never believed in being mushy or any of that soul-mate crap, but I believed in trying to better myself because I wanted you to be proud of me as your boyfriend. I wanted to lead like Kaneda, be a lady's man like Yamagata, be smart like Kai, but I let it go too far and it resulted in me losing you forever and I'll never forgive myself for that.ever!"

TO BE CONTINUED