Chapter 8: Feelings of Hate and Regret

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Darkness all around... Tomoyo walked through the darkness hoping to find something that could help light the room. Her hands kept searching until they fell upon a lamp on the desk. She sighed and turned it on relieved that the darkness was now gone. She then turned around....but found Eriol standing in front of her.

"Eriol, what are you doing here?!" Tomoyo didn't want this, she just wanted him out of her life forever. He didn't answer her, only taking one step at a time to get closer to her. She kept backing up until she was trapped in a corner.

"Eriol, answer me damn it!" Eriol smiled that irresistible smile of his and took her hand in his and finally spoke. "Tomoyo, I am so sorry...I never meant to hurt you the way I did. Please forgive me?" he looked at her with eyes full of sorrow. She then smiled back and decided that she loved him too much not to forgive him, but something didn't feel right in her mind. Eriol wrapped his arms around her waist and pulled her into a passion filled kiss. Her mind became hazy and didn't care if something felt wrong, she just knew that this kiss felt so right. Tomoyo then wrapped her arms around his neck and kissed back with equal passion. The kiss went on for a minute or so, but then Eriol pushed Tomoyo violently away from him.

"What's wrong?" she asked a bit scared. "You are so stupid, do you know that?!" He laughed evilly and continued to talk "You are so easy to trick, if I knew it was this easy I would have tried to get you to have sex with me, instead of just that one chaste kiss," he laughed and laughed and Tomoyo's eyes filled with tears. She was stupid, she couldn't believe she listened to her heart to trust him. Eriol then disappeared and she sank down to the floor crying...

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She felt herself being shaken and opened her eyes. Sakura was standing over her in a pink robe. Tomoyo sat up and shook her head. 'It was just a dream...' she told herself, yet in her mind it felt all too real.

"Tomoyo-chan, are you alright? I heard you crying, but when I came in you were still sleeping."

"Hai, I just had a bad dream, that's all.." she said holding back the tears that spilled because of that dream. She looked over at the clock on the wall and saw that it was 12 midnight. After leaving Eriol at the motel, she went to the Oriental Garden Hotel and came to Sakura and Syaoran's room to stay with them. She had instantly fell asleep, but now was wide awake.

"Do you want to talk?" asked Sakura, being quiet since Syaoran was still asleep. Tomoyo nodded yes and slowly got up from the bed and walked into the living room (a/n: the deluxe suite lol) and sat down on the couch.

"So what was your dream about?" Sakura asked cautiously as to not upset Tomoyo. The amethyst-eyed beauty took in a deep breath like it was her last and described the scene of her dream and how it had reminded her of Eriol's betrayal. Sakura then frowned, she still felt that it had been her fault for what happened, even though everyone assured her it wasn't.

"Tomoyo, you have to look at what Eriol did from his point of view. Then you would understand that he never wanted to hurt you, it was all just a misunderstanding!" exclaimed Sakura who took Tomoyo's hands into hers hoping that her friend would realize the truth. "Maybe he did help me, but it still doesn't give him to right to have lied to me! He should have told me right from the start even if it did risk me being resistant to him," said Tomoyo in a firm voice. Sakura couldn't argue with that, it was true that no one should ever lie, even if it is for such a good cause as helping Tomoyo to open up and love. She was about to say more when she heard a knock at the door. "If it's him I don't want to see him!" Tomoyo told Sakura in a firm tone. Sakura walked to the door and opened it just enough to see who it was, and it was indeed Eriol.

"Sakura, let me talk to Tomoyo," he said.

"Gomen nasai Eriol, but I can't let you talk to Tomoyo. She wishes to be alone..." she said hoping he wouldn't continue to persuade.

"Sakura-chan, I need to talk to her, if I don't she may never forgive me!" Eriol yelled out. Sakura started to feel scared, thinking that Eriol might do something stupid in order to get to Tomoyo. Still she stood her ground and continued to tell him that he could not see Tomoyo and was about to close the door, when Eriol pushed with all his might to open the door. This caused Sakura to instantly fall to the floor and cry out in pain.

"Sakura!" called out Syaoran who had awaken because of all the noise. Tomoyo was hiding behind the couch, tears once again spilled to the floor because of the scene she just saw. She hated Eriol, she regretted ever letting herself become vulnerable... She also knew that she had to face him, so that he would understand and leave her alone.

"Eriol, what the hell is wrong with you?!" yelled Syaoran. He was about to beat Eriol to a bloody pulp when a voice emerged from behind the couch. "Stop this now," said Tomoyo standing up so Eriol could see her. She took a few steps towards him but enough to keep them from touching each other. "Tomoyo, you have to listen to me!" yelled out Eriol, pain written all over his face.

She took in a shaky breath, but then started to speak softly "Why? Who says I have to listen to you? Who says I have to do anything you tell me? You can't tell me what to do Eriol, I decide things for myself. But I do have to thank you for helping me open up again, even if it was through deceit, so thank you," and with that she bowed respectively before him "Now I think you should leave because you have caused enough through this evening or morning I should say. I have nothing more to say to you..." said Tomoyo, she helped Sakura up and they both left the room.

"TOMOYO!" yelled out Eriol, but then Syaoran grabbed him by his shirt collar and tossed him out of the room. "I really feel sorry for you Eriol, but hurting my wife and barging in here in the early morning is not acceptable. Tomoyo will talk to you when she wants to, so leave her alone... Do the same thing again like you did today and you will be dead before you can even call out her name," Syaoran said with deadly glares directed at Eriol and then shut the door.

Syaoran was right, what he had done was wrong and out of character for him as well. But there was only one explanation for why he did it "Because I love her.." he said quietly to himself and left the hallway, walking the dark streets of Hong Kong alone...

"Sakura-chan, are you okay?" asked Tomoyo, worried that Eriol could have seriously injured her tomodachi.

"Iie, I am fine... it was just the fall that hurt, nothing more," Sakura expressed with a smile on her face.

"I don't see what there is to smile about after that rather loud incident," is what Syaoran expressed with no smile on his face, but rather an angry glare. He was mad with Eriol, but also with Tomoyo...but more with Eriol.

"Syaoran, when are you two going back to Tomoeda?" curiosity expressed in her amethyst eyes.

"Well, it's already 1a.m. now, our plane leaves at 3 a.m. , so I supposed Sakura and I should start packing up our things," he said as he stroked Sakura's hair.

"Can I come?"

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"I lost the love of my life *hic* and I didn't even get a proper chance to fight back...none at all..." were the whispers said to the bottom of a shot glass that Eriol held in his hand.

"You remind me of that one Japanese girl, the one who could hold her liquor down, but couldn't keep her mouth shut," muttered the bartender. "If you really love this girl you keep on jabbering about, why don't you go after her. You can't give up after a few goes, love makes you do crazy things so you might as well go for it so you have no regrets."

Eriol looked up at the bartender and was astonished that someone who dispensed liquor and was always surrounded by smoke could give such helpful advice. And with that he paid the man and left the horrid place where no dreams came true and all who stayed there wasted away.

"That's not going to be me," he told himself confidently, though a bit drunk.

He staggered his way all the way back to the Oriental Garden hotel and went up to Syaoran and Sakura's room where he would find Tomoyo and make her understand the truth.

"Knock knock knock!" Eriol's fist pounded against the door for what seemed forever. Frustrated and not thinking straight he used some magic to blow the door wide open and ran around the room. No one was there, all their things packed up and gone, only he was in the room. He pounded his fists against the floor and tears began to drop to the floor.

"This is not how it's going to end, Tomoyo I promise you we will be together. You will know the truth and all will be alright!" and with that proclamation he bolted through the door and headed to where he knew Tomoyo would be...

Tomoeda, Japan........

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A/N: Finally I have uploaded chap 8 for you all who even remember this fic of mine lol. I hope you enjoyed it. I am getting old *only 17 but I feel old hehe* and I guess ideas aren't coming to me as fast as they used to, plus school comes in and such. But I will try to get the next chapter up sooner than I did this one, PLEASE REVIEW!