Strawberry Gashes
Turn her over
A candle is lit, I see through her
Blow it out and save all her ashes for me
I stood in the doorway staring at her, I didn't want to but I was in some sort of sick trance. My instincts told me to run but my legs would not obey me. She lay there on the bathroom floor surrounded by shards of glass from our mirror or what was left of the mirror, her blood seeps onto the pale blue tiles of our shared bathroom. Her blood I stared on as the crimson water flowed freely from her pale wrists that were now covered in strawberry gashes. I couldn't move my mind screamed help her, but I couldn't I just watched as if it were all a movie not real, yet here she was my best friend dying before my eyes.
Curse me sold her
The poison that runs it's course through her
Pale white skin with strawberry gashes all over all over
It couldn't be real she was the brave smart one and I was the screw up. She wouldn't do something like this but now even to me she looked alien her sandy hair matted in blood and her eyes once so strong now a glistened over green. And I watched but I didn't want to, I felt sick but I couldn't turn away either. I felt the tears burn behind my eyes but I wouldn't cry, not were she could see, she always said tears are for the weak and she said I wasn't week. She looked up with me then and told me that she was leaving me so she wouldn't have to see that other world anymore. I didn't understand but I knew she was going to leave me and I wouldn't let that happen yet I still couldn't move.
Watch me fault her
You're living like a disaster
She said kill me faster
with strawberry gashes all over
I gave one short cry and ran forward in a mad dash I grabbed a shard of glass and slashed mercilessly at my own flesh as I began to bleed I lay down on the floor and held her hand I wouldn't let her leave we were sticking together. I smiled slowly because I was so very tired. As I began to lose consciousness I began to think of my family, my papa was going to miss us so. I was always his little girl along with my sister we really were a family. My mother was a socialite and really didn't bother with us much, it wasn't her fault really its just who she was.
Called her over
and asked her if she was improving
She said "feels fine" it's wonderful wonderful here
As I thought I began to realize I should be dead by now but I didn't feel dead not really wasn't there supposed to be a tunnel or something, it was just black and I could here my parents voices screaming the blame at each other. Was this what being dead was like? Hearing your parents fight. As I thought the area lightened and I saw my parents arguing in a hospital room.
Hex me told her
I dreamt of a devil that knew her
Pale white skin with strawberry gashes all over all over
Where is she? Was my first coherent thought I tried to speak but I couldn't I didn't understand what was happening. "Papa, where is… where is…." Was all I could croak out I already knew the answer but I had to hear it. He had to tell me she was dead. My dear Papa said in a sad tone I had never heard him use, he told me she died and I was so close to be an hour ago when they found us… he said they couldn't save her… they couldn't save my best friend… my sister…
Watch me fault her
You're living like a disaster
She said kill me faster
with strawberry gashes all over
I had been 12 then and soon after my parents divorced not being able to live with the guilt I guess. My dad got custody, I was sent off to the best schools and was as close to being happy as could be expected. For some reason my mother wanted to fight to get me back but couldn't for while, for some reason, until I turned 14 and then my life changed again and I was sent back to the house where it all began. And there though I didn't know it my life was to truly begin after I disappeared unexplainable for around 6 months when I was 15 to a world a place my sister really didn't want to go. She wanted escape there so badly she killed herself. But there is where I found my freedom from the nightmare my beloved sister accidentally through me in.
I lay quiet
waiting for her voice to say
"Some things you lose and some things you just give away"
Scold me failed her
If only I'd held on tighter to her
Pale white skin that twisted and withered away from me away from me
Watch me lose her
It's almost like losing myself
Give her my soul
and let them take somebody else get away from me
Watch me fault her
You're living like a disaster
She said kill me faster
with strawberry gashes all over all over me
A/N this is a beginning of a saga where someone must find out that an old mistake can alter ones life for the good or bad. And people please review it won't kill you and I need criticsm so I can make this fic great. ^-^
Disclaimer: I don't own escaflowne and the song is Strawberry Gashes By Jack off Jill