Memories of Loss
Part 2
At the briefing, Jonas walks in with that smile that annoys Jack so much. I see through it now, as I know he can see through mine. His hand brushes my back as he walks behind me. When I glance at him, he smiles a genuine smile not the normal façade like we have plastered on our faces for the rest to see. I have got to ask him about his past, know something had to have happened in his past, but what? Hammond starts talking and I snap back to reality. Hmmm, so we are on stand-down for the next seventy-two hours? Well, that's just great, more time to fall into my depression. I have got to get some anti-depressants from Janet. Or maybe some strong pain killers. . .
"Hey Sam, are you okay? General Hammond dismissed us already." I jump as Jonas puts his hand on my arm. He smiles, a real smile, and I walk with him out of the briefing room. While walking to my lab, I ask him, "What are you doing during the stand-down?" "I'll probably go through more of the mission notes since I can't go off-base," Jonas replies. "Would you like to go off-base with me?" I ask him. I see his eyes light up at the suggestion. "Could I really? That would be great!" His enthusiasm makes me smile. "I'll ask the General." What a perfect situation to find out about his past.
I walk to Hammond's office, planning what I will say. I knock on his door. "Sir?" I ask. "Come in, Major," he replies. I hope he is in a good mood. I walk in and ask him, "Sir, permission to go off-base? I want to take Jonas with me." "You want to take Jonas?" he asks, slightly surprised. "Yes," I respond confidently. "Okay, Major, if you wish," Hammond replies, still rather perplexed. "Thank you, Sir," I say to him as I walk out to my lab to tell Jonas the good news.
As I walk up to my lab, I look though the window. I see Jonas at my desk, so I watch him for a moment. He pulls out a photograph out of him notebook he always carries. A tear slides down his cheek. I quietly slip into the lab and walk up behind him. He's normally so observant, yet he doesn't notice me. I look over his shoulder and see the photo. It is a picture of him and a thin woman, skin as pale as moonlight with eyes dark and mysterious. She has her arm around him waist, both smiling. I put my hand on Jonas' shoulder. He jumps and puts the picture back into the notebook. "Sam! Oh, um, hi?" he stutters. I pull a chair beside him and sit down. "Who's that in the photo?" I ask him. "An old friend," I see him fight back tears. The sorrow in his eyes is all too apparent. A single tear escapes his defenses. I wipe away his tear. "Her name was Jade. She was a scientist working on the Naquadria Project," he explains. "Was?" I ask him. He continues, "She was assassinated by the government after she quit the project after she found out that the Naquadria was for a bomb. The Kelownan government tried to cover up the murder by making it appear to be a gang crime." I put my arm around him in comfort. "I loved her, like Daniel loved you," he says. "At least we aren't alone in our pain, we have each other who could understand," I smile gently at him. "Oh, by the way, I asked General Hammond and he gave me permission to take you off-base with me." "Okay, I'll meet you at your quarters in a half an hour," Jonas' mood lightens a bit. We leave and walk to our separate quarters.
As I walk back to my quarters, Janet stops me, "Hey, here's the medication you needed. Don't worry, no one knows about it. Please be careful with the pain meds, okay?" "Thanks, Janet, I will," I force a smile for her, "See you in a few days." I walk into to my quarters and flop down on my bed. I see a picture of Daniel on the table beside my bed. Tears well up in my eyes, blurring my vision. I open the containers of medication and take one of each. I just needed something to pull me though this series of memories. I fall asleep in tears, allowing myself to succumb to the dreams.
At the briefing, Jonas walks in with that smile that annoys Jack so much. I see through it now, as I know he can see through mine. His hand brushes my back as he walks behind me. When I glance at him, he smiles a genuine smile not the normal façade like we have plastered on our faces for the rest to see. I have got to ask him about his past, know something had to have happened in his past, but what? Hammond starts talking and I snap back to reality. Hmmm, so we are on stand-down for the next seventy-two hours? Well, that's just great, more time to fall into my depression. I have got to get some anti-depressants from Janet. Or maybe some strong pain killers. . .
"Hey Sam, are you okay? General Hammond dismissed us already." I jump as Jonas puts his hand on my arm. He smiles, a real smile, and I walk with him out of the briefing room. While walking to my lab, I ask him, "What are you doing during the stand-down?" "I'll probably go through more of the mission notes since I can't go off-base," Jonas replies. "Would you like to go off-base with me?" I ask him. I see his eyes light up at the suggestion. "Could I really? That would be great!" His enthusiasm makes me smile. "I'll ask the General." What a perfect situation to find out about his past.
I walk to Hammond's office, planning what I will say. I knock on his door. "Sir?" I ask. "Come in, Major," he replies. I hope he is in a good mood. I walk in and ask him, "Sir, permission to go off-base? I want to take Jonas with me." "You want to take Jonas?" he asks, slightly surprised. "Yes," I respond confidently. "Okay, Major, if you wish," Hammond replies, still rather perplexed. "Thank you, Sir," I say to him as I walk out to my lab to tell Jonas the good news.
As I walk up to my lab, I look though the window. I see Jonas at my desk, so I watch him for a moment. He pulls out a photograph out of him notebook he always carries. A tear slides down his cheek. I quietly slip into the lab and walk up behind him. He's normally so observant, yet he doesn't notice me. I look over his shoulder and see the photo. It is a picture of him and a thin woman, skin as pale as moonlight with eyes dark and mysterious. She has her arm around him waist, both smiling. I put my hand on Jonas' shoulder. He jumps and puts the picture back into the notebook. "Sam! Oh, um, hi?" he stutters. I pull a chair beside him and sit down. "Who's that in the photo?" I ask him. "An old friend," I see him fight back tears. The sorrow in his eyes is all too apparent. A single tear escapes his defenses. I wipe away his tear. "Her name was Jade. She was a scientist working on the Naquadria Project," he explains. "Was?" I ask him. He continues, "She was assassinated by the government after she quit the project after she found out that the Naquadria was for a bomb. The Kelownan government tried to cover up the murder by making it appear to be a gang crime." I put my arm around him in comfort. "I loved her, like Daniel loved you," he says. "At least we aren't alone in our pain, we have each other who could understand," I smile gently at him. "Oh, by the way, I asked General Hammond and he gave me permission to take you off-base with me." "Okay, I'll meet you at your quarters in a half an hour," Jonas' mood lightens a bit. We leave and walk to our separate quarters.
As I walk back to my quarters, Janet stops me, "Hey, here's the medication you needed. Don't worry, no one knows about it. Please be careful with the pain meds, okay?" "Thanks, Janet, I will," I force a smile for her, "See you in a few days." I walk into to my quarters and flop down on my bed. I see a picture of Daniel on the table beside my bed. Tears well up in my eyes, blurring my vision. I open the containers of medication and take one of each. I just needed something to pull me though this series of memories. I fall asleep in tears, allowing myself to succumb to the dreams.