Here's chapter 4
You can run, but you can hide from the past"A friend a bloody friend, I don't a bloody friend I was the person I love!" Tin Tin sobbed on to Alan's sweater as she lay on her balcony chair and reflected on what Alan had said. "He never said he didn't love me, but he never said he does either, but why I know he does. I know a lot more about him than I let on, I always open up to him let him know how I feel but he won't to me, he wont to anyone he just keeps it to himself and lets it eat away at him. But what did he mean by "I don't want to hurt you" he isn't, well he wasn't, I don't understand but one things for sure I am going to find out. I love Alan and he does love me and whatever his stupid reason for us not being together isn't good enough, but it isn't just this his behaviour has been so strange lately.
I know all his brothers and Jeff are thinking about Lucille but Alan doesn't seem to want to know or talk about her, maybe I should tell Scott I know Alan seems to look up to him.
Or Virgil, Alan seems to like Virgil for his compassion and seems to like watching him paint as if he's a reflection on what this mother was like.
John, well Alan doesn't see that much of John as they are always apart well apart from the long chats they have at night when no one is listening. They don't have much in common but Alan sees John as the calm between the storms of his other brothers and turns to him if he needs some peace and someone who will be honest with him.
Gordon, erm maybe not, Alan and him have a great time together as Alan seemed to grow up learning from his jokes and pranks and then do his own. So both enjoy each others company but I might need someone with a bit more experience with Alan's secretive side.
There is always Jeff but its no secret that Alan and Jeff aren't as close as he is to the other boys, because they are so different. Jeff didn't want Alan to become a F1 racer, more an astronaut what he does now but Alan wanted it so much and did it anyway. Also Alan got into a lot of trouble in school and didn't really achieve the best he could have like the rest of the Tracy boys, but that is one of the main thing he hates about being the youngest Tracy, being compared to his older brothers and what they have done. In one of the rare moments that Alan did open his feeling he told me how he was born to prove himself against the world, his brothers and especially to his father, and he hated it.
Tin Tin left her room certain she would get to the bottom of everything, Alan could run but he could hide, from the truth.
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"Scott are you awake I know its early but I need to talk to you its urgent "
"Tin Tin what are you doing up its 3.30 am have you being crying? Come in please, what's wrong? Are you ok?
" No its Alan" She managed to get out through broken sobs
" What? I don't understand you have spilt up haven't you? God knows why though you were made for each other"
"That's the point neither do I, what's wrong with Alan Scott, I know he loves me he can't just fall out of love just like that"
"No" Scott said trying but failing to keep the disbelief from his voice
" I don't think he meant it not really Tin Tin, I will talk to him for you I promise in the morning. Is that ok?"
" Thanks Scott I new you would help me I better let you go back to bed now" she tried to manage a small smile as he kissed her forehead.
"Night Tin Tin, wait I minute Tin Tin when did Alan end the relationship with you?"
" Well he said he had been thinking about it for a while but I don't believe him, but he told me the night you came back from the crash of the ship, night Scott"
She slipped out of the room, failing to see Scott expression on his face and the thoughts running through his mind.
"No, Alan wouldn't end their relationship because of that, but that's something else I need to talk to kiddo about, so that's Tin Tin, mum and stupid dangerous stunts" As Scott said those words his mind flashed with an idea of why Alan was acting like he was
"No it couldn't be that" but as the thoughts passed through he because to think about his other brothers. Whenever Virgil got angry or upset he always expressed it through his music and paintings, and John always looked for sensible answers being the intellectual one or help from the stars. Gordon he always was the one to actually get upset and express his emotions through tears, a bit like Virgil to, both would come to me, or dad when upset or worried. And me well have to admit I do take to flying away when stressed or upset and then a chat with dad usually settles me down, but Alan he wont speak about it he just…. blames himself? Scott began to think remember when Alan was about 13 and had dad lecturing him all night and he had caught Alan trying to run away from home again in the early hours. He promised not to tell dad if Alan admitted why he had tried to run away, but in usually Alan style he said nothing, just he needed to get away."Get away what did Alan mean that night? Away from what? What is trying to leave behind? Scott began to think harder
"When was the argument? What was it about with dad? Alan was about 13, no he wasn't he had just turned 14 I remember it was his birthday and dad is usually always so nice and never shouted at that time of year because he knew we always are missing and thinking about mum. That's why I remember the argument? Was that what Alan was trying to get away from? Scott began to worry just what Alan has been feeling all these years.************
In Chapter 5 - The past can hurtWill Scott figure out Alan's underlying problem?
Will Jeff get involved in this story? (yes, and more of John and Virgil to come)
Will Tin Tin get Alan back?
Will Alan face what he has been running from for so long?
Erm……………………….. we shall see!
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