Better Role Models Ch.6
Depression
As Evangelion Unit 01 was walking back to the Nerv complex one Gendo Ikari read over the status of the pilot's brainwaves
Shit the hormones didn't get released. They were supposed to when the evangelion goes berserk. Well doesn't matter manual release of the hormones will activate in 5 4 3 2 1 0. Gendo pushed a button under his desk and all of a sudden the walking Evangelion unit stopped in its tracks. It stood there for a few seconds no one knew what was going on because the video was cut off and the audio was damaged. But within the plug was a living hell.
"What the what's that purple stuff?" Shinji asked as a purple fluid filled the LCL. He was getting scared but the liquid started to spread around him. Finally after holding his breath he inhaled the stuff into his system. Then it hit him. A cold sensation ran up his spine. He felt his energy leave his body. He lost control of his mind. The final barrier that hid all of his horrible emotions and memories his eyes rolled into the back of his head. Shinji Ikari was a victim to the test virus OBEDIANCE.
Inside of Shinji's mind everything was being ripped apart. Remembering everything from his birth to now. All the hidden memories brought back in vivid details. Every moment of loneliness relived. His mother's death, father's abandonment, and loneliness. His dream was a nightmare. Curling up into a fetal position Shinji in his sleep relived everything over and over. The happy moments completely forgotten.
While this happened the Evangelion halted and hunched over. Gendo knew his plan was working. Still he didn't know how far he pushed his luck. The evangelion then let out a roar that broke glass. It clutched it head and fell to the ground. Convulsing uncontrollably it rolled and held its head tighter and tighter. Then on all fours started to bang its head on the ground. Repeating this several times it lost its umbilical cord. After five minutes of the evangelion rolling around and screaming everyone had to turn off the audio and video of the scene. They waited for the battery to run out. Gendo smiled. It was a success.
As they retrieved the Evangelion Ritsuko went with them. She had an idea of what happened though vague she didn't believe it. As they removed the entry plug it had purple ooze on the front of it. A small hole was directed at the pilot's location. She then saw when they opened it this Shinji was completely knocked out and started to cough up the purple liquid with a mix of LCL.
"Fuck what did Gendo do?" Ritsuko said under her breath. She rode in the ambulance to the infirmary. Shinji was admitted to a hospital room and she left. He was going to be very depressed and may even commit suicide. She of course knew because she made the virus. It more or less wasn't a virus it just made your brain think your body didn't function correctly. Then thinking near death it relived everything from the beginning to end. Then when finished restarted and the process continued. She made this for Rei the girl she despised. Still what she made was discovered and used by Gendo.
The Next Day
Shinji Ikari woke up from his nightmares. He just fell backwards onto the bed staring at the ceiling. He felt weak and pathetic overall. Still the memories fresh in his mind he winced. Still feeling depressed he looked around. He then started to cry. Something that Shinji hadn't done in a while. He cried for his mother and father. Crying for all the sorrows he lived through. Then falling back asleep he lived through it again.
"So where is he going to stay?" Misato asked Ritsuko.
"By himself in the same apartment complex as the first child why?" Ritsuko answered she knew that he needed help but who. Who could be there to support him? She was desperately searching through files and employees for someone who would take him in. Then it hit her that it was she or the person next to her.
"He is living by himself at his age? Come on why not with his father?" Misato ranted. Ritsuko then shot her a glance telling her to not cross that line.
"Why you can take him in. Come on if you care so much why not do it?" Ritsuko laughed half-heartedly.
"Well fine I will then." Misato said she needed someone to clean up for her. The apartment was a mess and maybe she could us the new child to her benefit. She then marched off to the hospital room to see if he was awake.
"Where did he go?" Misato asked as she peered into the room. The bed was empty. She paced around the room and hallways to see where he could be. She then noticed that the blankets were missing from the bed. She looked out of the window to catch the storm clouds arriving. It was going to rain and hard.
Why would he take blankets with him? Misato thought as she walked around asking. Arriving at the front desk she asked. The nurse said that he was on the roof. She continued not knowing what was wrong with the disturbed young man. As she walked up the stairs she could feel a vibration through the wall. It shook a little hardly noticeable but as you continued upwards it got stronger. She thought it was the drops of the rain at first but she reached the door and felt like the building was shacking. She opened the door and looked out.
Outside she heard low grunt. She looked closely and saw a whole bunch of pipes popping out of the roof. She then saw a trace of white on one of the pipes. It then vibrated followed by a grunt. Someone was punching the steel pipe. And that thing was thick like a fricken pillar.
Who the hell? No wait that's Shinji. Misato said the darkness of the storm had arrived a while ago and it started to rain. She just watched, as she knew not to approach she felt a strange aura of anger and sorrow.
Shinji's Perspective
That bastard. Killing is all he does. I hate my life. What can I do? Nothing I am worthless. Shinji continued musing as he flung every punch with such force that the pillar vibrated he was letting out his frustration. He continued punching and then tried some kicking on the steal pipe. There were some smaller pipes but with the emotions he had he just had to punch something that could take a beating. It then started to rain. He only in the underwear that the hospital gave him grew cold. Still not caring he continued. His knuckles feeling pulverized and every bone in his body wanted to give up. But Shinji's mind was a different matter. Not sensing the cold or the pain it continued to work off the excess emotions. Again and again he punched the pipe. The rain wasn't helping. The cold water ran down his back and matted his hair. It got in his eyes and blurred his vision. He still took no notice. His thoughts getting more dangerous with every punch.
I HATE HIM. WHY THE HELL DOES HE WANT WITH ME. SENDING CHILDREN OUT TO DO HIS WORK. HE DESERVES TO DIE. MOTHERS DEAD SHE IS GONE FOREVER. I HAVE NOTHING LEFT. I WILL KILL HIM. Shinji's mind thought in chaos after thinking this over he did a roundhouse kick. The bar bent over to the side from the impact. Shinji finally fell to the ground feeling all the energy lost from his body. All the damage he did to his body now was aware to him. His knuckles were white from the pressure he continued to put on them. His shin was bruised or would be. He heard a voice but didn't care he wanted to die. His vision blurry he fell asleep.
"SHINJI!" Misato screamed. She picked him up and ran him down to his room. She had to take care of this one. He could be very dangerous.
OK for all the people who can't remember what happened in previous chapters well then listen up. I know that I hate demi-god characters and I will not create one. Also that Shinji in this fic will keep his own personal identity. For all the people who bitched and moaned about it. Just wanted to make it clear ok. Plus I always end on a bad note for some reason. So as long as you keep on getting stumped or angry at the fic read chapters before or wait for the next chapter ok.