Disclaimer: I own them not…well… actually, I own April's family… and Jen owns April (cause she is April).

AN: Argh. I am depressed. This chapter will probably be depressive. Oh well. It's not that I'm losing my enthusiasm for the story or anything (I still love it!), it's just being sick is getting me down (hinthint Jen!)…

Okay, not many people (if any) got the whole 'I quite like Jorven' thing at the end of the last chapter. It's basically April saying "This is the middle name I suggest". It was for REMUS! Not Lily!

Little Eagle

"Come on," James took Lily's hand as they walked slowly down to the Great Hall. "We don't want to miss dinner."

"I don't care." Lily said, her voice flat.

"You have to eat!" James said firmly. "Otherwise you'll waste away and die."

"So?"

"Lily!" James gasped. "Don't say such awful things!"

"What things?" Sirius and Remus had come up behind them, and both looked concerned.
"Can I talk to you for a moment please Lily?" Remus asked, with an edge to his voice.

"Whatever." Lily shrugged. She followed Remus wordlessly.

"Lily, I never thought you could be so selfish." Remus snarled as soon as they were about a hundred metres away for James and Sirius. Lily was flabbergasted.

"Me? Selfish?" She spluttered. "How have I been selfish?"

"Yes you." Remus was scowling. "This has been hard on the rest of us as well. You weren't the only one who was friends with April."

Lily had nothing to say to that.

"Snap out of it," Remus continued, "James is suffering as well, but he has to take care of you now. He has to coax you to do everything. He can't cope with what he's feeling properly, because he has to cope with what you're feeling as well. Do you know why he's been looking so tired these last few nights?"

"No." Lily admitted.

"It's because he has been sitting up beside you every night, to make sure you don't have nightmares." Remus sighed. "Sirius and I try and make sure he gets at least an hour of sleep."

"It's not the same for him!" Lily said desperately. "It's not the same for any of you!"

"Isn't it?" Remus looked like he was about to slap her. "I loved her Lily. I may only have been dating her for two months, but I loved her."

"So. You'll find someone else, probably within the next hour or so, knowing you."

"Is that what you really think?" Remus stalked off, after giving Lily the most icebergy look she'd every seen. He said something to Sirius and James, and Sirius glared openly at Lily, making her feel even worse. James said something to Remus, and Remus shrugged. Sirius laughed nastily, and said something. James was immediately on the defensive, and at one point Lily distinctly heard him say; "You're both wrong! She's just upset!" Lily bit her lip, and walked away.

I will not cry, she told herself. I will not cry.

You know you were wrong. The traitorous thought slipped into her head. It means as much to all of them.

Shut up! Lily raged, knowing she had been in the wrong, but hating it.

"Lily!" James was running along behind her, and he caught her arm.

"James…" Lily spun around and grabbed his arm. "You don't think I'm a bitch do you?"

"Well, what you said to Remus was a bit bitchy-" James started.

"You do think I'm a bitch!" Lily cried, then ran off. James stared after her.

"No." He said softly, "I could never think you're a bitch. I love you too much."

Gah. I'm sorry it's so short! But hey, I wanted to post something, and it was the right place to end…

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